LOVIN' IT SICK

weeekend was just, wonderful.

i went for my HOI lecture with duns after a million and one trillion years. i (really) wanted to take notes but we ended up running out to buy bubble tea and started chilling and went back in. and inside, we started playing phing-ko (chinese version of bingo LOL), and having chinese chen yu and drawing competitions. which was supppperrr funnnnny.
the peeps went to play lan after school and we agreed to ditch the winter wonderland party at Seven's to meet later at nik's on since it was nik's birthday. i went to the gym (bitchy do you hear that! =D )and Big Brother-ed my time away while waiting for their call. by the time they finished was 12 plus at night and by the time wayne and i reached was almost 2 T.T
danton's friend russell from spore came for holiday so it was really fun targeting him in our usual drinking games. its a tourist's duty to ensure one gets wasted on holiday and we fulfilled that.hahaha he started puking.no cards so melvin hand-made them wtf. bel got gone realllllly fast so bryan had to send her home.
we had our share of fun till 7 plus in the morning till everyone crashed out.super surprisingly, someone woke up and managed to get everyone out of bed around 930. thats like a double record breaker. just as we were about to leave, nooooo.. guys all needed to smoke. had macs brekky's and then went to the arcade for awhile. lazer warsssssss! =D they renovated the place and its suckier cause there was just too many ppl. the 11 of us were against kiddos. i mean like little kids half of our sizes and omfg they actually killed us more times then we did and we came in last! played soccer and cards back at nik's till it was dinner time.
after that a few went back home and they watched the simpsons movie while the rest of us went back to niks(again) playing cards and betting on stupid stuff.
and once again, just as we're about to leave, noo guys all want to watch porn. assholes. it was superr hilarious cause you can hear the girl making noises followed by their screamings. half horror-half porn show. and we FINALLY left for supper at kfc.
and yes, wayne and i actually followed them to the lan shop. he actually tried playing dota which was just LOL to the max because he visualises things way to much which ends up him screaming away. i didnt play but just watched the rest cs and dota away. its acutally fun watching them just cursing and shouting away. sooo tired i fell asleep for a while. we left the place at 6 plus in the morning. the college square ppl were thinking of gg back to nik's at get the drinks and start drinking since it was already morn. thank god we didnt coz i would have died by now. so the plan was to go to dun's so we could dvd away. yep, all of us washed up and went down but noooo, that idiot fell asleep so we all went back to our respective houses. FINALLY.

=less than 2hs of sleep for 2 nights.
=no work done
=mom can actually scare me through msn.
=fucked im screwed.
=:D stilll.

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-9:40 PM-

HEARTS ON PARADE.

damnit, i thought i could easily find resources for psy online but everythings not within the past 10 years. and then i have no books related either.

for HOI:

question 1: why must limits be placed on society's interference with individual liberty? discuss with reference to the works of John Stuart Mill.

question 2:how accurate is Freud's view of civilization?

and they're both due on the same week. someone kill me pls. fucckkkkk.


some one fill up the gaps and spaces back together, like what it used to be. because i know i am in no position and lack the power to do so.

i (finally) went for my lit lecture today.i tried hard to take notes. i didnt do maths, nor fall asleep. i sat pretty much in front and not on the stairs like i usually do, with rae, where we have our own conversations with gummies and no one can see us. one of the 2 books we're doing this term is Farenheit 451, about book-burning and how conforming society is. its really pissing that the lecturer focuses so much on things concerning the story but not on the story itself. he tries too hard to be funny, of which he's obviuosly not.and people actually start to get amused by him and things that are not even funny and of which i can never never never understand why.


i can still feel my spinach and ricotta fillo in the tum tums..

and maybe we're all too caught up in our masquerade;

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-8:35 AM-

ppl shit you up, you shit them up back.

