disappointing!
Saturday, September 30, 2006 3:02 AM
had tuition this morning.
while on the way, i saw peilin if i am not wrong.
how many donkey years have i not seen her?
looks so much like her.
but still, i cant confirm =/
the sight of her, it makes me think of ling wen.
wonder how is she now =/
we've lost touch with each other for 2 freaking years!
i miss her badly =(
wasnt very productive today.
cos i didnt complete my tuition work =/
was rather happy cos im going out with uncle james.
and i gonna get a new phone =))
called up ah ma to tell her im coming over for dinner.
uncle james wasnt at home.
so i decided to go TM with doreen first.
my goodness!!
i saw glenn today!!
lol.
it's been a very long long time since i saw him.
tsk tsk.
he was that ass who always scared me when we did sentry duty in ANCO course.
lol.
chated a bit and so on.
after leaving pastamania, went shopping.
as we shop, i felt very weird.
how come my hp is so quiet.
no call from uncle james or whosoever.
"uncle james must have forgotten," i was thinking.
hmmm.
true enough.
he forgotten!!
FUCK!!
MY CHIAS FAMILY GUYS ALWAYS GO BACK ON THEIR WORDS.
=((
asked dad if he is able to bring me to get the phone.
he said he is busy, got sth on.
fine.
he might needa work.
guess wad?!
he went to catch sotong!!
^&*($%^!
fuck!!
hello!?!
i've been talking abt the phone thing for 3 fucking days.
do you know wad is piority?!
why you don't have the courtesy to tell me you cant make it?!
make me go to ah ma's for?
and i needa make my way home alone.
it's not that i dun wanna go ah ma's house.
it is very ulu!!
and whenever i wanna go home, i will definitely trouble someone.
wad is this?!
fucking shit.
so, fine!
i took a cab home.
feeling dejected.
came online, look at other's blog.
fuck.
i saw sth which i dun wish to see at all.
the sight of it, just make me wanna cry.
what the hell is happening to her?!
-sigh-
another one which i dun wanna read at all.
it aroused the jealousy in me again.
well.
im always the last one you thought of.
so why bother?
i dun need anyone.
i dun wanna be dependent on others.
i dun wan anyone to see the tears i shed.
no point.
wad you can do?
just leave me alone is wad you can do =)
-oh my goodness-
while on the way, i saw peilin if i am not wrong.
how many donkey years have i not seen her?
looks so much like her.
but still, i cant confirm =/
the sight of her, it makes me think of ling wen.
wonder how is she now =/
we've lost touch with each other for 2 freaking years!
i miss her badly =(
wasnt very productive today.
cos i didnt complete my tuition work =/
was rather happy cos im going out with uncle james.
and i gonna get a new phone =))
called up ah ma to tell her im coming over for dinner.
uncle james wasnt at home.
so i decided to go TM with doreen first.
my goodness!!
i saw glenn today!!
lol.
it's been a very long long time since i saw him.
tsk tsk.
he was that ass who always scared me when we did sentry duty in ANCO course.
lol.
chated a bit and so on.
after leaving pastamania, went shopping.
as we shop, i felt very weird.
how come my hp is so quiet.
no call from uncle james or whosoever.
"uncle james must have forgotten," i was thinking.
hmmm.
true enough.
he forgotten!!
FUCK!!
MY CHIAS FAMILY GUYS ALWAYS GO BACK ON THEIR WORDS.
=((
asked dad if he is able to bring me to get the phone.
he said he is busy, got sth on.
fine.
he might needa work.
guess wad?!
he went to catch sotong!!
^&*($%^!
fuck!!
hello!?!
i've been talking abt the phone thing for 3 fucking days.
do you know wad is piority?!
why you don't have the courtesy to tell me you cant make it?!
make me go to ah ma's for?
and i needa make my way home alone.
it's not that i dun wanna go ah ma's house.
it is very ulu!!
and whenever i wanna go home, i will definitely trouble someone.
wad is this?!
fucking shit.
so, fine!
i took a cab home.
feeling dejected.
came online, look at other's blog.
fuck.
i saw sth which i dun wish to see at all.
the sight of it, just make me wanna cry.
what the hell is happening to her?!
-sigh-
another one which i dun wanna read at all.
it aroused the jealousy in me again.
well.
im always the last one you thought of.
so why bother?
i dun need anyone.
i dun wanna be dependent on others.
i dun wan anyone to see the tears i shed.
no point.
wad you can do?
just leave me alone is wad you can do =)
-oh my goodness-
Jealousy
Thursday, September 28, 2006 12:50 AM
sometimes, i tried my very best to stop myself from thinking.
but at times, i cant.
perhaps this is wad you call jealousy.
hmmm.
one thing i have to make it clear here.
it is not over r/s matters im jealous over here.
definitely not.
but i shall not post the matter here.
i dun wanna cause any disputes or wadever shit craps.
when i think of it, i will feel the 'ouch!' in my heart.
sometimes, im thinking.
am i being too childish or too petty to be jealous over such a stuff?
well.
okay.
i also duno wad the hell am i talking abt.
mayb im just too tensed up, thus my imaginations are going wild and so on.
ya.
just ignored it.
it doesnt matter.
i might be tired.
hence i am talking rubbish.
lol.
forget it seriously =D
-looks can be deceiving-
but at times, i cant.
perhaps this is wad you call jealousy.
hmmm.
one thing i have to make it clear here.
it is not over r/s matters im jealous over here.
definitely not.
but i shall not post the matter here.
i dun wanna cause any disputes or wadever shit craps.
when i think of it, i will feel the 'ouch!' in my heart.
sometimes, im thinking.
am i being too childish or too petty to be jealous over such a stuff?
well.
okay.
i also duno wad the hell am i talking abt.
mayb im just too tensed up, thus my imaginations are going wild and so on.
ya.
just ignored it.
it doesnt matter.
i might be tired.
hence i am talking rubbish.
lol.
forget it seriously =D
-looks can be deceiving-
nothing is ever constant except changes
Monday, September 25, 2006 12:40 AM
this morning, i saw oda standing opp me.
i thought she is going to start work.
till she said, " today is my last day".
i was like "HUH?! SERIOUS?!".
i asked, so today after working, she won't be coming back anymore.
she said no.
she is not gonna start work even.
wells.
i was kinda taken aback.
everything is so fast moving.
people are leaving one by one.
today is tiff's and oda's last day.
hmmm.
well.
as i always said, nothing is ever constant except changes =/
that's life, isn't it?
people come and go in your life.
you have to learn to accept it.
though we are not very close, but still.
well.
lunch together, craps and stuffs.
well.
fuck it man.
i felt my world is a mess =/
very disorganised >:(
sometimes, i feel like emptying out everything.
i wanna start everything afresh.
i wanna re-organise my room.
i wanna re-organise my emotions.
well.
i just to cool down and find a way to sort things out.
i need time to myself.
i wanna go the beach.
i wanna listen to the sea singing.
i wanna sit under the bed of stars.
i need to find some inspirations.
