Say Grace You're a Good Girl

I did not watch shows for the past 4 days....
Am I a good girl?

Work hasn't been too good.
But since when it is? haha.

I'm taking 3 hours off today
claiming the few hours i spent giving out flyers weeks ago.

I just want to be home doing my own things.

Voting day tomorrow
i'm really not interested.

Project group meeting tomorrow noon
I find it weird because i havent had project work for the longest time. kinda dread to get used to it

I have an individual assignment
on strengths and weaknesses
It's not difficult!
But i need to get myself to do it! that's the most difficult part

YAY going pulau ubin this sunday. So happy!

i need the break.

going off.

regards,
Grace

I Love Heart Strings!

What a lovely saturday night when I finally finished my heart strings.
Awwwwwww. I'm REALLY in love with the show, or rather, with Yonghwa!!!!!!

This show started off like a typical melodrama
it's rather emo all the way till episode 5-6.
I was dying watching his sad face, honestly. Though I still loved his songs. I still do!
The image of gyu won was like - err.. why would a popular guy ever like her
so yup, it's like a cinderella story.

What really kept me going was how they finally ended up finishing the musical.
honestly, i think i'm totally into shows like that
e.g. you're beautiful, dream high etc.
But heart strings is quite one of a kind. because it does not focus so much on the performance, but on the love story. i like!

awww it got damn sad at the last 2 episodes.
i'm like tearing all the way.
it's really sad being in HIS shoes, and of course hers. haha!
i mean - breaking up with someone for the good of the other. does it really work?
i think it's super typical of tv series, but come on, we need to teach the kids not to do that in real life.
this is not very healthy u know.
imagine they suffered for like 1 year, for some, even longer.
sigh. thinking about that made me damn sad.

i love the way shin looks at gyuwon whenever he sings.
it's ultimate sweetness i swear.
it's heart melting!! hahaha.
i will watch it again, next time, after i forget about the show.
so, my funshion and computer at home better work well for me to download the series.
i recently specially bought a hard disk just to store my shows.

i want to watch more of heart strings. but i'm really tired and im sure im not re-watching it right now.

im sucha SHOWaholic.
no joke.

alright. i'll have an early start to the day playing badminton with jia seng.
and then study!!!!!
happy curry day.
I shall have a happy studying day - i hate my indian lecturer.

gdnight! =)

Hello!

I'm nua-ing at home this very moment.
Waiting for my beloved new show to load
I'm loving Yong Hwa.
Bf said I always starting loving new guys and abandon the old.

No no no
that's so not true!
I just found new love that's all
it does not mean i do not love the old. hehe.
well, actors renew themselves when new shows appear.=)

went back to work today.
i feel very happy about myself because i finally finished quite abit of the back log
And i feel happy hearing the happy voices of the aunties when i called them to say we've completed their videos
what's more encouraging?
this lady wanted to treat me donuts for helping her with the editing
all in all, as long as the video helps with one person whos looking for a job, i think it's absolutely worth it.

ARGH did work all the way till 730 today
So tired!
and then by the time i reached home it was 8.40pm.
ate instant noodles and started watching my shows.
hehehehe.

My week is packed. with activities and classes
ahhhh. wonder if i will survive. guess i will!

Gdnight. back to my shows. +)

Rest day @ Home

Yesterday was the longest day of my life!
Tx accompanied me to Jobscentral career fair yesterday
I managed to speak to 2 schools, and then we went out to distribute flyers - argh yes job assigned by my co. is always, interesting.
we ended at 1pm and headed home.

He had a short nap while i watched my new love, Heart Strings.
It's acted by Park shin hye and yong hwa from cn blue.
I REALLY love his voice.
he captivates the crowd when he starts playing his electric guitar and sings along.
I'm tootally loving the show! :)

Well. Time sped up when we started preparing for the outing @ marina barrage!
I had to pack every little thing for bennett chan, and stuff for my dog!
By the time we finally arrived with the kid and the dog, it was 4.30pm already!

