i have a wonderful section
i enjoy hanging out with u guys n girls
all the moments together
all the laughter
it's just pure enjoyment
thanks

with nothing to do, life is boring
except for intersem n band prac, there's nothing else to do
n with no money, i can't go out that often
sian sian sian

maybe this is what jealousy is all about?
why am i feeling like that?

went ktv with mel, paul, hl, sr n edna yesterday night! let the photos do the taking instead!

one of the few times that mel sang! haha....

well didn't manage to take a group photo yesterday!

guess what? my section actually spend dinner n supper at the same place! holland V! haha... i think we r damn siao onz mann.... before band prac went to swensen's for dinner... had their pirates special or something. the waiter was damn enthu about his job! but he looked kind of funny to me haha.... rushed down for band prac then after band prac mr cw suggested eating ice cream! omg!! haha... so off we went back to Holland V to satisfy our crave. decided on NYDC mudpies! haha... n i n cw had the same liking for the same mudpies! hhaa... but then it's just too good! haha.... well, eating mudpies under a very strong air-conditioned environment is a bit the wrong! haha...

anyway, felt quite sian when we got to know that the japan trip will be postponed. i was looking forward to it mann! postponing the trip has its advantages n disadvantages lah. it will also mean more time to save more money for the more expensive trip as the new tentative month will be in dec! the peak of the peak period! but too bad we can't spend christmas in japan. what a waste!


heard this quote from the radio station on the way back: 'i seem to be avoiding u but my heart cannot avoid u.' it seems to describe very aptly what i felt at the point of listening! haha.... but it doesn't matter anymore. simply because it doesn't matter anymore.


cannot expect anything because i got nothing to offer in the first place

time now: 1045
venue : wee kim wee lec theatre

some people are just plain inconsiderate; talking in lecture. even after the lec made a request for the chatting to stop, they just continue without giving a damn to the prof. furthemore, it's guys who r doing the talking. wtf. since when guys talk so much? n it's not one group but rather, on my left n right, people r talking rather than concentrating on the lec.

it was the most interesting chat i ever had in nights.
thanks a million

it's a sat again! it means the end of yet another week. it also means band prac day! looking forward to it! dun know what sort of pieces we r playing today.

it would seem to me that i'm just not good enough
be it in whatever things that i undertake
although in every thing i do, i give my best
but is the best that i can give
not the best standard around?
i think so

in singapore, it's all a matter of competition
a race it would seem
though it's not said,
it's obvious
it's a fact
everyone knows it

to be among the best, u have to put in more effot
if u r left behind for the slightest moment,
u will be left behind forever if u dun catch up
it's a never-ending race
it only ends when the day comes for you to see the Lord

how i wish i had an elder brother or sister
so that i have someone to learn up, to look up
it's tiring to always look out for people
it should be about give n take
n not only giving but no taking

the lappie has become my best buddy

some things are just beyond our reach
even if we try our best
like stars, they seem so far away

maybe i should take hl's advice
n be more cheerful in my blog
maybe i should, seriously


is trying your best the same as doing your best?

sometimes it's best not to think so much
cos thinking about what has not happened will only add to uncertainty

most of the time, my intuition is spot-on
n i hate it so much
cos i can't prevent it from happening
it's not fun to see it unfolding right before your eyes
like a play, happening according to a script

sometimes, the best plan can fail too
so do we still plan for things?
but i know, without a plan, things cannot be done
so do we still plan for the unexpected? something extraordinary?

most of the time, things just happen
it's beyond our control
no matter how much we try to, it's futile

the more we try to take control of the situation around us,
the more it gets out of control
like a kite tied to a string,
it will just break free if it is too taut

a person with two faces,
one shown to the public
one hidden deep in his heart
where no one knows
which reflects the true personality of that person
he may appear happy on the outside
but deep down.....

a heart that is cold
immune to all emotions
does that make a heartless person?
is it good or bad?

