Thursday, December 31, 2009

dear lifeylife.....

new year's eve
alone at home
semua org either busy with own work or too tired to even care...

end up
me sorng2 kat bilik
last2 nanges sbb depression

a perfect way to celebrate a new beginning kan?

watever!

Friday, December 25, 2009

God help me , but i hate her!

dear lifeylife.....

ketahuilah bahawa mbak suti(pembantu rumah ini yg makan gaji buta ini) adalah sudah melampaui batas maximum kesabaran i yang sememangnye tak berapa nak high ni...
so kite kene percepatkan proses perpindahan rumah!!!
if not so, i will turn out to be such a monster dan mungkin menjadi terkurang garam hajar!
so lebih baiklah cepat2 packing and melarikan diri segera
i am doing the right thing, no?
sebelum tu kite berdoa dulu pada Yg Maha Kuasa,

"oh Tuhanku, berikanlah aku sedikit lagi kesabaran utk menghadapi mbak suti beberapa hari ini... amiieenn.."

baiklah!
jom sambung packing!!!

owh btw!
td tgok avatar!
interesting!!! nice graphic. mengarut skit cite tu but sometimes we could use some fairy tales to keep us going right?

papai darlings!!

Monday, December 21, 2009

so darn misekin!

dear lifeylife....

ujung2 bulan mcm ni harus la rs sesak takle bernapas
nak makan pun korek2 kotak tgok kot2 ade food2 yg masih tersisa
end up makan bubur je la


namun, walau hanya bubur, harus la bergizi kan?
with broccoli and shiitake
(ade balance dr yg kemaruk nak wat fried mushroom hari tu la~)

btw
td petang check acc, tgok2 MARA tersyg da masukkan allowance bulan depan
hoooray! bayar trus sewa bilik siap2, supaya sedar diri yg duit senarnye xbnyak mana pun
oh MARA, sile la naik kan allowance kami!

ah, kegembiraan tgok duit allowance masuk hanya lah sementara
pas bayar duit sewa rumah, trus jatuh misekin balik
ahha! talking bout rumah sewa, i akn pindah starting next month
sbb my land loard naikkan sewa, xmampu da nak bertahan kat sini
i really like this house
coz i dok 4th floor n this floor mmg best, and tenang and senyap and full of privacy
i really really love this room
plus floor ni ade balcony yg sngat luas with such a nice view esp at dawn and time sunset
malam pun lawa, sbb nampak Taman Anggerek
siyes lawa!
tp harus bagaimana lagi kan....

speaking of which, i really need to start doing all the stuff packing, organizing, cleaning and whatnot
da berbuih2 da mulut dok kate nak packing barang nak pindah, tp satu hape pun lom buat lagi
ape nak jadi niii
sobsob~

ok stop now and start packing!
(lepas tgok cite setem, promis3!!!~)

daaaaaagghhh!!~

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

sape kate jd Dr bosan?!

dear lifeylife...

best woo jadi dokter!!!
  1. leh bgn pagi gile and kol 630am gerak ke Rumah Sakit Angkatan Laut Mintohardjo, stuck lam traffic jam stroberi dlu for a few mins
  2. leh dok merenung all the x-ray and the CT-Scan picts secara rawak smpai pening kepale sbb walau berjam2 merenung all those picts, still confused sbb interpretation gambar sentiasa bertukar2 due to the lack of experience in reading x-rays picts
  3. boleh berkeliaran carik patients dgn harapan dpt ngintai diorng jd model tangkap gambar x-ray or tgok diorng berbaring2an for CT-Scan or tgok diorng wat Ultrasonogram(esok akan berusaha dgn lebih gigih lagi!)
  4. boleh makan tanpa henti sbb sekitar RSAL mmg bnyak restoran best2! yay! boleh gain weight! yay! boleh melebar! yay! boleh jadi bulat macam belon! yay!(seriously being sarcastic sebenarnye xbest!)
  5. on the way balik leh singgah sini!!!!

