Beast New Song - Clenching My Fist Tight

I told you to go, to go away
I replied back to you that I didn’t like you because I thought I wasn’t going to see you again

I wanted to embrace you with my two arms, but I couldn’t do that
Because I thought I was going to cry first

We can live apart
There is a farewell for us too
Only the fake laugh is coming out

I will send you away
So hurry up and go to be happy
Clenching my fists tight, I started to cry

We can’t meet again, now we really can’t meet
I bit my lips at these cold icy words
I don’t want to look back, I don’t want to ever look back
I tell myself over and over again, but I can’t do that

After that, the dreams of me finding you repeats again
Just staring into your back, you don’t smile back looking at me
I happily greet you even though there is no response from you
I do this so that I won’t end up regretting after I wake up from this dream
It isn’t easy to fill up a blank space
The memories just shine a light to where you are
Words that I don’t even mean anything, I send them to you
Clenching my fists tight, Good luck to you

I didn’t know it was this hard walking back home
My heart is too stuffed up

I need to live better
I need to fight this off
No matter how much I tell myself
It is so hard because thoughts of you roam in my mind

We can’t meet again, now we really can’t meet
I bit my lips at these cold icy words
I don’t want to look back, I don’t want to ever look back
I tell myself over and over again, but I can’t do that

Even though I tell myself that I will forget a girl like you
Even though I tell myself that I will never look at a girl like you
But again I can’t forget you

We loved each other, we really loved each other
Why are we breaking up like this?
(Let’s not break up)
Telling me that you couldn’t live without me,
Telling me that you were going to die without me
You, who used to say such things,
Where did you go? Where did you go?




Beast new album name - Mastermind
love them to the max
nobody will sing this song better than the boys .

Weili's 17

Project - Weili's 17th Successful ! X3

My dear yoseob went for surgery .
get well soon (:
love BEAST

i have th temptation to stop blogging as i really dont know what to blog about .
my life is supaaah dull this year .

09 Aug
its National day .
spent that day fruitfully .
Met Esta for lunch at ard 12
had chicken rice, my all time fav foood (:
met th guys (Weili, Edwin, Bear & Brandon.T) at amk .
watched Salt . its a nice movie (:
headed to Marina Bay . walked around there . its a nice place (:
watched fireworks at Marina Square's foodcourt .
Had billy bombers for dinner .
and thats all (:


School tmr & 2 weeks school holiday due to YOG .
like siian .
meeting ET for breakfast .
byeeeee :D

today, is Thursday.
so its school day .
met Esta at Bishan interchange at 9 plus .(late for school)
Sebrina is on leave .
so other lecturers took over . do paper work only .
went for lunch at 11.30 .
ate chicken rice for lunch at coffeeshop .
walked around Junction 8 .
i laughed damn a lot . hahahaha .
in BEO class now .
super siian only .
i dont know what to say already .
goodbyeeee

I loveeeee my dear threesome & GENI .
they gave me th motivation to go on .
they never fail to light up my life .

friends forever ! :D

"when life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, find a thousand reasons to smile"
quoted from Lynn's blog

yea.
i'll find millions of reasons to smilee.
stay strong .

hoho ! i'm looking forward to National Day ! [:

i hope the world will really end in 2012 if can, earlier .
i wasted 1/4 of my like alr .
like not studying hard,
having the right habit,
not being perfect

sucky isn't it ?

i hate my life laaah like seriously.

i dont like th life im living now.

i dont like this office job,
i dont like my lecturers

FML .

im just ranting .
im feeling damn down right now
hope i'll be okay when i wake up tmr.

i'm going to put mask and sleep ! bye world

HOHO !
school reopen alr ! (:
no more work everyday !

surprisingly, i survived 6 months in this company alr .
HAHA .

dad's birthday is ard th corner .
what should i get for him ?

