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david hoe.
NorthC.
catholic junior college.
(more to come. haha.)

This is really one of those few handful time when i come home and aniticipate to blog. well. seriously.
I'm not sure how short/long will this post be but i'm still going to type whatever i wish to type for the benefit of personal growth.
How shall i begin?
Presepctive changes over time if one thinking is not anchor on some turths firmly. The turth is this, it's not really which path you actually choose but if it's within God's best for you or not. One can know God's best but not do it, isn't it? yeah. Infact there are more growth opportuines for me in shortcomings. yesh. slow and not rush. I have an unexpected meet up with priscilla today. thank God for a leader like her who supported me when i really tried all i could. She stepped in today and help me. it was not a plan meet up at all. Yesh. and i'm very gald cause we have not met up for months. We watched the bubbles flew in the playgroung believed played by some toddlers? yeah. I really appreciate it.
I just want to renew my covenant with the lord once again. i thought about the statement i made just now. 'My life has been given to God's kingdom already and i withold nothing back.' this is my commitment. I have made that decision to concecrate my entire life to the lord. Yesh. Ever since that decision was made i knew completely there was not turning back. Yesh. i have made it and shall follow.
yesh. really gald that God's in my life.
It has been two days in my new class. well. things got a lot better today. I got to know more people through my lamest and cold joke which they seem to be entertained! whaha. interesting class. =)
well. the fact that it's kinda of a best class the teachers are way off. OFF THE CLIFF! ermm. i meant the chem teacher. She speaks like a train? seriously. it's so fast that i caught nothing about limiting agent untill i re-read again. it's like she completed it in 10 minutes? plus the moles in doing limiting agent. i guess i will encounter some chem hills and valleys along the way.
I must say that i was surely amazed by the care groups i visited today!My memory did not fail me and i can rememeber that i visted two care groups. yeah. it was FUN! CREATIVY! GREAT TEACHERS OF THE WORD! I'm very proud of my team! They really have a bunch of great team working with them. I must tell you that my team teams created endless games and the ability to express priciples in a new aspect. Whci shocked me like a 240v stuff. whaha.
that's all folks!
David

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i supposed most of the students are brezzing through their new term head start maybe except for the college students who are fighting/struggling/leaping over their mid years paper. While i am struck in my personal concentration camp. not that mol/dm3 thingy. It has been 3 days till today that i have been practically mugging like some weird person till wee hours in the morning since like 7pm? well. there's sure break in between. For the past two hedious looking yet beautiful days my studying routine was like from 7-10pm at bishan mac? then 10-11.30 rest and travel home and 11.30-12.30- com time 12.30-1plus mug again. ergh. it's so dots lah. My life was initially simply going with the wave of the student life. But as of today, i have offically transfered class to another which take loads and tons of subjects and i have to catch up with thier pure geo and his for the first 6 months within 2 weeks? it's ermm. dots. well. nothing sophisicated. For geo i'm more or less hitting bulls eye. My aim is to finish all the geo stuffs by coming sunday. I have really mugged hard and smart. By the grace and mercy of God as of now i am only left with one more topic to go! horray! that's fast. In total i did 25 pages of notes fully written over the span of pathetic 3 days. complicated yet it seem so crystal clear. God is really faithful dude. Pause for a moment. I'm not saying that we ought not to do ministry when we come to heavy workload but rather planning ya time to be effective for God. Heys. Never being standard down just because of some tons of loads but keep the standard of God in it's position. Yesh. like tomorrow? i'm going to visit 2 Cgs in my unit. then after which then will i mug. not at a point where studying becomes my God. It will and never be. well. after working hard for so many handful days. i decided to call friday a retreat day. well. it's planned. whaha. but i really want to catch the movie war of the worlds. i think this is the first time i'm so fanatic about a show just because that few spilt seconds caught my naked eye and i fell in love with it. whaha. what a weird term.
falling deeply in love with God. Again and again. yeah.
i mutiply.
david

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it's simply inexplicable when i saw the massive load of people jamming in macdonald at an unsightly hour like 10pm? well. the inexplicable part was why do they only start mugging like some wild animals that have been just released from the zoo. nothing against them but am still in a state of shocked. What was i doing there then? simply mugging. I manage to finish loads of geography notes today. One chapter plus plus. it's alot. I was beseeched to finish up all the history and geohraphy notes. WAIT! please kindly also take notes that before i studied i met all my sheeps for shepherding today. So i had a effective day. I am still on loggerhead with certain areas in my life which i'm still working on to reach the fullness of christ! yesh! Many times God's grace in my life was simply unsolicted. I am still stunned by the love of God in my life. What have i done to deserve all these? well. nothing. But yet his abundant grace kept flowing into my simple life. I see the need to hustled for more growth in my personal life. Yesh! because i really seek to be transoformed to be more like chirst. yup.
well. tomorrow is really going to be one of those days that i wished i will never ever have in my whole entire life! can you imagine doing things that you do not like? yesh. i know we have. yesh. ncdcc? yucks. i prefer track or stuff. due the imcompetence of school extra activites we can't have it. i love windsurfing. rocks man. though i kinda screw at it. yeah.
david

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taking a really short break after a hindsight of pure geography. Yesh. Indeed i am three minds about it awhile ago on choosing which book should i be making my notes based on. Penultimately i choose the marine bk but then again self belief took me to choose the book i am more used too. so that's not to bad. I did notes on factors affecting the temperature. It's a recap on what i've learnt before. i'm still trying to get alititude explanation and latitude into my miny brain. well. it's not that tough. like warm air is radiated by heat through conduction and convection. Warm air are mainly on the surface of the ground because it has a large sureface area and it has most atmosphere near it. well. haha. well.i don't deny the fact that i ad a guzzle while stuyding. haha. it's really interesting. okok. stop blogging and continue mugging. think few more pages and i'm done for today. yeah
God loves me!
David

