i hate it the moment i returned home, i'm greeted with troubles
even on the way to nic's house, received a call from mum saying granny's admitted
dampened my mood
then received home to receive more unpleasant news
sometimes, i question my existence
for what reason am i made to go through such ordeals?
n when will they end?
worrying has become my forte over these years
though worrying is of no use
the problems will still be there.

i hate problems which i dun have a solution to it
maybe it's just me but i would think hard about it
n whilst thinking hard about it, i tend to keep quiet
as if i'm out of this world
though i think long n hard, no solutions prove viable

sometimes i think too much
about all things
about the present, the past n the future
about things that may not happen

most of the time i do not have confidence in things
after all that i had been through, things dun look optimistic
though i would love to place more confidence into it,
it would be to naught in the end

i'm not endowned with any talent
so i make up for it with hard work
but i realised, over the years,
hard work cannot surpass those geniuses
the most is to be on par with them n
that is only if the genius dun work hard n i work double hard
it's tiring; it's depressing n it's tough keeping up

many many lessons learnt but how come i still make the same mistake repeatedly
i'm going to remind myself daily to 'just forget it'

seriously i wonder what's next? it would seem to me that it's back to square one; day one all over again. i wonder when will u ever grow up n be more sensible. or would u rather waste your life away? decide what u want in life n we would definitely give u all the support! but if u keep on going in the wrong way, we would not be able to help u. do u even know it? the pain n hurt u are causing are tremendous.

i'm in school now. decided to leave the house earlier than planned. today is my subject registration day. hope i can get all the electives i want. haha... i only have one more AHSS module to clear but decided to give JAP level 2 a try. just want to continue learning the language. dun know whether can complete all of them before i graduate or not.

ntusb is hosting a welcome tea on sat at nanyang audi. it will be at 2pm. to all who yearn to play with ntusb, this is the time! do make your way down to join us for a time of music making, followed by a time of fun! if those who wants to come but do not know the directions, fret not! just give me a call n i will personally go to boon lay mrt to fetch u! haha.... hope to get lots of calls on that day!! haha.....

做你的男人- 张信哲

东京纽约每个地点
带你去坐幸福的地下铁
散步逛街找电影院
累了我就帮你提高跟鞋

塞车停电哪怕下雪
每天都要和你过情人节
星光音乐一杯热咖啡
只想给你所有浪漫情节让我

做你的男人24个小时不睡觉
小心翼翼的保持这种热情不退烧
不管世界多纷挠我们俩紧紧的拥抱
隐隐约约我感觉有微笑藏在你嘴角

做你的男人24个小时不睡觉
让胆小的你在黑夜中也会有个依靠
就算有一天爱会变少人会变老
就算没告诉过你也知道下辈子还要和你遇到

东京纽约每个地点
带你去坐幸福的地下铁
散步逛街找电影院
累了我就帮你提高跟鞋

塞车停电哪怕下雪
每天都要和你过情人节
星光音乐一杯热咖啡
只想给你所有浪漫情节让我

做你的男人24个小时不睡觉
小心翼翼的保持这种热情不退烧
不管世界多纷挠我们俩紧紧的拥抱
隐隐约约我感觉有微笑藏在你嘴角

做你的男人24个小时不睡觉
让胆小的你在黑夜中也会有个依靠
就算有一天爱会变少人会变老
就算没告诉过你也知道下辈子还要和你遇到

just came back from an x-ray on my back. hope the results would be something pleasing to the ears. let's pray

hmm.. did i hurt my right side of my chest when i fell the other time at WCP? feels painful ...

went out with my section today again! wahha... power mann... went to ECP to blade/cycle. n yn learnt how to cycle in 40mins... clap clap clap clap!!!! but after that super duper freak accidents... hope u are all right.... haha... the next time i will conquer the rollerblades....

my back is ok already!!

