totally on repeat mode. making me tear A LOT.
Monday, December 05, 2011
Thursday, June 16, 2011
reflections. a month..
it's been a month into the job.
my business manager, Martin, gave me a thinking/reflecting question.
is this something which i wanna do, for the next 5 years of my life?
let's dig deep inside and ask.
hmm.let's see.
i was very excited when i first came in to the job.
i was very confident that i'd do a better job than the rest of them because i have working experienceS.
and, of course, very happy at the fact that it's a fast pace career path to becoming a manager.
after theory lessons, and going into practical itself, i was stressed up, more than ever coz I HAVE NO KNOWLEDGE OF POSTAL STUFF!!it's hard having no control of the situation or yourself when you have very little product knowledge!
i admit, my passion has always been in the transport industry. from monorail, to being a crowd/traffic marshal to SMRT's CCL CSO. Of course, being in NTUC Income to me, was a lot easier than being in Singpost. Probably, because it was just a part time post. no doubt, i had fun with all of the jobs that i've had. each and everyone of them.
it was really a blow for me when i didn't get Sentosa Express' Train Captain job.
Anyways, I thought being in Singpost, as a Management Trainee, will be challenging. No doubt that it is and i thought that i was going to do EVERYTHING to make this work.
With what Mr Loh Choo Beng said, about the 5 years target, i am going to do it. I'm really going to work hard to be a Branch Manager within this 5 years. I'm not gonna give up. I have to start from scratch and work my way up.
I know the other MTs don't really have the same vision as i do. Efa just resigned one month into the job. But, for me, I have been working for the past 7 years of my life, i know how it is to work on the ground. I've had enough of that and now, a rare opportunity has been given to me. The management is going to groom us into leaders. HOW OFTEN IS THAT?!
I'm really blessed with the opportunity. I know that i lack in certain areas (read: creativity) but, I'm going to work hard to make this happen.
Angela and Jene visited me ytd at CMC. Of all people, ANGELA?! I absolutely adore her slightly English accent! Anihoos, i felt kinda appreciated. they came ALL THE WAY down to CLEMENTI to talk! like wooots! I find it easier to talk to them than to talk to Martin, prolly coz it's a female thing.
After the conversation with Angela and Jene, i felt, motivated. I felt, happiness in doing my job coz I know, i can do it. I have this newfound confidence in me, that I WASN'T GOING TO LET ANYONE STEP ON MY HEAD ANYMORE!!
So, to answer to the question, about seeing myself in Singpost?
Bring it ON!
my business manager, Martin, gave me a thinking/reflecting question.
is this something which i wanna do, for the next 5 years of my life?
let's dig deep inside and ask.
hmm.let's see.
i was very excited when i first came in to the job.
i was very confident that i'd do a better job than the rest of them because i have working experienceS.
and, of course, very happy at the fact that it's a fast pace career path to becoming a manager.
after theory lessons, and going into practical itself, i was stressed up, more than ever coz I HAVE NO KNOWLEDGE OF POSTAL STUFF!!it's hard having no control of the situation or yourself when you have very little product knowledge!
i admit, my passion has always been in the transport industry. from monorail, to being a crowd/traffic marshal to SMRT's CCL CSO. Of course, being in NTUC Income to me, was a lot easier than being in Singpost. Probably, because it was just a part time post. no doubt, i had fun with all of the jobs that i've had. each and everyone of them.
it was really a blow for me when i didn't get Sentosa Express' Train Captain job.
Anyways, I thought being in Singpost, as a Management Trainee, will be challenging. No doubt that it is and i thought that i was going to do EVERYTHING to make this work.
With what Mr Loh Choo Beng said, about the 5 years target, i am going to do it. I'm really going to work hard to be a Branch Manager within this 5 years. I'm not gonna give up. I have to start from scratch and work my way up.
I know the other MTs don't really have the same vision as i do. Efa just resigned one month into the job. But, for me, I have been working for the past 7 years of my life, i know how it is to work on the ground. I've had enough of that and now, a rare opportunity has been given to me. The management is going to groom us into leaders. HOW OFTEN IS THAT?!
