
to you, whom I know has been giving her best.
It's not that I dont want to deal with it.
It's just that I cant.
I'm in a position where I'm drained, stretched and pulled in every direction and in every aspect and all it takes is just one wrong step for me to screw up everything.
Ideally, how I wish everything could be right.
I wish I could make everything right.
But the truth is, nothing is as simple as it looks.
nothing is as simple as it seems.
and all I can do is carry on like before, till this all ends.
Not thinking of what has happened,
not thinking of what has to be uncovered,
not thinking of what may come.
I hope you respect this decision of mine.
I may never be ready, I may never let go,
I dont know when I'll stop crying,
I dont know when I'll stop being upset,
I dont know. and I just dont.
So please. I beg of you.
Let it rest.
Let
it
rest.
This is what I want and have to do for myself.
I have to start thinking for me.