My one and only dream

is to be able to put on a gorgeous gown
walk down the aisle
exchange vows to the only boy i love
and finally have the ring slip into my finger

i feel like i'm planning for my wedding every day
that when the time eventually comes, i will be quite prepared?
i have a picture of how i want it to be like in my mind
i hope it will come true soon

figured i don't need a big and grand wedding
a simple one will do
as long as i get a pretty gown and pretty pictures
i have a fetish for togas, and maybe my gown will be a toga like this?
a very simple one.


the train below must not have any layers/ruffles or whatsoever
plain chiffon kind of material will do.
i like this toga top but not the bottom part. the slightly open back is so pretty!


and i like the colour of this gown. pretty shade of purple i like.


i think my wedding must be purple and white themed

gowns aside, i'll post rings another time haha

sometimes, i feel too young to be thinking of all these, but i really can't help but think. i think it's every girl's dream to get married. i know it's a life time commitment, but i already know i want to spend the rest of my life with you. i can't wait for the day you finally call me yours, the day you go down on your knees and sincerely ask to marry me, the day i finally can live together with you, and the day we have kids together. everything is beautifully pictured in my mind. i'm just waiting for it to happen, and i swear i'll be the happiest girl on earth. when that day finally comes, i'll gladly say i've waited for x years, and it's finally here.

it wouldn't be an easy journey
but with you + me + effort + love
we will make it there

i don't know what the future holds
but i'm willing to walk with you
through thick and thin
just to be with you
the only boy i truly love
with all my heart
i stay faithful to you

'as i've given you my hand to hold, i give you my life to keep'
i hope i'll be able to tell you this one day.

i love you, babykittyboy

xx

Every moment, so precious

i'm sorry but this is gonna be another wordy post, but i'll try not to be so long winded anymore. too lazy to upload pictures this week. i have a little bit of pictures from each day and it's all over the place.

i'm so glad i had a longer weekend with the boy. he booked out on friday night and we went for dimsum supper at geylang around 9ish? and i was so unlucky to see the last person i would ever want to meet, but nevermind. the dim sum was not cheap plus lousy and the portion was small. the nicest was the chee cheong fun and char siew bao. the rest was meh :S considering that place to be quite popular at geylang, it is really overrated and i'm never ever going back again. shall find better food around! :) walk down the road to have taohway/egg tart/yellow bean ball. we really can eat like pigs. home after that, don't want to mention that we got upset over some issue but all's good now.

saturday, we had prawn mee for breakfast and the rest of the day was spent at his house. macs cheese shaker for lunch at nex. more slacking around before heading down to holland v for dinner date with andrea and zan. dinz at amici because i had the 1 for 1 thingy which they have been trying to sell. their food is really expensive and not worth it at all. they take super long to cook and the food is just normal? nothing fantastic, small portion that doesn't make us full at all. even with the 1 for 1 we still spent like 100 for the four of us. piggy us went to the hawker nearby again to have hor fun, sambal squid and roti prata - mainly for the boy. he really can eat! andrea and zan left while we were still eating and thereafter we went for dailyscoop icecream! lychee martini for me and chendol + waffle for bb. super yums. fav icecream ever! :D awesome day with all the food overload! ^.^

sunday was also spent at his place in the late morning/noon before heading to amk for johnny english :) bought koi to drink before the movie. fav milk tea i love! wanted to smuggle cheese shaker into the theatres but they didn't have them anymore. b was so angry and upset ): ended up with no food, so he bought salted popcorn in the end. and johnny english was so funny i like. although the show is kinda repetitive. back to his place for dins before sending him off the book in again :( but the best part is that he could book out today for his medical appt so yay! :D

met him at pasir ris just now before training to orchard - had ytf for lunch and choc egg tarts from kfc. waited for him to be done with all the x rays and what not. ended around 5 and went for early dinner with him since he already told them he'll be late so had to have dinner out. hehe had a great day with him, and it's an awesome start to the week :D can't wait for him to book out on friday again! then our food feast starts. seriously spend damn a lot on food solely D: i hope after i finish this post he'll call me soon. i miss him damn much already. i don't know if it's just me or just us, we are super sticky like glue and cannot stop missing each other one :( we are the kind of couple that would never get sick of each other even if we see each other everyday and i like it just the way we are. love you b.

