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Sunday, December 9
Wednesday, November 28
Thursday, November 15
these echoes
The family's off to Japan. Leaving me all alone to the house. this empty house.
urgh!@^#$(*%*&
Boring...
urgh!@^#$(*%*&
Boring...
Tuesday, November 6
birthdays.
It's the last day of being 21. This speed at which time is flying, it cannot be explained.
Birthdays used to be such happy events.
Birthdays are YOUR days.
when it is your turn to be queen.
where your whim and fancy is met.
when you are showered with blessings and love.
when time seems to come to a stand still as you bask in the showers of joy and eagerness with loved ones.
when the day you've been looking forward to the whole year long finally comes.
This is not the case this year.
Birthdays succumb to the reality.
Birthdays are but another day,
Birthdays simply mean you've spent x number of years in this world.
Birthdays. Birthdays. Birthdays.
whats the big deal?
Birthdays used to be such happy events.
Birthdays are YOUR days.
when it is your turn to be queen.
where your whim and fancy is met.
when you are showered with blessings and love.
when time seems to come to a stand still as you bask in the showers of joy and eagerness with loved ones.
when the day you've been looking forward to the whole year long finally comes.
This is not the case this year.
Birthdays succumb to the reality.
Birthdays are but another day,
Birthdays simply mean you've spent x number of years in this world.
Birthdays. Birthdays. Birthdays.
whats the big deal?
Monday, October 29
these memories
suddenly, the salient present hits me right in the face.
the through the night phone calls,
the crazy mac-mugger nights,
park nights,
stealthy KFC fiascos,
the impromptu nonsensical parties we'd throw,
hen parties,
the long walk home under the sordid sun,
the finding out of the chinese girl trio,
the mini mahjong sessions,
working at the spas,
sambal kangkong,
the lets skip school just to go catch a movie,
the amazingly successful twin stunt,
popcorn throwing,
sentosa suntanning,
sentosa not suntanning,
the tediously long meetings,
the "lets catch a bus to wherever",
'potato!' resounding amidst the air,
are now but things of the past.
And this feeling of being so distant of what used to be so routine makes my hair stand.
For everything feels like it were yesterday, yet you know so clearly it aint,
for nothing's quite the same now. Nothing is.
the through the night phone calls,
the crazy mac-mugger nights,
park nights,
stealthy KFC fiascos,
the impromptu nonsensical parties we'd throw,
hen parties,
the long walk home under the sordid sun,
the finding out of the chinese girl trio,
the mini mahjong sessions,
working at the spas,
sambal kangkong,
the lets skip school just to go catch a movie,
the amazingly successful twin stunt,
popcorn throwing,
sentosa suntanning,
sentosa not suntanning,
the tediously long meetings,
the "lets catch a bus to wherever",
'potato!' resounding amidst the air,
are now but things of the past.
And this feeling of being so distant of what used to be so routine makes my hair stand.
For everything feels like it were yesterday, yet you know so clearly it aint,
for nothing's quite the same now. Nothing is.
Thursday, October 25
For both of you..
Dear both of you,
Sorry I gave you such a bad scare and for the sudden outburst.
I'm alright now.
Just wanted to say thank you for rescuing me, for the stupid 'better lock your car door' joke, for the 'just scare them off and take their seat' comment, and most of all, for simply trying to make out my words in between those horrid sobs.
Thank you.
ps: I will find the scanner by hook or by crook tonight ;)
love,
li
Sorry I gave you such a bad scare and for the sudden outburst.
I'm alright now.
Just wanted to say thank you for rescuing me, for the stupid 'better lock your car door' joke, for the 'just scare them off and take their seat' comment, and most of all, for simply trying to make out my words in between those horrid sobs.
Thank you.
ps: I will find the scanner by hook or by crook tonight ;)
love,
li
Wednesday, October 24
what i need to do.
What i need to do is to STOP
1) acting up during presentations and making stupid comments,
2) watching grey's anatomy
3)blogging
4)proscatinating
yup. thats what i need to do.
1) acting up during presentations and making stupid comments,
2) watching grey's anatomy
3)blogging
4)proscatinating
yup. thats what i need to do.
Sunday, October 21
perspectives - Subjective evaluation of relative significance; a point of view
Per-spec-tive.
Its how theres always two sides to a coin.
a positive way of looking at a situation, and of course a negative way of looking at it.
Not forgetting how the very same event can evoke such feelings of joy, yet to another, bring about waves of sadness.
How those coloured lenses you wear becomes the obstacle.
That emotions you feel which never fails to blind.
Per-spec-tive.
Its how theres always two sides to a coin.
a positive way of looking at a situation, and of course a negative way of looking at it.
Not forgetting how the very same event can evoke such feelings of joy, yet to another, bring about waves of sadness.
per-spec-tive
Its how you always assume something.How those coloured lenses you wear becomes the obstacle.
That emotions you feel which never fails to blind.
per-spec-tive.
