waiting~~~~

waiting for my pay~~~
it has been delayed for more than a month already... T_T
i wanted to buy my family dinner with the salary,
i wanted to buy anniversary present for my dear,
i wanted to buy a new phone,
i wanted to go for vacation,
but i couldn't afford all those things without the salary...... =(
salary ah salary, you will really comes to me oneday de right? *praying*
still waiting.........

again, Pls....

i stepped back and remain silence,
does not mean that you can cross the line,
hiding something is worst than telling lies u know......

Dream house

i used to say that there must be a nice, romantic bar corner in my dream house,
now, i would like to add one more thing keke.....
a moderately spacious room,
with wooden floor,
good stereo system,
air-conditioned, good lighting,
and most important thing, is that one of the wall of the room,
covered with a LARGE mirror, its a MUST~~~ hehe
if u know me well, most probably u'll know why im craving for such room,
its for me to do things i Love whenever i feel like want to do it,
awww..... it will be good if the dream comes true,
just perfect ;)

Can't Let Go

this is my favourate song recently because of its lyric




I want the end to begin but not without you
so easy for me to speak not complete my actions
divide me that way I can love and hate you baby
torn between staying or keeping you with me, I can't let go
this love is so dysfunctional, it leaves me so emotional,
can't take it anymore but i can't let, can't let, can't let, i can't let go
i try my hardest to break free,
im so locked up and you got the key,
im in way too deep and i cant let, cant let, cant let, i cant let go oh no
cant let go oh no
was sold but i regret the day that we met
didnt know that i could hate someone that i love
i fell in too far and now im drowning, save me
i want to leave you but my heart's saying i cant let go
this love is so dysfunctional, it leaves me so emotional,
can't take it anymore but i can't let, can't let, can't let, i can't let go
i try my hardest to break free,
im so locked up and you got the key,
im in way too deep and i cant let, cant let, cant let, i cant let go oh no
cant let go oh no
no matter how hard i may try, it just wont die,
the many memories haunt my mind, i cant understand why,
i still hold on, what went wrong,
tell me is it my fault,
i need to know dont wanna guess anymore,
i know i should leave you alone but i just cant let go

Nearmiss

sweat~~~~
was ready to give up dy,
was really considered all the consequences,
was ready to let it go and set free,
was trying to stop approaching, end the tiring initiation,
was giving away to ppl who think tat they owned it......
still, i couldn't,
i couldn't bear loosing it,
i cant bear giving it away,
tho i do envy and wonder y it works so well on others.....
phew~~ thank god for the emergency brake,
to prevent me from doing the silly thing..

Seriously No More?!

wau...its important to keep ourselve up-to-date from time to time
haven dine in TGI for a period dy,
so today we went there to celebrate my fren's bday;
i "flipped" the menu again, again, and again....
ei?! where is the 39.90+ three course meal??
OMG~~~ it is not available already...... =(

me myself dont mind to spent for foods lar,
but it might be quite expensive for the others....
and we tot that v can share among ourselves for the three course meal cuz the portion is a lil big,
but its NOT available dy.....
opps, sorry peeps ;p
hope you all dont mind tat, its for bday celebration afterall, just once in a while only rite

i Knew It!!!

the last semester starts today
im not excited at all, somehow i hate it, lolz
personal reason, not about studying....

tried to accept with open-mind,
but again, i just CANT~~~
im human also, human sure got feeling, nope i should say like this:
even animal also got feeling 1...

frust....... should i let go??

Babee What If

have u heard about these song? "What if" and "Perfect Nightmare"?
im sure u do if u listen to eng fm;
im kinda loving the songs recently, yah its quite emotional,
but i reli love the lyrics;
some songs are best singing out-loud, especially when the sentences are not so suitable for normal conversation...

whenever there is something between us, the lyric of "perfect nightmare" will automatically appears in my mind;
whenever i fell disheartened, whenever i fell exhausted.....
but then again, i remembered one of the conversations between me and my best fren:
it was after i left somebody and determined to go look for what so-called Love;
my fren, he told me tat "love brings the sweetest things to life, but it oso comes with the greatest hurt, and there is difference between loved and be loved, if loved is wat u looking for, then u must prepare for all the sweets and bitters"


What if.... tis is another thing tat appears in my mind frequently
i always wondering, *hehe pardon me* =p
i think tat he is the kind of person who likes big group, frens are utterly important to him,
i knew its silly, still, i'll wonder wats the difference of friend and lover to him,
what if i left? will it affect or make a difference to him? or its just nothing....
seriously idk, its easy for him to guess my mind, but i reli cant read his, irdk at all..

anyway,
yeah, we cant tell the future,
what we can do is to appreciate the time being, and not takes things for granted;
no one is perfect, but im trying my best =)

Brand New Year

1st day of year 2011 ;)
its time to start all over again,
new year, new life, new template,
and a refreshed mind =)

from now onwards, i'll just write everything in my mind here,
here will be the platform where people can know me more,
it is more direct and it shows the real me;
im doin so cuz i found out that knowing someone from his/her fren is quite subjective,
people tends to add on their opinion and thinking when discussing someone else;

anyway, i wonder how many ppl will actually access here to read all my craps, hehe =p