Monday, October 29, 2007 . 3:07 PM

Broken ~ Lifehouse

The broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow
From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out
I'm falling apartI'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you
The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life
I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
Is the healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you
I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I willI will be okay
Broken lights on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
Haven't forgotten my way home
I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

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Sunday, October 28, 2007 . 11:51 PM

how long have I been in this storm
so overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
water's getting harder to tread
with these waves crashing over my head
if I could just see you
everything will be alright
if I'd see you
the storminess will turn to light
and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and everything will be alright
I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
so why am I 10 feet under and upside down
barely surviving has become my purpose
cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface
if I could just see you everything will be alright
if I see you the storminess will turn to light
and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
and I will walk on water you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
I know everything is alright everything's alright

Storm ~ Lifehouse

Tuesday, October 23, 2007 . 12:21 PM

Finally handed in my midterm exam paper for A437.
I'm so tired.
I sat at the same spot for 2 days just writing this paper.
Sadly, I don't think I'm going to do too well on it either just cos' it's not in depth enough.
*SIGH* Really need to get such things started earlier. =P

I can't wait to sleep tonight. =D Good long rest....is what I really need at the moment.
Unfortunately, I need to push through 3 more classes before I can get there. *bleah*

I realized something bad about my apartment.
The maintenance people come in and out of my place pretty often to check stuff.
If I don't open the door for them, they would just open it themselves.
Kinda freaky.
Can you imagine if one day I walked out of my bathroom and I see some big american dude standing in my living room.
I swear I'd be completely freaked out.
Not good not good.

Good news!!! I did pretty decently for my BIG exam...(The A312 one I mentioned before)
Pretty relieved.
Unfortunately, haven't done well for the rest of my classes.
Really need to pull up my socks before it's too late.

Only 1 and 1/2 semesters of school left.
*sigh* Time flies.
I never thought I'd reach this point so fast.
Kinda scared to start a whole new life again.
Go into the unexpected.
Life's just like that....when I left Singapore 4 years ago, it was a whole new beginning for me.
I thought I knew what my future was... I thought I had it all planned out.
But life's just too unexpecting and now....my future's just a blurred distance that I'm not sure of.

Oh wellz....

Sunday, October 21, 2007 . 12:55 AM

So last night I applied for graduation.

Can't believe next semester is my LAST one in IU.
Finally... after 4 gruelling years at IU. My time's almost up.
On to greater heights we go!..........
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"The Holiday" has been playing on STARZ. I usually leave it on since I like the show so much. Watched it like quite a lot of times since the day I found it on TV. I don't believe that love can come so easily but it's a nice fairy tale thought to dream and wish about. =) This is my favourite part:

Guy: "Why do i always fall for someone I know isn't good for me?"

Girl: "I happen to know the answer to this. Because you're hoping you're wrong. And everytime she does something that's no good you ignore it and everytime she comes through and surprises you she wins you over and you lose that argument with yourself that she's not good for you."

Heehee. I thought it made quite a lot of sense actually. One of those meaningful moments which stands out.

In any case, I just like the whole storyline. It's pretty sweet! =D Makes me feel like running off to London. hee.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007 . 10:56 PM

Was just watching covenant.
I love it.
Watched it with Dave last time.
Borrowed it from blockbuster!
It was super duper good watching it on his nice HDTV.
Hahahaha...

Thus, I decided, I'm going to record it on my TV so I will always have a copy to watch! =D

Had art exam today.....
I'm glad it's over.

I realized this semester, every week I have either a paper due or exam.
Every weekend I have to study.
REALLY sucks.
I just REALLY want to slack for one whole weekend.
BADLY.

Oh wellz.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007 . 3:31 PM

Felt a little nostalgic so I decided to read my archives for blogspot.
I know my memory is bad so having archives really helps me alot in remembering things.

Kinda made me realize alot of things to.

About 3 years ago, I had a very very special friend.
We only became close after JC and my first summer break in Singapore, we went out every week. We had weekly movie nights and lots of dinners together.
We watched TONS of movies together and had a million over conversations with each other about life in general.
Every break I had in Singapore, we never failed to spend quality time together.
When I was down, that friend was always there to pick me up.
My friend was there for me, no matter what I did to that person.
I could have been the GREATEST ass on earth, and my special friend would always still treat me nice and take care of me and help me through everything.

Despite all that, I never treasured this friend of mine.
I always played my friend out even though my friend would go through great lengths to spend time with me.
I never took time to care for my friend and even when my friend came to visit me, I didn't spend time with my friend. But my friend never complained, my friend never scolded me for what I did. My friend took it all and put up with me. My friend never talked bad about me and never complained to anyone no matter what I did.

Three years later, I see how much I've done and the mistakes I've made to cause all the hurt and pain. I was truly a horrible friend and I don't deserve to be so lucky to have someone like that in my life.

Things changed and now, our friendship has such huge cracks on it, it will never be the same again. Once it's broken, it can't be fixed. But I've learned. The very hard way. It is true that once you lose something, you will only treasure it more. I hope one day, maybe a couple of years down the road, my friend would be able to forgive what I've done and the shit I made this friend go through. I hope one day..... we will be friends once again cos' no one can replace this special friend of mine. A friend I can talk to about everything, a friend whom I could trust.

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Sunday, October 14, 2007 . 1:43 PM

So, my big exam's over.
Not feeling great about it but it's kinda relieving to get it over and done with.
I just hope i do ALRIGHT. Don't need to do well...alright would be good. =)

Next up! Art exam on Wednesday!
I'm pretty glad this week isn't going to be a very stressful one.
I have less 1 class this week that means less homework to be done. *phew*....

Very soon I need to start registering for class. Haven't really thought of which classes to take.
I need to take 4 elective classes just to fill up credits. *bleah*

What a waste of time.
I'm just glad I'm almost at the finish line.

Monday, October 08, 2007 . 12:17 AM

So next weekend, I have the biggest exam EVER.
Intermediate financial accounting II.

I only have 2 exams for this class so it's literally make it or break it.
If I don't do well, I don't need to graduate this May.
*sob*
It's a 4 hour paper to top things off.

*cross fingers* I hope I get through this....... I need to get through this.......

Friday, October 05, 2007 . 2:04 AM

The thing about addiction is, it never ends well. Cos' eventually whatever that was getting us high, stops feeling good and starts to hurt.
Still they say you don't kick the habit till u hit rock bottom. But how will u know when u're there? Cos no matter how badly the thing is hurting us, sometimes letting it go hurts even worse.