'Let time stop!' as the thought rushes through the mind. Honestly speaking, Time waits for no man isn't it? certainly. Time won't stop. Let's have a paradigm shift in our minds. Since we can't stop time as it is infinite we ought to be a good steward of time when given to us. Do not let time by pass us but make full use of it!
The world has definitely been in a constant move. I just bump into this website given by esther known as store wars. My first instant reaction when i scaned through it within seconds was 'what the...' . The world has undergo rapid changes. Humans aer getting more creative each day by day. Never did i heard of store wars even in the entire of my life. =) well. why am i speaking about all these?
well. back to blogging. wasn't i blogging? indeed i was. whaha.
i will endeavour that will cause my time management to be even more effective as of today. yup!
It has really been a hectic day for me since it was the first day of school. Nevertheless i still went school with jesus in my bagpack. Yesh. i was not apprehensive of going back to school today as i anticipated to meet my classmates which we have not met for close to a month. I believed i have to depart from my current classmates to another class. well. Simply my principle spoke to me after school about changing of class do attempt diffrent subjects. Indeed i'm looking forward for it as i seek to excel in all that's given. This is the fundamental reason of mine that says that i will endeavour to manage my time effectively. Impossible is nothing. We all have 24hours don't we? It's how we manage it.
I made this weird theory today. well. it's dumb.
the impossibility of impossible is the possible of being impossible. If there is a possibility of being possible meaning that nothing is impossible. Thus one should never say that it's impossible because the end destination of everything leads a possible way path. There is also no sense in saying things are impossible because you have such eyes that sees things short term. learn to view the angle of degree in such of long term. well. i'm trying to say impossible is nothing because it's a void in the end because it's the possibilty of impossibilty. Nothing is impossible.
well. stupid theory but it makes donkey sense to me. whaha.
well. i must said i really enjoyed my team meeting today after CCA though it was really a short one like 40 mins? or shorter but it has led clearer directions to the leaders or pillars of this unit. yesh.
doors of freedom has been opened!
david

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i just want to jump in with both feets. have you ever come across a day where you wished you will never ever had? Came across a time where your body give in to sin and instead fighting on with the spirit? i think i had. Infact i do. Those are really those times that i wish i wll never ever have a chance to be in. I really want to jump in with both feets this moment. It stunned me and mere words have lost it's way now. But the saviour hands is there. Please don't leave me. I'm very weak. Please. Many times i failed but you picked me up and believed in me. Jesus please never let me go! Please! that's my heart's cried now! Never pass me by. that's what i ask for. I want to get carried away by your love.
School is starting means early night. No more late nights. bleh. sad ah. whaha. going to influence in school! I want to apply what i learn in camp in school! Get carried away with your love!
Father, i am sorry for the things i've made it. I'm am here back in a heart of worship and it's all about you! All about you! Forgive me that many times i have not do what you asked. I choose to walk right with you! yeah! Let me run freely once again in your presence and never hinder me! I love you! Keep me in your arms! I want to fight till the end! Never going to give up!
opps. btw. orchard libary rocks! whaha. went there today.
i love my sheep and buddies! yeah
david

Jesus. It just constantly struck me recently that i am held greatly by your unconditional love. Though at time i failed but you never ever gave up on me. Many times i have screwed things up, may it be by speaking the wrong things or even not knowing how to speak to certain people. Well God i must say that your presence have never left me. You never fail to reveal your faithfulness to me. Glancing back at my day i must really concluded that God loves my sheep and me. Thanks for working in the supernatural manner again today. Just like on monday. God i come to think of it the simplicity of the fact is that actually i do not deserve such a unspeakable grace from you. I have come to realise once again how lousy i am but you belived in me. Father, i just want to put a smile on your face. Your arms are so wide open. Even if i'm lost you will find me and guide me out of the darkness. Thanks for guiding me out of the dark valley that i feared. Father, i love you. Thanks for being there for me. I really love you God. Thanks for being so real in my life. thank you. I am weak but you are strong. Though at time i make a blunder but i really just want to say thank you for your grace. I love you! Keep reminding of your awesome power! yeah! Thank you!
teamwork. simple word but behold wonders. together everyone achieves more! I want to look at an angle that sees more potential in people! Affirm people till they feel appreciated! yeah! I love my team! my ADMM is just a wonderful team!I can't help but to really feel so moved as i shared about the unit today to the district. Tears almost ran down my naked eyes but it held back. I just love my unit. Simple people! People who just love God? very simple! I look at thier lives it just motivates me to go further and further. I love my unit! Moreover my team! My seed meeting too! Though all come from diffrent CG but it's they team that supports the whole unit! yeah! I'm proud of my unit for the very fact they are obedient to God and love God! Though young but powerful! Boys today men tomorrow! Actually is boys becoming men! yeah. That's our motto! yeah! Our vision too! yeah!
a moment ago i was talking to qian jin? opps. wonder if i spelled correctly? i do hope so. well. I must say that he's a brother that i know that has passion for the school he is taking care of. He will go the mile to reach his people. i heard one incident that he knew his sheep had this bulky bible and he wanted to get a NIV smaller bible for him. That blue little book? yeah. The kingdom of God will Grow when we take initative to grow it! Growth must be deliebrate! A wonderful bro indeed! Then he was trying to send me a song just now but i think to his horrific disappointment i told him that my sound card was not in working conditions. I thought to myself he may felt quite dots? a paradox happening. well. he laughed? yeah. strange but really wonderful! yeah! haha. then i came out with this weird thought. i'm a stress relief pill? whaha. cause he should be studying in awhile's time. cool. i'm also kinda motivated. tomorrow i'm studying! yeah! cool. yeah. soon to hibernate with the little bks. to camp with them and fight all the way! Nevertheless i will never forget my calling as a student! Bring plpe to know christ! God's love is everlasting!
yeah. i also wanna thank God for my SB. yeah. i really appreciate them tons. yeah. i love them! whaha. cause they are the plpe who God has placed in my life.
oh yeah. i must tell you something. harrry have finally mastered the art of knocking plpe shoulder with their forehead. whaha. he knocked mine today.
well. long post. whaha. time to put an end to it. haha. =)
David

