better
Friday, November 30, 2007 2:47 AM
he called.
but why do i still feel so down?
probably, im tired.
anyway, to pain.
hope you find the true meaning of your life soon.
after what happened to the 5 national dragonboat rowers last weekend, it makes me realised how fragile life can be.
indeed, life and death is just a thin line in between.
once gone, it will forever be gone.
i would like to express my gratitudes to whoever touches my life.
i wanna say a big thank you, and i really cherish all of you.
i am afraid.
i dont wanna end up like those people who posted an entry on the blog set up for jeremy.
(one of the national rower who passed on.)
everyone is regretting for that they kept whatever they feel for and think about of jeremy in the heart.
when he passed on, it is like a tap being turn on.
everyone started revealing their inner thoughts.
again, thousand thoughts racing through my mind now.
in a whirl.
mixed feeling.
this isn't too good.
probably.
i need to hit the bed soon.
but why do i still feel so down?
probably, im tired.
anyway, to pain.
hope you find the true meaning of your life soon.
after what happened to the 5 national dragonboat rowers last weekend, it makes me realised how fragile life can be.
indeed, life and death is just a thin line in between.
once gone, it will forever be gone.
i would like to express my gratitudes to whoever touches my life.
i wanna say a big thank you, and i really cherish all of you.
i am afraid.
i dont wanna end up like those people who posted an entry on the blog set up for jeremy.
(one of the national rower who passed on.)
everyone is regretting for that they kept whatever they feel for and think about of jeremy in the heart.
when he passed on, it is like a tap being turn on.
everyone started revealing their inner thoughts.
again, thousand thoughts racing through my mind now.
in a whirl.
mixed feeling.
this isn't too good.
probably.
i need to hit the bed soon.
upset!
2:06 AM
am feeling under the weather now.
first, i was pissed at wad bro did.
he is such an ass.
told mom that i didn't attend school today!
it is like what the hell!
come on man!
i left home like 7.55am this morning!
and she came questioning me.
how frustrating can it gets?!
forget it.
i have quite gotten over this trivial matter.
just feeling upset that i missed it.
i think he is asleep.
sigh.
thought maybe hearing his voice might cheer me up a little.
cos his nonsenses and voice never fails to make me smile.
never mind, never mind.
im feeling so tired and at the same time, afraid.
after vb lesson today, im feeling really upset.
for the first time i seriously did my vb practical during lab lesson.
and yet, i cant seems to catch up with the classmates.
im dumb to the extend that instructions is given in the notes, and yet i cant really figured out what is going on.
tell me, is this dumb or slow?
whichever?
if i were to walk home myself today, after vb, another thousand trains of thoughts could have run through my mind again.
but was really glad that pain walked me home today.
it was full of nonsenses.
nevertheless, i enjoyed (:
thanks pain (:
im mentally tired.
my eyes can barely open.
but still, i dont feel like slping.
guess, i need to stop thinking so much.
one irritating bugger.
sort of keep flirting with me on msn.
and that guy will never be my cup of tea.
NEVER EVER!
urgh!
some guys can be quite irritating at time man.
adding onto my stress, is my room which is in a mess.
so messy that i dont even have a little space to study.
sigh!
ahhhh!!
feel like screaming at the top of my lungs now!
`is it cos of my laziness or my capability?
first, i was pissed at wad bro did.
he is such an ass.
told mom that i didn't attend school today!
it is like what the hell!
come on man!
i left home like 7.55am this morning!
and she came questioning me.
how frustrating can it gets?!
forget it.
i have quite gotten over this trivial matter.
just feeling upset that i missed it.
i think he is asleep.
sigh.
thought maybe hearing his voice might cheer me up a little.
cos his nonsenses and voice never fails to make me smile.
never mind, never mind.
im feeling so tired and at the same time, afraid.
after vb lesson today, im feeling really upset.
for the first time i seriously did my vb practical during lab lesson.
and yet, i cant seems to catch up with the classmates.
im dumb to the extend that instructions is given in the notes, and yet i cant really figured out what is going on.
tell me, is this dumb or slow?
whichever?
if i were to walk home myself today, after vb, another thousand trains of thoughts could have run through my mind again.
but was really glad that pain walked me home today.
it was full of nonsenses.
nevertheless, i enjoyed (:
thanks pain (:
im mentally tired.
my eyes can barely open.
but still, i dont feel like slping.
guess, i need to stop thinking so much.
one irritating bugger.
sort of keep flirting with me on msn.
and that guy will never be my cup of tea.
NEVER EVER!
urgh!
some guys can be quite irritating at time man.
adding onto my stress, is my room which is in a mess.
so messy that i dont even have a little space to study.
sigh!
ahhhh!!
feel like screaming at the top of my lungs now!
`is it cos of my laziness or my capability?
a great surprise!