the cheese cake factory


left:mine:opera
right:nining's:delight choco



both intan's
left:delight choco
right:chocolate blanc



ruri's:strawberry cheez



my very first attempt of eating fried mushroom
bertekad utk membuat fried mushroom sndirik cuti x'mas ini!



my iced lemon tea
very refreshing

baek lah!!
harus tidur now
esok is another tiring day as the days before
and esok petang after class my group-mate ajak g makan mane ntah
kalo larat esok i'll blog about it okeh
now tidur dulu n semoga mimpi2 indah sahaje

cheerio!!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

11th Jakarta International Film Festival

dear lifeylife....

hari ni ade tayangan filem Gubra by Almarhumah Yasmin Ahmad
sbb i belum pernah tengok secara penuh(sekerat2 je tengok), so i've decided to go to the Blitz Megaplex with some friends to watch Gubra la kan.
dkat sana, dah amik tiket semua, baru sedar yg later after the muvie, akn ade Q&A session with Sharifah Amani and Orked Ahmad(kakak Almh Yasmin Ahmad-nama Orked from Gubra and adik beradik cerita tu adelah based on Orked Ahmad's name but the story line itself was based on Almh Yasmin Ahmad's life)

i enjoyed the muvie so much, and as soon as the muvie ended, the whole panggung was giving such an appreciative applause for the muvie(sngat mmbanggakan to be there mase tu, hehe~)
but during the Q&A session, sgat terharu sbb Orked was kind of emotional when she talked about he late sister
at first, sharifah amani dtg and talked with her full semngat waja, pasal how she enjoyed working with such a beautiful spirit like Almh Yasmin Ahmad
then the mic was passed to Orked Ahmad, and immediately the whole panggung went dead silent... sebabnye suara Orked Ahmad pun da start sebak2 tahan nangis... sngat terharu...

by the end of the Q&A session, we went down and talked to them, they were happy to see us malaysian around(siap tukar2 phone no, emails and all la). even asked us very eagerly to come for the next muvie, esp Muallaf and TeleNtime(as i belum pernah tengok both muvie lagi.. pity me), so we are planning to go n watch both muvie jumaat nnt
cerita Muallaf kene berbayar tiketnye, n tiket da abes dijual, but we are planning to ask kak Orked to help us out so dat we can join to watch the muvie, but for TeleNtine, mmg already free but kene ke Blitz awal sejam la to get the tickets...

ok la
it's getting late n i need my beauty sleep now
sebelum tu
some piccas of today's Gubra session
ok then,
moin moin~


11th JIFF


with org seni


kak Orked Ahmad




Sharifah Amani and us

::oh yes, lupe nak ckp, lpas abes klas trus g Blitz tu sbb takut xsempat. dats y berbaju kurung, siap bawak beg keja sumbat2 the white coat dalam tu bawak berat2 kehulu kehilir::

The Three Billy Goats Gruff...

dear lifeylife...

tibe2 teringat kat cerita yg satu ini
dulu mase kecik2, Uncle Ted salu pos kan buku2 cerita kanak2 for me(selain dr Lego, mainan blocks, cards, baju and macam2 lagi)...
and this cerita adelah one of it
The Tree Billy Goats Gruff....
and dulu when i was 4, 5 or 6 years old, mak salu baca kan cerita ni to me(dan juge cerita2 lain yg Uncle Ted hantar)
siap dgn sound effect and all
pk2 balik funny la pulak kan
but i loved it to bits!!
and tonight i am missing it...
why? entah la... i dont know. just let me be ok? hehe~

so here it is...
The Three Billy Goats Gruff!!
(not 100% sama, tp more or less 95% sama la dgn the book Uncle Ted gave)

The Three Billy Goats Gruff

Once upon a time there were three billy goats, who were to go up to the hillside to make themselves fat, and the name of all three was "Gruff."

