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david hoe.
NorthC.
catholic junior college.
(more to come. haha.)

when life seems to be at its peak,
it may crumbles and fall into pieces by natural agents.
all these simply alludes to the foundation of the building.
instantly, the boisterous children vanished into thin air.
looking at the building now, it awakes poignant memories of those sparkles of joy.

now, it's dependent on you will perceived that paragraph.

alright. i will sum up my day with one word, fruitful.
i enjoyed the time spent with sherman, remus and the leadership team.
yesh! i can see revival happening! =)
time to burst out in growth!

well. i do feel extremely burden!
for our new believers!
God i pray that retention will be 100%!
i anticipate to see the rise of new leaders and shpds!

alright. i need to buzz off to do wrk! =!
davidhoe!

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what can my mind perceived?
your greatness made me stand in flabbergasted.
the moving of your feet just raise the sound of triumphant in my heart.
what else can i still perceive? tell me.

that was random.
anyways. by now, some may have known that far north and west A has combined to be a new sub d.
HSFNW. HIGH SCHOOL FAR NORTH WEST! =)
this is seriously going to shake the whole land of FNW. =)
the rampant corruption of youths must stop here.
my fire within my heart has ignited to a higer level.
the passion has driven deeper.
the love has gone to the ends of the island.
far north west brothers will be a REVIVAL GENERATION.
after spending time with the FNW brothers today, i must say that i enjoy their presence.
more importantly, i see them as a man after God's own heart and influence.
sherman is added into my sheep pen. wha. i really look forward to shepherding him man! haha.
i love all my sheep.

anyways. for blog surfers, you might be wondering why 'REVIVAL GENERATION' right?
well. i shall break the whole mystery for you.
as i was heading for home on the bus, i asked God this, 'God, can you tell me what are you going to do in this group? your direction too?'.
As i made this prayer, the song 'God is moving' ran through my head.
suddenly, the song that played in my ipod on shuffle mode, was playing God is moving!
wha! haha. so divine right?
so as i was hearing to the lyrics in the song, bang! the phrase, 'can you hear the sound of revival?' caught my attention. =)
the whole idea of a revival generation for brothers must happened.
we will see a strong unit and sub d of brothers in far north west by end of this year.

the picture of an army with the leader at the front of the battle line came into my mind.
the leader said, 'Charge! we are moving forward!' ring in my mind.
yesh. this will be likewise, we are going to conquer far north west with the same spirit.
we are charging forward.
revival generation.

davidhoe

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pics.

Ex DMM. where am i? haha.

Just so much fun. =) 

The ex marist grp! =) my ex sheep! haha. Lesile, si han, kar shun and de zheng.

Marist with yu qian. =)

My two strong female leaders and ex sheep.

that's yu qian! happy bday! and what's aloy doing there?

so we were singing? lalalala

we started with all these. =)

more pics?

okay. i look dumb!

eh. where was i looking? nvm. haha. yu qian and me.

do we look like ghost? helena and me.

happy eating. aloysius wasted his food! argh.

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life is comparable to a long haul race.
spiritual life is like a marathon.
sprinting may bring ya far at the start of the race, but it's questionable if one may last.

i am stupefied to realise how many are still in this race.
the gathering we had today brings back nostalgic memories.
we talked about those days when we served God together, the care groups we had, shepherdings we recieved, the veue and stuff.

Some of us move on to the next life station while others settled for a new life, and i'm still here.
when i saw their faces today, i must say that many have changed.
their dressing, speech, gestures and stuffs.
but deep in the recesses of my heart, i still love and care for them.
across the table sat 12 of us.
of which 9 were once my sheep. Out of this 9 sheep, 3 has left the lord but i know they still have a yearning to come back to him. My covenant with all my sheep has been always this, a shepherd for life.

I remember this unit came out from north A. Our unit leader was nicloe. We sat in a circle formation in church office in year 2001, and our unit leader announced the birth of north c. This unit comprises of only guys from marist, gyss, ftpss and beatty.
I remember that our first few weeks foucs was to maintain the 15 mark in order to be called a unit.
we even met before service at orchard point, bk to talk about our 15.
As time went by, the unit grew in quality and numbers.
At then i was taking care of the toa payoh schools at then, there came my first two female sheep. yu qian and helena.
I can vividly remember the care group we had at some park? yeah. we made deliberate effort to have a theme and invite cards for cg.(THE CODE) We will sit around starhub foodcourt every saturday to plan the following cg. wha. =) It's indeed amazing.
Not long after, i was asked to lead the far north group.
At then, toa payoh was called central north with marist group as well.
In that particular far north group, it started with kar shun, lesile, wei song and whosoever.
Central north was aloysius, si han, yu qian, helena and wen cai.
oh yeah. i led marist along the way too. =)
and the journey went on. =)
after three months have passed, it was announced that the sisters group to be transferred to north A.
Our hearts sunk further when we heard that our unit leader left church.
It was at this period of time, priscilla took our whole unit.
She trained me under her gudiance and help me to lead the whole unit.
At then we were about 30 odd 40.
I also remember it was at that period that leslie, kar shun and de zhen transferred to poly group.
and so much more.
north c has undergo at least 7 stages.
in fact, the history of north C has many parts.
and i'm very proud to have been through all of it untill i came to west.

