LIES FOR THE LIARS.
your promises... they look like lies.
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its omfgly cold. like the coldest here so far. max is 15 today and its only bloody autumn. i swear the winds were so strong they could seriously blow me away.. 400 calls of accidents in 12 hours in Victoria. thats how bad it was. damn, i should be a weather woman.right now, HOI is screwing the shit outta me. 2.5 more days to endure.
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-8:28 PM-
when the motivator is
fear.
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-5:06 AM-
ESCAPE THE FATE.
finally handed in my eap assignment. so much for 5 marks worth counting for. i slept at 4 plus just trying to finish the damn thing, of which i couldnt so i had to go to school to finish it and i didnt bring my damn thumbdrive which was so pissing so i had to walk all the way back home just to retrieve it. after lunch wayne and i went to the lab to print it. something was wrong with the format and printer and shit = pissing x2 and since i was going to be half an hour late for my lit tut, i just skipped it and we did our usual-coffee. wayne is such an interesting person. all time round happy people are disgusting. its hard to keep up. the fear of being alone can actually kill. we had to walk alllllll the way to stupid fsc just to hand in the damn essay. it was so typical play like. "slip your eap assignment under the door" like wtf. i like it when when the leaves are reddish and all dropping.
koko black for dinnner. my love. kimmy joined wayne and i. conversations worth remembering. chilled at borders for a bit then wayne and i headed to nik's place. met all in the tram, so coool. by the time everyone came and settled, the party got started like close to 2am. navin and imran got freaking high esp navin coz he kept on losing all the time. it was damn funny cause we were all just making fun of them cause they were saying stupid stuff. hahaha. i didnt sleep the entire night coz just as i was about to sleep around 7, we decided to go to Macs. first timed macs breakfast here. its so wierd, cause like all the burgers and acutally bigger in singapore than here. some left and the rest continued sleeeeping. nik went to buy pirates 2. and then korean dinner and i went to watch pirates 3. i was shagged to the max. i prob slept through half of the show. i always fall asleep somehow its damn pisssing. oh well, great day. 4 hours of sleep in 2 days and now its 5 plus am and i have no idea why im still talking to winnie coz he's being a major lifeless ass. i likeeeee... (:now its back to mugging chionging for this week cause HOI's essay is due on friday. after essay party all planned out already(: clubbbing at lavish. someone's opening table. aweeeeeesome.
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-10:06 AM-
HAVENT SEEN YOUR SMILE IN A WHILE
first and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST EEEMEE PEEMEEE IMEEEEE! =D
we so badly want to design our own 'Little Miss Emos' shirt.
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-1:42 AM-
SUICIDE NOTES AND BUTTERFLY KISSES
they're sending my mom to New York for a week in aug. damn, im jealous. i want to go to NY. and then they'll be sending her to Sydney in oct. lucky bitch!
it has come to my realization that i subconsciously make an effort not to get too close and attached to people. i do not believe in Forever. maybe its the fear and feeling of losing everything in the end. savour all of what you have. both ways, you'll still lose out. our past plays a part in moulding us into what we've become today. i've got a friend who plays it in terms of revenge. however, i still do not think it is good enough a reason, or should i say excuse, to make up for his actions, and all that's lacking.
what is with people and popularity. "they only invited all the cool people to their party" . "im gonna start hanging out with all the cool people like you." 'what the fuck' is just playing in my mind, stuck on repeat. clearly enough, there are people whom we can and cant hang out with, due to major personality clashes. i cant click with many people, but that doesnt mean their not my friends and are not worth acknowledging. if you take a step back, you'll closely realise that everyones the same.people who label and judge others without even knowing anything, are then not worthy.
enough of rants. school was pretty alright. its freakingly cold. band at union house was good. free hotdogs. nice moccha. its cool to have a 7-11 located near your school, coz we all end up sneaking there buying junk during lessons. kids below 7 are stupid.
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and you do know that im fuckingly sorry rightttt.. but once again,
HAPPY BELATED 17TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST ZHANGSTER!
are you still all muscles dude?
are you still that vain guy always worrying about your hair?
(we look freaking young man my god.)
are you still that guy i used to know? do you still sing? do you still game? are you still the one the gets the party started like 4am in the morning after sudden spures of energy? you know i love you stillllllllllllllllllllllll (: hahahahaha.