I'm really blessed with the opportunity. I know that i lack in certain areas (read: creativity) but, I'm going to work hard to make this happen.
Angela and Jene visited me ytd at CMC. Of all people, ANGELA?! I absolutely adore her slightly English accent! Anihoos, i felt kinda appreciated. they came ALL THE WAY down to CLEMENTI to talk! like wooots! I find it easier to talk to them than to talk to Martin, prolly coz it's a female thing.
After the conversation with Angela and Jene, i felt, motivated. I felt, happiness in doing my job coz I know, i can do it. I have this newfound confidence in me, that I WASN'T GOING TO LET ANYONE STEP ON MY HEAD ANYMORE!!
So, to answer to the question, about seeing myself in Singpost?
Bring it ON!
Friday, May 27, 2011
struggling
it's contradicting when my previous post is about being positive but here I am, admitting that it's indeed not an easy to task to be in the company as a CSO. And i was thinking, what more a BM!
Unlike Income, this is more stressful because there are so many products and product knowledge must be on the tip of your fingers. On top of that, we need to do sales as well. Seriously, every single day that I go home from the branch, I've a headache. lol. that taxing.
On the flipside, there's no timing! And we can be sooo FUN with the customers.. :)
It's definitely a hard transition. Maybe it's because I'm not used to it yet. I've to study hard.
In another note, I really miss trains. I miss the monorail, I miss my PVs. I miss CCL, but I really don't want to go back with a pay like that.
I really miss being in transport operations. If only their working hours are not shitty.
I miss the people there too, just not the drama of it all. lol.
I miss being a part of the CCL family coz Everyone knows Everybody!
Here, 62 branches, how to know everyone?
But I'm very glad that Clementi Central staffs are so welcoming and helpful. Not forgetting family-like. I like it here, but I think they're stress with me coz I did a LOT of errors! Lol..
So, another day tmr.. Let's make it better! :)
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Unlike Income, this is more stressful because there are so many products and product knowledge must be on the tip of your fingers. On top of that, we need to do sales as well. Seriously, every single day that I go home from the branch, I've a headache. lol. that taxing.
On the flipside, there's no timing! And we can be sooo FUN with the customers.. :)
It's definitely a hard transition. Maybe it's because I'm not used to it yet. I've to study hard.
In another note, I really miss trains. I miss the monorail, I miss my PVs. I miss CCL, but I really don't want to go back with a pay like that.
I really miss being in transport operations. If only their working hours are not shitty.
I miss the people there too, just not the drama of it all. lol.
I miss being a part of the CCL family coz Everyone knows Everybody!
Here, 62 branches, how to know everyone?
But I'm very glad that Clementi Central staffs are so welcoming and helpful. Not forgetting family-like. I like it here, but I think they're stress with me coz I did a LOT of errors! Lol..
So, another day tmr.. Let's make it better! :)
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Tuesday, May 24, 2011
taking a large step forward.
i intend to have a meaningful post tonight.
just a brief update,
i have resigned from SMRT, it was sad but i had to let it go for career advancement. i may be passionate about trains, but, as far as i'm concerned, my cert does not allow me to advance too much in the field.
so, after 1.5 months of being unemployed (which honestly, i thought, was fun at first. however, when little brothers constant squabbles are concern), i'd rather be out at work)
after, Bas mentioned that her workplace has an opening, i applied for the exact post that she is in, thinking that it was just another job. Being the paranoid me, i applied BOTH online and gave her my physical application form for her referral.
and on the following Monday, i received a call and I MADE IT.
that was fast.
on the 16th May, i began working again.
read: Singapore Post Limited. MANAGEMENT TRAINEE. cool huh?
i really find that the speech given by the Business Managers, Head, VP,AVP, and AVP interesting.