The current north c now is a new book written by ruth.

but all in all, i must say, i enjoyed today's gathering.
though some of us have left, but deep within my heart, i truly care.
for all my ex and current sheep, i love you guys!

i will keep these memories in my heart.

i will upload some pictures too. =)

davidhoe

i wonder who will still be in this race 5 years later?
the people that matters to me? will they?
and will i?
i just simply wonder.
j/d= like what ya said.

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Religon is a burden we carry with us all our lives.
it can be a set of beliefs, rules and such.
a relationship sustain you for life and the desire for intimacy is met.

we are human beings and not doings.

sometimes, i wished that i had not lost certain relationships.
sigh.
God will make a way. =)

davidhoe

i'm back to blogging again.
anyways, i have a deep thought on leadership as i was heading home.

Psalm 72
A psalm of Solomon.
1 Give justice to the king, O God, and righteousness to the king's son.
2 Help him judge your people in the right way; let the poor always be treated fairly.
3 May the mountains yield prosperity for all, and may the hills be fruitful, because the king does what is right.
4 Help him to defend the poor, to rescue the children of the needy, and to crush their oppressors.

The first question that starts me thinking was this,
'what is leadership all about?'
Many thoughts start to accumulate within my mind.
One word shows the simplicity and sublimity of it, Influence.

great! so what's this influence all about?
why did God instill this influence in our leadership?
Then i looked at psa78 frm the NLT version.
Solomon had great influence and power, at then.
but The irony is this, why did he still asked God for influence?
The answer came in verse 4.
The purpose of influence is to speak up for those who do have that influence.
It's not about leading trillions of people alone, but to help others to speak out.

Then i thought of leading people.
so many times we are concern and worry about growth in our groups.
but there's one truth that i hold onto.

our body is made of many complex system.
when they body is healthy it automatically grows.
so why worry about growth of the group?
i think the more important worry we ought to have is this,
am i healthy? is my group healthy?
is it fed with the substantial amount of word and living out christ.
Growth needs not to be forced out when we are healthy.

alright. i need to buzz off now.
davidhoe

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i thought of this 'poem?' on the bus just nw.
it's about a friend of mine.

Life is just like strolling down on a beach,
filled with numerous sea shells.
innocent and harmless looking shells but well embellished with its shades.

then i bend my knees and gazed deeply into the white sand,
right before my very pair of eyes was a sea shell.
that gazed on it, lifted the sense of euphoria inside of me.

it has no distinct features that stands out from all the rest
but it is a shell i can call it my friend.
the simplicity of your presence is a bliss in my life.

the end.

i must make a disclaimer.
i have never taken LIT before
thus if this poem?? sucks, that's too bad.
it's for my friend. hehe.
bruce.

david hoe

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the magnitude of our emotions is dependent on circumstances.
we strolled down the streets and our bird eye view tells us some people feelings.
the anxiety look on their faces, relief and much more expression.
none of us are made without emotions, aren't we?
certainly.

however, some people never truly express it out.
we get agitated at times when people just bottled issues within them.
maybe sometimes we should consider this,
'Have i allow this person to be real with me?'.

another simple question i would like to post,
'how often do we pour out our emotions to God?'
To me, God doesn't think of my as 'UNSPIRITUAL'!
i dare to be naked and transparent infront of God.
when i come before his throne, i may say hurtful words to him.
but all in all, i know he wants to listen.
i'm just david hoe in his eyes. not some holy hoe.
Jesus lives in me and he does life with me.
he's not some God in the church where i try to impress him.
i'm just who i am in him.

davidhoe

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as the rampant stroms start to surge through my heart,
it struck me to know that you still care.

simply put, i was dumbfounded by your deed.
it's the simplicity of that action that brings warmth to my heart.
'david, what can i pray for you?'

it came at a divine timing.