Yay ! School reopening alr !
happeeeh !
cause office is supaah siian .
im doing th same thing everyday .
wonder when can i finish that email thing ):

anw, i watched Knight Day w/ Esta, Candy & Jerry on Tuesday .
nice (:
had fun that day .

okaaay, idk what to say alr !
byeeee !

nobody will know what i want,
cause, i myself dont know too .

i'm stuck .
i dont have a goal in life.
i dont have a dream job .
i dont know what kind of person i want to be in th future .

i dont even know what character and attitude i want to have .
i can be nice to a person today & be nasty to them th next day .
im insane .

im so confuse .

can i dont grow up?
im afraid to face th adult's world.

i want to be a kid and be loved by my parents every single day .
iknow, im selfish.

Still got prob uploading photos .
WTH


I miss Zombiess .




Anyway, i met mushroom no. 2 at Orchard.
shop ard Far East as ET want to look for a dress for th club tonight.
headed to Wisma for dinner . and my yong tau hu cost freaking $7.10 th most expensive yong tau hu i ever ate before . LOL
went to Taka to buy Germaine's bhday prezzie & homeeeeee . (:

i have problem uploading picts again.
now i have to change topic .

anyway, i'm just working everyday .
there's still another 2weeks to end of holiday .
siian !
i miss school .
i miss my crazy teachers.
i still rmb EstaMania & i were laughing throughout EFC @ our calss advisor . but now i realise he's a nice teacher . He kept helping our class .
hahahaha .
Miss Phua - th scientist . She's a damn funny teacher i swear. she can clique with almost all th students in class, & she speak th same way as us ! that's what makes OSA fun (:

and of course Sebrina my first impression of her wasn't really good, but now, i find her quite nice i like her character .

okay . random post . LOL

BUT OF COURSE I MISS SEC SCHOOL MOREEE . HAHAHAHA

im sucha coward .
i'm missing you but i dont dare to tell you


是你。

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee,
Im a full time office lady,
HAHA
its so not a good thing mancxz,
i'll not work in this line in th futureeee.

tmr, is Ziting bhdaaaaay,
its gonna be a goood day tmr, i wish .

byeeeeeee :D

I dont know what to post about,
but i feel like updating !
Im going shopping with family later .
its been like so long since i go shopping with them .
HAHA . randommmm .
byeeeeeee .

i still dunt know what to get for my dad
LOL .
getting pay sooooon . hehehehe
but this month i have to save $$$
for laptop & mobile .
byeeee

i kept seeing 11:11 recently,
M-2 told me that its angel telling me smth,
is it true?
good or bad?

going to prepare & meet QiuDi now.
okay , byeee

i want to new clothes
i want new bags
i want new shoes
i want new handphone
i want to watch movie

hahahaha
but im broke
okay random .

father's day is ard th corners

what shld i get for my dad ?

brain storming.......

Bored

hello humans,
i have no life nowadays ):
work is what i do everyday .
i miss mushroom 2 & 3!


hahahha
my sister is having sunburn after spending 1 whole day at downtown !
geeeeee

bye! :D

Exam is just 3 hours away . & im so not prepared for it

FML .

im prepared for the retest . HAHA

got to go to study a little little bit as i have a little little bit of time .

goodbye .

Happy Birthday Mummy

hello humans , its mummy's birthday today

went to 313 to shop

tried like 3 or 4 sets of clothes & didnt buy a single one

like =.= wasted loads of timeee

but in th end i bought 1 shirt from Forever 21 (:

loveeeeee

shopp till 6 & daddy came to fetch us homeeee

Exam is just less than 24 hours away but i havent start studying yet ! WTF

i know, im not being a good daughter lately,

but im trying my best to be one.

29 May

Work, all the engineers took leave & leaving me alone in the office

done random things like studying, taking photos .

