Hello Sun! :) @ Port Dickson

I just got back from a 3D2N Port Dickson trip with the girls, Janice and Janelle!
It was our first all-girls trip together ever since we have known each other. can you believe it? yes! :)

It was an interesting trip i must say. The photo that I have just uploaded here, is not everything as most of the nicer photos are with Janice right now. =.=
but i am just so excited. because, other than sharing about the trip, i am trying out my new keyboard and cpu!
Who can say my bf isn't the sweetest, when he had spent the entire weekend w/o me around, but still assembled an entirely new comp for me? :)

I am so sleepy right now. tired of traveling on buses and all. but i must finish a little of this before i rest my eyes for the hell week thats coming up.

Port Dickson was an eye opener, to another world of msia. Similar to Redang - but not the sea water of course - it was a really nice resort filled with amenities!
it's beautiful i would say. it felt like i have entered another world when we finally stepped into the resort! :D
I LOVED the room. The water chalet we have booked for 3 persons, was huge with 1 queen size bed, and a smaller queen bed. AW. I slept on the smaller queen bed for 2 nights and trust me it's awesome.
We were a little skeptical about the beach initially as there were signs put up warning about sand flies. =.=
as the water resided, we walk out all the way to the sea bed. this totally reminded me of the bintan trip many years ago with deb and the rest. :)

as usual, getting sun burnt is a given. But... NOT bringing Aloe Vera Gel wasn't!!! I swopped bags last minute on Friday morning, and left the gel in the old bag.
this is call, getting what I deserved. my shoulders were red and burnt and painful from the sun yesterday. and I only could put body lotion to ease the pain. and it didn't help much! =(
thank god im home now, and applied the frozen gel. haha.

it was exciting traveling with the girls actually. each of us always had our own differences and living expectations in a room.
i was of course, surprised to see janice wearing wedges on friday morning, and Janelle, being all anal about hair and spreading powder all over the room - which i hate.
but naturally we adapted to each others habits and behaviours rather quickly - since we have always been like that - and got over it.
as usual, i had my little boiling points that each of them never fail to hit. so at some point of time, i had to keep my cool and suck things up. :S~!

all in all, it was a good trip. even my shoulder and back feel much better. and so i believe it's prolonged seating at the desk and stress that built up the pain.
now.... im 3 weeks away from exams, and trust me i have only attended 30% of lessons this term. lets pray that i get great help from classmates - whom havent been too attentive too...
and to my horror, i did my project wrongly. now. it's back to zero and we have to start ALL OVER AGAIN.

I need more time, energy, for work and studies right now.
so hopefully this trip has given me some hope on moving on. lol.

alright. time to slp for a brand new morning tomor! :D
gdnight world. I wished im still sleeping in port dickson right now.

Next destination - taiwan with beloved ting xuan! =D

Have you ever..

Have u ever woke up in the morning and have no idea what u are doing to ur own life?

Have u ever woke up wondering why u must be worrying about money?

I do.

I am stuck at crossroads. Just want to forget everything and take a break. I want my money back.
Fml
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Happy valentines day!

Okay, I know it is belated.
And actually right now, I'm not really in the state of wishing someone happy vday.
Cuz I'm sooooooooooo tired.

WDA workshop was today. So as usual, had been rushing to prepare all the documents for the past few days. And as usual, they are my fatal enemy, I really cannot stand working with them... Grrr. But it's okay, it's all over.

And yes. Last night was dinner with tx.
And the very sweet him gave me a reallyyyyyyyyy nice necklace pendant!
I'm totally, in love with him and of course, the pressie!
He's really.. Sweet. :)

That's almost the only happy thing that have happened recently.
I'd been so bothered about my late pay and delayed finance... Till I really don't have heart for anything else. Except for, the business idea I'm having with my colleagues and yes, we are going to talk business soon, this sat!

Sigh. Only 50% of my pay was banked in on 7th of feb.
That's jan pay. And to my horror, the rest will only be banked in next week.
Seriously, do not expect staff to slog for you if u are going to delay pay,
U can open new businesses, do so many things, no money to pay employees.
This is the most horrible thing I have ever seen or experienced.
It's especially worrying since many of our livelihood depends on the salary.
Morale had been super low. Super super low.
I never find one day my colleagues and I don't talk about the delayed pay during lunch breaks,
Sigh frigging frustrating. Sigh

Adding on to that, project in school had been killing me softly.
Dateline to submit the draft is on 7march and I have nt even started.
The original excited feeling I had about port Dickson trip w the girls next weekend is slowly fading away with the lack of cash and stupid project complete.