On the way up was a bridge over a cascading stream they had to cross; and under the bridge lived a great ugly troll , with eyes as big as saucers, and a nose as long as a poker.

So first of all came the youngest Billy Goat Gruff to cross the bridge.

"Trip, trap, trip, trap! " went the bridge.

"Who's that tripping over my bridge?" roared the troll .

"Oh, it is only I, the tiniest Billy Goat Gruff , and I'm going up to the hillside to make myself fat," said the billy goat, with such a small voice.

"Now, I'm coming to gobble you up," said the troll.

"Oh, no! pray don't take me. I'm too little, that I am," said the billy goat. "Wait a bit till the second Billy Goat Gruff comes. He's much bigger."

"Well, be off with you," said the troll.

A little while after came the second Billy Goat Gruff to cross the bridge.

Trip, trap, trip, trap, trip, trap, went the bridge.

"Who's that tripping over my bridge?" roared the troll.

"Oh, it's the second Billy Goat Gruff , and I'm going up to the hillside to make myself fat," said the billy goat, who hadn't such a small voice.

"Now I'm coming to gobble you up," said the troll.

"Oh, no! Don't take me. Wait a little till the big Billy Goat Gruff comes. He's much bigger."

"Very well! Be off with you," said the troll.

But just then up came the big Billy Goat Gruff .

Trip, trap, trip, trap, trip, trap! went the bridge, for the billy goat was so heavy that the bridge creaked and groaned under him.

"Who's that tramping over my bridge?" roared the troll.

"It's I! The big Billy Goat Gruff ," said the billy goat, who had an ugly hoarse voice of his own.

"Now I 'm coming to gobble you up," roared the troll.

Well, come along! I've got two spears,
And I'll poke your eyeballs out at your ears;
I've got besides two curling-stones,
And I'll crush you to bits, body and bones.

That was what the big billy goat said. And then he flew at the troll, and poked his eyes out with his horns, and crushed him to bits, body and bones, and tossed him out into the cascade, and after that he went up to the hillside. There the billy goats got so fat they were scarcely able to walk home again. And if the fat hasn't fallen off them, why, they're still fat; and so,

Snip, snap, snout.
This tale's told out.


this is the exact front page of the book Uncle Ted gave me!!
saye sngat terharu!!!

::org tamak selalu rugi, bagai anjing dengan bayang-bayang::
::next cerite The Enormous Turnip plak.. hehe~::

Monday, December 7, 2009

why women cry so easily?


dear lifeylife...

life with its ups and downs
and i found myself cry helplessly despite my ego every now and then
it must be confusing for the one who always there to see my tears fall
and to hear me sob for the simplest reason ever
i understand coz i am confused myself...
but it feels so good when it is over, i really dont know how and why but it sure does give me comfort... :)

so here u go guys, something for u to ponder,
think about ur mom, ur sister, ur aunts, ur friends
and all those people who are granted with the XX chromosomes
sometimes it is just it.....


Why Women Cry Easily !
One day, a young boy asked his mom.
"Why are you crying?"
"Because I'm a woman" she told him.

"I dont understand," he said.
His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will, but that's okay."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mom seem to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason" was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry finally, he put in a call to God.

When God got back to him, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?''

God answered, "When I made women, I decided she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet her arms gentle nough to give comfort.

I gave her the inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times will come, even from her own children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going and take care of her family and friends, even when everyone else gives up, through sickness and fatigue, without complaining.

I gave her sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances even when her child has hurt her badly. She has the very special power to make a child's boo-boo feel better and to quell a teenager's anxieties and fears.

I gave her strength to care for her husband, despite faults, and I fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife but some times tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

For all of this hard work, I also gave her a tear to shed, It is her's to use whenever needed and is her only weakness."

"When you see her cry, tell her how much u love her and all she does for everyone. And even though she may still cry, you will have made her heart feel good." "She is special!"

