Wednesday, June 30, 2004 . 4:41 AM

I just woke up.
After sending Roland off, I slept till now.
So tired.
I'm just catching up with all the lack of sleep over the past 10 days.

Going to watch spiderman 2 with David later.
Can't wait!
I love spiderman. I watched the first show like a few times.
In fact, I think I've gotten roped into the marvel superhero movies.
The recent ones have been good.
I rather all these than stupid batman.
Hate batman! I think it might be due to the ugly outfit.
Not too sure.

Anyway! Here are some photos of Ro's stay.

Many nemos!!!


Roland....acting spastic...as usual...


Roland's favourite.... I have tons of merlion photos...


Us at Sentosa!

I miss my daily routine for the past 10 days! I WANNA GO HONGKONG!!!!!!

I can't wait to start bumming again!!!
Orchard Road!!! Here I come!!!
Hahahahahahaha...

Tuesday, June 29, 2004 . 6:56 PM

The end of my 10 days is here.
The past few days have been fun.
I totally enjoyed running around like a tourist in my own country.

*sigh* Can't believe he's going back to HK!
Can't believe I have no main source of entertainment.
I've decided to quit my job and rest and relax the rest of the holiday till I leave again.
My parents think I should spend more time with my friends and family cos' I won't be seeing everyone for a year or so more.
I wanna go learn golf!
I wanna train!
I miss bowling...

But at the same time, being so idle may not be too good for me.
I hope my last 1 and 1/2 months will be good.
Kinda looking forward to going back Btown again too.
So many things to do.
So little time....

Saturday, June 26, 2004 . 6:42 AM

I feel like I'm constantly running out of time.

At David's now.
The guys are all playing mahjong.

Bad mahjong day though.

Thursday, June 24, 2004 . 8:41 PM

Went to the night safari last night.
Pretty cool.
Haven't been there in ages.
The tram ride was so cool. haha.
The animals were like SO damn close to us.
Think Roland was scared.
Hahahahahaha.

Oh well!
I'm waiting for him to bathe.
Then we're going to David's place in the afternoon for our first mahjong session against each other.
How cool.

Think it's going to rain today.
Skies don't look too good.
Luckily we're not going Sentosa or anything of that sort.
Heh.

So tired.....

Wednesday, June 23, 2004 . 8:02 PM

Some times I wish my mum could just be a little more understanding.
She talks as if I've been staying out late since I came home.
The selfish love of a mother.

Yesterday was pretty good.
Walked around town.
Eat.
Shop.
Didn't go to the zoo cos' the weather looked rather threatening.
At night, we had dinner at David's.
Watched love actually.
World Idol.

I'm a lousy tour guide.

Tuesday, June 22, 2004 . 7:59 PM

Sleepy....very sleepy.
I've been up and about from 9.30am to 1.00am for the past two days.
Just so damn tired now.

Yesterday I went to Roland's room in the morning with the intention of bringing him to the zoo.
Unfortunately, we were both too lazy to move.
Darryl called so we went to meet him and Mira.
Went about with them and in the end, we went back to his house for a tour.
His house is not really a house. It's more of a building.
Hugeeeeeeee house.
So big that he needs a lift in the house.
Amazing.
I'd probably get lost if I walked around alone.
We had dinner with his family.
I think his sister's very nice. haha.
In fact, I think he has a nice family.

I had bad cramps so David came to pick me up and brought me home to take medicine.
After that I went to David's to rest and relax till the pain subsides.
Roland came over soon after and both of them played pool.
I just slept...watched tv...roll in pain...
Hopefully today will be better.
Think we're going to the zoo.
Yes. Zoo.
I have no idea where to bring him.
Not as if Hong Kong is very different or anything.

*sigh* Another long day ahead!

Sunday, June 20, 2004 . 6:58 PM

Yes!
The start of my nice 1 & 1/2 weeks of leave!
So happy but at the same time I feel bad.
My parents think I should just quit my job and go out with my friends everyday. (like Belle and Jie!)
hahaha.
Sounds so tempting but they make sense.
Cel is coming back in July...so I'll definitely want to spend time with her.
Then I might even be able to go to Aussie to see Amy!
But I'll be guilt striken forever cos' the manager wouldn't be too happy that I wanna leave.
Sooooo.....I'm stuck.
As usual.

Roland's arriving today!
Gotta go pick him up at the airport.
Haha.
So exciting.

