Challenge Accep - TED!

DANNY BOY!

YOU KNOW WHAT YOU GOTTA DO,
SO LET'S (Nike's famous catchphrase)!

For me,
My family
And my love <3

Because of Allah S.W.T.

Lost The Plot.

Ya Allah, where is my iman?
Please strengthen my iman....
It is so weak...

Why do I feel like I have no right to ask favours from you?
Why are the things I do and the duties I carry out being accomplished with no heart?
Why do I fall so easily to the devil's whisperings?

Why do those thoughts invade my mind again and again?
Why can't I accept certain facts?
Why am I filled up with a residual rage?

My belief in innocence has been long shattered...
Is this why this is happening to me?
I feel like my heart is filthy....
Dirty from sins, dirty from empty deeds, dirty from ulterior motives, dirty from lies.
Dirty from hate, dirty from vices, dirty from unhealthy thoughts.
So dirty.

What kind of person have I become?

If people knew what kind of things go through my mind, I think everybody will hate me.

But Ya Allah, I'm not that kind of person!!!

I know I'm a good person somehow...

Just that I've strayed so far away....

Ya Allah, I beg of you, I'm on my knees in tears...

Please strengthen my resolve and my faith and guide me to find the right path.

I don't know what has happened to me... I know things are wrong but..

I know.... I taste happiness. I taste happiness everytime I'm home with family...

I'm in Nad's presence... when I see her smile...

I am happy!!! So happy...

But once they are away, everything falls apart and I'm a wreck. I become a bad person.

I feel like telling everyone the truth if ever I've veiled myself in lies and deceit.

Ya Allah, please bring me back.

:,(