-all that i want-
i thought she is going to start work.
till she said, " today is my last day".
i was like "HUH?! SERIOUS?!".
i asked, so today after working, she won't be coming back anymore.
she said no.
she is not gonna start work even.
wells.
i was kinda taken aback.
everything is so fast moving.
people are leaving one by one.
today is tiff's and oda's last day.
hmmm.
well.
as i always said, nothing is ever constant except changes =/
that's life, isn't it?
people come and go in your life.
you have to learn to accept it.
though we are not very close, but still.
well.
lunch together, craps and stuffs.
well.
fuck it man.
i felt my world is a mess =/
very disorganised >:(
sometimes, i feel like emptying out everything.
i wanna start everything afresh.
i wanna re-organise my room.
i wanna re-organise my emotions.
well.
i just to cool down and find a way to sort things out.
i need time to myself.
i wanna go the beach.
i wanna listen to the sea singing.
i wanna sit under the bed of stars.
i need to find some inspirations.
-all that i want-
bored to tears
Saturday, September 23, 2006 7:15 PM
so damn bored!!
today is a sat, 7plus.
guess wad am i doing.
i am rotting in the office alone.
SIANS!!
hmmm.
jerome and spike changed shift.
so ending --> an auntie and me -.-"
a lot of calls today.
ehh.
i nv slack.
break time ok.
so yup.
here i am blogging to kill the boredom.
office very little people.
i can even count with my tiny tweeny lil fingers.
hmmm.
having headache.
duno why the whole day i am feeling warm.
i can feel the heat.
hmmm.
maybe bcos my blood pressure is rising.
lol.
well well.
wadever.
i have 45mins more.
faster faster!!
time pass faster.
im very hungry!!
oh well.
run out of brain juice.
i got no inspiration at the moment.
off to play my games now.
take care!!
-a white lie-
today is a sat, 7plus.
guess wad am i doing.
i am rotting in the office alone.
SIANS!!
hmmm.
jerome and spike changed shift.
so ending --> an auntie and me -.-"
a lot of calls today.
ehh.
i nv slack.
break time ok.
so yup.
here i am blogging to kill the boredom.
office very little people.
i can even count with my tiny tweeny lil fingers.
hmmm.
having headache.
duno why the whole day i am feeling warm.
i can feel the heat.
hmmm.
maybe bcos my blood pressure is rising.
lol.
well well.
wadever.
i have 45mins more.
faster faster!!
time pass faster.
im very hungry!!
oh well.
run out of brain juice.
i got no inspiration at the moment.
off to play my games now.
take care!!
-a white lie-
as usual
Friday, September 22, 2006 2:03 AM
as usual.
im pure lazy.
hmmm.
went for tuition today.
rather productive i should say.
met eric, spike, aina and jerome for lunch after my tuition.
lame shit.
jerome ar jerome.
haiyo.
hero sia.
lol.
as usual, crapped and stuffs.
supposed to meet huiling to go out tgh.
but it was cancelled.
the moment i reached home, i dun feel like going out at all.
waited for huiling's call.
going 5 that time, she finally called.
somehow, im attracted to the bed.
moreover, she said she wanna be back home by 8plus.
so ok.
not going anymore =/
well.
it is getting late now.
which means, im going to slp now.
toodles!
-i miss shopping badly!!! -
im pure lazy.
hmmm.
went for tuition today.
rather productive i should say.
met eric, spike, aina and jerome for lunch after my tuition.
lame shit.
jerome ar jerome.
haiyo.
hero sia.
lol.
as usual, crapped and stuffs.
supposed to meet huiling to go out tgh.
but it was cancelled.
the moment i reached home, i dun feel like going out at all.
waited for huiling's call.
going 5 that time, she finally called.
somehow, im attracted to the bed.
moreover, she said she wanna be back home by 8plus.
so ok.
not going anymore =/
well.
it is getting late now.
which means, im going to slp now.
toodles!
-i miss shopping badly!!! -
you can do it!!
Thursday, September 21, 2006 12:47 AM
at times, you tell yourself "yes. i can do it".
but how many can really hold on to that belief?
i believed most will be on the other side thinking "i don't think i can do it".
well, i may be wrong though.
this is just my opinion.
ya.
you're right.
i fall in that caterogry.
i always tell myself "i can do it, i can do it".
but deep in my heart, im thinking "i won't make it".
tried to have more faith in my myself.
tried to motivate myself.
but somehow, i felt i am lying to myself.
well, it is all the power of mentality =/
it is getting nearer and nearer!!
oh my god!!
can someone save me?!?!
o-level is coming!!
i becoming a kan chiong spider alr.
how how how?!?!
24 hours is too short for me!!
oh well oh well.
time to cool down.
gonna meet my colleagues after tuition to have lunch together =D
phew!
i spend more time with my colleagues more than family.
hahas.
then gonna meet huiling.
go where?
**ahem**
wad is one of the woman's hobbies?
or rather, me.
SHOPPING!!
duh!
hahas.
oh well.
god bless me.
6 of november is getting nearer.
anyway, gonna slp soon.
toodles!
-being single or attached is not a social status, it is abt having a special someone to share your life with-
but how many can really hold on to that belief?
i believed most will be on the other side thinking "i don't think i can do it".
well, i may be wrong though.
this is just my opinion.
ya.
you're right.
i fall in that caterogry.
i always tell myself "i can do it, i can do it".
but deep in my heart, im thinking "i won't make it".
tried to have more faith in my myself.
tried to motivate myself.
but somehow, i felt i am lying to myself.
well, it is all the power of mentality =/
it is getting nearer and nearer!!
oh my god!!
can someone save me?!?!
o-level is coming!!
i becoming a kan chiong spider alr.
how how how?!?!