Another weekend post

yeap, another weekend post. the only time i have a life.
the rest of the week i technically have no life. cheesy as it sounds, the boyfriend is my life :)
the boy only booked out on saturday morning, met him in the train at simei before training back to his place. bought macs(again!) back for lunch and by that time it was 12ish?
spent the afternoon at his place slacking around and eating ration food. lol

some chicken stew which is quite gross it actually feels and looks like cat food


see! if you've seen those packet cat food you will know it looks like this,really.
made up of beans more than chicken -.-


had horlicks 1for1 before going to jo's farewell party.




colourful tentages set up in her damn huge house.




huge spread of awesome food we ate non stop!

this is half eaten food. super a lot of nice food plus they had the laoban tauhway so nice!
:D

and while waiting for the bus back, i saw a cockroach at the bus stop glass
gross ttm! :S


stayed over at b's for the first time. feels good being able to be by his side :)
my bestfriend, my lover, my everything (L)

pictures taken the next day, sunday.
we look really dead, cause we were actually very depressed and sad before this.




i actually went home in the noon because he went for a wedding lunch.
took a nap at home before going back to his place at 4ish?
where we spent the rest of the time crying cause it's really sad that he has to book in again. i don't know how to explain this feeling, but it's really depressing every sunday. and worse of all, it doesn't get any better week after week. we're really very attached to each other. 24 hours isn't enough to do anything. army really changes a lot of things. love the boy for being so sweet nowadays. saying things that really touch me, i don't even know what to say. i feel really special and important to him. i believe every single thing you say, things like 'you mean everything to me' and 'i want to spend the rest of my life with you' and that you feel sad that you have to leave me. i could go on and on and write how much i really love you but that will be a very long post so i shall stop here. just want you to know that you are everything to me and no matter how bad things get, no matter how much you scold me for being stupid, i know i want to spend the rest of my life with you, and that won't change. our hearts beat as one, and i can't wait to live together with you. i appreciate every effort in trying to make things work. every single text and call means a lot to me. and if i continue writing somemore, i would cry a river.

this week is one of the worse of all, i don't know why either. i thought field camp would be the worse. maybe it's been long where i had this five day weekday not seeing you. it's so hard, really really been very difficult surviving. i find myself welling up in tears occasionally throughout the day whenever i think of you. it's only tuesday, 3 more days to go! :'( not to mention the bitch decided to pick on me again today during work, i kept crying because i felt really really lousy about everything. so tired of everything. plus i wasn't feeling well and that made it worse. asked for early release and went home at 4. shall take mc tomorrow for the second time, although i'm really lazy to go to the docs. i haven't actually done this in years. not including the last i saw for my ulcers. this time i'm really sick and the bad thing is i have no more medical benefits so i'll go to a polyclinic and spend my day waiting there, hopefully won't be long! would like to work tomorrow if i'm feeling better, but seeing that the bitch is lead tomorrow, i change my mind. don't wish to see her bloody face kthx.

this is a damn long post, shall end here.
goodnight
xx

my favourite boy

-needs to take more pictures-

2 food pictures because of our very short time together.
we had less than 24 hours together after b's field camp.
booked out on monday evening, bb cabbed home and i met him at his house.
he went home to drop all his stuff and change before we head to chomp chomp for dinz.
^^
as usual, the boy wants his bbq food so i've got no choice but to eat all the spicy food too.
spice training for me. sambal kangkong/squid/stingray and rojak. +sugarcane

yummy but spicy :)

wanted to go to dessert bowl for desserts but we were unlucky they close on mondays :(
explored the new mall at serangoon gardens. very small and by the time we went it was almost 10 and all the shops have already closed. decided to check out frolick if they are still open and yay. 1 for 1 frolick, was so surprised actually. went on fb to check and they actually have 1 for 1 every monday. awesome! haha :D


original with granola for me and longan for b

happy kids
:D
bus back to serangoon before taking the train home
short but awesome time together. i feel complete each time i meet the boy.
:D :D :D
like no matter how many days we are apart, seeing him again still feels the same and it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside i can't explain this feeling. we will still be as comfortable as before with each other ^.^

13 september, tuesday
went for curry chicken noodle as usual at chinatown
walk around for a bit before heading to his house. before that, went to mac to have lunch - cheese shaker fries! :)
tried booking our air tickets to bkk but fail, screw tiger! didn't have much time to book already and they obviously don't answer their phones one. got his sister to help us book so i'm not sure if it's booked already or not. or their shitty website still has the same shit problem -.-
sigh, i don't want to be stuck in singapore! i wanna go on holiday :(
b had to book in at 8.15 and it was the saddest ever :'(
another 3 days outfield for SIT test. today's the second night and he'll be out tomorrow so i can't wait!! :D can't wait for his call. can't wait for this weekend -screams-

mummy's going to hk/china this saturday and it means a little more freedom! hahaha gonna stay over at bb's this saturday after jo's farewell party, hopefully. can't wait! *.*

work this 3 days, so glad it helped me pass some time.
although today and tomorrow till 2.30 only. better than none.
next week's gonna be crazy, working mon-thurs and 3 days till 6pm!
most amount of hours ever worked since i started working here! D:
hope i survive!
for the sake of $$ lol

till then :)

