Here it comes again. The mindfuck stage.
My mind is a terrible place to be right now.
I'm in such a mess right now I can hardly think clearly.
IT'S DRIVING ME NUTS!
Somehow, a little innocuous favour she did for me touched me so much. It sounds fucking ridiculous but I think she found the key to my heart. What she did reminded me of my mom back when I was a kid where I'd go "MAMA I WANT SOME MILO" and she'd make it for me and I'd sit and it was the best feeling in the world. Everytime I recall those times a tear never fails to find its way down. So ridiculous but somehow it makes sense. (Mom, I love you so much.....)
Everybody jokes about it. Even I poke her a little bit now and then. It's all shite and giggles until some sincerity grew in me.
The last thing I wanna do is hurt somebody, especially their heart.
Oh God, please guide me. Have you brought someone significant to me or do I have something to learn from all this?
The warm, fuzzy feeling....it's nice though. But still....I feel I'm doing something wrong and it might turn and bite me in the ass.
How?
God I hope someone reads this and gives some valuable input.
