Food for Thought : should a once-convicted murdered be allowed to practise medicine?

read this in The New York Times. should a once-convicted murderer be allowed to practise medicine? we have heard efforts of criminals doing part-time courses while serving their jail term n we praise them for their determination. but what if the murderer, after serving his term, decides to attend medicinal school? would u go to such a doc? would the school accept such a student in the first place? do we discriminate against such a person? food for thought...........

i'm confused about something
dun know how to go about it
n i'm not sure of it myself
n it doesn't only happens this once

in your eyes, u only have him
but in his eyes, he has only money

in your eyes, u only have him
but in his eyes, he doesn't give a damn about u

in your eyes, u only have him
but in his eyes, he only has himself

it's such a tortue to live under the same roof as him
it's a disgrace to be associated with him
it's beneath me to know that i'm related to him
it's beyond me to try to accept him
it's beyond me to help him time and time again

i just want it to be normal
is that so difficult?
apparently so

it won't be normal anymore
it will never be the same anymore
the growing up years had been the most challenging
time n time again, i had an identity crisis
i wondered about the role i was supposed to have
a student?
a nanny?
or just someone whose existence isn't important?

u r so pre-occupied with him
that my existence irks u
that my way of speaking the truth n out-right style seems not to agree with u
that my theory of ruthlessness doesn't go well with u
that any small mistakes from me, isn't tolerated

the extent of your help to him is astounding
time and again
but i wonder how willing are u to help me if ever i get into the same situation?
u expect me to be stainless in my life
from me, u can only hope
hope that i can succeed in life
n not be like him
the pressure is huge
carrying so much
with nothing to relieve the build-up stress within me
with no help from anyone

i wonder how long will we be able to last before everything starts to crumble down like a pack of cascading cards?

everytime my right eye twitches, i just knew somehow, that something bad is going to happen. it twitched yesterday night n true enough, today it happened. it's a total disgrace. the consequences are dire. when will u ever learn? when will u ever grow up? the cycle never stops.

True Love from the Bible

True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.


From the Bible :

"But if a man has this world's goods, and sees that his brother is in need, and keeps his heart shut against his brother, how is it possible for the love of God to be in him? My little children, do not let our love be in word and in tongue, but let it be in act and in good faith." (1 John 3:17-18)

i realised something in my workplace. the people love to speak Hokkien among themselves. luckily i know how to listen n speak (although not that fluent in it)! hahah.....

one more day down. 3 more to friday!! n tmr sim tech is going for a run in NTU. OMG.... run!! why does it remind me of life run when i was in army? hahah... hopefully there will be no RSM to 'encourage' us to run faster! hahaha....

Third Week of IA

i realised i haven't blog anything about my IA. it's the third week of work already. everything's nice; from the supervisor to the colleagues, they are all nice. maybe the only thing that's so nice is the allowance! a meagre 540. but then, it's still survivable.

anyway, let's talk about my IA. so far, i learnt 2 machines, TGA and DSC. well, they are quite fun to 'play' with. one experiment run on either of these machines takes around 50 mins to 1 hour. so after i press the 'start' button, i have nothing to do! and once, i had to do 4 such runs. OMG! it's so slack...

i have to report for work monday to friday 0830 to 1800. long hours! but miss joanne out there has longer hours than me! haha.... so poor thing!!

and i'm so damn bored in hall! those who stay in hall, u r most welcome to visit me!! hahha.........

Stand Firm in the Lord

Lord, help me stand upon Your rock of Truth
And never trust myself to sinking sand;
Whenever I am faced with evil powers,
I’ll call upon Your strong and mighty hand. —Hess

When we trust the power of God, we experience peace, not panic.