24 hours is too short for me!!
oh well oh well.
time to cool down.
gonna meet my colleagues after tuition to have lunch together =D
phew!
i spend more time with my colleagues more than family.
hahas.
then gonna meet huiling.
go where?
**ahem**
wad is one of the woman's hobbies?
or rather, me.
SHOPPING!!
duh!
hahas.
oh well.
god bless me.
6 of november is getting nearer.
anyway, gonna slp soon.
toodles!
-being single or attached is not a social status, it is abt having a special someone to share your life with-
nagging, nagging and more nagging.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006 12:34 AM
mum have been nagging at me just bcos i refused to eat the apple.
nagged me for not taking those vitamin pills.
nagged me for not eating more fruits.
nagged me for not drinking more water.
nagged me for not taking of my complexion.
wadever.
the fact is that i have been drinking almost 2 bottles of water everyday.
esp when im in the office.
the fact is that i do eat fruits.
just happened that i don't really like apple compared to other fruits.
the fact is i do take those vitamin pills.
but only once in a blue moon.
the fact is that i do take care of my complexion.
just that i don't do mask very often cos im lazy.
wanted to revise my work just now.
but thinking of mum in the room, with the fan off.
i decided not to.
tell me.
how can i work w/o fan?!?!?!
so i went to the hall and stone.
lol.
well.
im on the phone.
so i shall stop here.
take care folks!!
toddles =))
-victory cant be achieve w/o sufferings-
nagged me for not taking those vitamin pills.
nagged me for not eating more fruits.
nagged me for not drinking more water.
nagged me for not taking of my complexion.
wadever.
the fact is that i have been drinking almost 2 bottles of water everyday.
esp when im in the office.
the fact is that i do eat fruits.
just happened that i don't really like apple compared to other fruits.
the fact is i do take those vitamin pills.
but only once in a blue moon.
the fact is that i do take care of my complexion.
just that i don't do mask very often cos im lazy.
wanted to revise my work just now.
but thinking of mum in the room, with the fan off.
i decided not to.
tell me.
how can i work w/o fan?!?!?!
so i went to the hall and stone.
lol.
well.
im on the phone.
so i shall stop here.
take care folks!!
toddles =))
-victory cant be achieve w/o sufferings-
cosy nest
Sunday, September 17, 2006 5:54 PM
home sweet home.
back from work =D
ehh faz.
im blogging okay.
hahas.
well.
wasnt that bad today.
cos today is super duper free in the office.
free until TL thought we are skiving.
lol.
watched too fast too furious in the office (not tokoyo drift).
aina and i were watching together.
nice.
there's one guy in the show.
his eyes are damn sexy (faz said cant describe eyes as cute)!!
wahahahas!!
overall, the show is entertaining =D
no difficult cust today =D
heh heh.
hmmm.
no much ppl working today too.
so yep, office was rather quiet.
heys!
my nails!!
%^&*$#@!
i tried my very best to take care of my nails.
BUT!!
the tips....
urgh!!
though not very obvious.
but it is no longer perfect ='(
i wanna be tai tai in future.
so i can do manicure that will last for a longer time.
no need to type, no need to do houseworks.
so nails will be pretty always =D
hahas.
im just kidding.
if i gonna be tai tai, i rather i go and die.
waste time, waste money.
i can't stand idleing everyday.
i will die of boredom.....
oh well.
that's abt all.
i gonna take a nap now.
hahas.
dun be jealous ;)
toodles!
-let nature take its course-
back from work =D
ehh faz.
im blogging okay.
hahas.
well.
wasnt that bad today.
cos today is super duper free in the office.
free until TL thought we are skiving.
lol.
watched too fast too furious in the office (not tokoyo drift).
aina and i were watching together.
nice.
there's one guy in the show.
his eyes are damn sexy (faz said cant describe eyes as cute)!!
wahahahas!!
overall, the show is entertaining =D
no difficult cust today =D
heh heh.
hmmm.
no much ppl working today too.
so yep, office was rather quiet.
heys!
my nails!!
%^&*$#@!
i tried my very best to take care of my nails.
BUT!!
the tips....
urgh!!
though not very obvious.
but it is no longer perfect ='(
i wanna be tai tai in future.
so i can do manicure that will last for a longer time.
no need to type, no need to do houseworks.
so nails will be pretty always =D
hahas.
im just kidding.
if i gonna be tai tai, i rather i go and die.
waste time, waste money.
i can't stand idleing everyday.
i will die of boredom.....
oh well.
that's abt all.
i gonna take a nap now.
hahas.
dun be jealous ;)
toodles!
-let nature take its course-
pamper yourself at times
12:21 AM
haven been blogging for days.
well.
im lazy.
and tired too.
hahas!!
well.
let's talk abt ytd.
went out with mama faz and devi.
met them after work at bugis.
bugis mrt ytd machiam airport.
went for dinner at the banquet.
next we went to bugis street.
our main purpose --> MANICURE & PEDICURE!!
wahahahahaas!!
leading a princess's life for an hour =D
was crapping and all.
all our nail colours and designs were all choosen by our mama faz!!
hahas.
i love my nails!!
my toe nails' colour are the same as devi, but design different.
our finger nails' colour are different, but our design are the same.
interesting huh.
hahas.
feeling drowsy the whole day today.
slept for only 3hours last night.
nearly overslept this morning.
imagine if mum didnt wake me up.
hahas.
i thought i missed the alarms on my hp.
but i realised, ytd, after i put back the sim card into my own samsung hp, i've forgotten to change the time!!
i only realised it when i was in the office.
i looked at the CTI's time --> 10.53am
my hp's time --> 12.2+pm
&*$%@#$!
no wonder i nearly overslept -.-"
went to popular with devi today.
bought 2 books for my bro.
i love teasing my bro.
i forced him to say "thank you jie jie".
cant put lor or wadever at the back.
hahas.
he said out though.
after much forcing of course.
seriously, i felt that i resemble pig a lot.
came home, eat, slp, wake up, eat, slack, slp again.
my goodness.
wad's with me o_O?
oh well.
the next thing i gonna do now is......................................
