Jumpa kak hanim

jumaat time lunch hour, sure tak lain tak bukan mesti makan dengan colleagues sekalian. So harini as usual, we had our lunch at our main kitchen, Queensbay. haha!harini melepak kat oldtown, dah sampai rasa diri ni sangat old da pulak. try makan steam rice. em..bley tahanlah...xde la sedap sangat, tapi sebab lapar sangat so abihlah semangkuk nasi tue.

nak dijadikan cerita, tengah tengah makan ternampak pulak x-housemate zaman zaman kat itho dlu. kak hanim. hoho..lama sungguh tak jumpa kak hanim ni..da dekat 7tahun kot?.emm...tapi still ingat lagi.kak hanim dengan selamba (macam dulu dulu jgk) cakap " k.hanim dok tgk tadi, sapa la minah melayu sorang ni makan ng cina cina ni...skali tengok tengok kenai pulak!" haha!...yea la, sapa lagi..i lah tue!..hmm, nak buat mcmne akak, no choice..ini je yang ada..

pastu kak hanim tengok ID card keja, " aihhh... lain muka na.." (gambar free hair).haha...senyum je lah..
dah pastu soalan 1st die tanya " bila nak kawen nie??....awat kuruih sangat ni la ni? sampai pegang tulang je nieh..." ...hahaha, kak hanim compare kurus skrg dengan zaman zaman kat itho dulu k...bukan kurus dalam masa setahun nie...sebenarnya dok membesaq ja dalam masa setahun nie!...

ayat last kak hanim " nnt jangan lupa mai umah kak hanim k....kita sembang sembang!" haaaaa...tu xpayah sgt nak buat, cuma tak tau bila baru bleyh buat...

tengok kak hanim, wahhh!..maintain ayu, comel, cuma berisi sket...maklumla, anak dah 2...syok tengok kak hanim..cam hepi jeee!!..

da tukar2 phone num ng kak hanim, tapi lupa plak nak tanya fb die ape!adoi!

korbankan sesuatu untuk sesuatu.

korban shopping, untuk kereta.
korban kereta, untuk rumah.
korban masa, untuk belajar.
korban cinta??xtermasuk dalam list..hahaha.

Januari 2012 dah nak sampai ke penghujung. tinggal beberapa hari lagi. dah tinggal 11 bulan untuk berjalan atas nama 2012. tiba tiba rasa cuak mula nak jadi hantu dalam diri. wooh!.sangat tak best, tak syiok!..

Komitmen dituntut hari hari. tak boleh lari. ada yang cari.nak tak nak dok kena ngadapla sampai bila bila. Fuh!..tak sampai 2 minggu nak fly lagi. dekat xdekat janji bley lari dari pulau nie masuk pulau lain. langkah tak berfikir panjang nie, kadang kadang bleyh makan diri. tapi nak buat macam mana, semua dah confirm, tinggal nak langkah pergi je lagi..heee!..so relax imi relax...just enjoy the show!..follow the flow!

master.inc.. tak senang macam yang dok bermain kat dalam kepala. tiap tiap minggu blur p clas, tapi sebab lecturer2 bley tahan so gagahkan jugak dengar dan tengok apa yang ada depan mata. xbleyh biar lama lama mcam nie...benda ni bukan main2..perabih duit je nanti!..imi, u need to be serious!.

serious?? kamus hidup nie kena buka balik untuk kenal erti serious.. leteran demi leteran dah tak mampu lagi nak ditanggung!! tak larat nak main main dah. i need a fullstop now. a real fullstop.

sometimes kita rasa kita tak da pilihan. tapi sebenarnya kita yang tak tahu nak buat pilihan.
since when i tak tahu nak buat pilihan?

mature relationship

how to define its a mature relationship?!.

Time Together: You have to see one another face-to-face frequently to make it work, you need to be carving out times for dates for you two as a couple. Even if you have to mark it down on calendars, do it! Call each other often. Basically, if you're a girlfriend (or a boyfriend), anything you do together is a date.

my question : is it by using facebook,text msg, phone call is consider as time together? and taking a year to meet again? haha!

Time Apart: You have to be independent, too - You need to spend time away from one another. You have to be capable of being a healthy and happy individual without your boyfriend (or girlfriend) around all the time. You need to balance the time you have - between your friends, family, your hobbies/interests, school, your job/career, and time by yourself. Have your own life apart from your relationship.


Communication: You have to communicate verbally (talk) with one another. About the serious, important, and major issues, and also about the joking, non-serious, unimportant, little stuff too. Talk about anything you want - how your day went, viewpoints, opinions, thoughts, wants, needs, desires, ambitions, goals, your past, how you want your future to be, hopes, dreams, insecurities, fears, wishes, or what's going on in your life.

Trust: You have to trust each other for your relationship to work and not be torn apart by jealousy. You need to trust each other enough to not think that they will cheat, or do anything else to hurt you emotionally, physically, or otherwise.

Support: You must support each other through thick and thin, no matter what. Uplift the other person in good ways. Be there (physically, emotionally, or any way you can) for each other during the happy times and the not so happy times. It will make all the difference!
Honesty: You must be honest and truthful with each other on everything and about anything and everything that may come up. Lies (even if the other person never finds out the truth) will just weaken your bond / relationship and eventually make you grow apart. Especially if you wait a long time to tell him / her. So the best thing to do is to always be honest with the other person and tell them right away.

Self-Respect: Only you control how someone else treats you. Letting someone walk all over you, always doing what they want, and having no boundaries makes you resentful over time and far less attractive.

Respect: Respect is a big thing. You need to respect and accept each other's body, feelings, wants, needs, and everything else that comes along with being with the other person. Respect is also no abuse, mistreatment, damage, or misuse in any way, shape, or form (physically, emotionally, sexually, or verbally).

stress out the day.

stress gila.

tahun baru sangat mencabar. subhanallah!..semoga tuhan permudahkan semuanya!.

kerja.
hmm..masa ni lah semuanya nak stuck.tengah cuti pun call in masuk tanpa henti.apatah lagi, harini.tapi semuanya still nampak tenang walaupun sebenarnya kepala mula memberontak serabut!.stop chasing me!


study.
sabtu ni start.nervous nak mati! boleh ke xboleh?. dah la sorang sorang!.pengalaman lama mula nak menghantui diri.kuatkan semangat imi!.chaiyok! (sorak tanpa tenaga sebenarnya)
benda xstart lagi, xkan da start serabut.xlogik kan?.tapi itulah.bila hati mula resah.stop chasing me!


left out.undecided.
semua yang ada kurang persetujuan.bukan kerana rupa, bukan kerana harta.tapi mungkin kerana pandangan orang tua. aku si jiwa muda, mungkin patut lebih terbuka.kenal lebih ramai jiwa jiwa di luar sana.aku tak salahkan siapa siapa.sebaliknya aku cuba untuk membuka ruang yang sedia ada. biar nampak.biar jelas.biar mudah.biar tepat.stop chasing me!


ya allah,
andai apa yang KAU berikan ini adalah yang terbaik buatku... aku pasrah!. semoga KAU tunjukkan aku jalan terbaik.

da merisik untuk aman insyallah.aku doakan yang terbaik!