Thursday, November 29, 2007 1:18 AM
whoohooo!!
im over the moon man!
my pain had satisfied my craving.
she bought me my favourite double chocolate donuts from donut factory!!
and she bought it to my house downstairs AFTER WORK!!
aww!
so sweet of her =D
you guys must be wondering why am i calling her pain right.
wahahahahahas!
cos she always call me an ass.
so i told her she can either be the hole or the pain.
ass-hole or pain in the ass.
and of cos, who would choose to be a hole -.-"
so that's how she got her name.
hahas!
well.
pain is not in a good mood.
pain, listen hard!
cheer up!
at least you still got me the ass!
im waiting for you to bicker with me again =D
fwalalalaas (:
`happy birthday raihana (:
im over the moon man!
my pain had satisfied my craving.
she bought me my favourite double chocolate donuts from donut factory!!
and she bought it to my house downstairs AFTER WORK!!
aww!
so sweet of her =D
you guys must be wondering why am i calling her pain right.
wahahahahahas!
cos she always call me an ass.
so i told her she can either be the hole or the pain.
ass-hole or pain in the ass.
and of cos, who would choose to be a hole -.-"
so that's how she got her name.
hahas!
well.
pain is not in a good mood.
pain, listen hard!
cheer up!
at least you still got me the ass!
im waiting for you to bicker with me again =D
fwalalalaas (:
`happy birthday raihana (:
not the same frequency
Sunday, November 25, 2007 12:39 AM
apparently, my parents and i dont share the same frequency.
i am not upset or whatever by wad happened earlier.
just that, i felt, i have hardly or never been given a chance to speak my mind.
whatever the case is, forget it.
on a lighter note, yesterday was my brother's birthday.
went out for dinner at new york new york, amk hub.
very filling.
but poor brother, no cake.
and on top of that, dad still went out.
i was rather pissed for that my dad, instead of keeping bro accompany on this day.
he went out.
the original plan was to sing after dinner.
BUT he is going out.
so tell me.
if were you, wont your mood be affected?
anyhow.
my marketing project is not done yet!!
still halfway through only.
how bad can that get.
hmm.
an issue have been bothering me.
it's been a year plus now.
when will right opportunity arise?
off to do work.
note to self, dont be so bad temper.
`baby, i miss you so.
i am not upset or whatever by wad happened earlier.
just that, i felt, i have hardly or never been given a chance to speak my mind.
whatever the case is, forget it.
on a lighter note, yesterday was my brother's birthday.
went out for dinner at new york new york, amk hub.
very filling.
but poor brother, no cake.
and on top of that, dad still went out.
i was rather pissed for that my dad, instead of keeping bro accompany on this day.
he went out.
the original plan was to sing after dinner.
BUT he is going out.
so tell me.
if were you, wont your mood be affected?
anyhow.
my marketing project is not done yet!!
still halfway through only.
how bad can that get.
hmm.
an issue have been bothering me.
it's been a year plus now.
when will right opportunity arise?
off to do work.
note to self, dont be so bad temper.
`baby, i miss you so.
soon
Friday, November 23, 2007 1:46 AM
soon.
very soon it will be a nest for me to only rest my soul and at most do my laundry.
nothing more.
i tried to keep my cool.
seriously, i tried.
but i cant stand it anymore.
somewhere, somewhat, somehow, it went wrong.
why is it whenever i find my life near perfect, flaws will start showing itself again?
it's time to be fully independent soon, i guess (:
be it financially or emotionally (:
p/s: faz called me today (:
`will you still stand by me?
very soon it will be a nest for me to only rest my soul and at most do my laundry.
nothing more.
i tried to keep my cool.
seriously, i tried.
but i cant stand it anymore.
somewhere, somewhat, somehow, it went wrong.
why is it whenever i find my life near perfect, flaws will start showing itself again?
it's time to be fully independent soon, i guess (:
be it financially or emotionally (:
p/s: faz called me today (:
`will you still stand by me?
monotonous life
Monday, November 19, 2007 6:45 PM
is it good or bad when life is plain till you are like rotting?
i think im rotting soon.
so bored.
for that past one week, avg slping hours 10 - 11hours, yet tired.
what is this man?
hmmm.
*pondering*
i guess i need some brain teasers to wake my brain up.
gotta stop it from 'sleeping'.
i can feel that im getting more and more stupid.
cos i dont really exercise my brain now =P
maybe go buy some maths assessments and do.
but well it is still all good.
no big issuses now.
life's good for me (:
except that i need a job to 'support my living' i guess.
hahas!
i have been ranting to my friends that i really envy those couples who stay near each other.
(of cos excluding married couples though).
lol.
oh rhowena oh rhowena, dont expect too much (:
ok.
blog more again soon.
gotta get back to work.
i can see abdul trying to force himself awake opposite me!
hahas.
yea.