HOWEVER, i am utmost inspired by the speech given by the Executive Vice President (Retail & Financial Svcs) Mr Loh Choo Beng.
i think, basically, most of us MTs, brought up the issue of leadership and attitude. yes, i find that what Mr Loh said was right,
Psychological strength is equally as important as physical strength. The willpower to forget a negative instance with one customer should be there. I remember Mr Goh, (the SMRT customer svc wshop trainer) once said, it may be your 100th customer for the day, but he came to your counter, to visit ONE you. so, you can't be piling the burden of 99 other customers on just one customer. each customer is different.
Mr Loh, asked a question, which till now, still left me a little clueless.
What is the difference between a leader and a manager?
according to my iphone dictionary:
leader: a person who rules or guides or inspires others
manager: someone who controls resources and expenditures
two very separate approach altogether.
yet, they intertwine. but, not all managers are good leaders. a good leader can manage.
what i reallt picked up on that speech was target setting.
I admitted to all the heads/managers that I am not one who set a target/goal. However, after listening to Mr Goh's speech, i really want this job badly and i'm going to set a target for myself.
He mentioned about the 5 year goal.
Out of 5 years, what do you target to achieve?
in 5 years, I AM TARGETING FOR THE POST OF BRANCH MANAGER.
I am so driven, i have no idea WHERE this is coming from.
I am just being positive, and i want to work hard to achieve my dreams. This job is not easy to come by. MTs are usually for undergrads. But this, is for Dip holders.
I AM NOT letting anybody pull me out/down from/on this.
so, today.
being in Clementi Central Branch today was OVERWHELMING. yes, of course i made mistakes. but hey, we're not perfect right?
i still find it OVERWHELMING when my Business Manager spoke to me. I didnt get a chance to actually speak or meet him during orientation coz he was on leave. I had a long talk with him, which I find to be very beneficial.
being an MT, you have to be humble AT ALL TIMES.
people won't respect you if from now, you dont plant yourself on earth and be humble. if people do not respect you now, they most certainly won't respect you in the future.
or, say, be PRO ACTIVE.
instead of waiting for people to approach you, why not you approach them?
doesn't it just give more impact on the other person?
i have been trying very hard to find the old me.
the person who was a leader.
i have been trying to find her.
the maturity.
the ability to LEAD.
been asking myself a lot of qns.
telling myself motivational things.
and i shall continue to search.
till then, dear readers, if there is still any. :)
just a brief update,
i have resigned from SMRT, it was sad but i had to let it go for career advancement. i may be passionate about trains, but, as far as i'm concerned, my cert does not allow me to advance too much in the field.
so, after 1.5 months of being unemployed (which honestly, i thought, was fun at first. however, when little brothers constant squabbles are concern), i'd rather be out at work)
after, Bas mentioned that her workplace has an opening, i applied for the exact post that she is in, thinking that it was just another job. Being the paranoid me, i applied BOTH online and gave her my physical application form for her referral.
and on the following Monday, i received a call and I MADE IT.
that was fast.
on the 16th May, i began working again.
read: Singapore Post Limited. MANAGEMENT TRAINEE. cool huh?
i really find that the speech given by the Business Managers, Head, VP,AVP, and AVP interesting.
HOWEVER, i am utmost inspired by the speech given by the Executive Vice President (Retail & Financial Svcs) Mr Loh Choo Beng.
i think, basically, most of us MTs, brought up the issue of leadership and attitude. yes, i find that what Mr Loh said was right,
Psychological strength is equally as important as physical strength. The willpower to forget a negative instance with one customer should be there. I remember Mr Goh, (the SMRT customer svc wshop trainer) once said, it may be your 100th customer for the day, but he came to your counter, to visit ONE you. so, you can't be piling the burden of 99 other customers on just one customer. each customer is different.
Mr Loh, asked a question, which till now, still left me a little clueless.
What is the difference between a leader and a manager?
according to my iphone dictionary:
leader: a person who rules or guides or inspires others
manager: someone who controls resources and expenditures
two very separate approach altogether.
yet, they intertwine. but, not all managers are good leaders. a good leader can manage.
what i reallt picked up on that speech was target setting.