We were there with Janelle, Janice and Ray and of course little judith.
The kids had tonnes of fun running around the field, so did my dog. haha
but the adults - which were us - were SO tired.
of course, this is call mind-managing
we have to keep the kids within sight everywhere they go.
had dinner at ECP and finally sent Janice home and lele and dog home.
By the time TX and I reached home, in a cab, it was 11pm already!

Both of us are exhausted lahhhhhh.
HAHA. I don't I'll ever want a kid so soon.
it's really - not very fun if it depletes all your energy.

I came home slept at 1am - showered the dog and did my work
When I woke up in the morning
i had stomachache and really din want to go to work, my whole body was aching like mad.
so, i decided to go and see a doc and take mc.

Oh well. Told doc about the imbalanced rib cage im having
and he referred me for an xray
just when i thought everything should be normal, he said it doesnt seem so.
So i'll just need to pay a little more money, spend a little more time, to buy an ease.
AHHHH this is soooo troublesome.
but i'm a little worried though. from the knowledge i have of a human body, it does seem a little weird. hahahaha.


and back to work tomorrow
the high stress envt is killing me
i wish i can move my seat seriously.

my classmate finally ended his r/s with his gf.
why did i say finally? because it's been dragging on for too long.
and i long saw that their personalities doesnt match.
sometimes, trying too hard is more painful than having a clean break.
so I do feel for him. sigh!
it's pretty sad how a couple can meet, date, and then end in the worst way ever.

my week is planned.
and sometimes - i don't really enjoy planning ahead
because this means i  know when i'm gonna get busyyyyyy and see how little time i have for myself.
HAHAHAHAHA

alright i want the bed now. gdnight!

Buck Up Buck UP!!!!

I'm very frustrated !!!!!

I will be leaving office in like 5 min.
But i cant stand it. I have to vent it somewhere.
Not to bf, cuz i don't want him to hear so m uch of my complaints... - THOUGH i eventually will complain tonight.

The You-know-who [YKW] in my office is driving me nuts.
Editing of videos job is passed on to him ever since my part-timer left.
and he's taking AGES to do it.
Seriously, I can easily bring it home and edit it within 2 nights and it'll all be done.
but he simply, kept saying he can do it and there's no reason why i shold bring it home right??

But all he does is to keep dragging the timeline
as though it's rubberband?
come on, if timeline and datelines are meant to be stretched - why bother having one?

Sigh.
it's superbly frustrating. Why?
Because, the only reason why i'm not editing these videos, is very simple.
I HAVE SO MUCH WORK TO DO AND I CANT COPE!
And what he does, is to tell me to help him with this and that and this and that
and tell me he's very busy with the videos.
come on, what difference does it make if i actually did the videos myself?
oh yes, there'll be a difference.
I WILL BE MUCH MORE EFFICIENT than him.

I had been working thru everyday of my week.
weekday nights, weekends
and what does he do?

u know why i'm mad.
not because he cant deliver
but because, he cant deliver what he promised he can.
That's the most annoying part.

i'm nice, but don't take me for granted
so what if you're a manager
u're not acting like one
and u need an exec like me to tell u what to do
that's nice and generous of course
but it also means u cant handle your own job well
why not i fetch your pay, i'll do YOUR job
try doing MINE.

the layout of the new office is terrible
i run in and out every 10 min after I sit down
just to get to my other colleagues at the other side of the room to settle some stuff
how irritating is this
i spend ONE day running
perhaps that'll get me slimmer
but THIS is not the point!

sigh.........
lemme complain so that i don't bring it home and brood about it over the weekend
i have too much work to do.
distributing flyers on sunday
visiting employers booth at the fair tomorrow
class tomorrow
kite flying on sunday - which i don't even feel so excited anymore
and sat night - work work work after dinner with bf.

I would say that I am a very very very efficient person at work.
and productive
not proud of myself but believe in my strengths
i just don't like others to leverage on me.
do your job well and i'll help whereever i can.
i'm a kind person you know.

alright. Chill
cheer up!
i''m out for dinner with kirby lin
i don't feel like meeting him honestly because he annoys me
and i'm not in the mood to be annoyed.
HAHAHA
good luck!