LOL

met Esta @ AMK after work & bought tickets for Shrek forever after (:

shop ard till th movie timing

i rate 4.5/5

niceeee & sweet . HAHAHAHA .

okays, end here .

have to go study real sooon & SHIT !

byeee :D

hello humaaans !

im enjoying school still although there's some unhappy stuffs (:

exams is just few days away.

goodluck to myself & Esta (:

and those who are reading my blog . winks*

Today is just another day of my life..... School as usual...... :(
Did EFC roleplay... Thanks to EstaSibeiChio.com muhahahahahaha
FAKE FRIENDS ARE ALL AROUND. "PLASTIC PEOPLE"
The world is so cruel but thank god i've got friends like,
ESTA TENG, WEI LI, ROU HUI, SHAHIDAH, LI YIN and many more :D
Thanks for being my friend guys. Love you guys x 100000000!

This post is done by Esta Teng kekekekekeke ^.^

BTW I RLLY FEEL LIKE SHITTING >:)
SHIT COME OUT PLZ - MICHELLE.QMX

i know my blog is dead

But i dont know what to update about .

These are th picts taken recently (:

actually, its not recently,

some are taken Months agooo .

loveeee, M

Dye-ed Hair

Helloooooo humaaaaans .

**skipped work part**

Yesterday, after work, met Esta @ TPY (:

went over to her mum's salon . Dy-ed my hair to Medium Blonde .

sort of like it (:

after that , we went to Srgn North to meeet Hwee Tiang & Weili for dinnnnnner

then to Srgn Gardens for desserts .

Saw Yuyang, Hansheng, Nicholas & Yeoknam[notsurespelling] @ Lan .

Walked home after that (:

iwishiwish~

Yo !

went to school ytdddd .
wasn't really listenning in class lorrh =.=
especially during Mr Ling's lesson . i was chatting w/ Esta non stop .
after school, headed to AMK K pool w/ Exanne & Jeremy .
not long later, Tracy cameee .
stay thr for 1 hr ++ thn walk ard amk looking for food !
Tracy went home first . while th rest of us continue walking ard .
settled down @ Long John . as ie can't find Sumo House . LOLOL
reached home at 9++
END .
meeting Esta Teng & Candy tonight for dinner at fish & Co (:

Schooooooool

Hello humaaaans .
Im in school right now .
like finally after 2 weeeeks .
laughed alot today .
overall, fun (:
work tmr, like siian only . gah .
bye !

SHORT HAIR

hello readers !

yupp , i cut my hair short, short, short !

i look damn ugly now cans

so please, don't comment on my hair when you meet me .

tyvm (:

:D:D:D

hello humaaaans .

i know my blog is almost dead , so im here to revive it . HAHAHA !

another working day today ):

im hatin it ! gah !

Last Sat, i went exploring Singapore w/ Weili & Esta <3

im looking forward to this weekends (:(:

im lovin it .

LOL

byeeeee .

In school right now .
had my CS exam in th morning .
dont have any high expectation for it .
cause i know i wont do well luh .

going to have OSA exam later on .
siian only .
work tmr siian x99999 . LOL

still have role play script to do .
bye !

Stupid Post .

i think im treating my blog like twitter siah .
my updates always damn short eh .

anw, my life sucks ttm now .
working & studying occupy most of my timeeee .
ie dont even have th time to meet my friends .
i damn miss LALA & Shuying cans .
super duper long nvr see them alr !

i damn dulan now.
working + family + money probs _l_
i want to die luh .
shyt , my blogging style is so diff from last time .
gah, dunt kaiire . it will be like this for th whole year .
because, i dunt have th time to think what to blog .
i just write what i think of . so its not fake . HAHA .

Sister kaopei-ing now ccb .
i damn entertaining myself now . LOL
i kept using vulgarities this few weeks laaah .
dunt like , but i use to it alr leys .

you are such a faker .

Nice One !

Due to being too bored,
i talked to my office lights for 4 hours today
(because its giving me prob)

i accidentally cut my finger with a scissor while opening a parcel today
4th time this year ley .
siian !
i need to avoid sharp things alr laaah . LOL
bye !

