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david hoe.
NorthC.
catholic junior college.
(more to come. haha.)

short term palliatives

exacerbated. =)

Grace and forbearance just never seemed to be understood by humans at times.
I cannot fathom enough about friendship that God has given me.
Thank you, Jesus.

I just took at two hours plus journey home on foot with brandon till the initial stage then with fang wei till the intermidate followed by joeseph over the phone to the final point. =) Though it was a long long journey but i'm dumbfounded at how God has been so good to me.

Father, i thank you for really giving me a friend where i could turn too physically. When i feel so lost, you led me once again. Thank you for giving me a friend when i needed it the most. Brandon, thanks for being there for me and listening to all my fumbles. Thank you. I never regreted knowing you and having you as my buddy as you were there for me many times. Just like today. Thanks for reminding me this thing called God's Grace upon our lives. I really appreciate it that much! Just when i needed someone God you gave. I cannot fathom your deeds upon my life indeed. =) Surely your love and grace will follow me where ever i land my foot on.

Forbearance is what you gave me not short term palliatives. =) Thank you Jesus.

Thank you for reminding me that i live by grace. Sometimes we humans find it so hard to forgive oursleves because we are so conform to the pattern of this world. All the faults has to lie with a person till the point of peak that the person ends his/her life. But God's grace allows forgiveness in our lives. Is not the price on the cross paid off for you and me? Why do we still find it so hard to forgive ourselves when the greater one has forgiven us? Are we belittling on his ability to forgive? What does the cross mean to you?

The ability to forgive oneself display the comprehension of the work of the cross. Truly i'm amazed by it.

Never will i forget today. =) the long long walk with fang wei. The sharing of lives and singing of songs. North people are the best family i have ever made so far. Simple and willing to do life with me. think about it? Isn't it a dumb idea to purposely walk for more than 15km? But still they are willing to do it with me. Not because i lord over them but this love we all have for each other. I simply love this feeling. Thus this will be same for west! A group that people feel love and appreciate just like how jesus did it. =) yesh! That's what i feel and it will happen! The brothers will initial outings like dinner? bball? outing? studying? overnight? The leader need not to be the one that initial it but it will be done by the people. Ohana is what i really longed to see. Ohana means family and family means no one gets left behind. Indeed! It will happen in west! yup!

Speak of ohana, doing life together. I went to jurong somewhere to do homework with haixing today. we spent like 4hours there? whahaha. that's new. yup. we had lunch too. yeah. really enjoyed doing life with all my family members! But we have to grow to 15 by end january! I will be done and it must be done! yeah! CCK a unit! By all means!

hmm. meanwhile now i will go and play some game. Thank you fang wei!

Not forgetting JOESPH LUM who being so kind enough to call me to chat with me. I really appreciate you a lot bro! yeah!

david hoe

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exacerbated

once again they year is coming to an end again.
when i was young, i use to think that i'm like a robot on this planet earth.
For some weird reasons.

well. (",)
I decided to blog for today. =)
i had a fruitful day today! simply marvellous!
We had a wonderful care group today at keith's house.
The programmes of the care group is surely improving weekly.
This could not have have been made possible without the subtle people of this whole family.
We played 'Happy Family'!
Oh mine! That's like my childhood game and it was a marvellous to resurrect it. =)
I had a great time playing it though i was rusty initally. =x
Next we had our testimony. Oh mine! How can i shut my mouth up about God's goodness? That same goes for vincent who shared with much passion on how has God been faithful to him through the weather. Indeed God's omnipotent. =) I'm very glad to have few people in this family that can play the guitar which it's a consequential part in care group. At least for now, i need not to lead worship in care groups anymore except in meeting. Neither am i worried when they birth out their care group by end january there won't be lack of people who are play the guitar. This indeed lighten my load a lot! Thank you jesus!
One thing that i also liked about care group today is they people. They are simple yet people who live out their convitcions.
FROSTY PINK. don't ask me why i decided to type that.