SLEEP!!
wahahahas!!
got work tml as well.
so i gonna turn in now.
take care.
toodles!!
-if you are gonna give up on yourself, no one else can help you-
well.
im lazy.
and tired too.
hahas!!
well.
let's talk abt ytd.
went out with mama faz and devi.
met them after work at bugis.
bugis mrt ytd machiam airport.
went for dinner at the banquet.
next we went to bugis street.
our main purpose --> MANICURE & PEDICURE!!
wahahahahaas!!
leading a princess's life for an hour =D
was crapping and all.
all our nail colours and designs were all choosen by our mama faz!!
hahas.
i love my nails!!
my toe nails' colour are the same as devi, but design different.
our finger nails' colour are different, but our design are the same.
interesting huh.
hahas.
feeling drowsy the whole day today.
slept for only 3hours last night.
nearly overslept this morning.
imagine if mum didnt wake me up.
hahas.
i thought i missed the alarms on my hp.
but i realised, ytd, after i put back the sim card into my own samsung hp, i've forgotten to change the time!!
i only realised it when i was in the office.
i looked at the CTI's time --> 10.53am
my hp's time --> 12.2+pm
&*$%@#$!
no wonder i nearly overslept -.-"
went to popular with devi today.
bought 2 books for my bro.
i love teasing my bro.
i forced him to say "thank you jie jie".
cant put lor or wadever at the back.
hahas.
he said out though.
after much forcing of course.
seriously, i felt that i resemble pig a lot.
came home, eat, slp, wake up, eat, slack, slp again.
my goodness.
wad's with me o_O?
oh well.
the next thing i gonna do now is......................................
SLEEP!!
wahahahas!!
got work tml as well.
so i gonna turn in now.
take care.
toodles!!
-if you are gonna give up on yourself, no one else can help you-
life is not abt choices
Wednesday, September 13, 2006 12:45 AM
haven been blogging for the past few days.
wasn't free.
and i need my beauty slp!!
hahas.
my bones are aching now.
on monday, i ran errand for my mum.
her stuffs are damn heavy.
then next, went to ikea.
moved some stuffs back.
again, more heavy.
luckily got doreen.
if not, hahas!!
ahhh!!
i wanna get that bag in queensway shopping ctr!!
lol.
hmmm.
nth much happened.
and my mind is blank now.
i also duno watta blog abt.
hahas.
so well.
i think i better go to slp now.
toodles!
-life is not abt choices-
wasn't free.
and i need my beauty slp!!
hahas.
my bones are aching now.
on monday, i ran errand for my mum.
her stuffs are damn heavy.
then next, went to ikea.
moved some stuffs back.
again, more heavy.
luckily got doreen.
if not, hahas!!
ahhh!!
i wanna get that bag in queensway shopping ctr!!
lol.
hmmm.
nth much happened.
and my mind is blank now.
i also duno watta blog abt.
hahas.
so well.
i think i better go to slp now.
toodles!
-life is not abt choices-
Old folks' home
Sunday, September 10, 2006 12:27 AM
work started at 8am for me today.
ended at 12pm.
just my luck to run into a fucking old bitch.
spoilt my mood for work.
ccb.
don't ever let me find out her hp.
i swear i gonna call in and TOS her line.
but right now, i cant be bothered abt her.
cos i dun wanna die earlier =))
after that went to my cousin's house for her baby 1st month.
her baby is so cute.
she got thick hair.
i met another cousin whom i haven met for a very long time.
she too, gave birth to a baby girl earlier this month.
her baby is mixed indian and chinese.
her baby is so pretty.
esp her eyes.
but she is very shy.
cry very easily.
hahas.
so yep.
stayed there for a while and bla bla.
went to visit my aunt's mother.
her mother is staying at a old folks' home.
nobody take care of her and moreover she is physically disabled.
so need a lot of attention.
while they were talking, i went ard the place.
in the mean of walking, i found lots of things.
don't think living in old folks' home is good.
esp if you are physically disable, that's the end.
you wear a diaper from morning 10plus till night time.
how great can that be.
do you put pieces of watermelon in one corner of your fried rice?
watermelon that are in contact with your fried rice =/
does it look appetising to you?
we saw one younger lady (properly 40+) sitting in a corner.
her rice was next to it.
but seems like she only have 2 or 3 spoons.
we thought she might need help in eating.
so mum asked if she need any.
the lady spoke very softly.
later we found out is bcos she suffered a stroke.
thus, her limps(hands and legs) cant move at all.
mum asked if she made any friends or have anyone to talk to there.
she replied no, cos none of the old people there can hear her.
cos of her stroke, she cant speak louder, no voice.
even we, have to go nearer so as to hear her.
next is a auntie in her 70s or so.
i think she is mentally and physical disabled.
she refused to eat and stuffs.
and you know wad the nurse do to her?
she forced her to eat.
i mean it is like, if don't want, then give her something soluable like ceral or milk.
why force her?!
as i walk on, there is a old man on a wheelchair.
i thought he might need help/
i hesitated a while before i went over to ask him if he need any help.
i ended up chit chating with him.
he adv me to be careful who i mixed with.
some ppl go for money.
esp who i love (bf or husband he trying to say).
bcos he once got cheated of his money.
ask if he feel bored staying there, anyone visit him that kinda thing.
he replied me.
he also told me that the foods there are not very nice (but not to the extend of starving to death), and the rest he cant complain much.
looking at those old ppl, i on the verge of crying.
imagine how they are being forgotten by the society and worst still FAMILY.
how is the feeling being left alone in the old folks' home with such conditions.
i realised i have always been living in a world of 'paradise'.
having my parents protecting me, keeping me safe and warm.
so whoever is reading, pls have a heart.
NEVER NEVER ABANDON YOUR PARENTS.
without them, you won't be who you are.
so yup.
next, went for a early dinner at sebanwang (kel's dad coffee shop).
was very very shocked to see him there.
i though he is busy enjoying his last few days before his enlistment this tues.
later i found out from him, is bcos he got no money to go MOS.
lol.
see.
that the consequences of spending money machiam on tap.
serve him right.
and i am proud to say I NEVER REGRET REJECTING HIM.
actually wanted to drop him a testimonial, i came across the photos.
looking at his friendster and the things he told me, i just feel so disgusted.
fuck off.
pls dun say things you dun mean it.
though i cant be bother by wad he said.
but still, i feel yucks!
afterall, today is not really a very very sucky day for me =)
*clap clap*
hmmm.
dad jio us go sentosa just now.
while waiting for them to be ready, i fell aslp on the bed.
and marcus switched off the light for me.
damn.
i slept even better.
but just for that half an hour.
thus, mum and i stayed at home.
well.
long post today.
you haven fall aslp, have you?
