It's a little better

but i'm still feeling empty without you around :(
quick update before i hit the sack.
finally i'm going back to work tomorrow after the very long 2 weeks break.
confirm won't have stamina since it's been so long since i worked! D:

bb booked out on friday night(waited for 2 hours because they were held back)
i ended up training from pasir ris to raffles and back and still had to wait for another hour.
and for staying too long in the mrt i had to pay an extra $2 -.-
okay anyway, we rush to bedok 85 for dinner at 8 plus. no pictures, too hungry already.
ba chor mee, rojak, porridge and chicken wings yumyum! :)

27 august, saturday - daddy's bday.
went out with bb in the morning to chinatown for curry chicken noodles but end up don't have again!! super angry :( ended up queuing for 20 mins at another stall which wasn't as nice cause it's too spicy for me. okay, i got stm for the past 5 mins i've been thinking what we did after that. oh we took a bus to funan cause b wanted to see games, went to raffles city to shop for my shoe cause my sandals spoil again!! now its the left side after i repair the right side -_- bought a pair of nude pumps from topshop, love it. :) home after that.

28 august, sunday.

church, then to bb's house to slack.
dinner with his family at mouth restaurant @ china square
food was good :)


wanted to stay over at b's but wasn't allowed. ended up going home at 11ish.



29 august, monday.

b still die die want to go chinatown eat the curry noodles
so we woke up super early despite sleeping so late.
and lucky they haven't sold out yet!!
the chilli is orgasmic(as b would say)
hehe eat already he's a happy kid.


we took a super long 961 bus ride back to my house. before that i went to repair my 2 exact pair of sandals. finally can wear them without having the fear of them opening up. :)
slack and slept for awhile at my house before going out for dinner again!


dinner @ kichn cause b wants.
we will eat anything he's craving for, so all is his choice.
i'm so nice right, i eat anything he wants :D
go anywhere he wants to go, nicest girlf ever please!!
hahahaha :D


favourite horlicks iceblend! thick and good.


b's 101 expressions everytime i want to take a pic


chicken ham and cheese roll with jap rice and chilli crab sauce.


and b ate homemade noodles with laksa sauce and dory fish.
super filling meal we almost couldn't finish.
slack around the area, went to see watches at bencoolen before going for tauhway.
we are pigs, seriously cannot stop eating.

nomnomnom!

slack at albert court village hotel lobby before going home after that.
b says we are the weirdest couple. cause which couple will go slack at hotel lobby one?
HAHAHAHA. i think we really do alot of weird things and go to weird places normal couples our age won't do. other people go town watch movie shop shop, we go chinatown, little india eat and see watches. like some tourist. LOL. ^^ have to cater to b's obsession with watches. he needs to go to watch rehab seriously. whole day and night seeing watches only. never ending~

today early morning went to his house again. had brunch then slept at 12 plus until 3pm!
super tired~ slacked, had dinner before b has to leave to book in :(
sad sad sad.
:'(

miss you infinity xx
see you on saturday!

goodnight.

when things are doing great, life just has to take them all away from you
like taking my boyf so far away from me
it's as good as taking my life
it's been 3 weeks, but i'm not getting used to it at all.



bb managed to book out today for his appt at cgh and i met him at an unearthly hour of 7.30am. tell me i'm the best girlf in the world. i would do anything for the person i love.
even bake cupcakes for him to eat and for once he likes it! so happy :)
we waited for the clinic to open at like 8.30 only -_-
done at 9 plus, waited for his bro to fetch us for lunch.
had lunch at some place in bedok, and not long after he has to leave :( to catch the 12.30 ferry.
super hate goodbyes seriously. the consequence of meeting is yet another goodbye.
4 days to go before i can see him again, it's so crazy sometimes i really don't know how i get through this. it's almost impossible to get used to it.
seeing him every weekend doesn't feel any different. i feel so comfortable to be beside him again, and the cycle repeats. i'm just another girl looking forward to the weekends only. i have no life.

i look at my ring and remember the promise you make to me. it makes me feel so happy and warm inside. i'm trying to stay strong, have not broken down in quite awhile and don't wish to do so. but the problem with me is that staying strong for too long will just cause me to break down. it really really hurts, even though it's been 3 weeks already. 5 days feels like forever. i wish i didn't have to go through this even though it teaches me to be more independent.

this is my only place to rant when i'm feeling really really down.
as much as i can, i'll stay strong.
i really miss you, more than words could say.


i missed bb's call tonight and he had to sleep early because they have to wake up really early tomorrow. that makes me even more :( but i shall not complain so much. he already called me in the afternoon and text me a lot, so yeah. :)

btt tomorrow, i hope i pass although i didn't really study :\
all the best to me! ^^

i just want to curl up and sleep but i slept in the afternoon so i doubt i can get to bed now.
sigh.
imyvm :(
goodnight.