One other thing that i must post is about my celebration of jeremy's birthday today with many of my secondary school friends at Marina Bay today. When i landed my foot upon that place, it seems as if the place just caught on fire however it was due to the process of food making then it was the product. Simply i can't help but to still always enjoy alvin and jeremy presence. They are my great friends. Not forgetting jun sheng. Thanks man for cooking all those food. well. he's going in to army on the 6th of jan 06 and that's like a speedy information and he's going into commardos? don't know how to spell it. =x oh yah. JIng kai and gab came later after their workshop they conducted. Oh yah. I must say that we had a great time playing pranks on Jing kai. We did the ' how many sheeps jump over the wall?' Like countless times and he still doesn't gets it. =) But being friends decided to tell him. One sight that i will never forget that happened today is the fire eating showes that both of them performed today. Well. I can eat fire now too. It's all just chemistry. =) That's how cool. =) well. Looking at most of them they are attached and i can't help but to say this, 'God i have to learn to wait for your best!'. Still they are my gerat friends though we hardly meet up. =) hmmm. oh yah. i really appreciate Alvin and Jeremy for being my best friends in school. Friends forever made me keep thinking. Yesh indeed it's been like 5 going 6 years of relationship with them. Through this 5-6 years have been through highs and lows together and never did we given up on each other as friends. =) That likewise goes for my care group now too. =) hmmm. God i thank you for wonderful friends you have given me. At least they still remember my bday. haha. And i supposed we might catch up on saturday late at nigth after thier work for chat i think? hmmm. now then i realized the price to pay to move on. But i'm okay. I have seen quite few things in west and i must say that at the end it's the people that makes all up. The atmosphere. I'm not concern about what good show can we put up already. it's all about people now and till we grow bigger and then we can talk about great programmes. =) meanwhile i just love what God has given me!

one more to 12 by end december and 15 for end january 06! =)

Father, i pray that you continue to make me one that treasure relationship but more important let you presence NEVER leave me. If you have to take anything away from me or even they things i loved, i will asked of you never leave me. That's all i ask. Meanwhile, let your love surround me and i pray for what you know i need to meet it. MAn will fail me but i know you won't.
david

what's more importantly is the PROCESS NOT THE OUTCOME.
because OUTCOME is SET. =)

shall stop blogging now.

put my heart and soul into your hands. =)

David

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heart

shall blog with a bigger front today! =)
Chirstmas it's all about gifts isn't it? Because on that faithful night a saviour was born. He was a gift from the one above, God. Thus i took a step back of this whole year, God i just want to say that you have given me two great gifts this year. The gift of your friendship shown deeper and thicker through the people around me and the gift of grace. I do not know how many times i ahve broken your heart lord but never once did you leave me. This year is surely i a year i will never forget. The date 24th of august 2005 is one day that in the whole life span on this planet called earth i willl never forget. The day when i finally felt your forgivenss which i never once deserve. Grace came along with it. =) Thank you heavenly father.
Merry chirstmas to one and all! I'm sorry if i have yet write you a card or given you a gift. I admit that i'm lazy because apparently i only have written nine cards. I will make it up by writing those which i am still to write and pass it during my birthday this coming saturday! =) Thanks for being gracious with me people! =) Thank you!
This year christmas is celebrated in such a new way to me. Well for one thing it's distinctly diffrent from other years is that i went home alone. From boon lay at a beautiful timing at 11.45pm. But still i was never lonely with God. But this is the first time i'm having it with west! The cool thing that i love about the whole party wasn't the food as i was not glam enough but the people. Jonathan(s) are a bunch of great people! =) Spending this xmas with my sheep today just makes me even sinks deeper with them. =) Thank you sheep for bearing with my weakness everytime. =) i love you guys!Oh i didn't mention we went carolling today too. We had a great deal of food! I feel fat. well. forget about it!
This xmas i really enjoy also my time with my buddies and one dear good friend of mine.
Though i have yet unwrapped all my gifts and cards at the same go. So far two cards have touched me that deeply that went down pirece through my soul.
The first one was from priscilla. It is a 10 dollar voucher from starbucks but in the voucher that has more meaning to it. She wrote in the card it's a voucher that both of us to meet up for coffee within this year. But what made me felt so loved was what she also wrote on the card that it's a ticket that i can redeem to meet her up for chat when i need too. I feel so loved!
Next it's melvin, Thank you gd friend. This card was written FULLY in chinese characters. Due to my language limitations i had to ask one west guy to read for me, it moved my heart while he reads. I didn't know i mean that much to you through the card. =) Really, sometimes i NEVER UNDERSTANDS how on earth do i get connections with my close friends in church. It's like so divine. When i so need a shoulder, God you gave. Not only did you give me the north family at then and friends. And when i went to west you knew i needed a shoulder you gave me melvin. i do not know why. But you gift encouraged me deeply. Because of those gifts now i'm even stronger with you and my west family. Aarron i appreciated you a lot too. I also didn't know i have done that much but you made me realized. I love you too. =)
I love my sheep! My care group!
Time to unwrap my gifts! whahahahaha.
david hoe

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ferocious

i could never turn away in the beauty of your name.
the sun cannot contain.
i will sing it anyway.
anyway.