God, currently i am in a state of despondent.
i hope that sometimes, they will be able to read my heart.
the doing out of love.
i abhor doing certain things at times,
why bother to make my life closer to death by doing so?
the only answer i can truthfully tell myself if this,
all because of love. i see the need to take care of them as a life.

well. God i just hope they will comprehend.
alright. i'm leaving all those sadness to you now.
charging up by your grace.
and moving on.

as much as these problems eat up my strenght,
i feel weak and helpess.
but it's in all these,
i find my closeness to you.
this is all i want.

that close.

david

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finally, i'm able to break the chain of procrastination for the past few days about making a post!
the week was filled with fruitful events, and it has spurred me to extend my sleeping time by an hour.
apparently, the clock depcits 12.22am. but the bundles of energy still remain unbroken!

i will not deny the visible fact that these few days have been relatively hectic.
hectic in a sense that it doesn't refer to humdrum living.
as much as it draws my physical, spiritual and emotional strength from me, i have managed to smile through it all.
something that i'm rather impressed with myself during this week.
a child like prayer. =)
due to all these ministry, workloads, demands and stuff it has taught me to seek God in a child like manner.
i explained to the all knowing God about the complexities of emotions that runs within me.
irony.
honestly, i felt a great sense of relief by telling God slowly about the happenings in my life. =)
give me this child like heart and mind. =)
and a child like obedience.
the truth is sometimes as we aged, we tend to lose this child likeness towards God.
we allow the inquistive nature to overtake us. and faith is thereby relied on facts.
not that facts are obnoxious, rather we enter to the point of questioning with a heart filled with skeptics.

i met up with eelee yesterday and i told her this, 'I will not want to step down in leading even during my o level period. i still insist on meeting up all my sheep weekly and leading my group! I want to do this to show God's power in my life. seriously, why do i need to wait for last mintue then study and at the end neglecting my people. i rather start consistent work now. i choose to live a life that God is in the centre!'. There is nothing really flamboyant about that few statements but the challenge is to get 6 points. It's seems completely impossible. Initially, my goal was not to get 6 points but just 15 and below. After considering what God has spoken to me, i will take up this challenge. To manage my ministry, family, social friends and yet excelling in my studies without compromising any bit at all. another irony, i see the possibility in the impossibility. see, i'm personally convicted of this, if this jesus thing is real, then i'm dead serious in giving my all. After all, i do not seek to waste my effort in building on something is fake. If this jesus guy is real and the bible is infallible, then i submit to you that i'm not heading for a life that speaks mediocre.

on top of that, i'm looking forward to what is coming ahead of in my minstry few months down the road. i'm anticipating new cls to rise and i want to lead a new aspect of my ministry. =) yesh! intetresting huh. yeah.

been thinking of friendship recently. friendship is not as easy as it seems to me. the complexities to me has transcended all my expectations. =/ alright, i was just talking to someone today abt friendship. sometimes, we know that by saying something to their respective person who that could help them, will turn out to be a detrimental effect to the realtionship between you and the party. i realised that as well. sometimes, people claimed it as busybodies. but the never really see the reason for doing so. so much so, that they claim that you have hurt them and nothing can plaster the relationship back. what about me? honestly, i have friends that stabbed me from the front before through telling the respective person who is able to help me and i admit that i was burning with smoke at then. But when i woke up to my senses, i only learn that he meant care. and i seek to restore the relationship. and yeah we plastered it well. Isn't that simply true about a real friend?
I allow you to know who i really am inside and give you the key to my heart also allowing you to hurt me.
jonathan and david. i'm still finding for my jonathan. the jonathan i once thought i had, has already left.
God, is it so tough to find my jonathan? I pray my jonathan will come soon as i serve you.

alright. these are all my thoughts, feelings and convictions for the week.

anyways. ting wants me to put this, TINGTING IS THE BEST.

oh yeah! we are on our way to 16! his direction, my steps.

davidhoe

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i dream that i was there at the garden.
i wished the wings would spread over my head.
i hope to hear the nature praising your name.
i long to see you in the majestic robes.
i pounder upon your grace.
i want to glare at the black eyes of the serpent.
i yearned to enter back to the beginning of time.
but more importantly, i desire to be where you are.