2 of us decided to be hardworking, decided to start doing our marketing assignment (:
i love marketing!
wheets!
my one and only favourite module (:
cos for 2 sem, my tutors are nice people =D
short story to end with.
i think im rotting soon.
so bored.
for that past one week, avg slping hours 10 - 11hours, yet tired.
what is this man?
hmmm.
*pondering*
i guess i need some brain teasers to wake my brain up.
gotta stop it from 'sleeping'.
i can feel that im getting more and more stupid.
cos i dont really exercise my brain now =P
maybe go buy some maths assessments and do.
but well it is still all good.
no big issuses now.
life's good for me (:
except that i need a job to 'support my living' i guess.
hahas!
i have been ranting to my friends that i really envy those couples who stay near each other.
(of cos excluding married couples though).
lol.
oh rhowena oh rhowena, dont expect too much (:
ok.
blog more again soon.
gotta get back to work.
i can see abdul trying to force himself awake opposite me!
hahas.
yea.
2 of us decided to be hardworking, decided to start doing our marketing assignment (:
i love marketing!
wheets!
my one and only favourite module (:
cos for 2 sem, my tutors are nice people =D
*note to self, good friends are hard to come by.
in life, i've come across many who share the same interest/passion as me.
but only a few in the pool will understand and willing to share their life and care for you.
and im glad i have recently added a few more to my collection.
i will cherish the bond, i swear (:
short story to end with.
there was a jetplane flying from one country to another.
in the event of flying, all of a sudden an "ahh!!" sound projected from the speaker.
everyone started to panicked!
some passengers took out pens and papers, started stating their wills.
some closed their eyes and mumbled, praying probably.
one common feeling, afraid.
then, "to all passengers, im very sorry bout the sound earlier. an air stewardess accidentally spilled the coffee onto my shirt. Anyway, enjoy your flight." said the captain.
mur mur all over the cabin.
some cursing and swearing.
and one passenger said "ABCDEFG! YOU WET YOU SHIRT! I WET MY DAMN BLOODY PANTS!!!"
MORAL OF THE STORY: A LEADER SAYING AND DOING IS VERY IMPORTANT
clock is ticking fast
Wednesday, November 07, 2007 7:10 PM
the clock is ticking fast.
in a blink of eye, it is already week 4.
4 weeks have passed, and i still know nuts of what's going in class.
sounds bad eh.
just came back from 2 malaysia trips.
one to pangkor island and ipoh with aunty doria, doreen, grandma and great grand aunty.
apart from the conflicts(not involving me though) that had happened during the trip, everything were just fine.
the foods in ipoh were heavenly.
they were superb!
the hor fun with egg, the kai si hor fun, the big and tall tissue prata, ...
damn!
it's mouth-watering!
came back on thurs.
had driving test on fri morning.
due to my carelessness, i failed.
dammit!
taking again next month.
this time confirm pass.
trust me!
(:
hmm.
if only i pass that morning, i would have drove darling out for dinner to celebrate our anniversary that night.
well.
still, we went out for dinner.
but i just couldnt get over the fact that i had failed =/
kept talking bout it.
guess he is sick of it.
lol.
new week that just started.
most lessons on monday is e-learning.
went to sch for proj.
yesterday, started doing project proposal.
today, sick!
yes, again.
having a bad sore throat.
didnt go sch today.
boringgggggg..
im getting more and more lazy.
getting more and more evil.
note to self : do onto others, if you want others to do onto you.
no motivation to do anything.
memory is deteriorating.
guess cos i have been using too much of my brain.
how scary can this world be.
my family and i used to visit this house in yishun for prayers.
there is this man whom the god (tuo pek kong) will possessed him or something.
don't know how to explain in english.
u know, tiao tang.
that's not the point.
this man is a malaysian.
i saw him a month ago when we went for prayers.
he was still alive kicking, joking with us.
last fri, when i came home, mom told me that he died in a accident, in penang.
he was riding a bike when the accident happened.
his head was being dragged by a big lorry for more than 10m!
the most heart-breaking thing, he died horribly.
being dragged by the lorry, his upper and lower body distached.
his whole skull break into pieces with his brain, brain juice all over the road.
his upper body too, with his inner organs lying on the road.
this is the link http://www.nanyang.com/index.php?ch=8&pg=17&ac=784561 (mouse over the link)
mom told me that, pek kong once warned him not to go out on this day.
keep saying time is up.
but he was stubborn, went ahead.
we, the believers of pek kong are all thinking, why didnt pek kong save him.
he isnt a bad man.
life is all predestined i guess.
imagine the scene, a month ago and now.
heart-wrenching.
his children are ard the same age as me i guess.
i cant help thinking, dangers are ard us everywhere.
that makes me fear of living in this world.
life and death is just being separated by a thin line in between.
treasure...
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