went for the national vertical marathon today! had to conquer republic plaza's 60 storeys of stairs!! wahah... so high. but fun. junhan. edmund. tsemin. mabel. me! the oldest among them. ha.

koped this from JJ.. thought it makes some sense

If You Have Reasons Why U Luv A Person,

Then U're Using Ur Mind.

If U Luv A Person 4 No Reason At All

Then U're Using Ur Heart !

it's hard not to care; it's hard to not care.

time now 2348. i gave up studying for the night so i decided to blog since it's been a long time since i had an entry. it's the first day of school after the cny break. n there's no band prac today. so sian. like nothing much to look forward to. so spent the time studying. studied until the headache is here again. ha.

cny is getting boring as the years pass. this year is the most 'special' n boring. somehow i feel that adults stuff should not affect the youngsters. as adults, u all should know how to handle the bloody problem. in fact, if u r not so f***ing timid of things especially your wife, things wouldn't have come to such a state. n to another person, dun be so kpo with my family stuff including our religion lah. dun bother us to put it bluntly. we never interfere with your family pursuing another religion that is different from us so it's quite common sense to do vice versa.

sometimes i feel my family is being too kind-hearted to their own siblings. it doesn't pay to be so kind-hearted. yes, help when it is needed. but extensive help may turn out to be a sort of harm. it doesn't go both ways. people dun extend their hands to us when we r in trouble u know that? in fact, i'm quite disappointed with the extended family. not including the cousins(youngsters). it's the adults n it's directed to 2 people in the family.

how i wish i can call a family meeting like how i do for project in school. sit down at a table n trash all the f***ing things out. how i wish things were not to be at this stage. if things were simpler, that will be good. as humans grow up, we become more n more unhappy because we will being burdened with more n more power n responsiblity.

maybe we should learn from the infant who has no worries whatsoever n is contented with his life.

ha.. i was planning on a not-so-sad-entry but in the end, i guess... all the thoughts came rushing out n it became words on the screen.

do not know what to write

v-day today. just another normal day i suppose except with the exchanging of gifts between friends. haha... girls in my circle of flowers just love to receive flowers on this special day! haha....

no plans or whatever for today. so how did i spend v-day? spent it with jason n leng leng! ha... cos leng leng got some school work to ask so after her dinner with jason, we studied together. (what a way to spend the night rite?) haha

not bad in that i managed to cover quite some stuff today. but then it's quite boring cos i did not have any songs to accompany me while i study. i need music mann!

music n friends go together!

Long lOoong post..... with lots of emotions inside

everytime i go home, i will be told of a new problem
a problem that i can't solve
a problem that person knows not of
a problem that can only be solved if that person solves it
it's taking a toll on everybody in the family

there's always this period of calm right before a storm
n this period is there for some time already
the storm may be coming
n after so many cycles, somehow i can 'predict' when will it be
i could do nothing about it n that makes me feel useless
i can only listen to my mum as she relates the problems to me
yet from me, it could go nowhere.
it's all bottled up within

why? why are there so many trials in my life?
Satan's work is evident in my life
i shall not give up
though
there's only sadness and unhappiness
there's no sense of accomplishment in me

i can't do what i want/like to do anymore
financial woes are stupid
i want to spend freely without worries
i should work hard so that in the future, money is not a problem for me

i realised that anything that i expect doesn't materialise
maybe it's time not to have any expectations?
not good to have too high an expectation
for the higher the expectation, the more painful it is when it fails

lead each other day as it comes
for u do not know what will happen
thanks God for giving life to my grandma for yet another day

the walls of a house are cold
so are the people living inside
i yearn for the days where my family is much closer
but those days r long gone
never will it so again

cow song

clarinet section enjoyed this song greatly during the band chalet so decided to post the lyrics up for u guys to enjoy the song with! ironically, there r 3 'cows' in the section. haha.....

I AM COW

I am cow hear me moo

I weigh twice as much as you

And I look good on the barbecue

Yogurt, curd, cream cheese, and butter's

made from liquid from my udders

I am cow, I am cow, hear me moo!

I am cow, eating grass

methane gas comes out my ass

and out my muzzle when I belch

o the ozone layer is thinner

from the outcome of my dinner

I am cow, I am cow, I've got gas

I am cow, here I stand

far and wide upon this land

and I am living everywhere

from B.C. to Newfinland

You can squeeze my teats by hand

I am cow, I am cow, I am cow

I am cow, I am cow, I am cow!

ps: i think i have the mp3. those who want it can get it from me!

one of my ribs is painful whenever i pressed it

it's not painful when i dun press it

other ribs dun feel the pain when i pressed it

so what seems to be the cause of it?

hmm...

i wonder how is my grandma today

haven't been to the hospital today

dun think have the time to go today

hopefully today is not the day

grandma

grandma suffered a stroke again

the doc says

won't be able to last till chinese new year

it will be within a couple of days

grandma suffered a lot during the last few months

in and out of hospitals so many times

hopefully she doesn't have to suffer much before her last

ha... an interesting dialouge between me n my grandma who's a bit the senile. she kept on asking where's my gf n whether is she coming back! ha.. the truth is i dun have one n i never brought any gals back before! so we were like laughing at it. but it can be irraiting at times cos it gets on our nerves. haha....

one more day to chalet!

did u all know that chocolates r actually good for health? dun know rite?! ha... i also didn't know that till i had to do a project on chocolates. n to my surprise, chocolates can help to keep high blood pressure down, prevent tooth decay cos dark chocs contain phosphate! can't believe it rite? ha... but of course, dun start rushing to the nearest mart to snap up all the dark chocolates u can see!

n of course not forgetting the calories in the chocs! so beware of the temptation!

that's for one module.

finally managed to get tickets to phantom of the opera. procrastinated for quite sometime already till recently then asked one of my friend who's working at sistec to get them for me! ha... looking forward to watching the highly acclaimed works. will be my first time watching such stuff!! hehe...

band is resuming soon... nice...