I Found it. =)

YAY. it's finally friday!

I need a break seriously, my shoulders are breaking apart.

it's a working hazard.

sigh. i hate this old ailment, makes me feel like an old woman!!

it hurts, badly these few days...

when i have to work alot in front of the comp.

wah. and carrying labtop to and fro from work is really NOT easy.

Tx insists that I get a harvestsack.

but come on, don't all remember?! I look like a turtle carrying one!

so NO - i'm a vain pot, rather die than to look like an animal.

Anyway.

Before i die off on the bed.

i need to write!

life has never been more exciting!

First week of work was just over.

and I'm loving my colleagues.

7 of them including myself, and my young lady boss.

all are nice ppl - of course, all should be kind enouigh since it's my first week, i know!

but vibes are all good.

all are young, below 30!

and i'm really impressed, all of them come from either interesting background, if not, all did events management back then in different companies.

Come on people,

i am now in the REAL world.

that's what I call it!

In the past, it's been like a facade. u don't really know whats out there

but now i know.

it means - working your asses off, and you still want to work!

yes, exactly.

my colleagues comprised of website designers, writer, marcom, sales n marketing, and myself, canvasser!

we are launching a brand new thing which i can only talk about publicly when it's launched.

but I am excited.

and i know it'll grow.

never have i been so trusting on the product i'm selling, i guess? =)

i worked beyond 6pm on all days of work this week.

and tuesday, i ended at 8pm!

i know i am an achiever!

managed to squeeze into nafa career fair on thursday and fri, with a phone call on tue!

i am so pretty sure boss was impressed. =)

and now, i'm working my head off to talk to different institutions, schools, polys, unis!

sp0ke to numerous students over these 2 days.

it's really a blast i tell you.

but i'm pretty happy wth my own performance!

i better do more, when i have the perfect drive!

the only thing that's failing on me is... my poor shoulders.

i couldnt even turn my neck this morning when i woke up.

it was THAT painful.

I was feeling really bad.

bf grandma passed away this week

and i totally had no time and energy to be there for him.

finally met him last night after the wake and cremation.

he was looking SO sad and exhausted.

and i felt so bad and sad that i couldnt do much for him.

sigh.... heartache.

hope things will get better.

sigh the thought of his expression makes me sad. =((

and we both know that, life is gonna be tough

because, grace will not have time to meet him at all.

when i'm not in class, i'm in office.

and im sure i will be for the next 2 months or so.

lets hope all turns out well yeah? fingers crossed.

exam's coming on 14 Mar.

I had been SO tired

and i have work to do over the weekend

sigh. really stressed up.

but im sure i can do it.

i just need to get rid of the comp in my hse, which is.. the one staring at me right now.

HAHA.

it's far too distracting.

dream high is making me drown in the entire show!

i read on the show, i watch and re-watch the episodes.

it's THAT nice!!!!

Vamp diaries's getting little draggy, but it's getting sad.

i do hope the season ends soon, so that i can have a peace in my mind to study.

but i know, it's impossible!

Finally met up with Janelle and Janice.

everyone looked DAMN tired today.

we actually ate dinner, and went home.

that had never happened, but it did.

we're all falling aslp over dinner, urhuh, that bad. yes!!!

but trust me, i'm filled with energy for work, despite the fact that my body's a little uncomfortable.

had been faling aslp everywhere except in office.

workaholic is here again.

jiayou!!!! hahaha!

ok im DARN tired.

i need slp for revision and class tomorrow.

gdnight!

P.S: I think, I have found the kinda job that i wanted. really wanted. no joke!

Work blows me away!

wow.

i'd been swarmed with work despite it's the 2nd day of work.

worked till 6.30pm yesterday, and went to class

worked till 8pm today, and i went home with just a curry puff.

I have nice colleagues, young people and great mindset.

i love the idea that we sit down and discuss and plan

i have a very young boss as well, she's 28 this year.

and wow. i wish i could be in her position after i graduate, like seriously!