so near yet so far
it's hard to keep up
if only it isn't real

certain things, once said, cannot be taken back
similarly
certain things, once etched in memory,
cannot be simply deleted or erased
how nice if there is something called selective memory loss
choosing to keep only the wonderful memories
but i suppose that's only a fantasy

time, once gone, is forever gone
so many things can happen in the blink of an eye
but it's strange how certain things can just happen without fail


looking back, i seem to have achieve nothing in my life

i asked my section one question today
'will u be able to forgive someone who had betrayed your trust?'
many gave answers
all were correct in one way or the other
even the Bible teaches us to forgive n forget

but it's hard
it's hard to really forgive a person after what had happened
it's easy to say 'i forgive u'
but is that all?
can we really forgive someone n then go on to forget completely what that person has done?

to what extent can we forgive someone?
totally? can it be done?
some degree of hatred remains planted in our hearts
n we tend to remember it for a long time to come
some say, time will heal everything
but i ask, is it really so?
how about the wounds?

many things will leave a scar behind
like a nail driven into a wooden plank,
even after the nail is being removed,
the hole on the wooden plank is clearly visible
can time heal it?

will i be able to?
only time will tell


troubled

ha.. supper-ed with gy n yz! went to this place a little further than mustafa centre to eat the hokkien mee there! it's delicious! the chilli was great, the gravy was good n the noodles was wonderful! haha....

after supper, decided to go to mustafa centre since i didn't step in there before! haha... it's HUGE! n it's damn crowded even at midnight. it's like stepping into chinatown during CNY again. wanted to buy something but then was put off by the long line at the cashier. SIAN! since we left that the night is still young, we proceeded to find a place for some desserts n we ended up at this river valley dessert shop. it's been there for some time, it's near my place n yet i didn't step in there before! haa.. so we decided to give it a try tonight. mann, the almond paste is thick n perfect. just like Hong Kong style of dessert! 9/10 i would give it!

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some things are best left unsaid. how true is this statement. some things, if said, may just spoil everything. why just i can't learn from my failures? there are many things that need to have a full-stop to it and i should learn when to put a full-stop to things before i get myself into another similar situation.

once bitten, twice shy. thrice bitten, i think i should go n die. (though i admire how Thomas Edison endured more than 1000 failures before he came up with the lightbulb)

when the sun rises on the sea,

i think of u

when the dim moonlight is on the spring,

i think of u

KL photos

ha... the photos came late...

look at the nice weather!

on the way to KL. that will be paul, shirui n me! edna is hiding somewhere sia.....

oh there she is! guess whose hand? haha

the bus that we took! Mr NICE bus!

the fellowship of the materialistic people!

it's A&W! u can't find them any more in singapore!

the bear is saying " hey hey hey!"

the twin towers.

A Saluation to My Friends

Friends are the most important in this society where challenges are aplenty. They are there to help us to get further in life. They are there to spur us to greater heights. True friends will always be there for u, in times of need, trouble n calm times. Friends need not be together all the time for true frienndship can stand the test of time.

All these years, i had many many friends. Luckily, most of them are able to give me a helping hand into leading me to where i am today. From pri to sec school to jc n then to uni, all of my friends are kind-hearted, willing to help me, generous.

I still remember those times in sec school where i would call my friends when i encountered problems with my school work n the discussions over the phone. n those times where A.maths homework were copied from each other if there was no time to do it. haha... those fun times we had in band practice, crapping at mac's after school etc.

army friends. went through fun times, tough times together. we really worked hard n played hard. getting up from a nice sleep at 2-3 am to 'start work'... haha... kian joo, jason, weiqiang, benny, quek quek, hafiz etc. each of us watched out for each other so as to lessen the whole section's sufferings. haha...

uni friends even best. able to take all the cold jokes that i throw at them... melvin, jac, sutanto, joel, melissa, gladys .. just to name a few friends from mse.... haha... going to tutorials, lectures, lunch were a big event during my year one. haha... the willingness to share their knowledge with me, calling me when i was late for a lec(cos i overslpt. it was in the morning u see. thanks JAC! ), buying of mac breakfast for each other into 2002 lectures... haha...

it's good to have friends. Thanks to all who r willing to be my friends. Thanks to those who had given me help, be it big or small. Thanks to 2 special people who have made my life a little sweeter. Many many thanks to all my friends!

ok last paper to go.... 2010 polymers n composites.... way to go...

revised in the morning n afternoon... then watched some videos online in the evening... tried to study some more in the night but can't seem to get it in so i decided to call it a day n continue tmr morning.

jiayou to those who haven't finish their exams!