Declaration of mug.

I declare the start, of studying and self revision. As of today 31/1/10, I quit Bongo and decided to concentrate on studies.

I will miss manager Gladys and ofc miss Shyang Huei, Syawal, Peng Yang, Atiqqa. Ok good luck to you all. 10 years down the road maybe.

Null.

Yes you should highlight everything
If you say bestest again, I'll say always without hesitation. No I'm not doubting, you know me, I need assurance. Cos I havn't recovered from the incident that happened to me last year that made me sad.

I'll continue and play my heart out

Went to art park today and played a match against a **SS team.

They were very very very rough. So what if you win and play ugly? Where's your all so important pride?
If I meet this team again, I swear I'm gonna score their asses off and dummy them with my ronaldo chop and pass it to Samuel. Seriously.
P/S: Sorry Siew Hwee..


It's been so long since I've seen it, maybe you just havn't been showing it to certain people, have you?
Maybe one day I will.

Sick and didn't went to school today.

So, whenever will you ever really care?

Pissed off

For whatever hell do I not play well for Mistakes at all. For whatever hell?
Playing in a malay team suits me so well. But playing in Mistakes makes me suck like a asshole. Take a break from Mistakes seriously.

Ng Chee How you are f**king dumb and the way you play keeper is a pain in the eyes. You suck hell lot. You should die off.

Late to You.

This post is dedicated to my one and only best friend. She's the best!

22/1/10 is over and I'm sorry that I'm late for this, but Happy Belated Birthday Sylvia Tan!! Although I've only known you for like 3++ years and we've had countless quarrels, some things never change, you'll always be my closest friend as I've always said and I'll always be by your side! :D Your birthday present was apparently supposed to be what I told you but sorry I can't do it with Nelson being such a spoilsport and making me look inferior in so many ways. So I decided to get you something else instead and some one really knows me inside out haha! So I hope you like your birthday present though I think that it sucks.. and I insist that you won't like it haha.

I remember good old times when we played soccer together and I wish to do it again someday.. But if there were good times, there were bad times too. Firstly, sorry for making you upset so so so many times in the past 3 years. You may not have noticed it but everytime you're angry with me I'll turn so so upset with myself la. This is the type of impact I get from my own wrongdoing haha this sounds stupid. You're 16 already and time passes so fast. In a blink of an eye, we're already in our 2nd year of upper secondary (although you are still as short as ever) and going to take our major exams this year. I wish that for the continuing years our friendship wouldn't fade, I have faith in it you know.

Another main reason this post is dedicated to you is because of how great you are. Yea referring to that incident that happened to me that made me so upset in 2009. Square family has been like a 2nd family to me and you are the head of the family la unlike cynthia who's so inactive at times. During that period, I was extremely affected by that incident and was very very down. But you were the one that kinda woke me up that evening on msn and of course made me smile during the next days chinese lesson :) I also won't forget that goal which I scored against Jerry at Fico before half court and which you said I looked like Xabi Alonso. Haha you may not remember but that was a goal I dedicated to my grandma and I want to dedicate it to you too :). And of course, how we spited Angus together at last year's 4-1 BBQ cum Gathering. Quote of the night..

Angus to Chee How : Me or Sylvia better?
Chee How hesitates and says : Sylvia la, she my best friend ley.
Sylvia: Yea are you doubting our friendship?!

Haha when I think of it now I still laugh la.. So yea I still remember these little details. Today's already the 24th anyway and this seems late but better late then never right. Haha! Wish you live your life to the fullest and after I'm dead still live on! Lol. Sylvia Tan, I said this before and I will say this again, you will always be my closest friend and for life that is. :) No matter what, I'll be on your side and always support you in no matter what you do. You're the one that's always supporting my soccer career and I'll support your basketball career by saying that you're better than _________. This may seem lame but I really mean what I say! Happy Birthday!

Twenty Eight.

Peda 28

Guess what, I've just lost everything I had in my life.
And so what can I do?