A promise we made on this very day

my damn cute botak boy on the day he booked out
19 august, friday, met him at 9 plus at pasir ris!
swear i was so freaking happy i couldn't stop smiling to myself even before i met him.
especially seeing so many army boys there made me even more excited.
pure bliss that very moment, finally 17 days of torture over! :D

he wanted to have subway chilli crab


in the midst of eating, damn cute. he's like really deprived of normal good food. hahaha.
after all the 15 mins super rush meal times, he finally get to eat at his own slow pace.



polaroids we took the past 2 days :)
figured that polaroid is so convenient i would love to have one but i think no point, shall just borrow from my sister and pay her for the films. ^^


in a way, i'm actually quite glad that my bf has to go to army. in a sense, it's good because it's a test of our relationship. i know 3 weeks isn't that long enough to gauge how it will be. but so far, it's been good and i'm loving it. i think our relationship has grown to a whole new level. figured that our heart interlink and that we're meant for each other. i don't know how or why, but my heart really believes in him, i feel really blessed to have you in my life. you really make my life complete, baby. you're my everything. i'm really touched that you actually took a big step into this relationship. i'm touched that i'm the first girl you actually brought home to introduce to your family. and i'm the first person whom you bought such a expensive gift(more below)

really..
i don't know how to express this
but i'm really touched by everything
touched by how you actually can't wait to promise me
i know a promise can always be broken, but i believe you wouldn't break this promise.
i believe you will love me because you really love me, and not because you bought me this promise.

i don't think i will ever find a better guy
i'm happy with who i am with now and nobody can replace you lin yipeng.
you are, and always will be the man of my life whom i will truly love.


my promise ring

b: with this ring, i promise i will marry you.
















it isn't a surprise because we actually went to get it together just now.
after i blogged about the promise ring in the previous post he said he will get one for me.
was actually comtemplating between the xoxo one(which i really liked since a year ago) and this hearts one. he thinks the infinity one is too plain although i think its nice. he likes this hearts one so we got this :) it's sterling silver but it really isn't cheap at all. :\ really love it a lot, thank you baby.

tell me how to not love him
never in my life has someone been so committed to me, and willing to sacrifice so much.
never has someone been willing to take such a big step to make a promise like this, when we've been together for barely two years. it really means a lot to me.

i know this post is overly sweet anybody who reads this is gonna die of diabetes or something but i just have to blog about this. i really love you lin yipeng from the bottom of my heart, always.

can't wait to see you on tuesday.
so happy he's booking out on tuesday to go cgh for an appointment and i'm gonna accompany him for that short while before he has to book in again. it's 8.30am in the morning but i will do anything for my boyfriend. :) every second with the boy is so ultra precious. am really glad to spend my weekends with him, and finally able to go to his house for dinner openly (:

on a random note,
we've been eating and drinking non stop the past 2 days its crazy i think i gained a kg already.
D: we'll either be looking for food or something to drink.

saturday:
tauhway grass jelly drink soy sauce chicken noodle bbq chicken/sweet potato/honey lemon(all from i <3 taimei) frolick ice cream soda dinner at his house milk tea

sunday:
laksa takopachi macs all within 3 hours.

tell me how to not gain weight when i'm with the boy.
can't be helped when he's deprived of food and sweet drinks in camp
hahaha

this is my best weekend ever
and i can't wait for more to come
:D
till then, xoxo

Promise

Promise rings are bestowed to symbolize a promise that one person makes to another. In some cases, promise rings are precursors to engagement rings. While the latter symbolize a promise to marry, promise rings can stand for many other kinds of vows.




infinity and beyond
xoxo

Please be careful with my heart

If you love me, like you tell me
Please be careful with my heart
You can take it, just don't break it
Or my world will fall apart.

You are my first romance, and I'm willing to take a chance
That till life is through, I'll still be loving you
I will be true to you, just a promise from you will do
From the very start, please be careful with my heart.

I love you and you know I do
There'll be no one else for me
Promise I'll be always true, for the world and all to see
Love has heard some lies softly spoken
And I have had my heart badly broken
I've been burned and I've been hurt before.

So I know just how you feel (how I feel), trust my love is real for you (I hope that your love is real)
I'll be gentle with your heart, I'll caress it like the morning dew (I'll caress it like the morning dew)
I'll be right beside you forever (right beside you forever)
I won't let our world fall apart (let our world fall apart)
From the very start, I'll be careful with your heart.

You are my first (and you are my last) romance
And I'm willing to take a chance (I've learned from the past)
That till life is through, I'll still be loving you
I will be true to you (I will be true)
Just a promise from you will do (only to you)
From the very start (from the very start)
From the very start (from the very start)
From the very start
Please be careful with... (I'll be careful with...)
(Your) (my) heart...

