My life!

well...I dont have any pictures right now...well i do..but i'm lazy.
As of new! I am moving sometime this month, I changed my major to Advertising minor in art, and I'm trying to start a new job by doing Photography at home. my new blog to see my online portfolio is http://larasphotography2010.blogspot.com So check it out. Peace my friends and i will get back with more later :D

03-12-2010

I am currently at home! Haha I love my family they are the best. I get to be around my nephews and nieces too! they are crazy but fun :D



I know its blurry but I love this picture.



Well, I just wanted to dedicate tonight's blog to our Men who protect our country. I have been thinking about it a lot lately for one reason or another. My cousin has her husband who is in the forces and also I have a child hood friend/family who is also in it. Its amazing that they give up so much to protect us and our freedom. I really am appreciative for all they do and I know i do take it for granite which I shouldn't.



On my way home, I passed a lot of trucks hauling tanks. I just am grateful for the sacrifices that the families take for their family members to deploy to different countries. Honestly I just don't know how i would feel about it, I would be proud of them, I'd support them. Just still it would stress me out. So thank you to the families as well.



"Marines Hymn"

From the Halls of Montezuma,
To the shores of Tripoli;
We fight our country's battles
In the air, on land, and sea;
First to fight for right and freedom
And to keep our honor clean;
We are proud to claim the title
Of United States Marine.

Our flag's unfurled to every breeze
From dawn to setting sun;
We have fought in every clime and place
Where we could take a gun;
In the snow of far-off Northern lands
And in sunny tropic scenes;
You will find us always on the job
The United States Marines.

Here's health to you and to our Corps
Which we are proud to serve;
In many a strife we've fought for life
And never lost our nerve;
If the Army and the Navy
Ever look on Heaven’s scenes;
They will find the streets are guarded
By United States Marines. :D




THANKS GUYS!

03-09-2010

Well, Its officially Crazy weather! I was having a hard time enjoying my ticket writing job. It was snowing like crazy!



See that was my Sad face from all the snow haha

Well today has been Uneventful other than that. Its been great though because I've been in contact with a lot of my friends lately and they are all good to talk to and give me their support.

Last night I probably did a No No and went to a movie...lol its a no no because I haven't quite found a job yet. but I really really wanted to see it! I went to Alice in Wonderland And I LOVED IT! I wouldn't recommend it for little kids though because the monsters can be a little scary and there were alot of eye poking outs... lol Over all I thought it was well done. WE went with a group of three and two out of three liked it. the one who was not in favor said she doesnt really like disney movies so, they happy cheerful middle parts werent for her. haha.



I would completely adore a friend such as the Mad Hatter the Johnny Depp played. Sigh okay maybe just any one that is Johnny Depp. But no, the Character was faithful and was wanting to be with Alice at all costs. I need to find someone who thinks of me first. but I guess i need to be a good friend to have such a good friend huh.

But as we all know the movie was in 3D so here is our picture with the lovely glasses :D



I am enjoying cedar more now than I had before because A. no tv to steal my time, B. I have friends who drag me out to do things So thank you all my friends :D

Wow Sorry

I have had a busy Time! lol, My birthday was last Saturday so I was able to throw my hands in the air and yell PARTY! haha. No really, It was a blast. this weekend though made me realize that I have the greatest friends and family in the world.

My Momma and Sister came down and we had fun just hanging out, then my Friends came over that night and we had a Great Party! We had a bomb fire and I actually jumped over it...lol (when it was small)




and then My new friend Shaka has this Crazy/dangerous game... he called it Focker ball where you tie shirts in a dozen small knots one on top of the other and then pour a little gas on it...and light it. lol You are able to kinda juggle it around and throw it. as he said, It makes you feel like Super Mario when you have Flower Power! Yeah...I played with it...probably singed my hair a bit, but it was great! okay so I'm trying to upload some pictures from my phone...so Lets see how this goes.



This is a picture of me walking around in the Snow! haha its cold but hey its a job. Writing tickets is the bomb



I really have nothing to say about this one...

Choices... choices...

Well, One thing happened I couldn't really control, but now I have a million choices laid in front of me...Now what to do?

I can continue here at school, get my BA in... something and then go start a career. Or I can become a traveling bum and live off garbage cans...Or I could move home and find a job and just pay off all my debts. AHH so much to think about. But then again, Its really fun. I am at a pivotal time, I can take a step in any direction in shaping my future from right here.