Waiting

it's monday, and you're supposed to be out now but i haven't even receive a text nor a call. been waiting all morning and still waiting i'm getting so bored. i remember you told me before field camp to wake up early on monday and get prepared before noon so that when i receive your call i can leave house to meet you then go to your place. it's almost 2.30 now and my phone hasn't rang all morning. i kept waking up this morning to check for a text, but nay. none at all. i knew you wouldn't be out so early, and i'm getting so disappointed sigh. really really bored now have practically nothing to do but wait and wait. so bored i went to take a shower lol. hope you are fine and will call soon. army sucks. :'( had so many bad dreams this morning. i don't know if its trying to tell me, it's reality and going to happen or what? but i don't think the first one will even happen.

we were on a helicopter ride and you were controlling it. the helicopter didn't have any proper shelter or covering, just a small door at the side and half the time i felt like i was going to fall off. we were i don't know how many metres above ground and i remember the view was so magnificent and breathtaking, it felt so surreal. the next moment we found ourselves crashing into the sea deep into the water. i held on to you because i was so afraid i will lose you. i wanted to pull you along to the surface with me... and then i woke up :\

i went back to sleep and dreamt of the following;
i dreamt that i went to your place feeling oh so excited wanting to tell you some plans for our trip but you wasn't interested, and kept shoving me aside telling me i'm very irritating and all. was so disappointed, i woke up with a heavy heart hoping it wouldn't come true :( i would be so so sad. i guess having expectations and getting it destroyed is the greatest disappointment of all. sometimes i just don't want to put my hopes so high.

p.s please call me soon baby.

xx

Bakes~

recent bakes for the boy ^^


lemon blueberry


orange cranberry





peppermint chocolate chip cookie




banana with surprise nutella


and just today, matcha cookies. fav of all.






just in time for mooncake festival tomorrow
would love some greentea mooncake, but i'll do with cookies instead
yumyum!
:)

Paloma Picasso

Paloma Piccaso's designs in tiffany and co are all so pretty and nice
i wish i can have all of them hahaha

for some reason i like the infinity ring too.

silver



diamonds


and gold

which is nicer?

love the diamond one most. it's a pretty ring with a pretty price too
hehe
:D


but most of all, i love my loving hearts band ring.
a ring with a special promise that can never replace any other.



i love you baby
xx
wish you were here right now with me
the weather's cold and i need your hug
thought i could be strong because the past 2 days was fine.
but today, i feel so lonely and empty.
i feel like hiding under the blanket and cry. hoping you would call me now.
:'(

i guess not having anything to do is the cause of everything.
at least the past 2 days i had work to occupy my energy and thoughts
today i don't. stayed home the entire day using the computer and sleeping.
i just want to sleep my entire day away so that i won't have to wake up feeling so sad missing you. sigh :( one more day to go, i can't wait to see you. tomorrow i shall bake to occupy some time. oh, i can't seem to find my cookie cutters i'm so angry cause i want to bake matcha cut out cookies!! :@ shall go look for them again.

September

consecutive 3 days of pictures in september.

03.09.2011, saturday

bb booked out that evening after his excursion at discovery centre. train to je to meet him before the long journey from west to the east. (jurong east to bedok)
amazingly it only took an hour for me to travel from marsiling to jurong east to bedok. ^^
decided to try our nakhon kitchen at bedok north for thai food since b crave for tomyum.
we ordered damn much for two person. pictures below.








pineapple rice/pad thai/sambal kangkon/seafood tom yum soup/honey chicken/red ruby dessert(didn't take pic)

i think the food's really yummy and cheap, nicer than thai express or whatever thai restaurant. this was just a small shop below the hdb kind. :) i would go back to eat again but for the fact that i had bad stomachache for the next days after eating the food here! i don't know if i will go back again lol. i think i overate cause the food was good and i was damn hungry :X #thingswedoforfood

decided to take a stroll after the damn filling meal, b wanted to go bedok 85 for bcm after that -_- walk among the blocks and we came across a family of cats. like 10 of them at the same place. damn cute!!