This is new start up company

i'm excited for all the work that's coming up

and i do know hell is waiting for me

because i cant believe i worked till 8pm tonight

i guess such days are going to get common.

and i am not complaining, yet, but seriously, at least it's all mental draining only.

i still have the energy to go home.

back then, i did not even have the strength by the time i reach home.

now, i just want to give my brain a break and not think bout anything when i get home.

and YAY, i managed to get into NAFA career fair this thurs and fri.

Damn happy!

i think i'll do well here.

well, i think i'll do well just anywhere. if i work hard and work smart. i hope? =)

KW has indeed trained me well.

alright i want the bed

i want my blanket

i want sweet dreams

and good night!

Beginning: The new chapter!

Finally, i'm starting work tomor!

As a marketing canvasser for the company.

i really do not know what's coming.

Having a mixture of emotions now.. for the entire day.

one part of me wants to start work asap

yet the other says no!

haha. i havent had such good break for the longest time.

so yup, i think i have not enjoyed enough

but i know i should be contented and happy. =)

im really uncertain of the future.

not sure if i'll do well

not sure if i'll get along well with my new boss

not sure if this s really wad i wanted

getting a little skeptical since the last tp experience.

i just hope for the better

i really do.

and i promised myself

i'll work damn hard for this new job.

and i will.

so the first step is:

to slp before midnght.

so that i wouldnt be yawning tomorrow.

and now, i'm finally joining the working community in squeezing on trains.

GOSH. thats the most dreadful part.

but i'll survive it.

gdnight!

It's Valentine every day =)

Im frigging tired now.

think once i hit my bed, i'll fall aslp.

spent the entire day with bf... YAY

he specially took leave so that we can spend time together before i officially start work again.

i really appreciate that because he has been damn tired slping late every night,

while trying to finish the numerous projects from school.

We had mac breakfast and strolled into library

YES, omg, library!

haha.

I was desperately trying to find the novel on vampire diaries.

it was hilarious when we took about 10 min loitering searching for the fiction section.

that shows how rare we actually step in there!

i don't know about him, but for me, it's actually once a year. haha!

Then, we headed towards PCN pitstop

rented a bike at sun plaza

and there we went on our journey. hehe

to reach telok kurau pit stop in 2 hours!

it was quite exciting for me because it's the first time im hitting the roads.

it has always been ubin and ecp park connectors.

hehe.

the sun was not too hot as well, though it still got me burnt!

=) after that, somehow, we did not get to telok kurau pit stop

instead, we headed towards east coast park! haha.

we stopped by bedok town hawker and had dessert. Yummy. =)

then we headed to ecp and returned our bikes there.

actually, we took lesser than 2 hours for that.

it was quite cool. hehe. so fun!

after that, we took slow walks to the bustop at main road

and then headed to town! =)

smelly and sticky, yucckkkks

and we watched no strings attached! =)

rather draggy, but i enjoyed it still.

it's been long since i got into a movie theatre anyway.

then was home sweet home.

dinner downstairs, and bumped into his parents there.

and now im home. home home!

so tired.

think im going to slp early tonight.

so that i have enough energy for tomorrow.

shall not chiong too much since i've only got another 1.5days to rest.

lovely, im watching wgm again!

gdnight. =D

Its finally over for good!

Hello world!

I havent been working for 2.5days to date.

this year, i had the worst valentines day ever.

it's worse than just being single and lonely on a day like that.

because, my labtop was my valentine.

i spent the night OT-ing in office until I was almost done with all work for handing over.

Unbelievably, last week till this monday, was the most stressful period i've ever had at work

I don't know if it was the sense of huge responsibility, i felt that i had to finish it for him.

though i know he was being an ass to keep teling me i'll eventually lose my job outside,

and how incorrect my decision is to leave this place at this juncture.

all said, for my own good, but in my perspective, it's all in his favour if i actually stayed.

I felt really stupid to have worked this hard for someone like that.

whom at the last min, also refused to wish me luck and all the best for my new job.

I was filled with anger, and totally felt unappreciated.