I conceded goals like flowing water yesterday. Not fit to be Mistakes goalkeeper.
Idiot = me, Me = Idiot. Simple.

You don't get the point as much as I don't.

Yea if you wonder that much, I'm just gonna tell you I'm still alive. Ok, maybe not because if you wonder, maybe if you see me one day, I'm gonna tell you that I'm not dead. Yet.

Random.

If they ask me, I'm gonna say I don't even know your name.

Nice eyewear.

Gotta polish the diamond and let it shine.

Let's bring it back!

So so so, Fico's gonna be on Thurs and guess what, Mehn's coming with us! Suddenly not excited.

I hope we can, bring it back.

Studs!

I'm blogging about what happened at Boon Lay Garden Primary School today. Was playing soccer with a mix of Mistakes United people and some JSS people, and I played keeper donning my red keeper suit! 2 one-on-one situations, 2 saves. Not emphasizing on the saves part, but I really got a 'taste' of how keepers are treated when up against strikers. I saved both shots but for one thing my face was kicked, or maybe stomped on? That guy slid in studs up and yea, it hit my mouth, making me bleed like an idiot. That was okay, 2nd match, I made another 1 on 1 save but I got kicked in the neck. Ouch. That 2nd one-on-one save? Not before conceding 5 goals. Kk Chee How, you're really a great keeper. My foot.

If one day, you wonder, I can tell you that nothing has changed. It's still burning, as strong.
But the usually stupid me knows, nothing will ever happen again.

The best things happen to good people.

Call it karma or what but the title is true yea.. I admit I've been demanding in NCC these few trainings and I've been trying to heighten the standard of both discipline and performance. That's why I've constantly been screaming in people's faces and shouting at them for the most meagre of reasons. I'm sorry to these people who have been bellowed by me and yea.. Specialists this doesn't include you.

Secondly, I've been warned about this. Apparently some people are trying to beat me in as many aspects as possible and although its due to some mistakes I made in the past, I welcome these challenges as they will determine if I am good enough to handle these kind of pressurizations. Hah, to think I was such an idiot in the past.

I'm not a good person. This is the most important.
P.S. You can beat me in anything but not over that.

This feeling like dying

Don't really know what to do when I can only put my head down and go silent in class.

You don't know how much it hurts being like this. I want to return to the past so much, back to the old me, back to the old times. I just don't feel like myself like this. Being another person is just not what I really want in my life. But seriously, what can I do? I can only be awkward at times and I don't even dare to look sometimes. You don't know how much it hurts when jealousy kicks in either. Feeling so inferior and being unable to do anything makes me feel worse. Maybe its my own great ego but I don't think it overrides the fact that some things don't change. Some things really don't. It has already been so long, I don't know how long more this will continue, but I really can't take it much more. I have this urge just to shout it all out but I know I can't. Sorry. It all boils down to that mistake I made.

"I don't know what hit me"

Today was another day at school. Life is fun, interesting and so benefitting when you're in school, look at the amount of things you would need to do this year. I think Ms Ng has really lighted up my inner fire and I'm starting to regain the study form that I had for the starting of last year.. Lemme tell ya my plans!

Thursday, which is tmr, will be the 1st day for revision for my "O" levels. After sitting with Noctis and trying to do some physics qns, we found out that we had lost our physics touch! That's something I needa work on for my "O" levels! Actually, every subject needs working on.. So yesterday effectively marked the last day of having fun for the year of 2010, went to Fico btw. My target for the "O" levels has always been.... Yea, I'm the type of person that likes or enjoys to 'awe' other ppl. It's a way to prove myself yea. :)

After taking a scary glance at the tentative dates for the "O" level examinations, I found out that I have less than 7 months for preparation, minus off all the dates for Public holidays, CT1 and CT2. I have close to 6 months plus plus. And also due to work every weekend, this means that I will need to work extra hard for my weekdays in order to secure my chosen choice of course. This is so stressful, but challenges are just there for men to overcome. Starting to study in 0.005 secs, time and tide waits for no man.

Playing like zeroes.