awwww
my fav cat that keep rubbing against me and mewing so cute!!


wish i can bring home all of them :D

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04.09.2011, sunday

church in the morning with pris.
bus down to town after that to have lunch together with b as well ^^

tampopo ramen :)

mine


b's


pris




conclusion: ramens are all overrated.
reviews say that tampopo has one of the best ramen, seriously?
i think they all taste the same please. i don't see how is that good.
okay, maybe i'm just not a fan of ramen so i shall not say anymore.
:D

window shop around after that, before pris went to meet her friend
and we queued to get into h&m. crazy crowded since it was the second day after opening.
i think it's still crowded now ._.
after walking all three levels without buying anything we went out.
super crowded with everybody blocking your way it's almost impossible to shop. not forgetting the long queue at the changing room and cashier. will shop there when it's less crowded and when i have the money. things are quite cheap, cheaper than f21 even! hopefully the craze dies down soon :\
went to grandma house in the evening to celebrate her birthday.
that's about it (:


05.09.2011, monday

bb didn't have to book in on sunday so we have one more day together.
our last day before his field camp :(

as usual, b wants to have his curry chicken noodle at ct.
was still having that stomachache and i didn't dare to eat anymore. everytime i eat i will have stomachache for don't know what reason. in the end i ate prawn noodle which was not bad. :)

horlicks mcflurry at macs after that ^^


we then walk to funan, had macs for lunch there.
walk around before going back to his house for dins.

he kept using the comp and doesn't want to camwhore with me :(

plus he keeps scolding me and refuse to take a proper pic hmph.

so i camwhore alone >.<



see! still not looking at cam, probably checking out watches as usual.




end of with a picture of my stupid cute boy :)

he booked in the next morning and i didn't send him off cause it was very early plus i don't think i can deal with letting him go. i would just die and break down taking the train back later on. i actually regret not seeing him for the last time before his field camp. sigh! anyway he's halfway through his outfield now, i hope you're doing alright :\ he's booking out on monday and i can't wait!! hehehe.

i finally have time to blog today cause the past 3 days i was working. my most boring weekend. 2 days without hearing your voice already. no calls or texts. i missss youuuu soooo damnnn badlyyyy :'( come back soon bb.

xoxo

Another week of waiting

we bicker, we love
we cry, we laugh

a short post for b to read before he goes outfield. very very :'( about it but can't do anything. just hope this five days will past by quickly. no calls no text i'll be so bored and sad. all i can do is wait and wait and wait. i hope the weather this whole week will be good so that bb don't have to stay in wet muddy soil and get all dirty. :\ heartache to see him go through all the shit :'( sigh.
i'm sorry for to have disappointed you again. we are supposed to be happy every weekend but sometimes shit happens and we end up unhappy. sorry, i hope the next few weeks will be better :) i love you with all my heart, and i trust you with all that i have. i hope you won't disappoint or leave me. sorry to be that stupid and irritating girlfriend of yours. sometimes i feel unwanted, and not worthy of you, but yet i still want to stick closely to you. (and be more irritating) heh ^^

7 more days till i see you again, feels like another confinement which sucks. i hope the week passes by quickly!! :( thinking of you every single second and missing you all the time. i hope you will be alright outfield and nothing bad will happen. hugs xx this is so depressing sigh sigh sigh

will blog a proper post with pictures soon. lazy to transfer them now.

love always,
your little kitty bb
xoxo

Our hearts intertwine

A random poem I found

Because our hearts are intertwined
Being apart is nothing more than missing you, and feeling blue
Because our hearts are intertwined
The reason is understood, I know you would be here if you could
Because our hearts are intertwined
No doubt, no fear, just wishing you were here
Because our hearts are intertwined
Miles between are not prevalent, as our love is angel sent
Because our hearts are intertwined
Obstacles precede motion, which only challenge our devotion
Because our hearts are intertwined
You are visible in my mind.

xx

Seeing many failed relationships, I really really appreciate what I have. I appreciate this relationship of ours that we made, the efforts we put in to sustain what we have now. Every relationship is bound to fall, to have tears, heartbreaks, anger, the thought of giving up, it's all about whether you choose to look at the perfections or the flaws. the happy times or the tears. remember why you held on, why you got this far. happy 20th mensiversary to my dearest boyfriend who was and still is willing to stay by me despite my countless flaws. i'm still in the process of mending my ways and trying to be a more understanding girlfriend. :( i've disappointed him countless times and don't wish to do so anymore. i really really hope our relationship will go far, hopefully plans to tie the knot will come true :) i can't wait. ^.^