empty vessels make the most noise
u r one
leopard never changes its spots
u r one
like a beast running amok at times
u r one
i'm better off without this family of mine
even without this family i'm sure i can survive

what a sian day! with nothing to do, it can get really boring. though went to apply for job today, that only took a short while. is there something that i can do for the whole day at no cost? hehe....

ahhhhhhhh.....

i hate it.....

men speak 2000-4000 words a day
women speak 6000-8000 words a day
i wonder if it's true... haha

though i always fight for the best, i will never be able to get the best for myself.
what's the use of fighting then?

though i always keep quiet, it doesn't mean i'm not aware of what's going on
it just means i'm listening. listening out to what's being said
not my style to talk unnecessarily
though i will crack lame jokes at times to break the ice whenever needed

though i said i dun have anything to say, i have many many things that i wanna say but dun know how to.
but then i suppose it doesn't matter ba?

let's see... finished a 2hr paper in 1hr 10 mins. first time i finished a paper so fast. hopefully whatever i wrote is relevant hehe....

went to watch ocean's 13 after that with melvin, choon yap, leng leng n kwan ling at vivocity! it's my second time there only wahaha.... chose there cos got free vouchers courtesy of JH. the show was quite nice. as good as the first two. n they stole so many diamonds sia! pro! haha


one must pass through the tribulations in life before one can grow up. to emerge stronger then before is the ultimate goal of each trial.

the longer time we spend together, the more i feel i dun fit in. the way i think is way different from u all. n i dun feel good at all. i dun have anything to contribute to the conversation at all. but then i have already completed what i set out to do n i think it's time to leave. leave everything behind. once n for all..... though i will hurt. do u think i should leave?

some things that i hate:

1) smokers
2) liers
3) quarrels
4) loud noises
5) to talk when not necessary
6) long hours of shopping

now, u know a little bit more about me. especially point no.5. does that explain why i seldom talk?

yl, ym n wq says the same thing to me when i posed the same question to me. it could only means the problem lies with me... but then if my future has no need for such things, isn't there no cause for worries? hha...

ps: congrats to gladys!! wahaha... sorry i didn't guess it right on my first try... haha....

it's here again

the 'storm' is here again
after months of absence
it is here again
awoken up by the sounds of the 'storm'
n i hate it so much

it's always the same reason
n it's quite sickening
when will u ever learn?

the one thing i learnt from all these shit
is not to get into the crossfire
silence is golden
in case something wrong is being said
so i keep quiet

keeping quiet sometimes is good
sometimes it isn't
but who cares
i choose to keep quiet most of the time
n it's most of the time

it's like dev javu
the scenes r re-playing
the exact words are being said again
heard it like ten of thousands of times
n it gives a numbing effect

how i wish i could escape from all these
to a paradise where no such shit occurs
how i wish sometimes, i was the only child
so i dun have to worry so much

there are many things that had happened
n so be it
they r things that i couldn't control
but i can control how i want my life to be in the future
n it's not going to be full of 'storms'
n definitely i won't settle down in singapore
singapore has too much unhappy memories for me
away to another country would be the best
n that's only if i have the abilities to do so

why why why?

doesn't seem to be able to do things right and it seems that i can't meet my own expectations. it's frustating. maybe it's time to give up some of the things that r close to my heart n concentrate more on studies.

well can't say that my results r that bad cos i thought i would fail some modules. but i didn't. still, it doesn't look good on the transcript with such grades. oh mann. if only that module i could do better then it wouldn't look that bad. but it's always cases of regret for me. so what's new?


before school starts, i will make the decision. a decisive decision that will .....

talking

talk for the sake of talking?
talk when necessary?
which one?

i suppose it all depends on situation n who i am with
but recently, i discovered something about myself which certain people knows about it (cos i told them)
n i think it's not good
it will only affect

how to overcome this?
it would seem that talking at the appropriate time would be the best
though i always seem to have nothing to talk about

talk to me when u want me to talk

went to 8 flags to upgrade my lappie! in 5 mins, my lappie had another 1Gb Ram. now it's fast! wahaha....