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after a tragic happening with the maggie mee i cooked yesterday morning i really had a great time fellowshipping with te great white throne at my house the whole night till this morning. disgusting. Had to be disturbed from my wonderful sleep with my dream all due to the calling of the great white throne. well. it's better now. But i have a deep phobia to cooking noddles from now on. it's ergh. well. nothing to say. whaha. a terrifying experience i had.
well. at least it's back at the cupboard now. things seems to be improving. i think the great white throne got sick of me didn't he? i hope he does.
well. i was just thinking through of my life once again on the bus again. whaha. seems like lots of my thinking actually took place on the bus. well. my life has been rather complicated but i just wonder why did God still place his hands with me? Just one err it will be gone but he didn't. It's by his grace that i'm still here today. =) I am awestruck by God's grace in my life. So much weird happenings that many times i just wished that i was not david but just any other student. God kept me through the years. His love never stopped flowing into my life. I'm so embraced by his grace. Yesh. It's your love that makes me sing.
yeah. I'm thankful that God used me to train the teachers from henderson today. Well. My first time. Topic: Understanding how a student think. I brought them to the mindset of diff intellect students and also places of attraction of youth today. Particularlly i brought them more to HMV. Well. Guess they were inspired by my life story as well. Glad that i manage to share with them how students today think and how shoudl teachers teach. yeah. time for a method change not principle.
well. after which i head to kap to meet yk to study for awhile. then i went back to homeland. Bishan. To study with bruce. yeah. manage to do all my 3 subjects and it was really a fruitful day. Finished my bk review too. yeah. all down except few more. I yearn to see kingdom growth! yesh! It must grow! That's my heart's cry.
Let's continue to shine for christ! amen? yeah. Live for one and shine for one! yeah.
I love my sheep. haha. i wanna catch a movie!!! please. i have yet watched one for donkey years. i wanna watch any show.well. i hope to watch wars of the world? yeah. cool leh. i wanna watch movie. whaha. God please send my sheep or whoever to watch with me. whaha.
YOu complete me!
David

bad stomach. argh. had a bad food day but God's still faithful i must say. The saving grace hands kept covering me all day and night. yeah. God thank You. well. i kninda tired now but i must say that God's faithful. I look at his hands i see his love and my sins that he bore. yeah. i love jesus. Keeping my life pure before him.
I need strength. tired.
David

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Just did a spiritual gifts test. To my amazement i just refound out that my top 4 gifts are
1-pastor
2- admin
3-evang and encouraging is the same.
yeah. that's why i say top 4. hehe.
well. as i came home today the song just rang through my mind.
You have stolen my heart. My heart is captivated by you. Never will you and i part. I'm falling deeply in love with you.
It just brings me back to the reason why i'm still doing what i am doing. I love Jesus. Yeah. I will never want to part with him.
I must affirmed the mshs cg i went to today. They are really wonderful people! I was dumbfounded by their acc. It's like don't know how many pages. It's super nice. Kinda of like magazine for a acc. very gd! Keep that effort up! I am so proud of this care group! i really believed that this cg has a lot of far more potential then what is seen now. I wanna affirm jeremy for being mature to listen and handle situation well. Glad that they have a loving leader too who will be having his mid yrs soon and still leading his plpe. well. It's common but he really loves them. Keep it up! Tomorrow will be the raffles cg which i'm anticipating too. =)
i have seen how people have grown throughout the years. they have simply been covered by God's grace like me. Yesh. it saddens me when i see people leaving God because god really loves them. =) i love God. yeah. God i pray you soften all hearts once again. Let revival continue it's work. When the word 'revival' comes to my mind i see a picture of water gashing out from a channle. Like waterfall? yeah. okok. yeah. change the hearts of plple. yeah.
I love God!
David

i was made to praise you. I was made to glorified your name in every circumstance i was made for you.
You hung of the cross and did not retaliate not because you were a fool but because you showed an uncontional love for me. I woke up this morning with songs of purpose on my lips. It brings me back to why i am on earth. To lift his name up high! yesh! =) then proceeding to read the percious word it knock onto my heart just a little hammer. But you are a choosen people, a royal priesthood ... i was stupified by the word. YOU. It's me! God choose me! Well. Simple? But it spoke to me again. To flee from sin. Since i'm choosen why should i live a life of sin? yeah. cool huh. yup. God has been so real to me.=) thank you daddy.
It's close 1 in the noon now. I will be changing real soon to head for mshs CG. yeah. =) i have to spend time thinking of certain issues. =) yeah. Thank you daddy! =)
Never get tired of serving God because i know my exsistence! Do you?
David