-have a heart. lend a helping hand to the needy-
ended at 12pm.
just my luck to run into a fucking old bitch.
spoilt my mood for work.
ccb.
don't ever let me find out her hp.
i swear i gonna call in and TOS her line.
but right now, i cant be bothered abt her.
cos i dun wanna die earlier =))
after that went to my cousin's house for her baby 1st month.
her baby is so cute.
she got thick hair.
i met another cousin whom i haven met for a very long time.
she too, gave birth to a baby girl earlier this month.
her baby is mixed indian and chinese.
her baby is so pretty.
esp her eyes.
but she is very shy.
cry very easily.
hahas.
so yep.
stayed there for a while and bla bla.
went to visit my aunt's mother.
her mother is staying at a old folks' home.
nobody take care of her and moreover she is physically disabled.
so need a lot of attention.
while they were talking, i went ard the place.
in the mean of walking, i found lots of things.
don't think living in old folks' home is good.
esp if you are physically disable, that's the end.
you wear a diaper from morning 10plus till night time.
how great can that be.
do you put pieces of watermelon in one corner of your fried rice?
watermelon that are in contact with your fried rice =/
does it look appetising to you?
we saw one younger lady (properly 40+) sitting in a corner.
her rice was next to it.
but seems like she only have 2 or 3 spoons.
we thought she might need help in eating.
so mum asked if she need any.
the lady spoke very softly.
later we found out is bcos she suffered a stroke.
thus, her limps(hands and legs) cant move at all.
mum asked if she made any friends or have anyone to talk to there.
she replied no, cos none of the old people there can hear her.
cos of her stroke, she cant speak louder, no voice.
even we, have to go nearer so as to hear her.
next is a auntie in her 70s or so.
i think she is mentally and physical disabled.
she refused to eat and stuffs.
and you know wad the nurse do to her?
she forced her to eat.
i mean it is like, if don't want, then give her something soluable like ceral or milk.
why force her?!
as i walk on, there is a old man on a wheelchair.
i thought he might need help/
i hesitated a while before i went over to ask him if he need any help.
i ended up chit chating with him.
he adv me to be careful who i mixed with.
some ppl go for money.
esp who i love (bf or husband he trying to say).
bcos he once got cheated of his money.
ask if he feel bored staying there, anyone visit him that kinda thing.
he replied me.
he also told me that the foods there are not very nice (but not to the extend of starving to death), and the rest he cant complain much.
looking at those old ppl, i on the verge of crying.
imagine how they are being forgotten by the society and worst still FAMILY.
how is the feeling being left alone in the old folks' home with such conditions.
i realised i have always been living in a world of 'paradise'.
having my parents protecting me, keeping me safe and warm.
so whoever is reading, pls have a heart.
NEVER NEVER ABANDON YOUR PARENTS.
without them, you won't be who you are.
so yup.
next, went for a early dinner at sebanwang (kel's dad coffee shop).
was very very shocked to see him there.
i though he is busy enjoying his last few days before his enlistment this tues.
later i found out from him, is bcos he got no money to go MOS.
lol.
see.
that the consequences of spending money machiam on tap.
serve him right.
and i am proud to say I NEVER REGRET REJECTING HIM.
actually wanted to drop him a testimonial, i came across the photos.
looking at his friendster and the things he told me, i just feel so disgusted.
fuck off.
pls dun say things you dun mean it.
though i cant be bother by wad he said.
but still, i feel yucks!
afterall, today is not really a very very sucky day for me =)
*clap clap*
hmmm.
dad jio us go sentosa just now.
while waiting for them to be ready, i fell aslp on the bed.
and marcus switched off the light for me.
damn.
i slept even better.
but just for that half an hour.
thus, mum and i stayed at home.
well.
long post today.
you haven fall aslp, have you?
-have a heart. lend a helping hand to the needy-
it's over now
Saturday, September 09, 2006 1:12 AM
everything is okay now =)
i am feeling good now.
heh heh.
family wise, hmmm.
i dun wish to think abt it at the moment.
real war have yet to start.
so yep.
no worry first =D
i finally got mine more than 12 hours of slp ytd.
satisfied =D
did a bit of house cleaning.
study a bit.
but not really happy with the studying part.
cos haven done a lot of revision =/
im very glad to have a bunch of colleagues like them.
whenever i am feeling lousy, they nv fails to cheer me up.
bring me back on track again.
they nv stop showering me with their care and concern.
they give me the taste of true friendship.
they let me know that i am not alone.
no matter wad happens, they are there for me.
so wadever happens, they will stay in my heart.
and if ever i forget any of them, pls kill me =D
thanks a lot guys!!
i wanna take down the cupboard.
i wanna remove the matteress and the shelf.
i wanna move marcus's table out of my room.
i wanna put a sofa bed at that corner.
i wanna put a light next to the sofa bed.
i wanna put a closet of my own in my room.
i want my room to look cosy.
but seems like now it looks like garang guni's storeroom.
that is so saddening =((
spoilt the sweetness of my room =/
i dun care.
i gonna get it done soon!!
(my present garang guni's corner =/)
-dare to dream-
i am feeling good now.
heh heh.
family wise, hmmm.
i dun wish to think abt it at the moment.
real war have yet to start.
so yep.
no worry first =D
i finally got mine more than 12 hours of slp ytd.
satisfied =D
did a bit of house cleaning.
study a bit.
but not really happy with the studying part.
cos haven done a lot of revision =/
im very glad to have a bunch of colleagues like them.
whenever i am feeling lousy, they nv fails to cheer me up.
bring me back on track again.
they nv stop showering me with their care and concern.
they give me the taste of true friendship.
they let me know that i am not alone.
no matter wad happens, they are there for me.
so wadever happens, they will stay in my heart.
and if ever i forget any of them, pls kill me =D
thanks a lot guys!!
i wanna take down the cupboard.
i wanna remove the matteress and the shelf.
i wanna move marcus's table out of my room.
i wanna put a sofa bed at that corner.
i wanna put a light next to the sofa bed.
i wanna put a closet of my own in my room.
i want my room to look cosy.
but seems like now it looks like garang guni's storeroom.
that is so saddening =((
spoilt the sweetness of my room =/
i dun care.
i gonna get it done soon!!
