YOOO HOOOOS.

i have moved.

des-tructed.livejournal.com

so yea, leave ure comments or whatevers there


seeeeeeeeee you alll soooooooooooooon.

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-8:58 PM-

A LIL BIT OF THIS, AND A LIL BIT OF THAT

and so and so and so i cant wait to get over and done with tmr's hoi paper becoz before attaining that step of the huge relief, i dont and i cant imagine myself finishing studying hoi because there's fuckloads.

after tmr's paper= one more down to go = non-stop partying

the after exam party was half planned while trying to study for lit yest. really simple.
club.stoned.dance.dance.stoned.stoned.stoned.stoned.
you get the idea.
heeheeeheeehaahaaahaahaaa.

blame it on the lack of sleep.


fuck it.

yays ive got my lj acc set up already

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-7:26 PM-

BACK TO BLACK.

dirty pretty things.


bad day.


period.

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-5:26 AM-

DEATH THREATS AND SUICIDE NOTES.

taking the right things out.
and the wrong ones in.

i could be lying right there...77C



joke.cant fit out the window.

im feeling untterly screwedurghfuckedrestless godsavemysould because i dontknowhowtohelpmyself.

opdfigoustfjdsl;kdm vnwb rijold.

on a total irrelevant note, im prob gonna change to a xanga/ livejournal acc soon. this one has only a few % for space left. my oh my.


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anyways, just realised my after-party pics were still in the folder so here they are...























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-1:29 AM-

THE TASTE OF INNOCENCE

bits and pieces of the last week of schoool.boooozzzzzzzzzzzz.


im really not big a fan of small puny dogs but sem & bel's dog, livvy, is seriously one of the smallest cutest living shit on earth.















last sushi meal together for tuesday sushi lunch at sea salt. wheres kimmmy?






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-10:32 PM-

AND BY THE WAY.....

one year, as marked.

when the unwanteds somehow unknowingly have their own ways of resurfacing through cracks. much less even through the tiniest ones which can be barely seen by the naked eye.

the questions.
the doubts.
the fears.

and yet, no answers.

i have my ways.




sweet love. oh, serenity. have mercy upon the passionate.

If it were now to die,
'Twere now to be most happy; for, I fear,
My soul hath her content so absolute
That not another comfort like to this
Succeeds in unknown fate


the closure.

i think i could do much better than you.

The End.

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-12:57 AM-

WARPED.

club beats on the radio are making my inside go wild. im busting with energy and my insides are sceaming, raging, oh so silently. yet all i can pull off is this cool calm panicky front.







i think i need to hit the club to destress the non-existent stress. where the bodies move like cyclones its been longgggggg/

where booze and cigarettes are the God, in a warped sense.

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-5:05 AM-

BANG BANG YOU'RE DEAD.

i feel like a mess. i am a mess. i have a mess surrouding me as well. my house is freakin gross and dirty and filthy im living in a dumpster of hell.
for the past 2 days, ive managed to stay in the library to study till 3am. as great as this revelation may sound, what is actually revealed is this equality of greatness is the ability to sleep in library and i can even snooze on for an hour plus. or, i end up playing spider solitare on the laptop and listen to songs which dampen to mood greatly, making it not suitable for studying and of which, i proceed blatantly to writing reminiscent-filled lines, minus the pleasure.

the last lap of my trinity education starts next week but the race seems to be never ending or is it because it has barely yet to have even started?
but amidst this all, is the fear rooted deep within- the fear of not fearing.
i pray its not gonna be yet another fucked up situation.

anyways, drama performace on wednesday went on perfectly. i even managed to bring imran to tears! im sure going to miss the group a whole lot. despite the bossiness entrenched in me, and the piss-offs causing me to walk off yet coming back with the excuse of the toilet. and the manymany attempts of unsuccessful meetings and of course the thousands of spartic pictures. but yes, at the end of the day, it all seems worthwhile. proud of everyone, and with myself even more. the sense of accomplishment is overwhelming.








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You came and went, as I ran.
Running… running through it all.
Attempts for failure accumulated by and by
Nevertheless I came in first, to reach the lie.
He said I don’t wear his chains.
I said it was all stuck and craved in my memory lane.
He said I never understood.
I said that our history was just misunderstood.
He said he was tired of it all and wanted closure.
I told him man in all things was just in fact, a measure.
So there, he stood.
And here, I stand
He sees me through a blink of an eye and so I shade.
I see him in the mind endlessly and he never fails to fade.
His forthcoming insincere apologies were said with no shame.
My undying limitless pleas for hope, were dashed with disdain
He stayed behind.
I embarked on an endless journey.
Its easy predicament
I continued climbing up the inverted ladder
The pain and past still lingers.
The thoughts and tears still loiter.

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-3:52 AM-