I'm sorry to Mistakes today for not keeping my promise and not being able to convince the others to let them play today. I'm really a useless person. Seriously, sorry.

Played like s*** today, maybe because I'm too accustomed to the way Mistakes plays. I'm short of breathe, I'm low on energy, I'm dying on the court. I'm gonna be taking a break from soccer for maybe a few weeks or a few months. I really needa rest.

I'm so proud that I gave my Fifa10 dvd rom to my mum for safekeeping and will be taking it out maybe at the end of the year after the "O" levels end, that's not a good deal cos by that time I may have already got myself Fifa11. Lol. Hilarious thing I did, but so what? "O" levels are more important. Oh and I just got the news that 3SG Riduwan has came to my school to become an NIE Trainee. That's so.. Haha. Can't really imagine him teaching. Haha.

So today in school we slacked around as usual as lessons will only start tmr after the 1st 2 days programme. I hope that my new teachers will be great ones as we depend on their teaching for our "O" levels.. Did the new seating arrangement today, WASN'T A LITTLE BIT PLEASED ABOUT IT. Even though I seemed like I was. Old memories return to haunt me..

So, gotta start studying like NOW?

I know this is a good picture. Thanks to google as always.

I miss the old best friend times. Do you?

Until that day..

So today was 1st day of school after a holiday that did not seem like a holiday at all. Going back to school seemed kinda wierd and I didn't feel that 2009 has already passed and 2010 is already here. The feeling of studying is just not here.. I guess I will have to motivate myself for upcoming events.

Fico sounds great tmr but I don't really know how to play without Mistakes already. 1 month playing with them and I feel like I am already incoporated with the Mistakes way of playing. Maybe I'm not gonna play tmr and just sit by the side watching them enjoy themselves..

Picture from Grandma's "kong teck". This was the burning of the paper house which was around 1.5 to 2 storeys high accompanied with all the bags of folded incense papers and also the paper car. Heard from Jeff, he said that.. "Ah Ma 很开心。"
Thats something to be happy about.

Happy 2010

Hello everyone. It's been a long time since I posted.. Firstly, sincerely wishing all of you readers a happy new year, 2010 is here and 2009 is long gone, hope that 2010 will be a good year for all of you and especially for all those "O" level candidates for this year.

Secondly, I would like to announce the disbanding of MTN. It's been a good clan from 3-1 and we are on a streak of unbeaten games but it isn't MTN's problem that we're disbanding but it's solely my decision as I think that DotA is becoming to be such a bother, "O" levels would be more important. Maybe after "O" levels then I would think about forming a serious clan from 3-1. MTN ftw. Sorry.

Thirdly, I also would like to thank everyone for everything that happened last year, 2009. Whatever happened, good or bad, has allowed me to learn a lot of new things and understand a lot of things too. If I had offended you in any way for the course of last year, sorry. 2010 will be a different year.

I practically gave my new year hours to Mistakes today. I guess the next time we play soccer would be 10 months later right.. So, yea. Playing soccer on the last day of last year was fun and I hope that we will progress to become one of the better teams at art park. And for the issue about forming a 3-1/4-1 team, forget it. We simply do not have the time and resources for that, I simply do not have. Mistakes are so good to me, we are simply in a different league. Although we may lose games due to my lousy keeping, I know that one day we will win these games due to our quality in strikers and players outfield.

So, I guess it's time to start going top gear for "O" levels now.. My new year resolution is to get less than 10 points for "O" levels, other than not scolding vulgarities and trying to be a better person. In the latter days of 2009, I had seriously thought of myself as an idiot. I hope that 2010 would change the impression of what I think of myself and what you all think of me.

This shall be the end of the 1st post for 2010. One year has passed in the blink of an eye. Once again wish you all a Happy New Year and be happy.

Landmarks of 2009:
February - Grandma's passing.
June - Crowned inter class champions after winning 2-0 in the finals of the soccer competition.
November/December - Best days of my life with Mistakes United.
Whole year - My best friend made it.

Thanks once again for all that has happened in 2009. Go 2010 ftw!