I admitted to all the heads/managers that I am not one who set a target/goal. However, after listening to Mr Goh's speech, i really want this job badly and i'm going to set a target for myself.
He mentioned about the 5 year goal.
Out of 5 years, what do you target to achieve?
in 5 years, I AM TARGETING FOR THE POST OF BRANCH MANAGER.
I am so driven, i have no idea WHERE this is coming from.
I am just being positive, and i want to work hard to achieve my dreams. This job is not easy to come by. MTs are usually for undergrads. But this, is for Dip holders.
I AM NOT letting anybody pull me out/down from/on this.
so, today.
being in Clementi Central Branch today was OVERWHELMING. yes, of course i made mistakes. but hey, we're not perfect right?
i still find it OVERWHELMING when my Business Manager spoke to me. I didnt get a chance to actually speak or meet him during orientation coz he was on leave. I had a long talk with him, which I find to be very beneficial.
being an MT, you have to be humble AT ALL TIMES.
people won't respect you if from now, you dont plant yourself on earth and be humble. if people do not respect you now, they most certainly won't respect you in the future.
or, say, be PRO ACTIVE.
instead of waiting for people to approach you, why not you approach them?
doesn't it just give more impact on the other person?
i have been trying very hard to find the old me.
the person who was a leader.
i have been trying to find her.
the maturity.
the ability to LEAD.
been asking myself a lot of qns.
telling myself motivational things.
and i shall continue to search.
till then, dear readers, if there is still any. :)
Monday, May 02, 2011
Friday, April 29, 2011
i'm loving it.
hey life.
can i just say?
i'm loving you so much now.
i have the best boyfriend ever!
i love you la Muhammad Hafiz!
even if most of the time, i dengki with u, or i never listen to you,
pls know that I LOVE YOU very much.
there is nobody else that i want to spend the rest of my life with.
you're always there for me.
you always listen for me.
you even gave up things so that i'll be happy.
i have never met anyone like you.
you changed my life, in ways, where i am so grateful for.
i know i've been a terrible gf (sometimes). hehe.
and i really hope i'll be a better one.
coz
i love you.
can i just say?
i'm loving you so much now.
i have the best boyfriend ever!
i love you la Muhammad Hafiz!
even if most of the time, i dengki with u, or i never listen to you,
pls know that I LOVE YOU very much.
there is nobody else that i want to spend the rest of my life with.
you're always there for me.
you always listen for me.
you even gave up things so that i'll be happy.
i have never met anyone like you.
you changed my life, in ways, where i am so grateful for.
i know i've been a terrible gf (sometimes). hehe.
and i really hope i'll be a better one.
coz
i love you.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Tuesday, March 01, 2011
work
And so, I have tendered from this job. No surprises that almost everyone in CCL found out about it after 4 days.
I'm loving today. Feel that justice has been served in certain situations. I only have God to thank. :)
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I'm loving today. Feel that justice has been served in certain situations. I only have God to thank. :)
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Location:Airport Rd,,Singapore
Thursday, February 24, 2011
undecided much?
I've already typed my letter of resignation. it's only waiting to be printed and handover tomorrow.
I'm feeling nervous. It's not because I have not found a job yet. It's more like, it has been almost a year being with this company and the whole getting used to not working in this company is weird.
Get me?
No more free rides. (lol)
I just want a new life. Or A Life, for that matter. I'm tired of this kind of working shift. I'm tired of standing and having to hold my pee.
Don't get me started on the pay. I feel that it's unfair for a diploma holder to get this kind of basic pay.
Bottomline, I need a change from all that.
I'm not confident that I can get a new job soonest. Take a look at this:
These are all the applications I sent out and I'm not really sure if I can get any of them.
What I really feel like doing, is study. Get a degree or something. But I don't want to have anymore financial burdens and as it is, I'm trying to save up.
my life is basically grey at this moment. what I do know is, I want to get out of here soonest.
I just have to be strong. For now.
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I'm feeling nervous. It's not because I have not found a job yet. It's more like, it has been almost a year being with this company and the whole getting used to not working in this company is weird.
Get me?