the truth is that i'm a nobody and nothing. I pounder upon my simple life today and i'm just stupified or dumbfounded. The searing pain of Jesus's death on the cross made me realize how unworthy am i. What led me to such thinking today? I spoke with one of my sheep and we had a chat on certain roaring question that he has. The root was simply simple but the finite mind could not precieve initially. Only God could come in and does his work. Holy spirit did rings a question in my heart to post to my sheep and without hesistant i obeyed the spirit. Finally the truth were all piece up and it was unexpected. It's really God. Then after we left i went to starbucks and further think deeper. =) then did i realized that God love my sheep and me. Why? Just picture this with me. If he did not activate the gift and i won't be able to speak it. It's God and i'm just his mere servant that he choose to use. So once again i'm thankful. God thanks a lot. =) yeah.
WFL was great today though it's the last. =) the students were great bunch i must say. yeah.
Tomorrow is going to be exciting. why? visiting the CHS CG. yeah. coo. =)
God thank YOu for loving me! =)
David

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thinking about my life as i sat on the bus reading the bible. Desiring to hear from God and i did hear him speking gently to my pounding heart. All these things that we are going through and most of the times it seems painful or it is but i have to remember it's the process of growing my faith. That's from 1peter.
God just spoke gently once again. Don't give up on people. By bringing them out of sin simply you are bringing them out of death and a mutitude of sins. Well. That amazes me! yeah. From james. Glancing back through my life i can just that God you had faith in me thus i will have faith in people! =) yeah.
Went to henderson today and i knew what i am supposed to do coming thursday with the teachers from the school. Train them in how students today think. yeah. i'm so glad that God gave me this chance to influence. One of my to do list is to bring them to hereen. Yeah. cool. A mix of 10 plus teachers. yeah. So glad that this chance was given. I want to influence them about christ. yeah. i was amazed that the teacher i was spoke to just now knew hope church singapore. well. amazing. it's growing man! okokok.. i need to go of already. PLan WFL. yeah. tonight going to spend time to evaulate after meeting sheep. where should i go? city hall? espalndae? nah. not sure. see how first. =) yeah.!
David

a very simple story but beholds a great meaning to it!

A young man learns what's most important in life from the guy next door.It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man. College, girls,career, and life itself got in the way. In fact, Jack moved clear acrossthe country in pursuit of his dreams. There, in the rush of his busy life,Jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to spend withhis family and friends. He was working on his future, and nothing couldstop him.Over the phone, his mother told him, "Mr. Belser died last night. Thefuneral is Wednesday." Memories flashed through his mind like an oldnewsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood days. "Jack, did youhear me?""Oh, sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It's been so long since I thought of him.I'm sorry, but I honestly thought he died years ago," Jack said. "Well, hedidn't forget you. Every time I saw him he'd ask how you were doing. He'dreminisce about the many days you spent over 'his side of the fence' as heput it," Mom told him."I loved that old house he lived in," Jack said."You know, Jack, after your father died, Mr Belser stepped in to make sureyou had a man's influence in your life," she said."He's the one who taught me carpentry," he said. "I wouldn't be in thisbusiness if it weren't for him. He spent a lot of time teaching me things hethought were important...Mom, I'll be there for the funeral," Jack said.As busy as he was, he kept his word. Jack caught the next flight to hishometown. Mr. Belser's funeral was small and uneventful. He had nochildren of his own, and most of his relatives had passed away. The nightbefore he had to return home, Jack and his Mom stopped by to see the oldhouse next door one more time.Standing in the doorway, Jack paused for a moment. It was like crossingover into another dimension, a leap through space and time.The house was exactly as he remembered. Every step held memories. Everypicture, every piece of furniture....Jack stopped suddenly. "What's wrong,Jack?" his Mom asked."The box is gone," he said."What box?" Mom asked."There was a small gold box that he kept locked on top of his desk. I musthave asked him a thousand times what was inside. All he'd ever tell me was'the thing I value most,'" Jack said.It was gone. Everything about the house was exactly how Jack remembered it,except for the box. He figured someone from the Belser family had taken it."Now I'll never know what was so valuable to him," Jack said. "I better getsome sleep. I have an early flight home, Mom."It had been about two weeks since Mr. Belser died. Returning home from workone day, Jack discovered a note in his mailbox. "Signature required on apackage. No one at home. Please stop by the main post office within thenext three days," the note read.Early the next day Jack retrieved the package. The small box was old andlooked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago. The handwriting wasdifficult to read, but the return address caught his attention. "Mr.HaroldBelser" it read. Jack took the box out to his car and ripped open thepackage. There inside was the gold box and an envelope. Jack's hands shookas he read the note inside. "Upon my death, please forward this box and itscontents to Jack Bennett. It's the thing I valued most in my life." A smallkey was taped to the letter.His heart racing, as tears filling his eyes, Jack carefully unlocked thebox. There inside he found a beautiful gold pocket watch. Running hisfingers slowly over the finely etched casing, he unlatched the cover.Inside he found these words engraved: "Jack, Thanks for your time! -HaroldBelser.""The thing he valued most...was...my time."Jack held the watch for a few minutes, then called his office and clearedhis appointments for the next two days. "Why?" Janet, his assistant asked."I need some time to spend with my mother," he said. "Oh, by the way,Janet..thanks for your time!""Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the momentsthat take our breath away,"Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.
1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't likeyou.
4. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
5. You mean the world to someone.
6. If not for you, someone may not be living.
7. You are special and unique.
8. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good can still comefrom it.
9. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: youmost likely turned your back on the world.
10. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the ruderemarks.
12. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much betterwhen they know and you'll both be happy.
13. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.
david