Saturday, June 19, 2004 . 9:19 PM

Friends come and go,
But family stays the same forever.
I don't know why.
I can't seem to stay angry with a person for long.
Whether it's a friend or my family.
After a good night's rest, I feel so much more at peace.
I think to love is soooo much easier than to hate.
That's the greatest gift God has given to us!

Tomorrow's Father's Day.
Hee.
I was born on father's day.
(thus the daddy's little girl image)
I was never really close to my dad.
But recently, I realised that though he's so grumpy and moody at times and he hardly talks, he loves me sooooooo much it's impossible to put it all into words.
He's a very special person.
And I'm so blessed and "well-loved".
Though at times I seem like I don't care, but more often than not, seeing him happy does matter. alot.
And even though my dad doesn't read this,
Happy Father's Day! Heehee.

I just received my birthday present from US.
Haha. Quite shocked that guys know how to knit.
Not a very manly statement but still! It's great.
Thanks....for everything...

DAVID!! I'm so proud of us! We got to EUNOS! In less than an hour! Record!!!! Hahaha. We're getting better!! A few more car rides and we'll know the whole of Singapore? hahaha. Maybe not.....

Friday, June 18, 2004 . 6:27 AM

My gosh.
I swear I'm pmsing.
Yesterday I was so miserable and all I wanted to do was quit my job.
Today, everything's fine.

I went around in the morning and did office work for the rest of the day.
I realised that though the organization of the company is not good, the people there are actually nice.
And since I've gotten used to the environment, it's even harder for me to quit.
Thus, though the pay is not sufficient for me to survive, I am not quitting.

I'm so glad the weekend is here!
Tomorrow's as usual....mahjong day for me.
Probably go shopping for awhile in the morning.
Though I really hate shopping on Saturdays.

Everyone's coming home next week.
Except for Amy Han Hui Ying.
Stupid girl.
Ughhhhhh. I don't know when's the next time we'll meet.
Feels like I haven't seen her for years.
So sad...

Today, I'm happy! =)
My mood swings are rather bad though.
Hahahahahaha....

Thursday, June 17, 2004 . 6:53 PM

I miss......

bumming around at home.
shopping.
watching tv.
meeting my BELLE and JIE.
bowling. (x10)
going to the club.
hanging out with friends.
going to janice's place to rest and relax.

Ughhhh.....I wanna bum..... I'm so tired.
Just got home from dinner.
Work was bad today.
Really pissed off with the way the office works.

The whole morning I just spent it calling clinics twice each because they were unable to give clear instructions. After that, I had to go around Singapore getting watsons' managers to sign a piece of paper.
Didn't have lunch.
So much time was wasted.
And for nothing.

Kinda tempted to just quit and enjoy the rest of my holidays but I feel so bad quitting my aunty's company.
Ugh. so confused.

My brother just came back.
Kinda happy yet at times, he drives me up the wall.
Really tests my patience.

Can't wait for next week.
Can finally take leave and act like a tourist!
heehee....
It's been so long..... Can't believe you're coming! hahaha. so exciting!

Just received Lynn's prezzie!!!!! She's a real sweetie! heehee. Though she probably won't read this, thanks dear! hee.

Wednesday, June 16, 2004 . 7:12 PM

I've been so busy.
No time to blog.

Yesterday was my birthday.
Went to work for awhile then I took half day to go for my aunty's funeral.
It was pretty fast.
First time I see a burial.
After that I came home to sleep.
In the evening I met Kenn and David.
While waiting for David, I think the both of us walked up and down suntec two times.
Haha. Quite funny.
David came, Kenn left.
We went to Marina Sq to watch punisher.
Before that we had dinner at some sushi place at esplanade.
Pretty nice place.
Punisher was so sad..
In the end, everyone's just dead.
I was so sad when they wiped out his whole family in like less than a minute.
Like as if killing people is so easy.

Anyway, I gotta go eat my breakfast and get ready for work.

I had this funny dream last night.
Haha... Oh well. Don't know why I dream so much.
My sleep's being badly disrupted.

Monday, June 14, 2004 . 5:53 AM

My aunty has finally passed away.
Kinda sad but at the same time glad that she's out of all the pain.
Unfortunately, her funeral's on my birthday.
*sigh* Luckily I had no prior plans.