The week just glimpse through my naked eye in such a short span of time.
But still. I want to welcome back my beloved care group members.
JOEL AND YONG LE.
WELCOME BACK!

We had care group yesterday.
Apparently that was our first care group and we enjoyed it!
Speaking of care goup life, i must say that this family has an interesting bunch of people.
Why?
Cause while we were going to buy my chicken rice, we were playing with bread?
Tossing it in the air? Played with a soccer that belongs to no one too. =)
whahaha. but still i enjoyed the family.
Then when we head back, noise never seem to be dead in keith's room.
Loud noises produced by the musical instruments in his room and while some played PS?
speak of care group we welcome,
PUAY KEAT AND HAI XING! WELCOME TO THIS FAMILY OF GOD AND WE LOVE YOU!
okay. so where was i?
oh yah. Had shepherding with yong le at keith's dinner table yesterday.
Oh yah. did i tell you guys that he brought me a SNOOPY LIMITED EDITION SOFT TOY FROM TAWIAN.
whahahaha. God met the desire of my heart through him, i wanna a BEAR. whahahahaha.
There were many happeneings for care group. =)
This family is one that i love!

okay. i need to go and study now?!!!
history, english and a math?
chemistry and physics?
geography?
at least i'm done with SS. and thank God e math i have nothing to do.
i have tons of work not done.
any kind and compassionate soul want to do you work with me?!

haha. it's seven minutes past 12.
opps quick study then tomorrow have shepherding with vincent at 11am then gather contacts then meet my good friend melvin.

speak of melvin, he's such a interesting guy. well. if i typed out nw. then i will die.
whahahahah.

i love jesus.
do you?
david

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i heard a saying that goes, 'Life is like a road you travel.'
Apparently after some pounder over this statement i think this.
Life is a road that we travel with wave coming in wave after wave.
Of which each wave have it's pitch and crest which makes the ocean beautiful.
Not very uniform indeed but worth the spectacular sight.

This life, i wonder to myself at times.
Maybe i have seen something more than which others might not even get a chance to see.
Sometimes i just wished i might not have been seen so much which always makes it an alternative for me to fall into dumb and stupid mistakes.
Life. I wished certain things could be changed however i know he has a plan for me.
I have came so far with him and i'm pressing on in this life.
For though i press on,i find joy.
Father, bring me back to your saving grace and mercy for me.
Give me strength to face this life always with you.

This path is not easy but through my clinging on to you, bring me back to your love.
How many times have i broken your heart but still you forgive if only i ask.
So Father, forgive me every moment when i hurt you.

your child,
david

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cornucopia

humans never fail to amaze me with their way the cognitive way of working.
humans are always so complex in thinking that it seems hard for them to comprehend the simplicity of things.
take for example, it's a simple concept to understand grace.
but humans being humans find it tough to comprehend.
trust and have faith is a simple concept but again humans are the one that make it so complex that they themsleves cannot even trust and have faith.
My pity to humanity. I'm of them too.
Simple but never understood.
WHY?
i cannot comprehend the minds and heart of humans.
Have the world so shape us that we are only convince by the complexites of things just like a handphone having so many complex function that we have forgotten that simplicity is chirst. The cross and bridge is never something that so complex. But it's us, humans that makes forgiveness such a big noise out of it.

SIMPLE. is the word.

davidhoe
i love God.