都是你

誰改變了我的世界
沒有方向沒有日夜
我看著天這一刻在想你
是否會對我一樣思念
你曾說我們有一個夢
等到那天我們來實現
我望著天在心中默默念
下一秒你出現在眼前
想念的心裝滿的都是你
我的鋼琴彈奏的都是你
我的日記寫滿的都是你的名
才發現又另一個黎明

你曾說我們有一個夢
等到那天我們來實現
我望著天在心中默默念
下一秒你出現在眼前
想念的心裝滿的都是你
我的鋼琴彈奏的都是你
我的日記寫滿的都是你的名
才發現又另一個黎明
我的日記寫滿的都是你的名
才發現又另一個黎明
這是我對你愛的累積


this song is by Guang Liang n it's very nice

a remainder to myself

We have many members in one body,
but all the members do not have the same function. —Romans 12:4

as human beings living in this world, there are many many things that are not pleasing to us
n as much as we want it to be pleasing to us,
it just can't be that way
most of the time, we have to change ourselves to accomodate

as we all know, change is the hardest thing to get used to
we are so accustomed to our old ways that we dread the change even though it may be necessary
but change is inevitable
sometimes, we just have to change
if we know it is for the better
but some, just do not want to change
how then do we get these people to change?

what if these people are reluctant?
what if these people are full of themselves?
what if these people are so obsessed with themselves that they forgot they are living on this planet called Earth and there are many other beings called Humans living together with them?
how then, do we get these people to change?

yes, on our part we can teach them the correct way
yes, on our part we can offer a helping hand whenever is needed
but that's only if these people do stretch out their own hands and take the helping hand
like a drowning person, if he/she does not reach out for the life buoy thrown to him/her,
it's futile in the end.
offer help when it is needed
take the help when it is offered
and always be ready for change

it became so irregular that it came as a shock
not as a surprise because it's not something new
but shocking

i'm tired

tired from hearing about such problems

tired of having to travel back home from hall just for the sake of being home

tired of seeing unhappy faces upon reaching home

tired of u

reading my previous posts
realised that there are many posts on such things
so which means the same stuff happened many many times
n it spanned across years
with no clear cut solutions

it's something i will have to be burdened with
after my parents have passed on
but it's so huge that i dun think i will be able to shoulder it
by then, running away is of no use
trying to pretend the problem doesn't exist also doesn't work then
the only solution is to hope for a miracle

i hope i'll live to see the miracle
n i will praise the Lord!

Little Dream

everyone has dreams. they may be a small n little dream while some dreams are very huge. i sung a song during my church gathering yesterday, titled Little Dream, which i feel the lyrics are very meaningful so i decided to share it.


Little Dream by Jessica Lee and Sandy Yu

Verse 1
Blue skies are perfect homes to big white clouds,
Hill-tops are where the green grass likes to grow.
Rivers will find their home in oceans deep.
and my dreams will rest in heav'n above.

Chorus
Every little dream comes from Father's heart.
Just remember He is all we need.
Every little dream received can change the world.
Brings hope for tomorrow.

Verse 2
Jesus, the precious giver of our strength.
Brings us together in His unity.
He leads us through the path of righteousness.
He guides us and gently walks with us.

(Repeat Chorus)

it's going to be the start of another hectic sem! n i'm on attachment this time round. due to some unforeseen circumstances, i will be doing my attachment in singapore @ SimTech in school. yes, u never see wrongly. it's in school aka NTU, the love-hate place with so many fond + unhappy memories. not really complaining that i couldn't go China for GIP cos i know God has plans for me. who knows, it may not be a bad choice staying in singapore. can save money and can see _______ at the same time ..... hahahha...........

my good friend of many many years, GY is flying off to China for GIP this sunday! i n YZ will miss u n the regular supper nights! hahahha...... we shall webcam u of the good food we are having here in singapore while u r there k? hahaha...... n remember to try all the exotic food like fried insects (if they have) and tell us how does it taste like k? hahaha...........

up to now, i still can't decide on something. how?! i tried talking to my mei n tried to follow her advice but i still can't get over it! hopefully time will help ba...............

nice evening

daniel was happy when YoU decided to come n join us
the countdown was nice
with the ambience and the company
it's good to have such friends

there's always two sides to a coin
n we can't have best of both worlds
for most matters, there are always at least two ways of settling
the easy way and the hard way
so what's my way of settling a problem i have on hand right now?
had been thinking about it for a long long long time
but i dun seem to find a solution
neither ways seem correct

when i did not have it, i dreamt of what it feels like to have it
when i had it, it felt like goodness but it was shortlived
what an irony!
will the desire to have it overpower the will to subdue that feeling?
or will the latter win?
personally i also dun know
only time will tell

but on the 31/12/2007, i had an enjoyable evening!