A love to last a life time

We're all just merely passing through
Doing what we can do in a lifetime
We have more than one adventure to take
More than one dream to make in our lifetime
As for me there's only one dream
And that's to love you, my love
With a love to last a lifetime

We're fools we sometimes do crazy things
And our hearts would take wins like a sparrow
But that's life
We'll take each day as it comes
Never leaving the crumbs for the morrow
As for me, all of my days I will spend them all with you
Loving you with love to last a lifetime

If we all could leave something last in behind to be rememberd by
Just a song for me and then at least I would have tried
I agree it's not so much what we have
As how we use what we have in our lifetime

Thirty years is worth a hundred and two
It's really what we can do in our lifetime
All my love I would give for as long as I may live
With a love, true love, to last a lifetime

Cause i'm your girl, your woman, your friend

really thankful for everything that happened
you're the best thing that ever happened in my life
i can't wait to build a future with you
i know you're the one i'm willing to go through thick and thin with

and i think i'm one of the odd ones..
cause i really can't wait to get married, for real.
if you ask any other girl, they would probably say 'not so soon' or something along that line

it used to be every girl's dream to get married at 23/24?
i remember asking my friends in the past like in secondary school and everybody will say that age. but in reality, nobody actually does get married so young. like now everybody gets married later and later like 28-30? haha i really hope my dream will come true, i want to get married by 25 max? i don't know if i'm just creating my own dream.. if i'm capable and won't get judge by others, i totally wouldn't mind getting married now. i know it's a huge commitment, but i don't know why people are so scared of being tied down. i guess you just have to meet the right person to feel that you want to start a future with immediately. if only money falls from the sky right now. why is everything revolving around money. if there isn't a need for money i would be much happier now. cause i don't have to worry. :)

i won't know what the future holds
but i'm trusting with every bit of my heart
things will change
but i hope things change for the better

if only time would fast forward now.

i miss you

Finally..

17 days of torture is gonna be over. 3 more days till i get to see you, that's if i don't get to see you on friday when you book out :( lesser time with you :( hate how short the weekends are seriously. sigh. things went smoothly until recently. somehow things have to take a turn and turn out bad. feeling remorseful about it and feeling like a really bad girlfriend. i really need to control my emotions and feelings. i really need to understand that i'm not the only one feeling this way. i'm sorry. cross fingers things get better. i won't let our world fall apart, that's for sure. my life is in your hands and i really can't afford to lose you. my life would come crashing down.

it's been two weeks and it's crazy. i don't know how it will be because there's 2 years to go. it's crazy. it seems so impossible, but i'm sure we'll make it possible. it's really really not easy and i admire those that really pull through. i hope this will teach us to be stronger and have a closer relationship. it will be more heartbreaks and tears, but it will be all worthwhile after all. :) i can't wait to be physically beside you finally. even if it's just for 2 days it's more than i could ask for. i hope you will believe that i will only be faithful and true to you.

you're my first romance and i'm willing to take a chance. that till life is through, i'll still be loving you. promise i'll be always true, for the world and all to see. i'll be right beside you forever, i won't let our world fall apart. *mark my words. :)

______________________________________

i'll be on work hiatus till next month. no idea what i'm gonna do next week other than going for my btt next wed. i better start studying soon even though it's kinda simple. if i fail i'm not gonna learn driving anymore already. okay, maybe not anymore but at least for now. i don't know if i should continue driving cause it's so expensive and i will have to pay all by myself :S
okay, till the next post. bye!

Baby you drive me crazy

this is so depressing i could just die right now. no, seriously. i mizz you like crazy. i get no call tonight, i wonder how you are. it hurts me so much that you aren't doing that great in there. my heart aches and i cry but i just can't do anything about it. each day all i can do is wait and wait and wait for your text, for your call and for the day to pass so it'll be one day less till i finally feel you again. i break down after being strong for too long, i wish i felt numb. but i can't feel numb at all, i have so much sadness in me all i can do is break down and cry out loud because i fucking miss you times infinity. nothing and no one can describe how i feel. so dependent and reliant and close to you and now suddenly it's all gone. :'( i wouldn't say i took things for granted in the past, but this has really made me realise how much i need you. so.badly. :(

sorry for all the depressing posts recently. i have no where else to vent all my sadness in me. working doesn't take my pain and thoughts away. i still constantly think about you every second. you have never left my mind bb. i hope you will get through this. can't wait till i see you again. 7 more days. hang in there baby! *hugs*

hearing how stress physically and mentally you are makes my heart ache so bad. i wish i could be there with you so maybe you'll feel better with me around. wish i could give you a big bear hug so you'll feel better. but i can't because we're so far away although still in singapore. so near yet so far. and i miss you so fucking badly nothing can ever describe this pain i'm feeling. it's been one week, but it feels like forever. another 11 days to go. tell me i'm not gonna die. i'm barely making it. baby will you please come back now. never in my life we've miss each other this much. even if we're overseas it's just that few days. this is so much more apart than that. it's driving me crazy. we've been so dependent on each other, seeing each other almost every other day and now we've to be apart from each other for 17 damn days with only a call each night and a couple or texts. :'(

