I need me

The past few months I have been in a 100% slump. I haven't been exercising at all...I've been eating what ever I want and I have a sweet tooth that is a MILE long...maybe two miles! I go to bed way too late and I normally have a craving for something sweet before bed. It's almost like I have no control and I just didn't care. I wake up in the morning to my kids saying, "I'm hungry mom, I need a drink, I need this I need that". I would wake up every morning not ready for the day and feeling like I'd been run over by a truck because I was so tired. I was just flat out annoyed to be quite honest. I don't know what has happened to me but I decided this week that it's not happening ANYMORE! I'm not going to let my body go down the crapper. When you don't take care of yourself and you don't feel good about your self it really does show in so many ways.

This week I started doing what I did all last year and I don't know how I ever let it go. I wake up around 6am and meet my exercise buddy Suzie by 6:30am and we walk/run a little over 3 miles. This morning as I was leaving the house, the sun was barely coming up so it was still pretty dark. But it was so quiet and peaceful and a little bit chilly. As I was walking down the street I took this deep breath in and it felt like the best breath of fresh air I had ever taken! I just felt so happy and ready for my day...it was awesome! This was my time for the day and I so need to have that "me" time. My kids and my husband need me and need me to do things for them all the time and that's OK...that's life. But it's SO NICE when I can wake up in the morning and know that nobody needs me yet!!! It's about me now...I need me now. The only time I can squeeze in for me may be early in the morning but it's there just for me. I think as mothers we are always taking care of other people and we forget about ourselves. I know if I take care of myself first... I can take care of everyone else so much more...and I'm happier! It's really a huge bonus all the way around.

So all you mothers out there...Remember to take care of yourselves and to have some "ME" time each day! Don't allow yourselves to feel guilty or feel that you're being selfish. Just take charge and do it! It can only make you better, more happy and able to give more and who doesn't want that??

...I Need Me...

Is telling the truth really this hard??

I knew this was a stage in life that all little kids go through and I was just hoping that mine would pass on by it. Who was I kidding? For the past year Tyler has been telling little lies here and there...making up stories...you name it. One day Ty came home with this BIG story on how 3 kids and school were trying to beat him up during recess and that they were on top of him and calling him names. I was totally upset and wanted him to tell me the whole story, every detail, so I could call and talk to the principle. The more he was talking I just kept getting this feeling that something wasn't right. I kept asking him to make sure he was telling me the truth because I was going to talk to the school about it. After a few minutes he finally told me what really happened and it wasn't as big of a deal. But the lie was. We talked to Ty and have been trying to explain to him the importance of honesty. We thought it was sinking in. Maybe not! The other day I caught Ty in my room and he was being super sneaky and hiding something. I noticed something was missing off my dresser and I asked him if he took it. He looked at me right in the eye and said no. I knew he did it and it bothered me so much that he looked me right in the face and told me no! He is more afraid of getting into trouble from taking something then fibbing to me about it. He went to his room for a while, we talked about it and then we moved on. I swear...not more than two hours later...I noticed something else that was missing in the kitchen...I asked him if he took it? I told him that I could tell something was missing and that he better think hard about being honest. He walks over to the counter and says..."ummmm, let me see if somethings gone....nope mom, I didn't take anything." I wanted to scream my brains out, I was so frustrated! He went right back in his room until Dave came home. We both agreed that Ty needed to have a punishment that really hurt him and made him think about what he has been doing. We've taken away t.v. before...his bike...playing with friends...the normal stuff. I was so upset that I told Dave that we should take away EVERYTHING...i was done! He was kind of surprised but agreed with me. When you have to punish your kids it is usually harder on the parent than the kids...in my case anyway:) For the record books this is the first time Tyler has been grounded. I have to admit though this week so far has been really nice around here. The kids get up in the morning and they know the t.v. isn't aloud on. Ty comes home from school and we have much more together time and we aren't distracted by other things. Ty and Ashlynn are playing better together and not fighting as much. There has definitely been a change in this house this week and I'm really liking it. Yesterday Ty said, " ya know mom...not having the t.v. is kind of nice." I just has made me think about things that we have around that we don't REALLY need. I think things have been going better because we've been spending more quality time together as a family. Even though Tyler has been the one grounded for the week...it has really made me think of things too and reevaluate things around here a bit. I just hope that he gets over this lying stage...SOON!

