Mixed feeling....

Having a mixed feeling now.... what sld i do? Maybe i sld juz ignore abt this feeling and continue wif my life. But its hard when u see ppl enjoying themself and they sort of dun care abt u and ur feeling.....THIS FEELING SUCKS!!!!!!!! There are times where i really feel like walking away but something is telling me not to. What will happen if i walk away? Will they thinks that i am petty? But staying there makes me feel alone and rejected. Even though i act like i dun bother abt it but deep inside of me i am thinking tat y and i being rejected? Maybe i am thinking too much but the way they act and treats me is different le. Sld i juz leave them or sld i juz stay and act as if i dun bother abt it? Can someone give me a answer?

All Abt Me

Haha this is my first post and its my birthday. But wat i gonna write is not abt it. Ytd on the 22nd aug i did a bad thing, i know i should not have send her the msg but i did. i juz cannot stand the feeling that i felt alone and none of my frens is actually siding me. i may look strong and act like nothing had happen to me but deep inside i feel so lost. i actually feel that i am fighting this alone. i know i am a guy and ppl might think that i am a wimp, but no one knows me. deep inside of me is stragling but no one is there whom i can speak to. Everyone of my fren is like siding her. All of them is like doing things behind my back...I HATE THIS FEELING!!!!!!!!!!!!! No one is helping me and no one actually bothers to care abt me. Think i juz act as per normal and juz had care abt everything. Maybe that will make my life feel better.......