(my present garang guni's corner =/)
-dare to dream-
mood swing
Friday, September 08, 2006 12:44 AM
not really a good day for me today.
sigh.
cos of the PUK case.
but luckily aina settled it for me.
*thanks a lot aina!*
next is the fucker who so call spamed my tag board.
who the fuck is that?
wad a ugly name.
and wad a ugly person.
i seriously feel that my board is polluted =/
i cant be bothered by a loser like him/her.
another toad.
i have decided to skip tuition later on to stay at home.
i have alr come out a time-table for myself.
so hopefully i will follow.
there is limit to one's patience.
can you pls put yourself in my shoes?
all you need to do is study and that's all.
no stress from work and stuffs.
it's you who are making your own life miserable.
stop all your questionings.
ask why am i always last min?
hello!
can you predict that you will be tired 3days later?
this is fucking ridiculous.
and i have to tell you, cos my surname is CHIA.
happy?!
i dun like to be question.
you can point fingers at me for all you want.
i simply dun care.
seriously, i need a break.
i just want to be alone......
****to devi, aina, faz & jerome****
really thanks a lot.
i really duno watta say except thanks =')
-if ever i need a shoulder, would you lend me yours-
sigh.
cos of the PUK case.
but luckily aina settled it for me.
*thanks a lot aina!*
next is the fucker who so call spamed my tag board.
who the fuck is that?
wad a ugly name.
and wad a ugly person.
i seriously feel that my board is polluted =/
i cant be bothered by a loser like him/her.
another toad.
i have decided to skip tuition later on to stay at home.
i have alr come out a time-table for myself.
so hopefully i will follow.
there is limit to one's patience.
can you pls put yourself in my shoes?
all you need to do is study and that's all.
no stress from work and stuffs.
it's you who are making your own life miserable.
stop all your questionings.
ask why am i always last min?
hello!
can you predict that you will be tired 3days later?
this is fucking ridiculous.
and i have to tell you, cos my surname is CHIA.
happy?!
i dun like to be question.
you can point fingers at me for all you want.
i simply dun care.
seriously, i need a break.
i just want to be alone......
****to devi, aina, faz & jerome****
really thanks a lot.
i really duno watta say except thanks =')
-if ever i need a shoulder, would you lend me yours-
cannot be bothered
Thursday, September 07, 2006 12:36 AM
if that is wad you think, so be it.
i just cant be bothered.
i am too tired to spell it all out.
-i owe no one any explaination. i live for myself, and not anyone else-
i just cant be bothered.
i am too tired to spell it all out.
-i owe no one any explaination. i live for myself, and not anyone else-
my dear friends
Wednesday, September 06, 2006 1:04 AM
chated with devi on the phone just now.
she is humourous.
the way she "played" mr toad.
hahas.
i felt bad for making fun of mr toad.
BUT....
HE DESERVED IT!!
wahahahahas!!
serve him right for asking ppl enter notes when he himself nv enter too.
want notes, i burn for you la!
kb so much, and this is wad you will get.
-neh neh ni poo poo-
hahas.
say i am childish.
yes i am =D
i loved all my friends!!
let's see.
in singtel,
devi --> she is a very nice psn. though she always " racist here, racist there", but she nv fails to put a smile on your face =D she is a very good listener as well. she is good at motivating ppl =)) she nv allow herself to get bully. i look up to you devi!!
aina --> silent but fatal. hahas. she looks sweet and quiet on the outside. but if she really shoot someone (like spike), hahas. bravo! aina! you are my idol. hahas!! *clap clap* "where have you been all these while??? tbc....." hahas!!
spike --> cannot be bothered. hahas. jk la. hmmm. he is like a big bro. VERY observant. hahas. very organised and creative. take the locker for eg =D heys. pls come down. dun fly too far =)) and i rmb wad you said this afternoon. "im bad". that is OUCH!! hahas.
faz --> it is nice talking to her. you will feel at ease. the way she type or express, it is hilarious!! nv fails to make me laugh. one more thing, she always like to correct our pronouciations. hahas. yes mum! i will speak properly mum! hahas.
jerome --> always do stupid things. hahas. just like this afternoon. cant take it. hahas. well well. he been thru wad i am going thru now =D re-taking o's. hahas. good entertainer. but the thing is that, i always "bully him". that is so "nice" of me right. hahas. dun cry la, AC! hahas!!
much more for me to mention.
like eric, denny, ivy, hwee, mark and loads.
hmmm.
how i wish time crawls instead of me racing against time.
i hate it.
good times always pass fast =/
that is so saddening =(
well well.
few days back, went out with arisa and huiling.
will post the photos soon.
had loads of fun.
hahas!!
cheers!
hmmm.
i will reply the tags when i am in the office tml ya =))
so sorry.
take care loads ppl!!
goodnights*
-life is meant to enjoy-
she is humourous.
the way she "played" mr toad.
hahas.
i felt bad for making fun of mr toad.
BUT....
HE DESERVED IT!!
wahahahahas!!
serve him right for asking ppl enter notes when he himself nv enter too.
want notes, i burn for you la!
kb so much, and this is wad you will get.