Today I woke up feeling like shit.
Decided not to go work.
Slept the whole morning.
Woke up, at lunch, and went to the wake.
Came back, slept the whole afternoon.
Now I just woke up again to have dinner and go to the wake again.
I think my body's reach its lowest the past few days.
Now it's doing all the resting its supposed to have over the past week.
I've reached a point where my muscles just don't have strength to move.
Holding a phone takes a lot of energy.
Oh well. Luckily I got to rest today.
Think tomorrow I should feel much better.

Going off for dinner.

Hope you're studying hard! Only a few more days!!! Jia you! *smilez*

Sunday, June 13, 2004 . 7:12 AM

Sometimes I really don't understand why other people's personal lives intrigue people so much.
It seems to be the only interesting topic that can hold up a conversation between two people.
I think "kaypo" is the only word to describe this.
Like as if my love life should be of concern to someone I hardly talk to.
Geeez.

Today I did the dumbest thing ever.
I was resting on my bed.
Then I realised that my aircon was blowing right into my face.
Thus, I decided to move my furniture around.
After switching the positions of my bed and desk,
I realised that the place where my bed used to be and my desk was moved to, HAS NO LIGHTS.
ugh.
So....I had to move my desk back.
But I still changed the position of my bed.
Hahaha. But still...that was a dumb move.

Thanks AGAIN David.... I owe u like...a million....

I have heard good news today.
Now at least I have something to look forward to.
Working doesn't sound so bad now.

I miss AMY HAN HUI YING!
*sigh*.......... Hope she's doing well.....

Saturday, June 12, 2004 . 9:03 PM

Yesterday I played mahjong for 11 hours.
Record.
My sitting power is pretty good.
My back started aching by the last round.
In the end, I earned $25.
Bad investment.
Lousy returns.
But it was fun.
My grandma though very old...is still very good.

I need to see a doctor....

Friday, June 11, 2004 . 8:36 PM

Yesterday was a really long day.
Started work at 9am.
Ended at 6.20pm.
They kept me pretty busy throughout the day.

At night, we had BBQ at Dave's.
The guys cooked.
Chris is pretty good.
Haha. But his chickens were all slightly uncooked.

After that we played mahjong.
Won $2.
But didn't bother taking it in the end.

Thanks David for the cake!

I think I've come to peace.

Today I'm going to see my aunty.
Apparently the cancer is visible now.
My dad says she won't last for more than a week.
But who knows!
The will to live is strong.
After that I'm going to play mahjong with my aunties and grandma!!
Finally...my Saturday is here.
My long awaited break!!
I'm so happy....

Thursday, June 10, 2004 . 4:29 AM

Finally.
I end work early.
Kinda happy but yet at the same time I'm too tired to feel happy.
Today I went around again correcting all the magazines at all the watsons and guardians.
Everyone kept thinking I was working for watsons.
Don't understand why.
I'm not wearing the nice purple shirt!!!
I'm so tired...I feel so moody.
Just don't wanna talk to anyone now.
I feel like it takes more effort to be happy and smile 24/7 after a long day's work.
My poor husband.
hahaha. Can't imagine what I'd be like next time.

David has been the greatest person on earth!!!
I think I've thanked him more than like 30 times in the past week.
Don't know what I'd do without him!!! *grin*
Thank you!!!!

I'm always doing the dumbest things.
Today, I thought I left my ezlink card at home so I had to buy a new one.
Like afew hours later, I found another one in the bag.
Dumbdumb.
Just wasted 15 bucks!
Thus, I've decided, since I have so many ezlink cards and so much money in them,
I might as well use them.
I've been doing alot of bus taking, mrt taking and walking. Hehe.
Doesn't sound like Boo.
But yes! It's true... the old "i-take-cab-wherever-i-go" Boo is hopefully...(for now)...GONE!
I only take it when I am not sure which bus to take or if there's no MRT station around. (Or if David's in camp) Heehee....*grin*
Can't wait to tell Janice when she comes back.
I think this is the effect of having to earn your own money.
You wouldn't wanna waste all your hard earned money on cab drivers.
I have better things to save up for!

Can't wait for my birthday!!!
My plan is to go giordano cos' it's special discount for birthday people!
Hahaha. So exciting!
I need to get more jeans man...stock up for my years ahead in Btown.