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think, act and speak like a team! there's no individual in a team! we have to learn to respect each other decisions! also think of sucess of the whole team not just yours! this is a church no ferderation! You don't represent your people! We think for the team! If we have to pluck people to other group so that the whole team can grow why not? yeah. yup! we are one team! No one man island! yeah!!!
whaha. that's what i'm convinced! yeah! yup yup! whoo.
claps and claps! Welcome 4 new people into our NCSM! yeah! The team has expanded! it used to be ermm.. 7? now we are 11! but 12 soon! we wanna book room for out meetings in further! also we also wanna go to istana park! well. our new meeting today was great! why? we had games too. polar bear! cool! well. it's an interesting team! we are going to make it more fun! so much new thigns to be done!
well. we also launched our new project for the seed plpe! it's called

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what a beautiful day!
It's really once is a blue moon that i enjoyed my afternoon at home today! i left home at 3.50pm? it's one of the latest in my ministry years. or one of the latest. Yup. I enjoy planning for meeting tomorrow for our new expanded seed meeting tomorrow! from 7 people we are going 10! This means we can stretch even more! So 20 is no kid for this group by God's grace! The cool thing about this is that we can play games! and we can even book room for meeting! It's so cool lah! I wanna book oceania room! It's so cool lor! Then watch a video with my seed meet! This team is the 3rd layer in our unit! First layer of leadership is ADMM. Second layer is CL 3rd is seed meet 4th north meet 5th north C! hehe. We want to birth 3 Units by end of this year! We are also going to launched this new project tomorrow 'I want 1'. Well. i supposed that the searing thoughts is running through ya mind on what's that. Well. i'm not trying to be sarcastic but the truth is will reveal to all after my seed knows it! It's so cool lah! whaha. had seriously a great day planning! So cool! Yeah! Through this new team we will venture out to higher heights! Amen! hehe. yeah!
Not only planning i managed to study a fair bit with Yk at chinatown since i was in town suppose to plan wfl with gwen. yeah! hehe. did a math. then went to his hse played dota. i kinda doom at it. it's my 3rd time.whaha. then we played marvel vs capcom. whahha. then followed by caught a show on extreme animals on the television through central. hehe. then head home.
Well. Tomorrow we want to hit 15! yeah! yeah! yeah!!!! 15 here we come!!!!
David

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have been attending camp for over the past weeks. It was simply marvellous to me! Never did i allow him to pass me by but rather i have an encounter with him which was so close that mere words could never paint. JB camp was a time of refreshing for me in terms of my personal life! god spoke to me clearly as the crystal waters. Responsible over my spiritual life! yeah! cool. It does gives me a kick start of my personal prayer extension and growth. How i long to pray. Yesh! Prayer is the key to mantaing this relationship with the almighty one! The youth camp entitled 'The ultimate dar3' was great! It refreshed me in terms of lead4rship! Responsible over plpe's lives! Pastor jeff stories never fail to inspire me not because of those wimps and fancy but rather God used him to be an instrument! yeah! Games was simply crazy. Well. me too. i went crazy about telling lame jokes to entertain others if not it's boring. whaha. it's ultra lame. Considering the fact that since it's so lame i decided nah. not to speak again. whaha. lame. hehe. well. Camp food surely has improved ever since the first time i came to any youth camp! marvellous! I'm still quite stirred up with what i'm convicted of and tomorrow when i get out of the rectangular thingy i will start planning! whahah. this camp has also helped me to build even more friendship and deepen my convictions even more! got to know more plpe from the west and east. 2 way ends. whaha. they are great bunch of plpe! i enjoy being with them too! did i not tell ya that my guys love me? whaha. i love them too. during appreciation night they got for me chunks of stuffs and it's like whoo. lah. so cool. i especially was dumbfounded when one of my guys gave me a bear. which was so like. whoa lah. i was so touched! i so loved it! whaha. and lots of other gifts too! yeah. i really aprreciated this unit! they are diffrent from others! God called them to do new work! this brings me to that i'm super ultra convicted to hit 43 by end of this year with the girls together!
CHS, MSHS, CGS - all must have at least 10 plpe
RI-8
CHIJ-5
end of this year! monogender schools in north must be completed! Amen!
God has always placed plpe in my life other than my guys to encourage me! i really aprreciate them loads! hehe. thanks samuel, jarvin, harry, jerrld, david ONG!!, matthew, dennies and oh mine!!! PRISCILLA!!! yeah! wonderful plpe! i love them! haha. and more plpe lah. but they have impacted me here and there! yup! well well well.. time to sleep. yeah.
yawns.
David

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i must definitely say that the camp was awesome and marvellous! It tiggers the heart to open during the first day and as it's open the word sunk down deeply and does his work in my life! wonderful camp indeed! Not knowing what to expect i went there with a sense of aniticipation and desiring that God will speak deep into myheart and truly he did. God never leaves a heart that expects great things from him untouched. God's word was simply not ambiguious at all! The speaker spoke with CONVITCTIONS!None spoke as if it was a task but rather they meant what they spoke. Simply marvellous! I'm inspired to preach and teach like them as they word of God can change lives! When ya preach preach it to your utmost dude! Clear? Crystal clear! well. i have not gone into anything about the camp yet! so let me plunge into now!=)
well. to type down the happenings in the entire would take me hyperly long.
Well. i learn a lot from the camp but i am only to going let out few.
1- The capability of your group growth is much based on the growth of the leadership team
isn't that logical? But how many of us do exactly bother about our own personal life growth?