-neh neh ni poo poo-
hahas.
say i am childish.
yes i am =D
i loved all my friends!!
let's see.
in singtel,
devi --> she is a very nice psn. though she always " racist here, racist there", but she nv fails to put a smile on your face =D she is a very good listener as well. she is good at motivating ppl =)) she nv allow herself to get bully. i look up to you devi!!
aina --> silent but fatal. hahas. she looks sweet and quiet on the outside. but if she really shoot someone (like spike), hahas. bravo! aina! you are my idol. hahas!! *clap clap* "where have you been all these while??? tbc....." hahas!!
spike --> cannot be bothered. hahas. jk la. hmmm. he is like a big bro. VERY observant. hahas. very organised and creative. take the locker for eg =D heys. pls come down. dun fly too far =)) and i rmb wad you said this afternoon. "im bad". that is OUCH!! hahas.
faz --> it is nice talking to her. you will feel at ease. the way she type or express, it is hilarious!! nv fails to make me laugh. one more thing, she always like to correct our pronouciations. hahas. yes mum! i will speak properly mum! hahas.
jerome --> always do stupid things. hahas. just like this afternoon. cant take it. hahas. well well. he been thru wad i am going thru now =D re-taking o's. hahas. good entertainer. but the thing is that, i always "bully him". that is so "nice" of me right. hahas. dun cry la, AC! hahas!!
much more for me to mention.
like eric, denny, ivy, hwee, mark and loads.
hmmm.
how i wish time crawls instead of me racing against time.
i hate it.
good times always pass fast =/
that is so saddening =(
well well.
few days back, went out with arisa and huiling.
will post the photos soon.
had loads of fun.
hahas!!
cheers!
hmmm.
i will reply the tags when i am in the office tml ya =))
so sorry.
take care loads ppl!!
goodnights*
-life is meant to enjoy-
ask me why
Monday, September 04, 2006 12:27 AM
ask me wad is a blog to me.
ask me who inspired me to start a blog.
ask me why i maintain a blog.
ask me when i started a blog.
ask me how i got this name for this blog.
well.
wad is blog to me?
my blog is like my best friend.
it went thru ups and downs with me.
it contains my happiness, unhappiness, surprises, shocked and all kinda emotions.
i started my blog when i was in sec 2 which is abt 2003?
how i got the name of the blog?
wells.
it was bcos of my love life then.
at the moment, i felt that love is dark and meaningless.
with no lights guiding me thru.
therefore, i named it ---> darknesslove
why i started a blog?
no.
not bcos of trend.
is purely bcos i wanna rant on it.
and WAS hoping he will see and understand.
but well.
now i write blog not bcos of someone or wadever.
i write for myself just like the way i live for myself =D
so yep.
there's once, sth is wrong with my blog.
i became a kanchiong spider wondering how to "re-activate" my blog.
and well, my blog was "revived"!
hahas.
the joy of blogging.
mm.
how do i describe it?
i also don't know.
i wonder how long can i keep my blog for.
wonder how it is if i look back at my previous entry.
-laughs-
but well.
this blog is with sentimental values ok.
lol.
ok.
enough of blogs.
oh well.
work is the same.
nth new.
life?
mm.
so far so good?
i have alr got over it.
so yep, thanks spike, mervyn and jiaen for your concern.
lol.
cos of a reason --> i don't wanna die earlier.
hahas!!
i rmb wad i wanna blog abt few weeks back alr.
i wanted to blog abt wad my dad's friend told my dad.
me: (cant rmb 1st part) ehh. dun look down on me hor. who knows, i might be filthy rich one day. -grins-
dad: ya la ya la. (my dad was showing that "like real" kind of face) wait till that day come then say.
dad's friend: ehh. seriously, she will be rich one day. but don't know is marry a rich guy or get rich herself only.
dad: o_O (smile at me with that face)
me: how you know?
dad's friend: from your nose =) you've got a sharp and big nose.
[both me and dad were smiling]
wahahahahas!!
ah ma also said that she can tell i'll be rich in the future too.
cos of my NOSE!!
waahahahhaas!!
but well.
nobody can tell the future.
so yep.
i still have to work hard in order to have a good life in the future =D
but wells.
no matter i am rich or poor, i jus wanna live with no regrets.
if i am rich, i dun wanna become those arrogant snoobs with that kinda fucking attitude.
if i am poor, i don't wanna be look down on.
okay.
i am looking fwd to evening.
i am meeting my girlfriends!!
the long time no see friend --> arisa!!
and the one who stays very near me, but we hardly meet --> huiling!!
lalalalas!!
hopefully my day later would be a nice one =D
oh holy shit!!
russ, that silly dog just make my day =D
goodnights*
-wadever happens, life goes on-
ask me who inspired me to start a blog.
ask me why i maintain a blog.
ask me when i started a blog.
ask me how i got this name for this blog.
well.
wad is blog to me?
my blog is like my best friend.
it went thru ups and downs with me.
it contains my happiness, unhappiness, surprises, shocked and all kinda emotions.
i started my blog when i was in sec 2 which is abt 2003?
how i got the name of the blog?
wells.
it was bcos of my love life then.
at the moment, i felt that love is dark and meaningless.
with no lights guiding me thru.
therefore, i named it ---> darknesslove
why i started a blog?
no.
not bcos of trend.
is purely bcos i wanna rant on it.
and WAS hoping he will see and understand.
but well.
now i write blog not bcos of someone or wadever.
i write for myself just like the way i live for myself =D
so yep.
there's once, sth is wrong with my blog.
i became a kanchiong spider wondering how to "re-activate" my blog.
and well, my blog was "revived"!
hahas.
the joy of blogging.
mm.
how do i describe it?
i also don't know.
i wonder how long can i keep my blog for.
wonder how it is if i look back at my previous entry.
-laughs-
but well.
this blog is with sentimental values ok.
lol.
ok.
enough of blogs.
oh well.
work is the same.
nth new.
life?
mm.
so far so good?
i have alr got over it.
so yep, thanks spike, mervyn and jiaen for your concern.
lol.
cos of a reason --> i don't wanna die earlier.
hahas!!
i rmb wad i wanna blog abt few weeks back alr.
i wanted to blog abt wad my dad's friend told my dad.
me: (cant rmb 1st part) ehh. dun look down on me hor. who knows, i might be filthy rich one day. -grins-
dad: ya la ya la. (my dad was showing that "like real" kind of face) wait till that day come then say.
dad's friend: ehh. seriously, she will be rich one day. but don't know is marry a rich guy or get rich herself only.
dad: o_O (smile at me with that face)
me: how you know?
dad's friend: from your nose =) you've got a sharp and big nose.