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-1:36 AM-
BEFORE YOU SAY GOODBYE,
hellllllllllllllll-o. my internet was down the past few days. fucking college square network, bloody pissing.. anywayss... friday was just Awesome with a capital A. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATALIE AND NATAZIA. it was funny, because most of the people which they hardly hang out with (that includes me) were invited. it was at crown a buffet dinner. i never had proper food for sooo long. and the desert, omfg. most the of time we were all just cam-whoring away. their mom was there, and she-s like a freaking replica of them, just the older version. eveyone was so pretty and nice..
Twin Ns. till now i still cant tell them apart.
leon, i, twin 1, sean
june, wayneeee, belbel
plentiful more of pictures which i've yet to come to posession of cause my camera is a freaking lagger.anyways, we all headed to Lavish after that. their mom went too. i cant even picture going clubbing with my mom, much less even seeing her outside a club. met up with the rest there. mood's were all dampened for awhile because johan got bounced. and we only managed to open our table at 12. the april twins were there too..and neither can i tell those 2 apart. that the damn problem, i treat them as the same person cause i never have an idea whom im with and they all look the same.
Lavish was omfgly packed. but yeah, it was suppper duppper fun cause alot of us were pissed-ass high..i was one of the last few to leave around 4 plus..
and now its back to reality. work work work and hell lot of assignments due. and now i cant wait till friday cause we're planning to go Lavish again :D i likeeeee..
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-1:14 AM-
THE FEELING OF BELONGING
im so bloody thankful friday's here. i just had my history of ideas tutorial so that Janusz my tutor could see my plan for the goddamned essay. i worked my ass of till 6 plus this morning just for it. this week has been fairly busy but the worst has still to come.my sis went back on wed. its so cool cause she cant stand seeing my apartment untidy so she cleaned up the entire place so i have a freaking clean apartment now (:i bought a pretty fighting fish the other day of which ive yet to name.library with leon yesterday was just shit cause we ended up crapping the entire time. "poppadum can you help me photocopy this small part. its only 180 pages." ok its doesnt sound funny this way.and then because the longest you can borrow a hoi book is only for 2 hours. so we were thinking of ways of how to steal the damn book and trying to find the metal sensor. of all things, a library book on the Greeks.and the funniest part.. cause this girl from the april intake is having a birthday party on sat and the theme is '"prince and princesses" and on her card she wrote 'see you royalites a my palace' or some shit like that. shes all cutsy-wusty with fake eyelashes. we were all like wtf to the max. rae decided for her 19th birthday she'll hold a slave and master party at macs. hahaha. anyhows, we wanted to get invited for the fun of it and free food.. so leon got her number and started messaging her.. asking dumbassed bimbofied questions.. after awhile i took over and asked stupid questions as well, but i ended up sending it leon's mom.. hahhaha . we were just roflmao omfg..tonight's gonna be awesome, or so i hope. the twin's birthday party at crown.its semi-formal and gonna be a buffet. and then clubbing at Lavish for after-party! whooo. the rest opened a table at lavish too, so yay, everyone will be there. im determined to party my ass off. for psy tut this week we watched a woman give birth. i dont get grossed out easily. but seriously.. watching the baby come out was just T.T we were askd how old we wanted to get married and have kids. i probably wanna have kids when im 26-27. but of course, i always have my fears of living the life i always wanted in them.-----------------------------------------------------------i realised some people cant help but not have morals or a conscience.i know i have morals. im aware of whats good and bad happening, and what im doing, but its just whether i chose to follow it or not. and that's when my conscience starts to eat me.---------------------------------------------------------------and then what about her.....?
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-6:46 PM-
JEALOUSY RIDES WITH ME
He's a stranger to some
And a vision to none
He can never get enough,
Get enough of the world.
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-7:05 AM-
FROM YESTERDAY....
have heart.first & last thing on my mind.
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-5:38 AM-
TAKE IT AWAY
my computer sound cant work. damn pissingg. today's plans were so majorly screwed up it was so funny. the more stuff i find out about someone, the more its starting to scare me. i figured ive created someone else out of people. society.fucking history of ideas is killin me.