• What was your recent breakthrough?
• Was it planned out or suddenly?
• When was it? 3 months ago? if it is please be bother more of your own life man
• Do you have an area which you are working on to be mroe christ like?

2- The kingdom of God must neverever stay stagant! i mean it!

3-Do you still dare to dream and dare to attempt Great things for God?

• Have you come to a point that you dare not to set big goals?
• Have you set your goals within your reach?

4- Make use of my postion to influence! I kinda realize that i haven't been doing much about that and i am convince to make use of this title to influence. yup! I'm here to influence! whoo..

Well. that makes up part of my learning! yeah! haha. i must tell you that i was impressed by the talent night! saw many gifted talents. I was shocked when i saw the family group putting up a preformance! it's ultra cool! The song the picked was totally against what i tought! so hip! whahaha. really ultra cool! the youth dance was phew. Ultra good! magnificent! whaha. really cool! hmmm.. well. i must say that i really love this camp a lot! I am convicted about truths! and i will keep them all with me! whahah.

This camp has helped me to build closer realtionship around the church and new relationship between the hsjc plpe! well. I'm glad that during this time i could spend time talking to matthew too. which we seldom have time. And i got to know his guys! well. They are a buch of plpe that will surely do great things for God! Got to talk to victor from his unit too during the workshop! He loves the word of God! Manage to build realtionship with gerald from west and araon- don't know how to spell. Also some east plpe! I really wanna say thanks to harry. whaha. cause i kinda made him hear whatever i'm convicted of for the last 2 days! He's really a great bro to be with! really aprreciated him a lot. well he also had to stand my coldest jokes. whaha. God i really thank you once again for placing wonderful plpe in my life! I love all the plpe you placed! Thank you Jesus! =)

well. time to stop and start packing! whaha. i'm going for youth camp! Going to my spiritual buddy hse to overnight! jarvin as he lives near there. We are going for dinner first!yeah! whaha. i love my buddies too!

not forgetting my sheep! whahah. they really have made me grow! Thanks sheep and my my 2nd layer of team! thanks! =)

David!

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haha. back to blogging. i'm currently at bruce hse now. well.. so many chucks of things are dashing through my brain now. ergh. ministering? is a big thing. ergh. God please help me!!!! well. i must tell ya about my ultra cool day. Well. i actually went to visit RI cg today in the west area. So initially i heard that we were to meet at the pending station. what does it sounds like? meet at the waiting station? right? i thought that as well. so i kept asking the leader tell me where. not at the waiting station. till i found out. dots. it was real. whaha. lrt was ultra ultra fun lah. i love it!!!! CG was fun. haha. so fun lah. haha.. then i met my sheep for shephering. well. we were waling aimlessly through the side of woods and vehicles. then we bump to KAP. lots of memories. whaha. so cool lah. then we had shepherding there. i found new way to eat some food. whaha. we ended like 6? whaha. then we wanted to go to some shopping centre to walk at bukti whatever? it's so confusing. well. then what happened. i couldn't appreciate the holding time for the bus and i took a move with my sheep we took forgotten what bus that came and we ended up at some bukit place as well. then what happened? haha. we shopped for food. whaha. so fun lor. long trip home. fell asleep on the train. yawns. i have grown too. whaha David

i don't know. but i just want to do this quickly. hehe. well. just wanna say i had a great day today!
i took the LRT!!! so fun lah. really man. i am not lying! it's fun!!! haha. well. blog next time.
david

boo! well. it's noon now. why am i back home? just came back from a killer paper. =x it's ultra inmost core to it's extreme killer lah. at least al phy was so much better but the chem simply suck up all my brain tester juice. yeah. it's ultra crazy. even the teacher claims it to be tough. haha. i could do most structure paper question. no much problem. haha. but i choose to do structure then mcq. but when i reach mcq i was so nullify of brain jucie. haha. theni hack the moles q. it's crazy lah. like give you p shell. then some stupid values then find moles? haha. then reverse osmosion? forgot how to spell. it's dots. one question i know how to do cleavage planes of ionic. i was confident of that section. 8 marks is mine. haha. only question i'm confident of. well. going of to bukit bato? don't know. i'm visiting RI cg today. then will head home later then pack up to bang to bruce hse. haha. yup! off i go now. bb
David

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it has been quite awhile since we last talked about anything under the sun.
nevertheless ya have a place in my heart.
Just like the flower that's quickly fading so am i.
i know you have always been there for me.
So i just want to say 'thank you!'

To realise that we are just that flower just stunned me like a hinge of tick i got from the jellyfish.
Who am i? well. Just simply your child. I treasure all those moments we had together even now. yup. You always have a place in my heart that you can dwell. Make it your home.

Thanks for bringing me up in my darkest moment. At those times when i feel like giving up on all relationship and be alon in the island. Thanks for supporting me and let the word set me free. Thanks for beliving in me so much that i could never thought of. You took the risk for me to challenge me to be your friend. I do not know what to say but just want to say ilu. means i love you. yeah.

jesus has always been there for me.

okay. well. it's 12.06am. ergh. not that late but i have to make it quick. have to mug for chem. ergh.. help. dots.
blessings of the day:
1- haha. i wasn't late for my physics paper
2- thank God i got like A? yup. it's God not me man
3- had a great time leading praise and games. ermm. first time for youth level. yeah. thank God for working through me! =D
4- thank God for samuel for lending me his chem notes. haha. He's a blessing in my life too.
5- well. i bump into jarvin today. well. thank God for a buddy like him that keep watch over me too! yeah. my best friend too.
6- did few topics on chem. it's phew lah.
7- ermm. dance was great. i saw them.
8- yeah. got one more person to excel even more for KOG. yeah.
errm. brain's dead, haha. going to mug now. whoo.