BFF msged me today for don't know what reason.
I replied given the fact that I was busily stuck in event today. To my dismay, it Could just be a wrong MSG sent to a wrong person.
How sad right. This is what I have gotten after trying to maintain an almost 7 year friendship.
Well then, till now. I guess its gone. And yes I think it is gone.
I promise to myself, I will never call another guy my best friend, because, they walk away once they have a real partner by their side. So be it, not blaming anyone but it's just how sad reality can be. And I have no choice but to accept that everyone leads their own lives, so do I. So, it's time for me to move on and live my life without having that sign of regret. It's beyond sadness and disappointment, just,, QSS.

Janice was recommended for an award for excelling in marketing solutions in her company, as the global representative. I'm so happy for her. But yet again, I look at myself. Grace chan, really, what have u really achieved in your jobs? I don't even want to call that my career. It really feels damn down when u are not having a goal to achieve at work. Fml.

I'm recently super addicted to the secret circle. It's superb!! And kept me staying up for a couple of nights. Now since I can't dl the rest of the episodes, I was, of course back to my all time fav, the vampire diaries. But sadly the show is getting really boring and I'm super sick of the all time love triangle that started since the start of time. Grrrrrrr.

So feel like taking mc tomorrow. But yes I can't. Tonnes of work to be done and I refuse to see doc and spend tht money since I have no cash. Life really really sucks.

Just had a 10-min phone call w ms ong, sweet. We each bitched about our lives and people around us for like 5 min. And that's our bed time story. :)

Gdnight!!!!!!

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I can't really find a meaningful title and did not want to write rubbish.
so that explained the title -untitled-. HAHA!

it's almost time for me to slp.. then I realised I havent blogged for long.

The first month of 2012 has passed, which I was totally relieved cuz it was a really bad month for me.
Work was crazy despite it being the 1st month and of course, with the shortage of manpower.
Now I need to have double-me, so that I can finish my work.

CNY was a blast with tonnes of food on the table.
Did not do much visiting this year. and well, holiday was really short and before you know it, work started already.

my portfolio this year is to focus on expanding on a niche marker: the law industry.
it is definitely not an easy task for me to do research on the law firms and how job search and hiring is being done as lawyers keep these things low profile for god-knows-what reason.
and i was particularly worried that i am not able to carry myself well in front of law students and of course, current lawyers that i will have to meet with.
my english is a problem too. that made me pretty stressed. even thinking about what to wear for a law-ish event was killing me.

and of course, wda-calibrelink was killing me as usual. with all the super outdated window media player that they have.
i had been re-rendering videos in different formats for WEEKS. and I am still not done with them.
If i am to leave my job, one of the factors would definitely be the long term collaboration with this bunch of people.

just when i thought, okay perhaps we still have some hope to fly high with this whole new concept.
despite being super short of manpower, i was still willing to give it a shot.
then, the delaying of pay for january has to happen.
this time round, they were late for days - it actually became an usual thing - but guess what? they only banked in 50% of my pay on friday, the remaining will come in mid feb.

I mean - what the hell is this?!
the only thing they cannot shortchange me about is my pay.
i need it for my due payments for credit cards, school fees, and bills.
not everyone is as rich as my managers u know.
this was absolutely an outburst of uncertainty about how long this co. can last.

and just in time, i completed my resume. and of course, this weekend, i started sending out job applications.
just that, nothing really interests me other than going back to work with students, i must say.
so that kept my market really small. and without degree, im not sure how much im worth going back there.

and. i actually have the burning desire to start QSS up all over again.
back then, i was afraid of this and that, of course it is because i was in the midst of my studies and debts were growing each day.
now, im almost clearing them. last payment for sch fees are coming too.
and then, manfred said he'll invest if i produce a sound biz proposal. I mean - why not!
of course, the major disadvantage is sis is going aussie.
so right now, i am going to just do the necessary research i need to do. at least find out what the rest are doing out there.
yes i agree market may be saturated and all, and it may not be as easy as it seems.
but really, who really had all the experience and knowledge when they started a business. and i am pretty sure i don't want to do the things the rest are doing.
and that is also why, research is important. so that i can think of somehting different and look out for available resources.
i am definitely not doing this on my own. but i need to know what and who i need.

recently boss asked me to do a biz proposal for the law industry that we're working on.
im actually more interested in doing a biz proposal for my own dream-business. of course right.
even if it wouldnt work out, or nothing will come out.
why not. take it as an exercise and it may not be too bad an idea. lol.

okay. my fingers are freezing and i want to go and read on my stuff before i zzzz on bed.

gdnight! lets hope this week wont feel so shitty.
im going for aerobic kickboxing class with my colleague tomorrow, cant wait! WHEE!

bYe.