Talking about Btown...I miss Lynn!!! (and of course you as well.) *evil laughter*

Wednesday, June 09, 2004 . 12:13 PM

Just came back from David's place.
Shit man...I worked from 9am to 9pm today.
Not inclusive of the work I brought home.
I can't believe it.
Working is really tough...
I was on the verge of giving up today.
I did 753 magazines and visited many many watsons and guardians.
I swear I'm sick of them.
Didn't make things better being sick and it raining the whole day.
Tomorrow's another long and dreadful day...
I can't wait for tomorrow to be over!
Then the torture would be over.
And maybe I'd be able to start on marketing!
Oh yesh!! I'm a marketing trainee..
I'm pretty lucky.
I not only get a job, but I get to learn something from it.
Though it's rather scary trying to sell things to doctors...
but it'll definitely be good for me.

*sigh sigh sigh*.......

Tuesday, June 08, 2004 . 10:12 AM

I'm so pissed off with the stupid taxi drivers in Singapore.
I waited 20mins for a damn cab.
About 20 EMPTY cabs drove by and refuse to pick me up.
Why?
Cos' they're all waiting for 'ON-CALL'.
As if picking me up won't earn them money.
No wonder they are cab drivers!
I really have nothing to say.
The best part is that some inconsiderate woman stood further up to get a cab after I waited 15mins for a cab.
So if I even were to get a cab, it would be after her.
Inconsiderate nature of Singaporeans.
I don't understand why.
Why is it so hard for them to be a little more considerate, a little more courteous?
Is it so hard not to cut other people's queue and just wait for their turn?
Is it so hard not to just rush into lifts and let the people who were waiting there longer than you go in first?
After living in Bloomington and coming back here,
I can really feel the difference in nature.
Lets just say, yellow boxes are not necessary in Btown.
Even with yellow boxes here, people are still unable to turn out of the roads!
Ughhh!!!!! This is the pushing factor of why my cousin doesn't wanna come back to Singapore to work.

On a lighter and less pissed off mode,
today was my first day at work.
It was alright.
Looking forward to tomorrow.
Though, I'm still feeling really under the weather.
I can't wait to see wat's installed for me!
And I just realised it's not a 9 to 5 job. It's more of a 9 to 7 one.
Thus, I might...if I'm lucky...be able to hit my 1000 bucks a month target!
*cross fingers*
Tired.... especially after not getting a cab, and having to take mrt, bus and walk back home....*bleah*
Stupid taxi drivers got me into a bad mood.

Monday, June 07, 2004 . 5:45 AM

I'm sick.
And it's getting worse.

Couldn't go shopping with my mum today.
So sad.
Stayed at home to rest.
Gonna go bowling with madam's son and David soon though.

Had a nice long talk with Ro today. =)
Hope he's coming to Singapore!!! *cross fingers*

I hope I get better soon.
Need to start working!!!
My money's depleting at a rapid rate!
There's only out flows. I need in flows man!
*grin* Can't depend on mahjong only right? Heehee...

Sunday, June 06, 2004 . 11:35 AM

If only it was that simple... I'm sorry.... I wish I knew how I feel myself.....

Just got home from my father's friend's place.
Pretty interesting to sit there and hear a bunch of 50 plus year old men talk.
They touched on all aspects of life.
It was fun though I was dead tired.

I went clubbing last night.
At Cheeky Monkey's.
It was packed.
Crazy.
The dance floor was so packed there was hardly any space to move.
And it was such a hassle to order drinks.
Clubbing in Singapore wastes alot of time.
One hour to enter, at least 10 mins to get a drink.
I had to look for the tequila girl for mine.
That was worse!

I left early cos I had church in the morning.
Went to see my aunty after church.
She looked much better but she's suffering so much inside she just wants to go.
So sad to see her like that.

Met Glenda after that.
We watched a movie.
Had dinner!
Finally...for the FIRST TIME! I was allowed to pay for her movie and dinner.
Haha.
I totally enjoyed the time spent with her.
All the gossips!
Haha. My mei rocks! *wink*
We wanna go HK next holiday.
Hopefully I can come back to Singapore and we can go together with Amy.
*cross fingers*

Starting work on Tuesday.
Part of me is looking forward to it.
Part of me is dreading the fact that I'll be tied down with a job for the rest of my holiday.
I hope the job's interesting.....

Friday, June 04, 2004 . 8:39 PM

We won second for team.
I'm a little embarrassed to go for prize presentation though.
Didn't exactly help my team that much.