Exploring Singapore with Esta Weili

Had a great day out with Esta & Weili !
Walked around City hall & Raffles area .
Loved .

photos will be uploaded sooooooon . (:

just changed my blogskin,
i'll add th links when i'm free .

things that shouldn't be known
are left unsaid X3

(:

had EFC exam today
hope i wont do badly (:

bye !

SHINee is luv

HOHOHO !
hello humaaaans .
im in a half good mooood today .
because,
I DREAMT OF SHINee & B last night !
hahahhaha . really wish i never wake up mancxz.
but, i did have a nightmare too .
LOL .
SHINee is having a showcase can't rmb when, this week .
actually, i want go derhh . but because of work, i cant .
took 1 day leave only after 2 months of work boss like not happy alr . _l_ laaah
tmr, work again ):
BYE !

i need, a break from, everything

I Miss GENI , LALA & ZiTing ):

hello humaaaaans !
i know, my blog is deaddddd .
hahah ! i dont have th time to update leys !
&&& im darn lazy to upload photos .
okaaaay, not lazy , but i lost my memory card reader !
=.=
B2ST's new album is out ! (: lovelovelove !
* my earpiece is spoilt, gonna get a new one soooooon !
** im in love with Twilight <3
*** EFC exam is on this Thurs ):
**** OSA & CS exaaam is on next Thurs ):):
# work is on everyday except Thurs & Sun .
gawd .

School holiday is coming but i still neeeed to work .

<3 i miss my sec school friends


): my life sucks to th max .

happy family, gone
i have no more motivation to go on

Randoooom (:

GOING OUT WITH ZITING LATER WHEN TH RAIN STOPS (:

ugh ! hope it will stop soooooooon !

three days ago,
went put with Esta for dinner (:
two days ago,
Schooooool ! (:
looking forward to see th magician's stupid actions & reactions , laughhhhs !

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARRR ! :D

slept at around 2 last night & woke up at 8 .

ohmy , im super sleepy nowww !

went to grandma's house in th morning till around 1.30

went to vivo after that , had lunch at Yoshinoya (SP?)

sistr spilled a whole bowl of soup . ohmy, & it kena my dad .

mood turned off so shopped for awhile more & home-ed

going to Malaysia tmr (:

hope i can wake up luh .

byeeeee !

>

Hello readers !

Happy Chinese New Year in advance ! (:

hahaha

going to have reunion dinner tonight !

Er, im not looking forward to it .

cause i dont have any common interest with my cousins so we always dont have things to talk about

nevermind .

not in a good mood again . rawrs .

Bye !

something is troubling me .

but im not telling you.

Met up with Esta after work & went over to fish & co.

had fattening stuffs ! think i will gain weight again ):):):

left at around 9 & daddy fetch me home from Bishan (:

todayyyyy, another normal working day .

was damn sleepy cancxz my eyes kept closing .

i hate this job .

i kept thinking of funny stuffs & jokes to keep myself awake .

but i can't be laughing at th same thing throughout th whole year .

will get tired of it . how?

test tmr ! dieeeeeee ):

i know i promised to blog once a week . but i broke it .

nvm . LOL

went shopping at Junction ytd . spent over $90 on makeups . =.= heart pain mancxz .

nvm . got my fish & co pay .but its only $100++ as i didnt work much during Dec .

damn little cancxz . hope i will get my current job's pay sooooon ! hahaha .

spent around 6 hours at City Hall todayyy . Bought a new boots from New Look (:(:

happy happy thanks daddy ! (:

actually i bought a shoe few weeks ago which was suppose to be my new year shoe . but i sort of spoilt it . LOL .

i dont know what to say alr . lazy to blog . bye ! (:

Where You Go ? Fish & Co !!!!!!!!!!!