It all seemed like i dumped him with infinite amount of work by leaving

come on, it is until now then he realised, i really had tonnes of work to do.. all on my own.

this is the problem with this sector.

they are always too comfortable in their zone.

until something happens, then they realise things havent been done correctly.

if actions are taken much earlier, things would have been different.

but in this world, IFs are not going to bring people far anyway. haha!

and yup, i've done all i could for this organisation.

and it's over for good.

had been settling domestic errands for past 2 days.

it's particularly irritating because i really didnt want to have a break doing all that.

but of course, i had my fair share of shows!

This korean drama, dream high is DAMN good.

i'd been watching like crazy?

and vamp diaries, my all time favorite. finally came to a standstill when i decided to watch all of the episodes till the latest, so that i can concentrate on my revision.

and yes, my revision started today. that marked the end of my episodes. HAHA

and now, i need to get ready for monday.

little worried.

but im looking forward to it!

just hoped that my break lasted longer though.

alrighty, will blog again.

back to books!

Hope monday nv comes!

Aw. 4 days of holidays passed real quickly?

I bet the entire world who just celebrated CNY refuses to set own minds back to work mode.

Sometimes, Singaporeans really work just too hard! grr.

How did i spend the past few days?

i spent most of the time watching shows, and eating. hell yeah.

Day 1 - Cousin fainted while we visited my maternal grandma's house.

chaotic plus I was first hand witness, so i accompanied her to hospital.

hai long story. just glad that she's alright.

it's too long to elaborate what happened.

but it was rather nostalgic to return to TTSH A&E. Both because of work, and also i was bed ridden for the pathetic 3 days there 2 years back.

Bad memory man! so it was rather scary.

i was there for hours. =(

Day 2 - slept till 12pm!

went out only at 3pm for another house visit.

it was kinda weird meeting all the old folks, but i was happy to have met my grand aunty.

she hugs me whenever she sees me in her hse.

guess she really did miss me.

well, i go there once a year, she must have.

thats perhaps the only reason why i make it a point to be there every year.

cuz she doted on me! =)

a funny incident was, my another senile grand aunty thought i was my MUM.

i got laughed at the entire afternoon!

Met Tx for quick dinner - watched him eat rather cuz i ate at grand aunty's hse.

Met kirby, juve, and mic after that we became sitting ducks for hours. =)

then was loot, and then we left TCC for some real desserts

stopped by honeymoon, some chi dessert stall thats opened, but the food kinda sucked.

finally, after loitering, we left bugis at about 11.30pm.

Day 3 - i was home the entire day.

prepared steamboat for night, it's really gross to be eating so much again.

tx came, and i stuffed him with the remaining food.

mum's out, baby cried and house was in chaos. SIAN.

and, great i enjoyed the peace after entire family left the house. =)

i watched HBO channels till wee hours. Slept at 2am.

Wished i have those channels all year round. the shows are great. hahaha.

Day 4 - today!

spent my life watching shows.

vampire diaries is indeed sucking me dry.

i'm super hungry for the entire season to be completed.

it's weird that im getting hooked to such shows. die hard fan huh! =)

visited Janice's hse in later afternoon.

we had little BBQ for dinner!

tonnes of food, tonnes of little hiccups with the instant BBQ set up bought from NTUC.

think before we even started cooking, we breathed in all the toxic smoke already. HAHA.

Yu Sheng after that to end off the night!

great fun, great companion. =)

just wished we had more time together though.

and now. im uploading all my photos!

too many to be uploaded. taking a thousand years.. haha.

time to slp soon.

