29 May 2009

Graduation Day!! Yay!

Does it feel like I have been building up to this post forever??? It feels that way!!

May 28, 2009
Chelsea Kate graduates from Springville High School!!
In front of our house with her "Senior" sign..
The school gives these out and everyone hangs them on their house..
{I LOVE this tradition!!}

I enjoy the silly faces:)

Our view of Chelsea for most of the evening..
She is done!!

ChelseaKate & Colton
A hug from Grandma Rosemary
With Grandma Rosemary & Grandpa Glade (Davy's parents)
Now, add Nick & Julie!! (Davy's sister and son)
{hmmm.. my parents, sister, brother-in-law, and Bea were there, too..
none of those pictures are on my camera.. look soon on Chelsea's blog for those!!)
ChelseaKate & Katie!!
..doing what they do best!..
Yay ChelseaKate!!

We love this girl and are proud of her!!

27 May 2009

Imagine, ...If You Will

[As I mentioned in my earlier post, today was the Dance Festival at the elementary school..]

Imagine a photo of 1st grade Adeline doing the Mexican Hat Dance..

{she has been so excited - this is her first festival.. she drew me a diagram of where she and Savannah would be, and where the optimum seating would be to view each of them}

{we were in Bajio last night, and she wondered if they would play the Mexican Hat Dance, and if they did, would any employees join her in the routine? Is this racist??}

but I digress..

Imagine a shot of 4th grade Savannah performing the Texas Star..

{imagine Savannah telling me she doesn't want to do the Sophisticated Hula next year, and it would be alright with her if I called in sick for her that day..}

Imagine a random picture of Colin doing that.. 3rd grade dance with the sticks.. (I can't remember what its called!) because we usually take pictures of him at school functions when we see him..

Welllllll.. unfortunately, as Chelsea tried to take pictures, she remembered she left the memory card right here by the computer.. oh well..

Its okay! We did video.. So now imagine all of the above, not as stills, but in motion!! Even better!!

Welllllll.. I remembered we can't find the cord to connect our video camera to the computer..

Isn't it fun??

No.. not really..

Be ready for tomorrow, when we can imagine Chelsea GRADUATING!!.....

::dangflabbit::

The Queen of Procrastination Strikes Again..

[yes, I am royalty]

So, we're leaving on a trip early Saturday morning..

Like an 11 day trip..

Am I ready? No..

You are probably thinking, "you have 3 whole days, you're fine"

No, I really don't..

First, I take FOR.E.VER to pack..

Today I have dance festival at the elementary school, Chelsea has graduation practice, I have to pick up the dog from the groomer in American Fork (don't ask, but he had to be there at 7am), I have to pick up my new coffee table, need to get the rest of Chelsea's graduation gift [the exact one we want won't get here before we leave town, so settling for 2nd choice.. ugh] I need to find someone to feed my dog, cats and Chelsea's fish while we're gone, and I need a substitute for 2 Sundays in Nursery (did I mention I'm out of Cub Scouts and in the nursery now? Yay! I love Nursery!)

Tomorrow.. Well, GRADUATION.. Plus I have my parents coming in town (luckily, I don't think they expect me to be entertaining..) I guess I'll do my last minute laundry?

Friday.. Last day of school for little girls, packing, convincing Chelsea she wants to go [this is ongoing.. :)]

And now, before I curl in a ball, I need to wake up the girlies!!

16 May 2009

I'm Coming Back!!

I had my d&c on Thursday, and I'm feeling pretty amazing..

You have a whole new outlook on life when you don't feel like vomitting 24/7!!

I was able to clean a lot of my main floor today!! Yay!! I can't complain, the family did a good job of keeping up for me, but I'm sorry, I just do it different!! I feel like I'm starting to take my home back!!

I still have SO much to catch up on (don't think about the laundry..) but I at least feel like I can!!

Thanks everyone for what you've said and done for me!! It really means so so much!!

