Thursday, June 09, 2011
for everything worthwhile requires effort.
period.
1:34:00 AM
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Tuesday, May 17, 2011
& I want every bit of you to show me you care a whole lot more.
because at this rate, I don't know what i'm doing.
I feel stupid & vulnerable, clinging to every word you once said.
at times I feel like disappearing, to make you realise what's in front of you.
so what IS in front of you, that you see?
what do you feel when you think of me?
I care too much, you say.
I'm just a little bit more patient.
but there's a limit to that, you know.
& maybe, just maybe, it'll reach real soon.
show me, just a little bit more, before I take my bow.
5:05:00 PM
sHescribbles
Sunday, February 20, 2011
i just want to be happy.
for the longest time, for a long time.
10:17:00 PM
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Monday, December 13, 2010
familiarisation.
a word used alot today after a mini heart-to-heart.
it's just a nicer word for 'boredom'.
at least one of us was honest enough.
2:13:00 AM
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Thursday, November 04, 2010
And i thought it would be funny to leave you hanging in suspense,
Then i'd run over to your house and i'd scale the chainlink fence,
That borders your backyard and then i'd climb through your window,
And i'd whisper that i love you as you fall out of your clothes.
And we'd lay there in the darkness like this dream of you i had,
Where we captured all the fireflies and knew what time we had,
Could be counted on our fingertips and that almost made you cry,
But you let me hold you tightly as we said all our goodbyes.
May i say i loved you more.
And it must have been an hour that i clutched you in my arms,
And i must have said the right things because you instantly felt warm,
And you heard my heart stopped beating but you wanted not to cry,
As your sympathetic whispers told a tale of bad goodbyes.
You swore you heard me laughing, and i swore i saw you smile,
As the time we've spent together was meant to last us quite a while,
As I take this piece of you with me I'll carry to my grave,
And knowing that for someone you're an angel sent to save.
May i say i loved you more.
So let's drink to memories we shared,
Down one for all the hopes and cares,
Here's too for being unaware that you're gone,
Because before too long, you'll be a memory.
3:03:00 PM
sHescribbles
Monday, November 01, 2010
ever felt that you wanted something so bad, but when you finally got it, you suddenly feel so empty? because the process of getting it seems more exciting than the actual satisfaction of knowing it's already yours.
that maybe, just maybe, it's not what you wanted. it's just what you THINK you wanted or needed. so you fight for it. you fight hard. you gave excuses & came up with reasons you think will get you there. eventually, you realised you dont know what you're fighting for.
then you screw yourself up, cracking your brains & wasting all your emotions figuring out what you wanted in the first place & why. but it doesnt seem so great. it doesnt seem worth it.
everything seems to be falling apart. you see people you once knew break away. slowly they leave you & they appear to be playing for the other side. and then you dont know them anymore. life gets more complicated than you already know. it gets tough. it gets way too hard to stay awake. all you want to do is dream. dream of things that make you happy. of what gives you meaning. or dream of nothing at all.
being unhappy kept me going. it kept me awake to fight for what i thought i wanted. THAT was the excitement i got. it gave me meaning & i felt whole.
so maybe, just maybe, id be better off unhappy. cause life back then was simple, easy & worth it.
5:54:00 PM
sHescribbles
Friday, August 27, 2010
just so you know, i already did.
3:05:00 PM
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