can't wait to see you, will just freaking cry if i see you. that's how much i miss you. i'm crying now typing this. barely have 24 hours with you after you book out because you have to book in on sunday again. tell me i'm not gonna die. but still, it's better than not seeing you at all. have to go through 5 days of torture before i get to see you again :( don't wish to think about that now. just hope you are safe and hope you'll be fine. i know it's not easy, but you'll get through this. :)

it's national day tomorrow. and a not so happy birthday singapore. that's for making my boy get stuck in that damn fucking island of yours!! URGH! so pissed. it's a public holiday but they fucking can't get out of there. :( shall not rant anymore. working this wed-fri and next mon-wed i think. good luck to me since i get only a 2 days break. i just realised that. but after that i will be free cause i'm applying all my leaves on the last week of august. don't ask me what i'm going to do then. :S on a side note, did i mention i'm not gonna study anymore. waiting for the boyf to finish army before studying together. don't judge please, kthx. everybody say it's a waste of my two years, but who are you to judge. it's my life and i'm happy like this. life is short, be happy with whatever you feel like doing. ^^ figured that i shouldn't even be doing things i don't even enjoy in the first damn place. like seriously, why am i forcing myself to do this i don't even like. wtf? wish i can be happy go lucky without anyone judging my future. but sadly, it's not the case. meh :( i just to be with you in your presence that takes all my worries away.

on another note, i weighed myself today and i'm 47+ and 1.63m. D: i gained weight since i always thought i'm like 45-46kg. living in self denial for the past 3 years or so. never taken my height or weight in proper ever since sec school. k this post is damn random but it's for my bf to read when he comes out. he wants me to blog like 4 post to read. hehe. k bye. xoxo

Pictures of July

PICTURES OVERLOAD!

after browsing through my piccys to blog this post i realised that i have a lot of back dated photos that i haven't posted or blog about. but yeah, i'm not gonna say much so it'll just be photos here.
realise we took a lot of pictures this july!! it's august already. :(


9th of july

the boy crave for manhanttan fish market so we went to the one at MS before catching the fireworks.


some platter for 2 and we couldn't finish. :S


waited for the fireworks for over an hour at the stairs outside marina square.


lousy phone capture lousy fireworks. oops!


and garrett popcorn for the first time! chicago mix. love the caramel hate the cheese.



12th of july

xlb steamboat buffet at HV! before this we went to town.
supposed to go with andrea but she hurt her ankle and couldn't make it last minute :(

wanted to eat at 7+ but they had no more space so ended up eating at 6 till 7.15pm
about an hour to eat only and it's a buffet! -.- rush and we were so full.
over ordered the xlbs cause they were so good. and the beef too.
ended up hiding the food in the soup and forcing the rest down :X










17th of july

lunch at Kim Gary @ Vivo city.
went there for the purpose of getting b's friend's bday present at bensherman.




walk for awhile before taking a bus down to MBS because he wanted to take a look at the ferrari store for his cap. sadly, they didn't have the design he want :(

and i didnt know MBS is so freaking big with so many shops. first time walking in that place!
i'm still wondering what the iceskating rink is made of if not ice. not skating on ice is so fake! i wouldn't want to go there to skate. :S




30th of july

Old airport road with b, jo and brian.
yummy tauhway and CKT which for both waited for damn long.

virgin prawning trip! blogged about this in the previous post.












31st of july

paradise dynasty to celebrate our early 1 year 7 months. plus to use the 30 bucks capital land voucher i had. didnt have anything to buy so just use it on food.




yums!! xlb!! :D ordered only 6 normal ones this time round.


spicy oil dumplings which for once isnt spicy so i ate.


yang zhou fried rice


and some pork la mian


damn full after the whole meal. b kept forcing me to eat finish his la mian. :(

camwhore outside the restaurant after that!


signature cat claw pose ^^








love you so much for making my life complete.
every moment with you i treausre.
miss my botak boy.
still used to your long hair after seeing all these old pics.
hehe

2 more weeks to go!!

i wonder how my boy looks like now!
i miss having someone to go out with me, go to places to eat and to walk around aimlessly or to just slack at your house area. i miss you coming over to stay at my house too. i miss you more than words could say. now i'm staying at home feeling so bored and having nothing to do i just want to go and sleep to past time!! :(

first two days after you left was crazy. each time you call at night i would break down. it's so so so hard :'( you called last night, and it was much better. i didn't cry already. glad we still could msg whenever you're free. and i'm also glad you're doing great in there.

Till then!

xoxo