06 May 2009

bear with me on this one..

A few weeks ago, I was remembering a conversation I had with my mom in December of 1997..

At this point in our lives, Chelsea was almost 7 years old, and after years of hoping/wishing/trying/crying for a baby, I was finally coming to terms that it wasn't going to happen for us..

In fact, I was listing the advantages of having only one child [2 I will highlight]

At least I had ONE!! so many would never have that, and I didn't want to EVER seem ungrateful for that.. 

And.. we were past the point of having to baby switch at Disneyland/World..
 
On our last family trip (in October) to Disneyland, I 
commented to Davy that it had taken us 11 years to 
get back to that point..

Because the following September (of '98) we had 
Savannah, followed 3 years later by Adeline..

As I was planning our little girls' surprise trip to 
Disneyland this March, I couldn't help but think 
of the irony of these thoughts.. Because I had 
recently found out I was pregnant again..

SHOCK.. 

I know..

Those of you who know us well, know we've never had an easy time getting pregnant, and learned long ago that 
our family planning wasn't up to us, it was up to 
Heavenly Father..

You also may know that I've had 3 previous miscarriages.One right before getting pregnant with Adi, at 10 weeks; one when Adi was about 1 1/2 also at 10 weeks; and one 
in September of 2007 at 19 weeks..

Because of our recent poor track record, the only people who have known until now are me, Davy and Chelsea..

This is not easy:
I get very sick (especially now) very nauseous, lots of 
vomit, and my new added bit of fun; ice-pick stabbing 
into my brain headaches..

I'm very much a get out and do something kind of person, and I've spent the last 7 weeks in bed.. literally.. I have 
fallen off the face of the earth.. 

We chose not to tell the little girls yet, losing that last 
one was very hard on them.. (but they have confided in 
Davy that they're worried I have swine flu)

I am not getting any younger.. I know if I were a 
celebrity, I'm that prime age to have a baby.. but I live in Springville, Utah and have an 18 year old daughter, it 
makes me feel old to be doing this..

So yesterday, May 5th, I had my 12 week appointment.. My OB and his nurse (both of whom I 
adore) were quick to tell me that he had delivered a 
woman last Friday who was 48.. Which 
made me feel like a spring chicken,.. really..

Since I am technically 11 weeks and 3 days, he said we 
should be able to hear a heartbeat, but its early, and 
when we couldn't we weren't worried.. But given my 
track record, he decided to send me to Jay, the fabulous 
ultrasound guy, just to make sure..

So I rushed off to Spanish Fork, drinking a Gatorade as 
fast as I could, so I'd have something in my bladder..

I have had many ultrasounds in my life, this being my 
(gulp!) 7th pregnancy..

I knew the second we could see the baby.. 
There was no little flutter in its body that shows a 
heartbeat..

That strange part of me had 2 distinct reactions:
  1. I can't believe I've lost another baby.. Even when I'm still feeling so horribly sick
  2. This poor man.. He has to tell me that my baby isn't alive.. For what a fun, exciting job this can be, this part has to be terrible..
He, of course, was amazingly sweet, and really took the time to "show me around" and to scratch his head..

Another amazing part, is he showed me parts of the baby that indicate that it had literally died within the last few hours.. Even so far as to say that when I woke up that morning it was probably still alive.. That is hard to believe.. I can honestly say that I'm glad it happened this way.. I know what's coming..

So, here I am today, waiting to miscarry..

Still feeling annoyingly nauseated..

Still with a brain-splitting headache..

And now, nothing to show for it..

Ironically, I'm really pretty okay.. I've gotten good at not getting my hopes up too high..

Oh, and did I say that Davy is in Alabama? He's feeling pretty terrible that he's not here..

I can say, I'm so so glad we decided to keep this a secret, especially from the little girls.. So don't say anything to them if you see them.. Thanks!

Thanks for listening/reading..

*this should explain my lack of blogging*