David

whoo! bang! going to do today's blog simple sweet and short.
well. blessing for the day
1- i exchanged clothes with my ex sheep. whaha. ultra funny lah. Blessed to have great sheeps and ex lah.
2- my SB! jarvin! haha. accompany him for lunch. why blessing? ermm. fellowship?
3- Ri are really history markers. They love their plpe!
4- MSHS is such a blessing group that cause me to grow too! =)
5- Glad to see that CHS is undergoing more growth now! Hands on!
6- hmm. caught a sight of matt? yeah. blessing though. why? ermm. not sure. but really appreciate all those little moments with God's send.
7- for my sheep that accompany for dinner. whaha. si yuan. ate with me too.
8- brandon for accompanying to watch dance rehersal. whoo.
9- the wfl students were rejuvinated (spelled wrongly) last part. thank God for those stories. =)
10- i extended my passport.
11- i'm leading praise and games for membership tomorrow. whoo. kinda cool huh. first time. hehe. thank God! =)
12- samuel who showed concern? haha. about my papaer. blessing too. ermm.w hy? ergh. cause i feel appreciated.
haha. i realise as i typed actually i'm easily appreciated. haha. so weird. but gd lah. simple.

ergh. i have AL paper tomorrow leh. help.. it's physics leh. please ah.. help!!!! haha. God please. help me with vectors and pressure. =x. thanks. Going to mug like for 30mins? enough? think so lah. =)

David

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The endless blood stream keeps flowing rapidly. They never stop flowing. It dashes through the veins and to the naked mind and and it finally finally woke up. Stepping out of his bed. Not knowing what he's going to anticipate for the day he strolled into his bathroom. Grinding his teeth and then he places himself on that bowl with an largely papaer which covers the whole horizontal of his body. Within minutes he's all ready to kick start his day with a dashing smile on his face. The pressure he undergoes in his work mere words aren't able to express it to it's fullest potential. No where to vent all those frustrating thoughts one keeps to himself. Not knowing how to deal with his life he just continued. Well. The unanswered question keeps ringing through his mind everytime when his mind starts to wander of infront of his workplace.
'Who am i?' 'What am i doing in earth?'
It's unanswered to him. Not that he don't wants to find out the answer but he's to occupy with being busy and it just always bypass him.
Well. That's a question i think we should keep reminding of ourselves, don't we?
Well. Try to enter my mind and understand this point i'm about to make.
If Jesus death was so much so of that we can just go heaven, then why not die instantly when we recieved him into our life? That's great isn't it. Wait. But why are we still on earth. dots. unable to answer? well. we all are commission with a purpose on earth. Do you know what's that? Well. Many say that only full time minsters will serve God to their fullest. Well. Do you know that you are a full time minister too? God hand picked you fellow friend. well. let's think with me again. ermm. What's the best way to reach a student? ermm. through a teacher? ermm. bad idea hur. i agreed to the inmost core. whaha. the best way is to do it by a student. well. it makes senese. well. wait hold on. So it means God takes his full time minister and disguise them to look like a student and give him/her the mind to be able to think like one so that he/she can fillfull his/her purpose.
God says 'Hey! little fellow, don't forget why i'm sending you there. With a purpose. Don't forget. Now Go!'
who am i? why am i on earth? think it's answered.

boo! haha. just felt like typing some new ideas i had recently of a story. haha. quite cool.
blessings of my day:
1- well. i had company to study with me in the noon. Bruce. while planning wfl.
2- i managed to finish the student notes for wfl
3- completed the topic on vectors and pressure
4- Great pals in church? yup. went to study with yk. at 8pm-11pm at chinatown. anglea came too. round 9 plus quite unexpected. cause she also lives there. whaha.
5- leaders are responsible in their roles =)

Let's continue to build strong leaders. Leaders who love jesus and obeys the word of God! =)

I love everyone of my plpe! =) and everyone i know! hehe.
Jesus loves you!
David

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tenacity is what it needs to hold on to a dream.
Dreams.
It's something that we dare to venture out when we are young without limits.
Remember those days when we were younger all of us thought that we that someday we could be that somebody when we enter into the professional age.
How many times have man given up hope in it?
It became just another thought when we hit teenager.
No one dares to really dream like a child.
Jesus provides us the ability to Dream, doesn't he?
We can come so freely like a child without any limits.
That's him.
No mask to wear.
Let's dare to dream big. It will never be stolen away like how others were.
Jesus loves us.

I'm gald that that's just something i thought of about being bold to dream as we are no longer finite as we have an infinite God.
Well. Was just thinking of my recent growth areas in my personal life and i must said that i have been growing recently. Yup. Growth must be delibrate isn't it? Self control is just one of the fruits. Yup. Though many times the pain within it just makes me feel like i want to compromise however thinking of my purpose on earth just keeps stirring me up to change fro christ. Well. I want to make it a point that my focus is never on change but on my relatioship with Chirst. Why? Change is the fruits along the way.
'God help me to be the kind of man that you made me to be.' - focuses on God

Yeah. Well. i'm endeavouring to see a higher growth point in the group. Well. Claps!
Today, RI have 1 new bro joining us! Cool hur? yeah. the raffles family has 3 person now! Cool lah. yeah.! so glad! =) keep it up! The paradigm seems to be great! =) a model for many! ("<)

hehe. well. i'm so blessed to have a wonderful team serving the lord with me! =) They are wonderful bunch of leaders to work with! I love my people!