Its funny how this simple notion can make or break.
Its funny how this simple notion can make or break.
Thursday, October 18
my to-do list.
1. GEM1008 - Critique.
2. GEM 1008 - Position Paper Proposal
3. Clinical Neuropsych Presentation
4. Counselling Essay
5. Psych Assessment Presentation
6. Psychometrics Assignment 2
7. Counseling Presentation
8. Psychometrics Assignment 3
9. Clinical Neuropsych Topic Review.
10. GEM1008 - Position Paper
Hell week's a serious understatement.
2. GEM 1008 - Position Paper Proposal
3. Clinical Neuropsych Presentation
4. Counselling Essay
5. Psych Assessment Presentation
6. Psychometrics Assignment 2
7. Counseling Presentation
8. Psychometrics Assignment 3
9. Clinical Neuropsych Topic Review.
10. GEM1008 - Position Paper
Hell week's a serious understatement.
Sunday, October 7
here goes.
I have decided to apply for grad school.
The applications are torturous, time-demanding and costly.
Looks like i'm heading down under cos the parents are not for the states.
"too dangerous", "too far", "too costly".
Its funny how for a long time, one thinks graduation day will never come. It has only recently hit me that it will be but a few more months before you don that blue gown you've always been waiting to wear, walk up that stage, shake the hands of people you've never met or spoken to in your whole life, firmly yet gently hold on to that precious piece of paper which you've been dreaming of your whole life, working towards since the day first words are spoken. that precious piece of paper. Its a mirage of feelings this stage i'm at. To an extent where words cannot express this confusion in me.
It will be at least two years straight if i get accepted. Four years if i go with the parents wishes to do a phd right after. Wont be coming back anytime inbetween (or at least i think) not because i dont want to but because the curriculum doesnt allow it.
I;m scared.excited.apprehensive.looking forward.worried.eager.nervous.overjoyed. all.at.once.
The applications are torturous, time-demanding and costly.
Looks like i'm heading down under cos the parents are not for the states.
"too dangerous", "too far", "too costly".
Its funny how for a long time, one thinks graduation day will never come. It has only recently hit me that it will be but a few more months before you don that blue gown you've always been waiting to wear, walk up that stage, shake the hands of people you've never met or spoken to in your whole life, firmly yet gently hold on to that precious piece of paper which you've been dreaming of your whole life, working towards since the day first words are spoken. that precious piece of paper. Its a mirage of feelings this stage i'm at. To an extent where words cannot express this confusion in me.
It will be at least two years straight if i get accepted. Four years if i go with the parents wishes to do a phd right after. Wont be coming back anytime inbetween (or at least i think) not because i dont want to but because the curriculum doesnt allow it.
I;m scared.excited.apprehensive.looking forward.worried.eager.nervous.overjoyed. all.at.once.
Saturday, October 6
hate school. hate exams.
The family is planning a ONE MONTH trip to various parts of Japan.
I, unfortunately, am unable to go because of school and exams. wtf.
and it doesnt help that the well-intentioned consolations fucking rub salt into the already damn sore wound. and the whole world seems to be going to japan. even my chinese doctor. urgh!
this girl is upset, jealous and hates schools and exams.
I, unfortunately, am unable to go because of school and exams. wtf.
and it doesnt help that the well-intentioned consolations fucking rub salt into the already damn sore wound. and the whole world seems to be going to japan. even my chinese doctor. urgh!
this girl is upset, jealous and hates schools and exams.
Sunday, September 23
Saturday, September 22
song appeal
"You Raise Me Up"
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
his dillemma; which he knows not how to tell
upon seeing his friend struggling the ferocious waters, he jumped in without hesitation. As the waters threatened to take her away, to swallow her whole, he panicked. He fought hard, determined to get to her, overcame the strong currents, pushed the icy pain to the back of his head and persevered. When he finally got to her, she pushed him away. Not on purpose, but only because of her conviction to gasp for whatever air she could get, of overcoming the agony these daunting waters had imposed on her. He struggled harder, intent on keeping her afloat, all this time with the unrelenting temperature of the waters biting into his skin. His hard work paid off. She began to recognise that familiar face, and started to give in. Alas, it was too late. That inexorable waters had taken its toll, and he began to sink. It was now his turn to struggle, to fight for air, to conquer the grim currents. But amidst her own struggle she failed to see his struggle, that he had to fight for his life now.
Slowly, but surely, the currents carried them to an unfamiliar place, a place which brings much fear and uncertainty. All these amongst their constant struggle. He blames himself for the circumstance they are in, but knows that he has limits, and that much as he wishes that they would both be able to support each other in this struggle, like that in the memories he holds dear in his heart, he doesnt know if it will happen. He tries to scream to tell her, but the sea is too wide, and his voice is carried away with the wind.Green Day - Wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and past,
the innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Like my fathers come to pass,
seven years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.