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subtle

blogging time! =) The days just flew passed me in a galnce of wink of an eye. But nonetheless thy faithfulness has never failed to shower upon my life and the group. Your hands never fail to reach out to the deepest recess of my heart and pour in whatever i need.
Through my past three days daily in CKK with my care group, i must say i really enjoy each and everyone of them. The hours we stood under the tormenting heat from the glowing sun and the rush we had in gathering contatcs never fail to bring this family closer. More than that, i'm gald to have this family with me. They are a group of man who have DESIRE. The cornucopia flow of desire never ends. This amazes me about them. We might not know if we can or cannot do it, but we are willing. Simply awestruck by their spirit. =) We had our cg xmas training class yesterday at keith's hse. Apparently it was great. Because we had worship with electric guituar, teaching and food but nonetheless GOD WAS THERE. =) Yuppe. i'm truly encouraged by keith's and satay's spirit. Today was meant to be sowing day with all our personal contacts but thier never say die spirit in respond to no contatcs could meet them up was awesome. They went to gather contatcs even without being asked too. I'm greatly encouraged by their lives! And more stories!
God has been speaking to me.
I also went out with spiritual buddy, jarvin today. Had a great time of fellowship and sharing with each other. Really enjoyed those sharings which encourages me. =) Thanks buddy! we went to cut our hair too. and eh. i look new? yup. if that's the word to use. whahaha. =) brought xmas cards and gifts too. Though i still haev like two more left which i have yet brought. yeah.
one more thing that made me super happy today. It was because of priscialla. Yeah! cause jarvin and me decided to give her a call since we were near her hse but then she was busy and she didn't pick up the phone. However when i was at potoong pasir she called me. She mention is we were to go there can fixed starbucks with her. Not only that we chatted on msn too. She said should catch up sometime. =) yeah! I FEEL SO HAPPY TO BE IN THIS FAMILY OF GOD! to know that plpe around me still care! yeah! the paradox to what happened today was that pris thought i'm 18 nw and turning 19!hello! i'm still young lah! i'm 17 now! David hoe is not old! whahahha. okok. =)
next thing that i'm happy about is also about matthew. Really had a great chat with him on msn just now. Buddy, just wanna tell ya that we will always keep watch of each other lives before God.
I think about all that has happened. I must say that God has been faithful to me by giving me a care group that i really am encouraged and a group of friends there to support me in the race. I love you God! Tomorrow is mcg.
oh yah. praise God we are 13 for confirmation and 2 more to 15! yeah! got to cheong! yup! i love you jesus!
david

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despondent

whoa. it's been donkey days since i last blogged. =)
For the past on week or so, it has been surely a fruitful week.
four days been away from being harass by the world and saturate into fellowship and learning.
I was despondent upon hearing that four days of camp but with only 5 teachings after i compared the faith church camp which was double of the lesson in a united church.
However there are reasons for this happening.

Finally, i have been offically in the family of west upon my foot onto the campsite.
What do i have to say about west?
I'm beliving strongly for a great time of REVIVAL that will flood the land of west in a glimpse of an eye.
When people look towards west people, they will be able to comprehend that the west landers love God as much as fun they can be.
Nevertheless, i so enjoy the group that i'm leading now.
This CKK group has surely a desire for God that will transcend all things. =) I'm really gald to have this family with me. They have indeed encouraged me greatly. I love this family! (",)
ohana means family and family means no one gets left behind. =)

Camp has brought me to a greater height of understanding about unity. I must say that Pastor shilrey has improved a lot in her camp teaching. Yup. The conviction is sense with a greater depth. Great work, servant of God! Thus i believed many were greatly blessed through it!

Through this camp, i also would like to affirm the north Conquerous man. To see how you guys have even grown in this camp surely make me smile. I'm glad to know you guys have adjusted to your new groupings.

There were few funny incidents in camp. However i would like to share one of it. Melvin is super high when he's tired at night. I shall keep it between him and me. But the funny thing that i did this camp that will leave a depression in my heart is that Melvin and me went to run at the last night of camp. Crazy? But i enjoyed it. It's not just about the running but the fellowship. Jesus being the center focus. =) Speak of that, i just realized that our friendship is really based on Christ. I just learn that in most of our outings we spend a fair bit of time talking about the group and God. Melvin is a great friend and guy seeks to do something. =)

Tomorrow i will be heading to west in the morning to meet keith for shepherding and meet contact and gather contact. Really beliving for a breakthrough in west. REVIVAL. 7 TO 15.

I was talking to ong just now. Indeed, i do not run away from the fact that i feared. I'm not that strong as you see. I'm weak but he's strong. I do fear but i trust him.

Father,
i asked of one thing.
Do what i cannot do and only what you can.
Change the hearts of people in west to respond to you from now onwards.
David

thank you, Jesus.

David
Do what i can't.

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condone

in the wink of an eye, my journey with north family offically ends today.
This two years bring in north, i have encounter God through my deaerest leader and shepherd, Priscilla.
Through this whole exploration of who i really am in north,
i have indeed grown in taking responsibility in my personal walk with God.
Every action of mine has a consequence.
Surely i really enjoy my life being in north.
Nevertheless, i love the team i'm serving with.
Without all of you, i won't be who i am today.
As raw as i am, i'm deeply thankful for all of you for loving me as who i really am.
In this whole journey of leadrship,
i will never forget this few people in my life.
Darly kang, David ong, Bruce lee, Ruth and Zi ying. In this team i serve with.
thanks for the HOE'S ARK.
i appreciate it lots.
I love you all!

That's for my north ULM.
Whatever i have to say, i have said it yesterday around the beds.
Thank you once again.

well. i've to rush off now.
supposed to meet yk and jarvin at 9pm.
going off...

david hoe

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