::talked to GOD on the phone? pfffttt.. mngarut! hahaha~::

Thursday, December 3, 2009

give empathy not sympathy...

dear lifeylife...

now i tgh stage EYE
mmg minor nye stage even tho we have test every single day tp takpe, semua tu xde sesusah mana, at least xsesusah menahan air mata bile kene tgok mata patient(esp old people, coz i have this thing about old people)...

what happened today, sedang kami bergembira bermain dgn this eye loupe thingy to inspect our friends' eyes, tibe2 ade sorng makcik masuk ruangan mata with her daughter i presumed, she was around 60, late 60 mayb, i dont really know whats the problem, but she sat at the slit lamp with our lecturer, and had her eyes checked, the the lecturer called us to come nearer and said,


eye loupe

"now i want u to look at her eye, she has mature cataract and...bla bla bla(telling us on how to use the slit lamp).."



slit lamp
cataract

and the woman with cataract, just sit there, stare blankly as we looked into her eyes... she's very old, and she cant see!! my eyes started to blur with tears("telan awa!! telan air mata tu!! jgn nanges depan patient!!!", i said to my self..)

next, was the Shadow Test, and next the visual test(usually using the Snellen cart but she cant see that far so we tried the counting fingers and the hand motion test)
u see, she has a mature cataract in her right eye and an immature cataract in her left eye..
so her visual is very very very bad!


Snellen Chart

when we finished doing all the tests, we bid her Good Bye and Thank her for letting us check her eyes. obviously, we were the one who had to thank her a great loads as we are just students and just merely looked at her eyes and didnt even treat her, but what made me so emotional is how she thanked us back, so gratefully, as if we had just treated her eyes! lepas die keluar trus berair2 mata...

**sigh**
that is so unprofessional man! we doctors have to be empathy and not sympathy, tapi bagaimana? kata hadi, "kau kene anggap semua manusia tu sama tanpa perasaan", kata intan, "bile patients dah sakit teruk, n lambat dtg, aku just ade perasaan marah saje, n bukannye kesian, sape suruh die lambat dtg jumpe dokter", kata awa, "die org tua, n i really cant stand the blank old stare from their eyes, tak tahan, luluh rasa hati"

kesimpulannye, cik awa xleh ngengade nak keje secara tetap kat department Geriatric okey?!

::melihat normal iris form the slit lamp adelah sngat mengagumkan, SUBHANALLAH! cantik nye ciptaan Allah, the iris nmpak mcam hamparan baldu, warna coklat keemasan, sngat cantek! my jaw literally dropped open ms tgah tgok iris tu::

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

kalu hati yang bergoyang mau tnya siapa?

dear lifeylife...


TANYA SAMA POKOK
Penyanyi: P. Ramlee
Filem: Anakku Sazali

Tanya pada pokok apa sebab goyang,
Nanti jawab pokok angin yang goncang,
Tanya sama langit apa sebab hujan,
Nanti jawab langit tanyalah awan.

Awan nanti kata aku kandung air,
Sampai tempat sejuk aku pun cair,
Tengok dalam air nampak bayang-bayang,
Campak satu batu bayang pun hilang.

Tanya sama hati apa asal sayang,
Adakah tandanya nampak dipandang,
Kumbang rayu bunga bulan dan bintangnya,
Punya tanda-tanda hubungan mesra.

Tanya sama hati pernahkah merindu,
Ingat masa lena apa mimpimu,
Masa berjauhan apa nan dikenang,
Bila difahamkan itulah sayang.

Jikalau tidak kerana sayang,
Kuntuman kasih tak mungkin kembang,
Andainya jemu mengganti rindu,
Jambangan mesra tentulah layu.

Tanya sama hati pernahkah merindu,
Ingat masa lena apa mimpimu,
Masa berjauhan apa nan dikenang,
Bila difahamkan itulah sayang.