Here comes the rain again,
falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
becoming who we are.
As my memory rests,
but never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.
Summer has come and past,
the innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Ring out the bells again,
like we did when Spring began.
Wake me up when September ends.
Here comes the rain again,
falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
becoming who we are.
As my memory rests,
but never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.
Summer has come and past,
the innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Like my fathers come to pass,
twenty years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.
Wake me up when September ends.
Wake me up when september ends.
Summer has come and past,
the innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Like my fathers come to pass,
seven years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.
Here comes the rain again,
falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
becoming who we are.
As my memory rests,
but never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.
Summer has come and past,
the innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Ring out the bells again,
like we did when Spring began.
Wake me up when September ends.
Here comes the rain again,
falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
becoming who we are.
As my memory rests,
but never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.
Summer has come and past,
the innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Like my fathers come to pass,
twenty years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.
Wake me up when September ends.
Wake me up when september ends.
Friday, September 21
Tuesday, September 18
Desperado
Desperado
Why don't you come to your senses
You've been out ridin' fences, for so long now
Oh, you're a hard one
But I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin' you
Can hurt you somehow
Don't you draw the queen of diamonds boy
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet
Now it seems to me some fine things have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones you can't get
Desperado
Oh, you ain't gettin' no younger
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home
And freedom, oh freedom, well that's just some people talkin'
Your prison is walkin' through this world all alone
Don't your feet get cold in the wintertime
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the nighttime from the day
And you're losin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feelin' goes away
Desperado
Why don't you come to your senses
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, let somebody love you
better let somebody love you
Before it's too late
Listening to this song as I have a thousand and one times when it struck me how aptly this song describes the world today.
Monday, September 17
the beauty of god.
Karma works quick and fast.
oh sweet god.
and just knowing this, puts a full stop to all everything.
oh sweet god.
and just knowing this, puts a full stop to all everything.
Saturday, September 8
all things purple and shiny
dinner, was followed by a drive to my favourite park, where purple and shiny was presented to me.
grin.
thanks love!
(watch for pictures!)
grin.
thanks love!
(watch for pictures!)
flow-n.
It seems ages ago when we used to hang out all the time.
when the phone blinks with each other's numbers.
now it seems, you have drifted far, and somehow,
I cant help but feel that perhaps, that need, has flow-n to a far off land.
well, wanted to show you something today.
another time then..
when it comes.
when the phone blinks with each other's numbers.
now it seems, you have drifted far, and somehow,
I cant help but feel that perhaps, that need, has flow-n to a far off land.
well, wanted to show you something today.
another time then..
when it comes.
Wednesday, August 29
the latest addiction
this girl is officially hooked on "gu wat zai" again.
why wont they continue filming?
why why why?
ekin cheng is soooo handsome.
Monday, August 27
Thursday, August 23
frantic fun.
you guys HAVE TO check out this link.
amidst my 'oh my god. i can finally sleep in tomorrow' mood,
and the 'let's just stay up and have some fun' mood,
i found this.
go play!
http://games.yahoo.com/free-games/four-second-fury
it takes some time to figure out the games though :)
my record - 97s. beat that! grin.
amidst my 'oh my god. i can finally sleep in tomorrow' mood,
and the 'let's just stay up and have some fun' mood,
i found this.
go play!
http://games.yahoo.com/free-games/four-second-fury
it takes some time to figure out the games though :)
my record - 97s. beat that! grin.
Tuesday, August 21
Somewhere only we know
I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Tuesday, August 14
and by the way.....
bet you didnt know this one..
The symptoms of social phobia in the Japanese are
hehe
The symptoms of social phobia in the Japanese are
1. Blushing. (The face turns pink.)
2. Lots of flatulance. (They fart non-stop.)
hehe
day two.
Okay. I am officially T-I-R-E-D and D-R-A-I-N-E-D.
Two looooooooooong days in a row.
one week almost down, and twelve more to go.
I would like to bitch about a lecturer.
He is eccentric, has no sense of time, (class was bloody supposed to end at 9, but it ended at 935, and that is without giving us a break in between.) is irritatingly short, is balding, (not that it really matters but i guess when you dont really like someone, everything just irks you.) treats us like we were idiots, a 'niao pok', and URGH!
The worst thing is, I was looking forward to this class.
wtf.
Two looooooooooong days in a row.
one week almost down, and twelve more to go.
I would like to bitch about a lecturer.
He is eccentric, has no sense of time, (class was bloody supposed to end at 9, but it ended at 935, and that is without giving us a break in between.) is irritatingly short, is balding, (not that it really matters but i guess when you dont really like someone, everything just irks you.) treats us like we were idiots, a 'niao pok', and URGH!
The worst thing is, I was looking forward to this class.
wtf.
Sunday, August 12
Thursday, August 9
hilarious.
This show, - hilarious. 5 stars! Considering, army boy didnt sleep through a midnite show for ONCE.
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