Today it's also the first time that we spilted to hold my leaders own seed meeting then we had a final combine meet! it was great! surely! I'm gald to see that all of them are leading! However i cannot emphasize that relationship with God must be the fundamental key dude.

just beofore i end. hehe. just recieved an encouraging sms from samuel. yeah. really appreciate these plpe in my life or in fact all. yup.

Mugging soon. =)

David

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Falling into place was just a dream.
Wished that it has it reason but i never knew.
After all those times i finally knew.

All the struggles were so painful
All the laughter brings me joy

Meaning is what i want
I finally understood

It all happened for a reason

A reason to show me that you love me.

well. Everything happens for a reason. All are to direct me back to God's love. Many times i wonder to myself, 'what have i done to deserve this unconditional love from you?' I never knew. Such a prefect love without any conditions for me to recieve. Is it all ture? Yes it is. Christ Love is never a thought but it's in my life.

haha. running nose is getting on my nerves. They were never my friends but foe. whahaha. it's kinda true lah. yeah. deteriorating conditions. haha. but God will healed me lah. hehe. maybe it's my sb(jarvin) who spreaded it to me. well. he made a comment just now. we shared everything. ermm. sickness? please. haha. well. nvm lah. we will grow old together in christ. Well since i'm on the topic of my sb. Well. i must said that i treasure all of them in my life. well. i'm glad i manage to catch up with matt a little yesterday though was like few moments. but i really enjoyed it. well. i caught up with my long lost buddy. not really lah. jarvin. went to his hse to stay overnight with him yesterday. We had dinner first at fat mama's.Then we went to vist the GSS. hehe. quite fun. We bang onto dan along the way and we continued to keep walking in PS. yup. after which. we headed towards boat q. With eva and step. yeah. slacked at coffee bean. the ambience just brings a sense where i can just chilled out. well. think i'm a little off point. okok. Jarvin and me took the same bus with step to send her back as it's quite late for a step i supposed. She made a comment which i can still remember vividly in my head this instance. 'You guys should treasure one another.' said step. a sudden gush of blood flows through my veins. I appreciate and love my buddies all! well. Actually i don't even know how God worked that i manage to know central people. it's really puzzling to us. well. but we know that God has a reason and we appreciated each other. well. all of us do complement one another i believed! =) yeah man!
The sunlight shone on my face this morning and i woke up. Was comtemplating to get out of the day or not. well. i did. dots. hehe. I was on high on buying stuffs with jarvin on GSS today. actually we wanted to buys lots of stuffs. but we brought slippers. yeah. haha. the same one. sounds gay? No! we are just great buddies! haha.
actually it must have been God seriously. that he placed us together! =)
well. practically i was in town for most of my day. It's like i was in town since 11am to 7 plus. haha. i was at TCC for like hours with my sheep. haha. cool.
well. shall not continue blogging. thank God i manage to finish my planning for admm tomorrow. yeah.
I love jesus!
David

It's not about the line but it leads to direction.
helpless are we not?
Trying as hard as we want to to draw the line.
Does that really matters?
Nope. It's not about the line anymore.
that's one of my learning for the day. shall nto blog that much for today.
well. i'm at jarvin's hse now. overnight. yeah. ermm. it's like yeah lah. i enjoy fellowship. haha. =D
Jesus loves you!
David

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SIMPLICITY. well. Just a word that flashes through my mind as i typed about recent happenings. well? how recent? think it's only about two days. well. before i do continue blogging =D.
In such a hectic society we are living in, it's no doubt that many people are doing things because they have to and not because they want to. Isn't that just true? Let's just take studies for example. Well. Why study? Just because the fact that we are to do it or because we choose to glorify God and decided to excel. Why God? That's an eternal purpose. What's the point of investing something which is short term? yesh. I will no condone the unvisible sight of the naked eye as an excuse.
Well. speak of excuses. I think as mere humans, many times we can come out with human reasoning to cover up for our sins, don't we? Call in unscrupuolus means bah. The tenacity of a human guard has seem to be debased i think. well. it's just what i see.
Keep oursleves our guard man.
Well. i dragged my feet to camp yesterday. well. it's over already. didn't really had an early night man. why? had to give a sudden alarm in the night. whoo. yeah. erm. what i enjoyed? i think the people that was with me and under me. Quite fun plpe. well. nothing much.
so camp was just camp. my camp mood was lighten up by jarvin too. haha. well. don't know how to put it. BUt i really appreciated him a lot. and matthew. oh yah. samuel has been a great friend to me though i only know him like few days? yeah. well. since i spoke if jarvin. haha. tomorrow going dinner with him? yeah. haha. it's been donkey years since we last spoke about lives and fellowship. yeah. anyways. this links to what i am very convicted off after hearing from the leadership. It's possible to have intimacy in same gender and it's super possible and you must make effort. well. that's proved through our relationship. though we may not talked that much but i am sure that's we are there for one another. yeah. no doubt Jesus is still the ultimate dude. yeah. hmm. i'm anticipating for the course tomorrow. yeah. yup. opps. yeah. i have to thank God for helping me to be able to solve those tedious physics q through my teacher. I never seen kinematic q that must use 2equ. and graph at the same time. whoo. haha. God's ultra gd. well. going to settle some unit stuffs first then mugging. for exam nx wk. please lor. haha.
David

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