OMG ! i missing fish & co so much leh .
what to do ?!?!?!
i cannot work there anymore as my current job's contract say so .
im feeling so upset now .
although i only work there for 1 month plus , those laughter are really unforgetable .
i miss making sauces , being greeter , carrying those beverage & even wiping th utensils . LOL
anw,
went to school todayyyyyy .
alright , i dunt really like my class . not th teachers, but some of my classmates .
dont ask me why .
i haven finish my project ! OMG !
got to go do it now . BYE ! :D:D

wth , i got trouble uploading photos .
zzz

anw, my lifee is so boring now .
working everyday .
i hate th long path i have to walk to reach my office .
i will be sweating like don't knoe whad when i reach th office cause im always left with 5 mins to walk . so i have to walk damn fast .
zzz
School on Thursday! faster reach ! cause i hate being in th office!
iamtoolazytothinkwhattoblogabtalr.imgoingtosleepsoon.goodnightspeople!:D

arrgh !
office life sucks ttm .
i hate it .
hope 1 year will past soooooon .
first day of school today .
i loveeeee it .
having classmate is still better than anything .
much more better than being in an empty office .
im still very frustrated over office life . wonder when this this feeling will end sooon .
i hate it laaaaaaaaaaaaaah .
okay , bye ! (:

First Day

Hello readers !

i will be updating once a week only as im working everyday now .

its my first day of work today .

im so OMFG nervous . LOL

everything didnt really go smoothly or as what i think . as expected

anyway , its th first day . hope i will familiarize with everything soon !

im still under 3 months probation means that my boss can sack me away anytime he wants .

gawd !

i really have to work damn hard !

Jiayou Michelle !

tomorrow , its LIYIN'S birthday ! *smile* !

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY

im so sorry lehs, can't celebrate with you because of work ):

but i really hope that you will enjoy yourself tomorrow . (:

one year older already. hahas ! :D but i still want say, hope you kuai gao zhang da XP

work hard for O levels okay ? Michelle will be supporting you all the way ! (:

although we can't meet or see each other in school anymore but hope our 4 years friendship will neither end nor get weaker. & there's something call phone ! hahaha ! keep in contact worhh .

& hope you will find you PrinceCharming sooon !!!! JOKING ! *laughs

don't know what to say already . LOL . end here uh . Happy Birthdayyyyy ! & remember, Michelle love ya ! haha ! :D

Bang th Wall (Random Post)

OMG ! i forgotten to bring th piece of paper that i wrote down th numbr of th company out ytd .

I can bang th wall laah .

i called th company 3 times today & nobody answer th phone .

maybe nobody working baaah .

hopee that vacancy is not taken . if not i need go bang th wall alr !

LOL .

watching shows on youtube now .

going out later i think .

waiting for my sister's tuition to end .

just 20 mins moreeeee .

rawrs . end here ! bye (:

B2ST ! <3

hello ! :D

i don't want to leave my blog dead for too long so i decide to blog this uh .

random . hahaha

Im addicted to B2ST's songs recently . LOL

especially 'Bad Girl'

i like Yo Seob , Doo Joon & KiKwang th most . (:

going to town with Esta today again :D ithink

hahaha .

Bye . :D

I Hate You Because You're Perfect

Hello Humaaans

its th first day of 2010

i got a feeling that i wont pass this year happily.

rawrs .

had th worst countdown ever .

1. was in my dad's car going home from work .

2. im having a darn bad mood swing . (& its still swinging now)

really not in a good mood recently because of work and study stuffs .

cant communicate with pple recently

3. started my day happily & ended it sucky .

fuck !

Anw, watched Storm Warrior With Esta Yesterday (:

Not Bad .

having random thoughts now .

i type whatever im thinking now .

wondering should i continue to work .

i want .

but i get tired easily .

and after im tired i will have mood swing & show attitude .

after working at fish & co 1 mth , i realise i cannot communicate with strangers well .

i get frustrated easily . & im darn impatient .

+ my parents dont really like me working there . as i kept getting sick like fever , cough, sore throat & sore eyes .

i feel insecure w/o money .

i dont want to owe people "ren qing" anymore .

in a bad mood now . going to watch comedy to cheer myself up .

BYE !