I guess Every day I should view like this...the quote..today is called the present because it is a present... but for some reason I get sucked into the day to day thing, and become like a lemming. Doing what "The Man" (yes I brought "The Man" into it) wants and what society thinks is what I should do.

I am Me! I have another chance to Redefine Me! I'm so happy and grateful for this!

I have started to start to set goals, I guess a New "Bucket" list.

Some things I want to do right now:

-Have my art in a Gallery

-Climb to the highest point of the Mountain next to Cedar City

-Hike Angels Landing

-Pass my Classes

Some long term goals...well I'm still thinking about that :D

I guess right now my long term goals will probably orient around this quote for the movie "The Bucket List"

“You know, the ancient Egyptians had a beautiful belief about death. When their souls got to the entrance to heaven, the guards asked two questions. Their answers determined whether they were able to enter or not. ‘Have you found joy in your life?’ 'Has your life brought joy to others?’

I think I will Volunteer for the Service club here at school. I know if I will forget myself and serve other I will be more happy. I guess like the scripture.. "whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it" Matthew 16:25

So to sum up, I need to find joy and give joy to others. Life is too short to suffer in silence and not forgiving others. Life is supposed to be happy, bold, and Not forgettable! So Forward I go, With my head held high and I will take on the world one step at a time.



Though my hands seem small and insignificant, my hands are strong. I will provide for my future and for the future of those around me. They will give all they can, tire under the work, crack, maybe bleed. But they are my hands, my tools. I will make them be what they may.

Hugs :D

Hugs are an incredible thing. It shows someone really cares and that you can trust and be trusted when given a hug. Today I have been given hugs by different people, who show they care. One friend's hug told me he will be here for me, and the other is someone who just recently went through a divorce as well and His hug told me he understood. So much happens between two people, the contact is more than just physical but it is also a very relieving spiritual mean.

I wanted to understand this more and I googled hugs...haha..googled should be a verb, and yet my computer is saying its a typo. Anyways, Some things that came up were Hugs are more beneficial than an antidepressant pill. (psychology today magazine) Another website states that levels of the stress hormone cortisol decreased in women, as did their blood pressure when receiving and given a hug, also hugs release two feel-good brain chemicals, serotonin and dopamine.
In a trial test they found:

* Blood pressure increased significantly more among the no-contact group as compared to the huggers.

* Heart rate among those without contact increased 10 beats a minute, compared to five beats a minute for huggers.


On the spiritual level, it just feels good to be close. Kinda like an I Robot movie quote:
Dr Alfred Lanning:
There have always been ghosts in the machine. Random segments of code, that have grouped together to form unexpected protocols. Unanticipated, these free radicals engender questions of free will, creativity, and even the nature of what we might call the soul. Why is it that when some robots are left in darkness, they will seek out the light? Why is it that when robots are stored in an empty space, they will group together, rather than stand alone? How do we explain this behavior? Random segments of code? Or is it something more? When does a perceptual schematic become consciousness? When does a difference engine become the search for truth? When does a personality simulation become the bitter mote... of a soul?

So yeah I think our souls are what make us want to be closer, to seek light and stand together...a hug can be this missing link, a spiritual closeness, one where we connect with our brother and sisters since we have no USB ports or Flash drives to connect between each other (Or like avatar...LOVE IT) I guess When I received my hugs today I felt uplifted, I felt understood. Its been a while since I've felt this way, So thank you my dear friends.

Have you hugged today? Remember, You need to give love to receive it, You need to give a hug to receive one. So shower today and put on your deodorant and Start Hugging! lol, I think i will increase my hugs, and You should too...so when I hug you, you wont be freaked out... :D



P.S. For my birthday..I would love a shirt that says free hugs... haha

Just Forget about it-

"Listen,when I was a little girl, I used to spend hourslooking for ladybugs. Finally, I'd just give upand fall asleep in the grass. When I woke up,they were crawling all over me."

This is one of my favorite quotes from "Under the Tuscan Sun" This movie is about someone who is in my same situation where her husband chose he didnt want to be married and she was forced into finding herself again. Her friend was giving her advice that you may be contiunally looking for happiness not able to find it, but once you start actually living again you will find yourself surrounded with new things that make you happy.

She pretty muched summed it up, "Go work on your house, and Forget about it."

I am trying to just forget about the pain I've been put through, and just live again. I think this will help me not be bitter because if i dwell on what has gone wrong, i will become a wallower, one who see's no more sunrises, or the potential of a new day.

I guess I will try and remain busy, and just "forget about it"