No more free rides. (lol)
I just want a new life. Or A Life, for that matter. I'm tired of this kind of working shift. I'm tired of standing and having to hold my pee.
Don't get me started on the pay. I feel that it's unfair for a diploma holder to get this kind of basic pay.
Bottomline, I need a change from all that.
I'm not confident that I can get a new job soonest. Take a look at this:
These are all the applications I sent out and I'm not really sure if I can get any of them.
What I really feel like doing, is study. Get a degree or something. But I don't want to have anymore financial burdens and as it is, I'm trying to save up.
my life is basically grey at this moment. what I do know is, I want to get out of here soonest.
I just have to be strong. For now.
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Sunday, February 13, 2011
credit card? And a lotta other stuff.
I've gotten myself POSB's Multitude card. If you must know, it has debit and credit functions on top of the normal NETS function.
So far, I do not remember how much I've spent on the credit. It's scary.
What if I'm unable to pay?
Serves me right, huh? I don't know how much I'll be getting for my next pay.
That sucks.
Good luck to me.
Again, second day of being a rover.
I figured, let's just make the best out of things. Maybe I can say this coz I've not done the oh so popular/sucky 0445 hrs. Afternoon shift is nothing. I can just stand in the train like no one's business (provided my iPhone battery is still running).
Probably, the most important thing about being a rover is to eat properly. Have enough food and water, to last you for the next few hours. That should do the trick.
If you're doing morning shift, enough rest would be mandatory. I mean, think about it. You have to wake up 0300 hrs (for me) to report to work at 0445 hrs. Sleep/rest is very important so that you'd be fresh at work.
I'm making the best out of my stay here. I've learnt from the past.
The most important thing I've learnt?
well, let's just keep our lips sealed, aye?
You never know who's behind you.
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So far, I do not remember how much I've spent on the credit. It's scary.
What if I'm unable to pay?
Serves me right, huh? I don't know how much I'll be getting for my next pay.
That sucks.
Good luck to me.
Again, second day of being a rover.
I figured, let's just make the best out of things. Maybe I can say this coz I've not done the oh so popular/sucky 0445 hrs. Afternoon shift is nothing. I can just stand in the train like no one's business (provided my iPhone battery is still running).
Probably, the most important thing about being a rover is to eat properly. Have enough food and water, to last you for the next few hours. That should do the trick.
If you're doing morning shift, enough rest would be mandatory. I mean, think about it. You have to wake up 0300 hrs (for me) to report to work at 0445 hrs. Sleep/rest is very important so that you'd be fresh at work.
I'm making the best out of my stay here. I've learnt from the past.
The most important thing I've learnt?
well, let's just keep our lips sealed, aye?
You never know who's behind you.
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Saturday, February 12, 2011
work is overrated.
I've just downloaded this app. Don't know if it's good or not. it has to be.. $2.99 you know.
I'm back being a rover. After more that 4 months? I really don't know how that feels. First day seems fine. I'm surprised that I can actually tahan. But then, I'll end at Dhoby Ghaut. I just hope that they won't close the roller shutter so that I can take the lift and not the fireman staircase.
I really intend to resign as soon as I'm over with the bond. Mainly because of the pay.
Secondly, the job is too taxing on me.
Thirdly, I need an office hour job. Screw what I said about working shift back then. Haha! I really need office hr job. So that I've more time on my hand.
Well, that's about it. It's chingay tonight. Crowd expected. So.. We'll see about that.
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I'm back being a rover. After more that 4 months? I really don't know how that feels. First day seems fine. I'm surprised that I can actually tahan. But then, I'll end at Dhoby Ghaut. I just hope that they won't close the roller shutter so that I can take the lift and not the fireman staircase.
I really intend to resign as soon as I'm over with the bond. Mainly because of the pay.
Secondly, the job is too taxing on me.
Thirdly, I need an office hour job. Screw what I said about working shift back then. Haha! I really need office hr job. So that I've more time on my hand.
Well, that's about it. It's chingay tonight. Crowd expected. So.. We'll see about that.
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