[both me and dad were smiling]
wahahahahas!!
ah ma also said that she can tell i'll be rich in the future too.
cos of my NOSE!!
waahahahhaas!!
but well.
nobody can tell the future.
so yep.
i still have to work hard in order to have a good life in the future =D
but wells.
no matter i am rich or poor, i jus wanna live with no regrets.
if i am rich, i dun wanna become those arrogant snoobs with that kinda fucking attitude.
if i am poor, i don't wanna be look down on.
okay.
i am looking fwd to evening.
i am meeting my girlfriends!!
the long time no see friend --> arisa!!
and the one who stays very near me, but we hardly meet --> huiling!!
lalalalas!!
hopefully my day later would be a nice one =D
oh holy shit!!
russ, that silly dog just make my day =D
goodnights*
-wadever happens, life goes on-
i hate him but still, i love him
Friday, September 01, 2006 9:30 PM
sometimes, i really hate my bro.
wtf.
you know wad i saw when i reached home today?!
FUCK!!
somebody messed up my study table!
somebody digged out sth under my table!
somebody touched my things!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!
FUCK YOU MAN!!
CHEE BYE!!
FUCK OFF MARCUS CHIA!
you sucker!
KNNBCCB!!
you know how much i hate you?!
mummy didnt dig for my stuffs anymore and you still did?!
ccb!
and you didnt put back the things!!
seriously, i hate my bro.
but no matter how i hate him, i still love him.
wad the fuck am i talking abt.
ccb.
how i wish i have a elder bro.
someone who would always give in to me.
someone i can communciate with.
seriously, i am not up to being the eldest sister =(
i dun want.
i wanna be pamper.
but fuck, i cant choose!
so wad have i gotta complain?
cb.
sometimes, i am really damn upset till i am on the verge of crying.
but who the fuck know.
i wanna cry out loud.
i wanna pour all my unhappiness.
everything is pissing me off.
esp him --> MARCUS CHIA!!
sometimes i wonder, why do i have a bro like him?
why do i hope to have a bro in the first place?
why didnt i wish for a sister instead?
and why did my wish come true?
when will my bro ever mature?
when will he start sharing my burden?
i feel like crying when i see my mother.
she is a wonderful mother =')
she nag me, scold me beat me.
but is all for my own good.
this is all random.
this is all pure rubbish.
isolate me for goodness's sake.
i am just too tired.
leave me alone.
-you will never get to see the tears i cry-
wtf.
you know wad i saw when i reached home today?!
FUCK!!
somebody messed up my study table!
somebody digged out sth under my table!
somebody touched my things!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!
FUCK YOU MAN!!
CHEE BYE!!
FUCK OFF MARCUS CHIA!
you sucker!
KNNBCCB!!
you know how much i hate you?!
mummy didnt dig for my stuffs anymore and you still did?!
ccb!
and you didnt put back the things!!
seriously, i hate my bro.
but no matter how i hate him, i still love him.
wad the fuck am i talking abt.
ccb.
how i wish i have a elder bro.
someone who would always give in to me.
someone i can communciate with.
seriously, i am not up to being the eldest sister =(
i dun want.
i wanna be pamper.
but fuck, i cant choose!
so wad have i gotta complain?
cb.
sometimes, i am really damn upset till i am on the verge of crying.
but who the fuck know.
i wanna cry out loud.
i wanna pour all my unhappiness.
everything is pissing me off.
esp him --> MARCUS CHIA!!
sometimes i wonder, why do i have a bro like him?
why do i hope to have a bro in the first place?
why didnt i wish for a sister instead?
and why did my wish come true?
when will my bro ever mature?
when will he start sharing my burden?
i feel like crying when i see my mother.
she is a wonderful mother =')
she nag me, scold me beat me.
but is all for my own good.
this is all random.
this is all pure rubbish.
isolate me for goodness's sake.
i am just too tired.
leave me alone.
-you will never get to see the tears i cry-
office politics
12:51 AM
today's weather is nice and cooling.
good weather to sleep in.
BUT I AM WORKING!!
!@#$%^
seriously, i hate to go out in this kinda weather.
it is cold and i tend to get wet which i hate =/
esp my feets and pants.
ya ya.
call me tai tai.
wadever.
hahas.
hmmm.
ytd?
i think the photos have did the talking, do they?
-laughs-
well.
ytd is her birthday.
outing with hunie is always full of craps and photo shots non-stop.
lol.
oh ya.
i saw jun kai on the train!!
he changed, not really a lot.
but still, i cant recognised him until he called me.
-laugh out loud-
i was still wondering how come the weirdo kept looking at me.
second look then i realised is him.
wahahahahas!!
oh well.
i seriously think that shortage of sleep resulted in me being very short-tempered.
and impatient.
-pouts-
but watta do.
i only have 24 hours, same goes to everyone out there.
so ya.
well well.
i am still tired after the 1 1/2 hour nap just now.
sorry mum.
i am too tired to cook today.
troubled you to da bao =/
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELOVED NO 4!!
sweet sixteen =))
one year older alr hor.
stop telling me how to transform to alien.
cos it is pure rubbish BUT....
it is entertaining XD
waahahahahas!!
anyway, i am really looking fwd to the next NC6 outing.
take good care.
miss ya loads!!
muacks!!
-nth is ever constance except changes-
good weather to sleep in.
BUT I AM WORKING!!
!@#$%^
seriously, i hate to go out in this kinda weather.
it is cold and i tend to get wet which i hate =/
esp my feets and pants.
ya ya.
call me tai tai.
wadever.
hahas.
hmmm.
ytd?
i think the photos have did the talking, do they?
-laughs-
well.
ytd is her birthday.
outing with hunie is always full of craps and photo shots non-stop.
lol.
oh ya.
i saw jun kai on the train!!
he changed, not really a lot.
but still, i cant recognised him until he called me.
-laugh out loud-
i was still wondering how come the weirdo kept looking at me.
second look then i realised is him.
wahahahahas!!
oh well.
i seriously think that shortage of sleep resulted in me being very short-tempered.
and impatient.
-pouts-
but watta do.
i only have 24 hours, same goes to everyone out there.
so ya.
well well.
i am still tired after the 1 1/2 hour nap just now.
sorry mum.
i am too tired to cook today.
troubled you to da bao =/
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELOVED NO 4!!
sweet sixteen =))
one year older alr hor.
stop telling me how to transform to alien.
cos it is pure rubbish BUT....
it is entertaining XD
waahahahahas!!
anyway, i am really looking fwd to the next NC6 outing.
take good care.
miss ya loads!!
muacks!!
-nth is ever constance except changes-