Grace

Since I'm free, why not.

Yes, im writing an entry now!
It's been awhile since i last tried to write my blog during work.
now it's risky yes i know.
but seriously, i don't care.

My new desk is sooooo small
everyone's squashed together and i feel claustrophobic.
it's stiffling.
grr!

Happy Holiday yesterday.
I went cycling with bf! :) it was so fun!
think we both needed a good break, to do nothing in particular. haha...

my home comp is down for a week. :(
the power supply died
im terribly sad!
not that i have much time and energy to watch at night..
but i usually, make time.

argh! cant wait for sunday to come.
so that i can go simlim with the cpu
and..... fly kite with my beloved friends!

sigh working this weekend.
and THEY say we're too pampered.
WTH. seriously, give me time off and OT pay and I will slog for you.
not as though i owe a stake in the company right?

Brrrr. BYE!
First class starts tonight, again.

 

The Move - The Roller Coaster

I'm frigging tired right now.
Went for PSB career fair and finally made my way home at 10pm.
Meeting starts at 10am tomorrow.
Can I just have a break REAL SOON?

I really h a t e studying and working concurrently.
it's so frigging tiring
thank god there weren't lessons this week.
if not i'll just die a horrible death.

Okay. Grace Chan is very whiny tonight.
I know!

We are moving to new office tomorrow.
To One commonwealth, together with my sister company.
Oh well, it sounds more like it by saying, we're moving IN.
the entire team is dreading the move - because we're gonna be separated
heard the culture there sucks, compared to the fun loving us back in the old office.
i'm pretty sad because just when i'm getting used to frigging lower delta road, the 1 hour bus ride, the awful food, the disgusting lift that stops every level,
NOW WE GOTTA MOVE.
And get used to things all over again.
all the big bosses are there too, means - lesser fun, more control.

Some thoughts had been going on recently, and they just do not go away.
I do not know if I'm really suited for the corporate business world.
i missed the days when we don't have to pretend to smile when u don't feel like it
I missed the days when we can just shut up and do our work without having to pretend u're enjoying the conversation with someone else
i missed the days when i do not need to think twice when talking to someone else - not thinking if they have an ulterior motive at all
i kinda... missed the old me.

if I say I think I'm not suited for this world, does that make me one that cant adjust to new work environment?
Actually, I think i'm doing damn well at my job right now.
I know I am experiencing the peak of my work life now where i am valued and appreciated for the work i'm doing
and i see results coming out of it. it gets me excited nonetheless.
just that.... im actually having self doubts.

typical example. the boss of the well known job portal appeared at our booth today
and was all friendly saying hi and talking to us
then after the event, boss said he was trying to dig out information from us.
actually, i din feel that at all.
i really thought he was being nice.
oh well. that just shows... how simple minded my puny brain can be.
u know, u get tired wondering if this person has ulterior motive by asking u all sorts of questions?
it's a skill to learn.

well well well..
and bf started work for a month already.
i know he has been very tired.
so i always try my best not to air my nonsense on the phone or when we meet.
it's not easy just meeting these days
cuz we're both very drained and tired
whats more - i really try very hard not to feel that i have been in the working world much longer than him.
whatever he was complaining, it was all that happened to me back then when i first started.
sometimes, i don't even know if he really knew how i felt.
i just needed to air my frustrations, just like he needed to.
esp when at this hour, when i ended work less than 2 hours, and i am going to do some work for tomorrow's meeting. it's GrOSS.

i'm having mixed feelings now.
is this what we get when we want to earn more money?
by getting smarter, getting more shrewd, getting more complicated.
im not sure. really. but this is what Mic my classmate told me about business world.
thats the way to climb up the corporate ladder to earn more money.
Now, I wish I am not poor to start with.
So that I can be some sort of kindergarden teacher or something. SIGH.

maybe i'm complaining because i'm really exhausted.

let me look forward to TX's bdae this weekend.. :)
and outing with my boy, dog, Jans and bf next Sunday then.

I really need a break.

Gdnight!