alright. firstly, i escaped from the fingers of school.
due to the lack of amount of sleeping hours, i was susceptible by the tiredness.
with more consequential reasons, i just skipped it.
i slept my morning away till one at noon.
after which, i met joel and his team at three in lot1.
the interesting event of the day was, Joel shepherded me. =)
the heart of a shepherd.
he taught this lesson to his team, and i was his 'sheep' for that period.
after which, we announced our two new shpds frm his team!
thus, we have 3 sec one shpds for now! =) great job!
i'm can see a great amount of potential in joel's new team! haha.
alright! so what's next?
i shepherded joel with two lessons today.
haha. he proved he has the capacity to take in.
and next lesson, we will have THREE. haha. =)

i was reminded of this once again today, do not dwell in past victories.
move on! =) and fight!

haha. one thing that recaptured me today was this,
will jesus do it if he was in your situation?
sounds like wwjd? but this question is much more on a personal level.

alrights. i better head for bed now.
nights to the world!

davidhoe

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cakes.
the layers after layers of it make our eyes giltter in anticipation.
cheeries and peach makes it tempting voice evident.
the heavenly clouds just slime over the yellow firm sea.
despite it's orentation, the flavour never depletes.
then the sharp edged steel pierce through the cake.
the heart seems to be filled with duanting expression!

the cake is just like our lives, isn't it?
sometimes, those scars by the knife remain.
but we simply question god, 'Why are there such things in my life?'
his reply to me was very simple,
'From these weakness, i wil make them your strenghts.'
i was stunned.
as much as the scar remains, we do realise the the taste never changed.
i'm the same for his taste.

yesh! that was what God answered me during my retreat on friday! =)
anyways! i wanna continue frm where i last stop abt Go'ds moving!
indeed it's so real!
haha
we hit 14 today! =) praise his name!
joel took 8 of it! hahaha.
more sec 1's are becoming shpd! yeah

to see a unit in every school! =)
it shall be done!
haha

ICEMAN RETURNS!
DAVIDHOE

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ideal situations.
whatever we have learnt in high school about physics are mostly based on ideal moments.
infact, 9 out of 10 times it is never true.
take for example, we are taught that acc due to gravity 10m/s2.
only when we enter college then we come to realise it is not true.
free fall graph is not constant as well. =)
it is only constant without air resistance.
if it's constant on this earth, then it's an ideal situation.

many times in our life we craved for ideal timing and such.
most of the times it never happened.
it seems completely impossible to attain it, isn't it?
take for example, we always seek that everyone benefit but our actions does not reciprocate likewise.
deliberate efforts must be put into attaining such situation.
let's not just wish that ideal situations will happen, but let's make every effort to let it come to pass.

God has his ways in motivating me.
i use to think that having a l1r5 of below 10pts is great.
but after knowing shawn and li feng, i'm very inspired to get all aces.
their l1r5 for O levels is 6pts.
shawn has 9A1s and 2A2s.
li feng scored 9 aces for her A levels and she's national top.
hehe. i think it's time to put in real effort in my studies and shine for him.
God, guard my heart.
i want to do it for you alone.
and the amazing thing is, shawn live few blocks away frm me!
haha. got to know them more a little today.

alright. it's time for me to go and swim 30 laps today!
and i will be having my personal retreat and tonight, i will be at aaron hse!
haha. =x

davidhoe

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our naked eyes will tell us more than our verbal expression.
the eye captured the maxium sight while the mouth paints the picture of what was seen.
certain things, the mouth may add or subtract certain events the naked eyes see.
therefore, recently this very pair eyes of mine seemed to tell me so much.
tell me wonders that i have never seen before.
truths that changed my world view and peer view.
the eyes has taught me so much that no amount of books are able.

today, this pair of eyes taught me about God's faithfulness.
when the spiritual eyes see the possibility in impossibilty, the physical self is rejuvenated.
i saw his working in my care group. =)
i saw him changing the hearts of many, sowing seeds into their hearts and total transformation.
his presence and words are so real. they never seem to backfire.
do you know that his faithfulness has spread?
joel's cg hitted 8 for service confirmation!??
can we claim that God's not real?
through these few weeks, i really learn this thing to a LARGE extend, DIVINE LEADING.

honestly, i do not think i'm a fabulous leader.
neither am i a smart nor skillful.
time is my limitation.
i feel so finite.
God gave me a team and through this team his grace is expressed.
this time round, it's his grace again.

just a simple question for whoever that is reading this post,
what does the cross mean to you?
the cross has such a simple meaning but a life changing effect.
how has the cross changed ya life?

sometimes we think that it will be better if i've not known this person called jesus.
i beg to differ.
think about it again.
if we have not known him, will we be able to define the feeling deep within?
the empty feeling?
don't tell me no that quick.
Look at the circle of friends we have outside, do we not realise that some craved acceptance?
the are lost in the entanglements of trying to find their identity. they feel frustrated because of this issue.
some simply give up and retreat to a world of their own.
think about it again, is it really THAT great to not have known JESUS? maybe.
the struggle of emotions. the state of confusion. the lack of shoulder to lay on.
i do not know about you, i hate not being able to define my feelings.
if we have not known him, we may not be able to define it.
so you think it's better to keep it that way?
think about it again.
frustatration will build within you.

