领悟。

终于知道有些人做一些事，是出于责任，不是关心。现实和我想像的完全不一样。是时候了吗?

5 out of 10.

For the very first time in my life,

I. Don't. Feel. Like. Working. Hard.

Birthday Wishlist.

Have never been this buay hiao bai (thick-skinned) before, but I'm not gonna care so much because life is too short and unpredictable, hahaha. If I don't get them as presents, at least this is a reminder for me to buy these stuffs for myself before the end of 2012. Here goes:

1) black / purple sports bra

2) chic black handbag (A4 size, easy to open and close, not too shapeless, not too squarish too)

3) Everlast white canvas shoes (my best friend)

4) Burts Bee's lipgloss (pink/ red)

5) Burts Bee's lipbalm

6) handmade/ handwritten cards

7) angbao (which will lead to sponsorship of contacts lenses or more korean language classes or more kpop dance classes)

Will add on when I think of more. Hahahaha...

Karma.

Suddenly got this urge to do something about that missing piece in my life, especially now that I came to the realisation that I can't control everything in my life.

Wanna try everything, do anything.

As I recap on the significant people who appeared in my life, can't help but feel that there is some ongoing karma on me... I must have been (too) evil to some people, thus things end up to be how they are today. My thought processes must have been (too) extreme, thus things end up to be how they are today.

I'm thinking if there is a possibility to make up for lost time, but at the same time, I feel a bit silly about this whole thing.

Karma, please treat me well... :)

2NE1- I am the best.

Attractively egotistic! Hahaha.



[CL] I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
Th-th-the Best

Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Oh my god

[BOM] Whoever looks at me can see I’m kind of a killer
alright
This body is second to no one
alright

[DARA] You’re following behind me but
I’m only running forward
I jump on top of the table you’re sitting at
I don’t care

[CL] If you touch me you won’t be able to handle it
I’m hot hot hot hot fire
Before I flip something over
Please can someone stop me

[MINJI] I open my closet and
Put on the freshest outfit
The reflection of my face in the mirror
I carefully check it over
Right now it’s 8
I’m supposed to meet up at 8:30
Tonight I set out with bold steps

[CL] I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
Th-th-the Best

[MINJI] Whoever looks at me can see I’m kind of fabulous
alright
Even if you were me, you’d be envious of this body
alright

[BOM] Guys are turning around to look at me
Girls are following me
Being looked down on in the spot
I’m sitting at, every day is tiring

[DARA] Pretending to be an athlete, this snobby
Clumsy Playa
Like you’re a flat tire
I’ll dump you good for people to see

[CL] I refuse to be compared
I’m telling you the truth
If we’re talking about my value, I’m a
Billion dollar baby
People who know a thing or two
They all know it so ask them
Grab anyone and ask them
Who is the best
I am the best
I am the best
I am the best
I am the best

[CL] Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Oh my god

Simple lessons in life...

1) Don't take people for granted.

Whether it's your loved ones or an acquaintance, one shouldn't take anyone else for granted. If you need to thank or apologize, make sure that you really do it... Because each action and word counts, and can make a difference. Even if others may think that you are insincere, you should still do what you ought to do.

2) Don't make things difficult for others.

There might be still a long way to go- whether it is friendship, colleague-ship or whatever-ship. So as long as one can tahan, one should always try not to make things difficult for others. You may have a long and bad day, but that does not mean that others do not have their share of tough times too. Can tahan, just tahan. Cannot tahan, say your piece in a calm manner and quickly drop the matter. Others do not have the obligation to take what we are going to give.

3) Don't make things difficult for YOURSELF.

Others may have done something wrong or weird to you, but don't forget to continue to care for yourself. Instead of engaging in self-destructive actions which will further worsen your mood, you might as well treat yourself better and go ahead to do what you want or need to do. Others don't owe you a living, and you don't owe others a living too.

These are just some simple lessons that I am trying to learn, and I hope that everyone else can learn too. Then again, everyone is unique and may have different values or beliefs on this... But this should be common sense, no?

Well, if others really did wrong and never do what you expect them to do, don't give the matter too much attention or energy... that will make things easier for yourself and you will be doing justice to yourself... :)

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Learning about life.

Realised that some things are not meant to be, people do hurt each other from time to time, nothing is consistent... I am quite tired from all these. I just want to try to fulfill the bare minimum of what is required of me (because I have no extra energy), and coat myself with a lot of self-care. I will do so, for myself as well as the friends who have been patient, supportive and attentive all along.

For whatever that I hate receiving, I will apply it in my casework. No minimization of any genuine thoughts and feelings, because it's really hurtful to have your thoughts and feelings minimized. Facts and reality check can come in, but only at the appropriate timing. Whatever that I hate receiving, I will try not to do it in my casework.

Learning a new skill and learning a new language are perhaps not as painful as learning about life... apply first-aid, put plaster, drink medicine lor. I will survive with my own methods, not what you told me to. I will continue learning.