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-6:43 AM-
APPEAR OFFLINE
my sis arrived here yesterday. i skipped the whole day of school just to bring her shopping. she cant stand mess so she helped me clean up my entire place. how awesome. today for psychology tutorial was pretty rad. we were carrying out an experiment to see who people will react and who will help when someone drops their stuff. we went to the uni grounds. i was the 'knocker'. basically one of us was carrying a file filled with worksheets. i ran and pretended to knock him and his entire stack of papers flew all over the place. and then i would continue running and say 'hey watch it man'. it was more like a hit and run. test results: the place is a sad world to begin with, people are unhelpful. seriously. one passerby, when went to help my friend said "what the hell is her freaking problem" ( refering to me) haha. coolios.lunch on tuedays at union house is always great with the live band. words are already spoken for you. i found this super big pretty grass patch place. its gonna be my new lunch time hang out. its so peaceful to just lie there. ideallic.---------------------------------------------------its amusing, as to how shallow some people can be. get in touch with yourself, please.
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-4:51 AM-
I SEE THE LIGHT SURROUNDING YOU
Friday was nothing but awesome. i was walking out of hoi tutorial and akil suddenly walked up to me and handed to me a bouquet of flowers. 10 roses. i was still in shock and stupidly asked if he was on some kind of dare because ive never spoken to him properly before except 'hi'. but seriously, it was so sweet it made my whole day already.
it was wrapped in red (:
anyways, lit tut flewwww by, thankfully. and hoi lecture wasnt so bad either, cause dunni, tharinee and i were playing this stupid game, who can name a particular stuff to the very end until you win. i won most games!
Big Noise 07 after that!!! the whole of trinity was at the bulpadock, this huge grass place. met up with my drama group and started preparing. we named ourselves Voodoo Mistery, dont ask me why. for our runway walk, we came up with the idea of putting paper bags over our heads, then the next beat freeze then to animal tribal movements. and finally on the last beat go to the ppl along the runway and tear our paperbags open and scare them. i drew my typical blood dripping eyes and a sewn mouth on my paper bag with words saying 'IM SHANTI' on the top. 
everyone had an instrument so you can imagine the noise, thats why its called big noise.
it was superrrrrrr freaking fun. with the beats and everything. i seriously got hyper and high on music. dancing around like crazyyyyy to the max. alot of people were enthu so it was good. like almost al the trinity ppl formed a train and was running and dancing along the whole way. it was brazilian funk music but the beat was good to hype us all up.
even when the thing ended, june and i were still damn high on music we were just screaming away to 'box full of sharp objects' . everyone was just staring but none of us could give a damn. it was some sort of like a mini-rock concert when ure full of energy and gonna burst.
hahaha most of my pics are with gideon. anyways, it strengthened the bond between my drama group too. cooolios.
met up later with the rest for dinnner. i had been living of sandwiches the whole week, it was awesome to have proper asian food. after that, some when to play tuning. and i somehow got dragged into playin dota. wtf man, seriously. they just put me at the com, and i had no idea what to do cause ive never played dota before. i got killed close to 20 times in an hour. T.T
some went back home while some headed to nik's place. we formed 4 groups and played soccer in the balcony for awhile till the ball got kicked off the 12 storey. how sweet. the security guard came up cause someone complained we were making too much of noise playing.
i was trying not to drink so much cause my throat was freaking sore and tim tried to talk me out telling me indians love to drink and it runs in my blood. "i know you want it!" bitch.
funny shit followed. dunnie, thar and i cramped up into one bed. its funny how im always one of the last to sleep and first to wake up. like how im usually last to come into class and first to get out. by the time we left for lunch today was around 4. they are all watching spiderman 3 now while i at home being good.
apparently my sis is coming tmr or something. thank god my mom is not coming cause my dad keeps on having fits or something.
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people are never what they seem to be. there is always so much more to them which one may sometimes never discover. it could be classified as secrets. people are afraid to tell secrets because of the fear that others opinion of them may change. you lose or gain in the course.
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-2:34 AM-
kurt reminds me of a jap anime character.
and we all fall down..
hope you had a wonderful seventeeeth. thanks for the fond memories.. the netball days. the trying-to-teach-you-math day, the farewell day. and everything! dont worry too much about your O's alright. because i know you'd do just fine. have faith. the distance doesn't matter, im still here for you to count on. i love you, evil dumbstress. 
whores,
we
are.
P.I.M.P.
screams "GUESS WHATTTTTT"
wayneeee dear(:
Twin N's.
juneyy.bel bel & i.
rayner's side.
leonieeee.