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-6:40 AM-

TAKING & BREAKING.

thousand and one assignments all lined up already its scaring me. went to the library to find resources just to find out that trinity people are kiasu freaks and all the resources for psy are gonnnneee.ok, i always knew that fact. we ended up playing the the photocopying machine, (trying to) photocopy our faces and hands, which was pretty much roflmao.





6 of the close ones birthdays within this week and the next. sosososo much to do so little time.

wayne is finaallly back!missed that bitch! its back to chill out nights together with duns and thar and my ohsowonderful life in melb is embarking on its path once again. yesterday we went down to Duns place to watch taxi. i didnt sleeeep (: and omg, we watched the helium-stuck-in-the-room part like seriously around 7-8 times. everytime it ended, dunnie just rewinded it all over again.

the new media teacher is to die for. and no, i dont mean it in a good way. my media teachers gay always, its so wierd. he cant teach for nuts. finally when i built up a good relationship with ron that asshole leaves. and now its back to sucking up for first impressions.

we did human legos for drama today. plsss put me in a good group for this termmm.

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Too often, the thing you want most is the thing you can't have. Desire leads us heart broken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck our lives. But as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want.

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-9:18 AM-

WE CAN RUN AWAY NOW, THEY'RE ALL DEAD AND GONE.

spent the whole day going through old journals and old entries of posts of blogging.
reminiscences of my life.
from what i was, to what i have become.
for what i live for, and for what i dont.
for feelings which i thought so temporary of, can now not escape reality.
for what society can somehow mould us out to be.
for the things that have never changed, to what i wish to forgo.
for the ones who have caused hurt, for the ones who have brought joys, for the ones who have brought sorrows, thank you.

sometimes, our history haunts us. it scares me to think of what i actually was back then. where stupidity and fragility lied beneathed. there are many things i wish i did and did not do. however, our history makes us what we are today. it shapes us and guides us. without it, we add up to nothing. the mistakes make us stronger, a better person, or for the worst. in times, we end up putting all the blame on ourselves instead. the mind is a funny thing.
sometimes i think our life plan has somehow already been mapped out for us. we are the only ones with the power to alter our fates. maybe the reason why life's so hard is due to the constant struggle of us trying hard to fight against this plan. what we want;what we don't want.
life is this game we're forced to play. the sad part is that we can never press pause, forward or rewind. only the stop button,and that is when death overtakes us.

i guess the reason why we need people there for us is because we want them to witness our life's happenings. which is, really quite a sad thing, for all the wrong reasons. maybe the human race is pathetic. i used to depend alot and live for other people. it came to my realization after a long time and now i only have myself left.

and maybe im still holding onto regrets.

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

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-6:33 PM-

THE FEEL GOOD DRAG.

clubbing at Seven's last night/this morning. happy birthday micchy, johan, dan and nik! whose birthdays are all in july. and next week rayner will be turning 21 so its off to 7's again. T.T apparantly the theme is some winter white shit. damnnnn.. why are sooo many ppls birthday in july.

anyways,we got a table as usual. due to the no smoking in clubs now, most the guys were outside half the time. 7 is pretty but the music kinda sucked. the rnb dancefloor was packed like a bitch you can hardly even dance properly.

its funny how one always has to keep up
during the day when its around 11 degs im already wearing 5 layers.
then its at night around 3-4 degs, im wearing just a dress and a coat.
and then im an ultra smart piece of shit that choses to wear really high heels and my feet are killing the shit outta me and they're gonna die soon.
butttttttttttt, just shut up.(:

after a while, when there's nothing to do, the aim becomes to get people drunk, of which rayner fell prey off and cam whore.


tired & pretty boring night. oh wells..





no smoking campaign part I. HAHHAHA.







when rayner is g-o-n-e-e-e-e.



micccchy.

amateur pornstar, hell yeah.

no smoking capaign part II. HAHHAHA.





juvvvy babyyy


emo weemos.

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Just diaries of empty pages
feelings gone astray.
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Till everything burns

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-9:16 PM-