I am sick.
Ugh.
And it's getting worse.
And tonight I still have to go clubbing.
Don't know if I can take it.
I need rest...

Yesterday was so fun hanging out with Twee and Brad again.
I almost forgot about all our sex-over-dinner talks.
It's hilarious.
I realised something though.
All I ever do when I meet them is eat.
Eat, eat, eat, eat...
From Bloomington to Singapore.
And we're still doing it.
Now I know why I put on weight!

Thursday, June 03, 2004 . 11:17 PM

Waiting for Brad to come.
He's bringing lunch then we'll head over to Twee's place!
So exciting.
I miss those Bloomington hang-out days.

Tomorrow Twee wants to go hip-hop clubbing.
Hopefully I'll get to meet Wei hua and Ferris too!
Then it'll be like brewinkle days. (hope i spelt it correctly)
So funny.
They're the people I first went clubbing with in US.
Crazy nights.

*It's so funny how we set qualifications for the right person to love, while at the back of our minds we know that the person we truly love will always be an exception.*
I've always live by this saying cos' it's soooo true.
But, wat happens when you start to remember what you really want out of a person and realise it's totally not in the one you love?
Do you carry on or do you turn away?
*sigh*.
I concluded.
I need training.
Bowled like shit once again.
Heck it.

So tired.
This morning I went to see my aunty.
So sad to see her in the last stages of her life.
But it's good she's going back to God soon.
I just pray that she leaves with a peaceful heart.

Life's so unpredictable.
Who knows when u'll die?
No one can tell when.
This is not the last destination.
Death has a plan.
But I doubt it's THAT easy to figure out.
I guess this is why we're constantly taking risks.
Our lives are all about risks.
Every single thing we do has a certain level of risk attached to it.
Then why are we always so scared of taking risks?
Why are we so scared of dying when death is inevitable?
Ok. I'm rambling....*bleah*

I'm sorry I haven't been there for you.....
Hope your days will get better as the summer ends.

Wednesday, June 02, 2004 . 9:28 AM

Just got back from bowling.
Ugh. Bowled like shit once again.
Kinda lost watever confidence I had before.
I hope I'll get it back soon though.

My mind's a mess.
So is my heart.
I wish I knew why I'm feeling this way but somehow I feel so trapped and I feel like I can't breathe properly.
Not that I'm trapped in my situation, but I don't know why I'm feeling like this.
Frustration.
I just need to think!!! and figure out my life for myself....

Tuesday, June 01, 2004 . 10:42 AM

Just came back from dinner with Brad.
Bowled like shit today.
As always.
But what can i do.
I didn't train.
Why should I still expect so much?
Dingdong!!!
Had roti prata with Brad.
We had a nice long talk and he really made me think.
I wish I knew what I wanted out of life.
I think I'm at this stage of my life where alot of changes are occurring and I seriously don't know which route i'm gonna take in the future.
Think I've made mistakes and it's hard to turn back the clock.
Kinda wish God had opened my eyes earlier.
Ugh. I'm one heck of a confused girl.
Should I use my head to think or my heart?
I don't know... Janice's birthday today!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR!!!
Hope you liked the not so surprising surprise. hahaha.
I'm so dead tired.
Need to sleep...
Gotta bowl later on.
Don't know if I can summon enough energy to bowl.
Met Jojo today! Soooo much to catch up with her that we just don't have enough time to talk about everything. hahaha. Oh well.
We found out how much a pair of diamond earrings cost.
Didn't realise diamonds cost so much.
This kinda made me think....

Can money buy love?
Why do some people think that by buying gifts and spending lots of money on a person, would actually be able to finally win that person's heart?
Isn't love more than that?
I always thought it isn't the money spent, but the heart put into it.
I guess as the world changes, values and ideals change with it.
Maybe now love is money.
I don't know.
Maybe I am idealistic to think that money should never play a part in the mechanisms of a relationship.
I personally would not want to use someone else's money and end up feeling in debt to that person.

Time and time again, we ponder about this issue on love.
I was reading someone's blog and I realised that Belle made alot of sense in her previous entry.
Is being in love all about the comfort of just having someone there and the thrills of being , or is it about loving the person for everything that he/she is?
It is so hard to say that you love someone for all his/her bad and good points.
Even if you could, people can change too.

Not that this is a big issue to really think about at this point of time, but it has always amazed me. Especially when you see how others handle their relationships.
It's interesting...