Hot Cocoa and Smores

I haven't felt like writing very much since my last post a couple weeks ago about my sister and their baby passing away. It was so wonderful to have Tifani and her family here with us the past couple weeks. We were all getting used to having them around again and it just felt like they lived here. We shared some special moments together and created some wonderful memories. Good things they will be back home for good in June:)!

My next few posts are just some fun things that we did together. We decided to make smores and have hot chocolate at my parents. I don't know why smores are so yummy to me but they are! I could have sat out there for hours around the fire...enjoying the fresh air...enjoying the good company...and eating smores! It was really nice!

When we lived back in Iowa I mastered making smores in my oven. It was so dang cold outside that it wasn't even worth trying to get a fire going out back. So I improvised and it worked out quite nicely. I always craved them later at night at about 10pm. I would look out my front window and see if our neighbors (the Kook's) lights were on. I knew they always appreciated a yummy treat even if it was a little late. So here I am this crazy girl running across the street at 10 o'clock at night, knocking on their window, bringing Sara and Tom smores. They just laughed at me and called me the devil but they loved them anyway. I think that's when I started loving smores so much...all the way back to our Iowa days...I really do miss those days:) Good Times!

Holy Hamburger

In our family my dad is kind of known for making the most delicious hamburgers EVER! They are huge and have the best flavor...seriously they are to die for good! It was our last night to hang out together with the whole family and Tif and I had this idea. We were going to cook out hamburgers and then go out back by the fire and make smores. Mom and Dad always have a date night on Friday night and we kind of changed their plans for them. Thanks for letting us do that guys:)! It was so much fun and we just had the best time together. As you can see Dave's burger was so big he could barely fit his mouth over it. But did that stop him? Of course not! The kids always get so silly and giggly when they are around each other it's so dang funny.

Here is Ashlynn holding little Brock. I love this picture of her, I just think it's so darn cute. She is going to be a great little helper when we decide to have another one.

Here are my girls...my beautiful sisters...my best friends.

Park Day

While my sister Tifani was here we tried to do as many things as possible that involved being outside and enjoying the sunshine. They don't see the sun much up in Washington so they couldn't get enough of the blue sky while they were here. We packed some lunches and the kids bikes and scooters and went to Tumbleweed Park. It is seriously the best park ever and has so many things to do! It's HUGE! It was a little chilly but you can't complain when we have sunshine and blue sky.

My heart is full...

I feel like I have been struggling the past couple weeks with the right words to say. I just know that my heart is very full. This morning was very tender as I was with my family...being there for my sister Tifani and brother-in-law Jake. I can't even begin to imagine what it feels like to lose a child. I simply can't. I love my sister...I am in complete amazement of her and her sweet husband. What a blessing it is to have eternal families and to know that we will be with our loved ones again. A song was on the back of Micah's program and I wanted to share it...

"Where can I turn for peace? Where is my solace? When other sources cease to make me whole?When with a wounded heart, anger or malice, I draw myself apart searching my soul?"

"Where when my aching grows, where when I languish, Where, in my need to know, Where, can I run? Where is the quiet hand to calm my anguish? Who, who can understand? He, only one."

"He answers privately, reaches my reaching. In my Gethsemane, Savior and Friend. Gentle the peace he finds for my beseeching. Constant he is and kind, Love without end."

I can't express how much I love my family...they are everything to me. I'm grateful that I was able to be with all of them today. I love my sweet sister and I'm so grateful for her good husband. Watching him being so tender...kind...loving...nerturing...it's an amazing thing to witness. I'm grateful for the words in this song. I've always loved this song but now it means so much more to me. It will always remind me of today.

Happy Birthday Mom!

Happy Birthday Momma! Sorry I just had to post this funny pic of you! I just had to say that I have the best mother in the whole world! She is the most extraordinary woman I know...I admire her and look up to her in every way. She is an amazing mother...wife...grandma and best friend. She has a smile that lights up the whole room and she spreads goodness where ever she goes. She has always been the greatest example to me of kindness...service...friendship...and love. I appreciate her so very much and love her. Hope you have a wonderful birthday mom! By the way you are looking pretty smokin' gorgeous...

Happy 50Th....love you!!!!