Wednesday, 29 June, 2005

[How long before I get in? Before it starts, before I begin? How long before you decide? Before I know what it feels like? Where to, where do I go? If you never try, then you'll never know. How long do I have to climb, up on the side of this mountain of mine?] Speed Of Sound - Coldplay - X&Y


The holiday ends. School starts.

How I wish I would just forget how short-lived those days were.
Days are going too fast for me.


Nah, school ain't too bad. Not as bad as I thought it would be. Changed a few habits this term, though.

I now regulate my timing on the computer. No more 4+ hour runs on the poor machine. Now, it's only 2 hours per day. Guess what, these three days? I've only been on the computer for 3 hours. Incredible, ain't it? I'm saving money to buy 2 books (no, I've not turned into a super-nerd), one about Photoshop elements and one about blogging. Once I get these, I'll start Photoshopping pictures(I don't do porn) and doing a makeover to The Arsenal Hangout. Maybe if I get pro in Photoshop(and hopefully in drawing), I will draw, scan em, and CG them using Photoshop. And I'll even put it up in this blog. All this, IF, I get pro.(Probably gonna take till I grow a beard)

I'm finding myself doing homework more often(if not at all), especially at night. The problem is, night is also my CS time =(. Gotta sacrifice some time if my homework eats up till my only enjoyment in life =( {Just joking} [Hey, you're not laughing]

Side note: I'm pwning Maths homework. Muahahahahahahahahaha. Maths-Retard turned Maths pro. {Joking again} [Stop crying at my lameness]

Over the holidays, I tried to change myself for the good.
1. I tried reducing computer time. (Succeeded)
2. I tried controlling my time on football. (Failed)
3. I tried getting over lovesickness. (Succeeded but expected to fail by next week)
4. I tried to go on a Milo diet. (Failed miserably)
5. I tried liking Maths. (50-50 success)
6. I trained my skills in CSS. (Succeeded)
7. I tried bringing my online self to the real world. (Failed)
8. I tried to speak better English[Not sputtering in speech] (Status unknown)
9. I tried to be a more happier person who smiles more often. (No change LoL)
10. I tried to accept some facts, like things I have and things I can't get. (50-50 success)
11. I tried to be less lame. (Insert your opinion here)

Number 1 was easy, 2 was very difficult, 3 wasn't too hard, 4 was almost impossible, 5 took a lot of struggling, I enjoyed 6 very much, 7 was a straight-fate-failure, 8 was forgetten, 9 was a big LoL, 10 was the hardest and 11, is up to you, to decide. =D.

>Anger. It's everyone enemy. Easy to succumb to, yet easy to defeat.<

Thursday, 23 June, 2005

[Gutted like a pig, all you want is the world to bleed. Someone somewhere stole your desire. The pain akin, to being punched in the throat and stabbed in the chest, you would rather bleed than be without her. Gone are the tender whispers dancing in your ears.] Ain't Love Grand - Atreyu - Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kisses



It's been a long holiday, but it's finally coming to it's UNanticipated end.


Yes, today, on 23 June, is the day I first touch my homework. I am so gonna own it tonight. (Yeah, right)

Just thinking of homework makes me sick. Why call it a holiday when you have homework to worry about? "You have so many days to finish them" some teachers dare say. You think I'm gonna sit down for 72 hours, dedicated to homework when I have a beautiful computer waiting there for me to switch on and play? Not a chance in Hell.

But before I get an ass-whooping by any teachers on school's reopening, I better finish it. Tonight, I'm gonna wage war with homework, and the odds of me winning, is ZERO. KOSONG. But I ain't giving up without a fight.

What a holiday it's been!

Not many things to do with school this holiday, and this round is a particularly boring one. Nobody wanted to play football anytime. There was only one YFC session to go through (and it was a good one).

Fortunately though, the chalet was a blast! Literally. 3 days and 2 nights were that short? It was a bit of a slumber party......I guess this time everyone was REALLY sleepy. Yet again, I had my mouth welded shut except when necessary to open it. I really don't believe in acting cute to get attention. Didn't play soccer....Kendrick wasn't there to bring the ball coz he was allegedly too sick to come. Coincidentally, Theresa couldn't come too coz she was sick. Fated? The "cute couple" Sheryl and Leon didn't come too....if one didn't come, the chances of the other coming are slim. See how cute they are.

Who says you can't sleep on chalet days? I think everybody had at least 1 hour of sleep on the 2 nights....unless you're an occasional nocturnal person like me. (Hence, the zombified state whenever you see me in the morning.) But my sleeping patterns during chalet and at home are different, so who knows. Anyway, I think I was sick for all 3 days. Had a really bad head cold with the annoying runny nose. And the Antarctic conditions of the bowling alley didn't make things better. By the 2nd night, the fever kicked in. By the 3rd day, muscle aches and I just wanted to lie down and rest. Too bad they were all busy packing up. But a lil' of the Holy Water (Milo) at Mac's fixed things a bit.