1 more week to ending work. counting down.

i need to end this TP job real soon. cant wait.

lovely!

gdnight. =)

Loving the holidays

Hello world!

it's been 2 days since CNY has started.

it has been rounds and rounds of eating and obviously making me fatter!

i think i need to spend one day de-toxing at home!

and it shall be today!

ahha.. wrong. still having steamboat tonight.

sigh my tummy hasnt been feeling very well.

i had a nightmare last night.

it's about me not able to end my work in tp on time

and i had to push back the day to start work at my new job!

wa lao. lets pray hard that it's not coming true man.

weird dreams im having uh.

met kirby, juv, mic with tx last night.

played sitting ducks all the way for 2 hours

and then loot. haha!

brainless games serve me well.

sigh i forgot to fix delivery for monday.

this is really bad as that means i'll need to make delivery on tue instead of mon.

sian life!

hai!

im watching naruto like hell.

NICE =)

alrighty. time to go back to my shows.

bye!

'Gd Afternoon Friends'!

haha. just thought of that because little Lele had been chanting that to me for the past 2 nights.
he's getting damn cute these days, when he is not throwing tantrum.
i seriously think that my aunties have spoilt him to the max already.
little weiwei (the new born) is getting more adorable each day as he grows. =)
hope this year is a better year for my family.
praying for my parents health though.

Alrighty!
updates!
i had a 2 hour chat with boss last week. dont' know if i wrote on the blog.
it was a miserable session because for 1hr 50 min, he talked nonstop.
told me about pros and cons of govt and private sector.
well i only spoke for last 10 min.
that is to reject whatever he has said, and told him i'm bent on leaving.

then! whats next.
had been drowning myself in meeting up with the ASc kids.
to finish up things here and there as much as i could.
because, tkb is not getting anyone to replace me in terms of programme details.
all that new advisor is doing - programme outline, and booking of venues.
seriously, what is the point?
met her with edmund. she sounded damn nasty which i thought that seriously isn't the way to put your message across.
the kids are worried with my absence, and yet you cant assure them with good faith.
Nvm, putting that aside, nothing could be worse than what came next.

met tkb with edmund.
he blatantly told me the plan for outdoor AR shall not be done.
and it's because i'm leaving, thats why the plan is cancelled.
i thought all would be good if i managed to get the kids to plan beforehand.
argued with him in the meeting.
because, how could he change his mind just like that?
well - i guess thats the sad fact of life.
and i realised, how little support i'd been getting from this so called 'team'.
people like mark had been going ard telling the whole world how worried is he to be thrown my leftover work and all.
these group of people, had a good life with student development title, which i had been struggling all my life in TP to get things done.
despite the immense workload at koolwerkz, i took time to do it.
i just couldnt understand why couldnt they do a little bit more.

i do not expect people to have the same amount of dedication, interest, passion as me.
but at least, be a little more responsible for the kids you're to take care of.
tkb, that was major disappointment.
i have wasted mine and the kids efforts for the past 2 months of planning and meeting.
i think i would have spent it more constructively if he decided to tell me earlier this couldnt be done.
don't get it wrong, i asked and affirmed this with him at least thrice.
empty promises are the worst. that you'd ever support.

so the only thing i told him at the end of the day was,
'thank god i'm leaving tp. i think i made the right choice'
he gave me a cynical smile and thats it. alright!

was a little down last week due to this.
the lack of support i had for the past 2 years was.. not just in KW. i realised.
and now it made me wonder, why did i work so hard for?
i should not have even resisted when i was taken out of this team.
it is pretty disheartening to realise it only when i'm leaving u know.

and yup! so AR, need to re-plan.
with the limitations of facilities in TP this year, things are getting more challenging.
i hope all goes well for them.
it's time i start to let go. i know.

i was just browsing at all the photos taken for the past year in ASC.
i found that i am missing the kids!
the times spent together, and how they gave me a birthday surprise.
all these, will be with me even when i leave tp.
little nostalgic though.

i'm glad i'm leaving. really do.
this time, it feels totally different from the time i left pharmacy back then.
too much things that i have to learn to let go.
my responsiblities, the things undone, things i failed to accomplish and all.
think this will be in my mind and time will be needed for adjustment period!

ahhh uncle went for lunch with his old friend.
left me in the factory.
i need to go back to TP!
fhungry. come back soon pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee.

=) Happy Chinese New Year!
I wish get more ANgbao this year!
ok update again. byebye!