go ahead and beg to differ all you want.

this empty apartment.

davidhoe

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when life is painted with bright colours,
we tend to take it for granted.
those days of dark clouds seemed to fade into the pit of unrecovery.
the fish finds it's comfort within it's tank.
letting it out to the sea spells disaster for them.
but not doing so, they will live in a state of denial.
so what then should we do about it?
by doing any of both, there is a price to pay.
so should we just remain silent.

i'm impressed by the momoons? sp error.
they have this unceasing desire to share their gospel.
out of 10 rides on the train to west, i see them 7 times at least.
i was chewing upon his word today, then this guy dressed in formal wear approached me.
he spoke and i listened.
he uttered many stuffs which were worth a thought for. =)

by any means, they depicts the scence of the fish.
they do not take things for granted.
venturing out and face the torrents of wave will not press them down.
once again, i'm impressed at their faith.

do we take our faith for granted?
we are so comfortable with God's love that we take all these for granted?
his grace, love, forgivness, hope and such.

haha. =)
anyways. i studied with ting and eugene.
aaron ps me. donkey
haha. but i'm going to stay over at his hse on friday!
wonderful friend! a blessing frm God.
haha.

alright. i better get some wrk done now! monkey!

davidhoe

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alright, i ought to be sleeping early tonight.
even as my fingers move over the spcious keyboard, concurrently my eye lids are getting heavier as the clock ticks.
according to what my senses tell me, i wanted to lie flat onto my bed with arms resting widely. Sinking into another dimension of reality.
but something just bothered my thoughts. i decided to make a post about it. =)

do we agree that many times in our life we are afraid to disappoint certain people?
take for example, when the household chores are still stacking over each, we are apprehensive that parents will be disappointed with us.
we are afraid to disappoint our teachers when we do badly for our test and such.
but it occured to me just now, are we afraid that we will disappoint God as well?
let's re-examine what i just mentioned.
why do we not feel afraid that we disappoint God by not being salt and light in our familes and studies? but more concern about disappointing others?
is it because of the self ego, to cover up the flaws in us?
pride that's holding us back from being real?
after thinking about this, i must say it's time that we start comprehend that God has feelings too.
he's not some doll for us to KICK and play with but he's GOD. not your DOG.

that's my thoughts! hahaha.

anyways, my poor foot are injured badly.
God please heal it.
it hurts like hell. =)

davidhoe

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a bustling city within the vincity of my heart!
the bundles of energy has kept me away till now, 4.45am!
of my many billions seconds in ministry, this is the first time my eyes still sparkle till now!
the more i think of dicipleship the more it kicks me out of my bed!
it's about people that God love!
i simply love all my sheep and disciples too! =)
and i'm certain the disciples that God has given me will make be a disciple marker than me.

For the past 3 energetic hours, i've ransacked my beautiful room to reslot all my past teachings and picking the relevant ones out for the coming 10 weeks!
teachings for shepherdings, leadership revolution and care group! (",)
using my gift of admin, i've come out with a discipleship form for my disciples and me.
It comprises of what to be done in each shepherding sessions and what skills to impart!
i believe with all my heart that discipleship itself must be planned!
if we fail to plan, we plan to fail.
love and God's word are the foundation of it.

I'm able to do all these, because i'm confident of just one thing.
i know that God is leading this group.
Not me.
i'm just his insturment! =)
so no matter what, i don't care how low we hit but i know he's with us!
i will be damn ashamed of myself, to doubt God.
because i know he will see it come to pass, and i will be a retard to doubt him.

anyways. i had a intimate time of sharing with brandon today.
till close to 2am. =)
i cabbed home, obviously! haha. but it's worth it.

'If you are in your ministry for more than four years, you ought to move on.' This ministry is not being some prince or princess like being the higher 'L'.
i like this statment! unless the ministry needs me, then i wil stay.
if not, i must move on and not be the bottle neck! =)

just a food for thought:
are we in our ministry because we want to or have too?
if we have too, then i urge you to renew your passion.
God called you here for a reason.
let it be fufilled! =)

alright. 5.01am alrdy.
i'm too lazy to check for my errs.
so well. i'm heading to slp and wake up by 10.30am! hehe.

God, guide me.

davidhoe

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