There were some....fun. Went swimming with Nathan(not the Eagle-freak) and Air-Ron. Enjoyed a lil bit of water in the hot sun....and there were the Magic games with Nat...I don't know why I agreed to play even though I know I'm just gonna be pwned for my lack of intelligence in games -_-. And then at night, there would be big gatherings on the playground and we will just talk and talk and talk....about random stuff. Boys will talk about girls. (this subject never fails to make me depressed) and we would talk about school and what we hate about it. (and this subject never fails to make me hate school even more). I really love these discussions, though I prefer to listen rather than talk. When school reopens, I want to look around for some people, namely fags who exists amongst us...and I didn't even know.

>Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make. And that feeling of doubt, it's erased. I'll never feel alone again with you by my side. You're the one, and in you I confide. And we have gone through good and bad times. But your unconditional love was always on my mind. You've been there from the start for me. And your loves always been true as can be. I give my heart to you. I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.<

Sunday, 5 June, 2005

[I tried to help you once, against my own advice. I saw you going down, but you never realized.. That you're drowning in the water, so I offered you my hand. Compassions in my nature, tonight is our last stand] Scars - Papa Roach - Getting Away With Murder


Boredom.

The true root of evil, some say.

What do you do when you're bored? You go have fun.

And some may ask, "What kind of fun?"

What comes into your mind when the word "fun" is mentioned?
What you think of may determine what kind of things are in your mind.

Then there's that hard, hard question.

"What is love?"

In my opinion..........love is....bah nevermind. What do I know?



Ok, ok. Enough crap.

Nothing great happening in my life right now. I had minor surgery on my left foot two days ago. It wasn't painful. The anaesthetic injection to make my foot numb was however, excruciating. And because of this surgery, I wasn't allowed to play in a tournament (football), though I was match fit. -_-''

Nowadays, I just spend most of my time on the computer, eyes glued on the screen almost 75% of the time, the other 25% spent on things like taking a leak, taking a dump, eating, drinking and sleeping. Talk about exciting lifestyle.

What do I do on the computer? Games, games, games. I'm currently undergoing intense CS training....so I'll be ready whenever I'm invited to go play at LAN shops. Friends beware, I am improving on sniping skills. Ph3@r my L33T $n!p!ng $k!llzz! Oh yeah, I'm training headshots too =)). Other than games, I surf the net for anime stuff, so I can improve on my drawing =)). See, I'm putting the computer to improve myself. I'm so proud. *Gives self a hug and pat on back*

Nothing much happening at Highbury either. The season has ended (sadly). Chelsea won (bought) the title this season, with Arsenal 2nd (only a few points difference from Chelsea) and Manchester United, a very, very, very pitiful THIRD (the Grand Canyon separates them from Arsenal and they have to go through qualifying round to get to Champions League!! Haha, glory, glory Man-U-Re.) Congratulations to Everton, who made it to 4th this season with the help of manager David Moyes. Good job, guys! They too have to go through the painstaking qualifying matches to enter the Champions League but I'm sure they'll make it, I hope. But I really, really wonder why you guys sold Thomas Gravesen to Real Madrid. Do they really need him? I mean, it's like Arsenal selling Patrick (Vieira). The Reds (Liverpool) came in 5th, much to the despair of manager Rafael Benitez, but the joy of their Champions League victory can pretty much cover up for their Premiership sadness. Winning the Champions League is not easy. You need to have determination, skill, managerial wits.....and in Liverpool's case, a little luck along the way doesn't hurt. The Champions League title still eludes Arsenal till this day. Don't worry, we'll get that sucka next season...

Whoever you are who's reading this...I hope you're not getting sleepy. =))

I'm aiming to improve myself in all aspects this holiday, in terms of studies (*COUGH* *COUGH*), skills (if I happen to have any), personal hygiene (Singapore would be in grave danger if terrorists got hold of my socks and used em as weapons) and pretty much everything that has caused me much shame throughout the years, such as my poor hearing. I am so gonna get my ears excavated. Gotta get enough sleep before I start talking to walls and lamp posts, gotta grow taller before everyone looks down on me (pun intended), gotta eat less and exercise more before I grow horizontally. Hmmm.....gotta stop lying to myself and living in a world of my own where I'm 6 foot 6, is married and have kids and have 100 cars and is the richest man in the world and plays for Arsenal FC. (the Arsenal FC part will happen =)) )

And that's all for today. Look out tomorrow for another extremely crappy and lame update! So long and goodnight. Ewww.

>I hate it. I hate it when my weakness is your strength<