Didn't wish for goodbye didn't wish for end
But God withhold our desires for his plan
How real pain is?! How much to bear!!
Do you remember the sweets I once gave you
My mind couldn't resist thinking about you
Those nights of sweet moments
That put me to good sleep and happy dreams
That black long hair... So beautiful
That smile of yours so engraved in me
That mushroom soup on the table deceive me to think that you still by my side
Flowers has lost it's purpose and meaning without you
Where is the grass land ? Where is the music ?
Where is the stars and moon we once embrace?
My yearning and longing nothing could satisfy
My deepest need is meant to pamper you
The depth of loneliness , is going through life without you
Gals of 2 kinds, Christians and non Christians
They msg me like you did those times and days
But I just couldn't feel the same , not anyone of them
I couldn't I couldn't I couldn't
It so happen I missed you
It so happen I couldn't get you out of my head
My soul my heart my mind
All my senses only remembers you
Every time I see that sunflower
It made my heart jump
Such exciting and thrilling feel
When she sits beside me
Or walks beside me
I dream of kissing her cheeks
She often ask why look at me
Because I was mesmerized by her beauty
I wanted to kiss her immediately
When I held her hands
I realized its something I never wanted to let go
So filled with bliss and feels
Holding her in my arms
Her scent fills my heart
I sincerely pray and hope it will never end
Such a beauty such an addiction
I couldnt stop desiring to hug her
I want to be forever with her by her side
God gave me a word I couldnt say
And yet ask her to go
With flowing tears all I could do was obey
Only to let her go
And to relate we say no...
My heart breaks and misses her so
Freedom is where we belong
A land we were Borned from
A grassland we often dream of
Where chains are not allowed
Where sadness do not visit
A place filled with flowers
Colors even Kings embrace not
Where air without stain
Rainbows doesn't fades
A land birds and nature play music
And stars that visit at night
Where we have camp fire every night
Fire and warmth enough for all
Each given a gift of smile
No quarrels no tears no pain
With you I dream of this all night..
thousands upon thousands of my thoughts
creates the clouds little by little
thousands upon thousands of my tears
makes up the oceans little by little
thousands upon thousands of the texts
forms up the history between us
thousands upon thousands of secrets
that made us so special
thousands upon thousands of her smile
fills my heart with warmth
thousands upon thousands of stars
made me count my misses for her
thousands upon thousands of steps
to walk to her to be closer
I need her so much closer
I need her so much closer
I need her so much closer
but those things pierce
those things stings
when she is not around
and those words cut
those that says goodbye
when she says it can never be
thousand upon thousands of little things
makes up my entire love for her
that angel meant for me for eternity....
stop bruising me because I wont leave, I wont leave.
Though i love this song, in reality i hate a person like that. I'm irritated to even say why.
I once knew a girl
In the years of my youth
With eyes like the summer
All beauty and truth
In the morning I fled
Left a note and it read
Someday you will be loved.
I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And everytime tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
I notice her growth along the years after the separation, more able to handle society, media and personal privacy. I feel happy for her. Sometimes i still think about it, about the past. Something special that made my life really different until today. I always thought a love like that would never come by ever again, I told God i gave up on everything and just draw near to him. If i began to love again, will it become another punishment? Here is something cute she once wrote that i almost cannot remember until i browse through it.
I am attracted to you
like an electron to a proton
together we form an ionic bond
though we are opposite charge ions
i am drawn towards you
our love is unique as an orbital
for only two electrons can fill this space.
As my love for you increases
my energy level rises
i am in this excited state
increasing the tendency to form a chemical bond.
I was an element
it took you to make me a compound substance
falling in love with you is chemical reaction
which cause my love for you to grow
ours is an exothermic love
each giving of love not just absorbing it.
Sometimes you do something especially nice
which speeds up the chemical process
like a catalyst in my increasing love for you
i realise we have our inhibition periods
and sometimes i am selfish enough
to be an endothermic reaction
only absorbing your love.
The feeling i have for you is so intense.
I cannot be measured by kilo joules.
Often I have to make a qualitative elementary analysis
to understand and love you more
but i don't expect to know your empirical formula
when you are gone
i am a noble gas
an inert substance
when i am without you
the world seems still
and i am at equilibrium.~ Madelene Ang
Out in the pool alone this night
Once again I saw a familiar sight
Oh twinkling star, why do you live alone?
Where are your friends, your love?
As I hear the water flow..
The surrounding wind kept silent
Oh lonely star, I see you I notice you
Ever since you are alone, I feel you
The colors of the night turns dull
the heartless moon turns away from you
Oh pitiful star, have you lost your shine?
Even so... you capture my heart so much
Not even a human sight around
No one again admires your beauty
Oh hurtful star, have you been betrayed?
Even so... I will never leave u, not tonight
The trees stays still and roads stays empty
And a second seems like a thousand years
Oh aimless star, will you stay like this for eternity?
Even so... just wait for me, how alike we are
Afraid to look at within...
Afraid to look around...
But looking at you... don't be afraid.
Raising my hands up into the sky, though I cant touch you
Through the nights down here
I feel you
I see you
I hear you
Hanging up there in the night
You saw me
You feel me
You hear me
Time has brought us together
Fate has betray our destiny
Hence our hearts flow in sync
A new life and strength birth between you and me
Maybe... some aliens from mars took her away?
To hide her from sending messages these few days
Maybe... she went to the zoo....
And the lions made her sleep in dens she pray?
Maybe... she was doing A maths...
She just got mad and crazy and ran away?
Maybe... She grew wings...
And fly to the moon and play with stars?
Maybe... she went to navy...
Put on some blue uniform and was shipped away?
Maybe... her father made her a policewoman..
And thief, robbers and bad people at her bay??
Maybe... a devil took her...
Cos she is just too pretty and they sway....
Maybe... her smile is so beautiful...
God change her into a rainbow everyday?
Maybe... her hair is too amazing...
They took her and sell at silk way?
Maybe... she became naughty...
And go around bullying people and make trouble?
Maybe... she could talk to dogs....
And goes bow wow wow?
Maybe...maybe... maybe...
I simply miss her and think too much like an retard all the day...
Waiting for her to text me and find my fun someday....
