My hidden talent

New addiction - piping cupcakes!!

found a new love for buttercream/cupcakes/piping
piping is so so so fun!! :D
and i'm addicted to baking them just for the sake of piping the swirls of buttercream and decorating because they're so prettayy.

on a mission to make yummy cupcakes with the best recipe on earth.
and i secretly wish to own the entire set of wilton piping tips kthx.
and a kitchen aid mixer would be great too although i'm satisfied with my cheap mixer now.
better equipments = happier me.
hehe

for now i shall bake when there's some occasion and someone to eat my cupcakes if not it'll go to waste because even though i bake less than 12, nobody eats them. half of it is basically eaten by me and the rest thrown away. -.- how sad is that. although i would bake everyday if someone actually eats them. i do not want to eat so many because it's a thousand calories and i'm getting fatter by the day. my bf also thinks i getting fat :( you won't believe this, but it's true!!














i'll pipe lesser buttercream and shall use the smaller tip the next time round because it's so freaking sweet and disgusting to eat so much cream. although it looks really pretty. ^^

on a random note, i've sorted things out. thought about it and decided to get back to studying part time. now i just have to wait for the school's reply soon. and i hope things go well and i'll start in september! it's a long four years, but i'll get through it. also quit my position as a part time at uss and switching to casual end august. more flexibility!! :)

cross fingers things go as planned.
3 more days with the boy and it's killing me slowly.
i don't know how it'll go, but we'll try to get through all these pain from being so far apart.
not easy, but another phase of life we've to go through.
i want to look back next time and proudly say i made it :)

i'll stay strong even though you're not physically with me.
and i'll take care of myself too.
try my best to stay sane and not keep crying everyday.
it's a difficult change knowing i see you almost everyday of the week, talk almost 24 hours online and after tuesday, i don't see you for at least a week, talk less than five minutes a day.

changes
changes
changes
changes

so many things change
but i hope we remain the same

always in my heart,
your stupid kitty

Worse day of my life.

i need to blog about this. i need to rant. because my day isn't getting any better and it's just getting from bad to worse. events after events which is spoiling my mood totally. i'm feeling so lost and empty cause i really don't know what to do. things came so unexpectedly. having high hopes and in the end everything just crushed on me so suddenly. this is why we shouldn't have high hopes on anything, because this.ALWAYS.happens. all i can do is cry but crying wouldn't solve or help anything. i held so much hope on twelvecupcakes because i honestly cross my heart really want to work there and i enjoy it very much. little did i know when i wanted to quit my job at uss already, they told me that i'm not suited for the job (k thanks very much man). i broke down, i didn't know what to do already. i've already sent my resignation letter to my manager that very evening and only got to know about it at night. oh by the way, adding on that they are so rude they dont reply my sms and then send me that kind of email rejecting me?! screw them. was like extremely down last night i could die. :( my life just stopped like that? decided not to work today so i went to get an MC. i'm supposed to spend time with the boy now!! but guess what, we went for breakfast at china town for currychic noodle and supposed to go see doc and to my house to slack. in the end he has to rush down to cmpb to deal with his downgrading condition(!!!) after training to chinatown and back to marsiling and this had to happen!! :( sigh. ended up going to clinic on my own and now i'm back home while he go do his stuff. me so sad, what a sad day seriously. my day is getting bad. just when i thought we can spend more time together this has to happen. SIGH :( not to mention i walk from the clinic to the atm machine twice to withdraw money because i didn't have enough and because their damn system doesn't work so i couldn't pay 10% only. ended up paying full amount and will get a refund from them when they call. *annoyed* grrr!

still deciding if i should train again to meet the boy later after he's done although for a short while only :( i'm feeling so shitty because i don't know what to do next. should i just go ahead to study or find another full time job? someone help me. :'(

Love you with every beat of my heart

hi i'm so lazy to post batam day 2 and 3 because i uploaded the pics in fb for only close loved ones to view :) i think the pictures tell everything we did. which is basically swim.eat.sleep.camwhore.sleep.camwhore.camwhore.camwhore. hahaha all my camwhore pics i know right. :D nothing to do what. ^^

k i don't know what to blog already. 1 more week left with the boy and i'm dreading it so bad. like how am i gonna survive without him when half the time i'm with him/talking to him. Ughhh :( i will feel so empty sigh. nobody to talk to whenever i want anymore :( with that few minutes of conversation at night and that's about it. major fml. i'm entering another phase of my life now since i'm resigning from my job at uss tomorrow. i need one month notice which is so crap and i'm annoyed cause it's damn long!!!! part time also need so long notice wtf seriously?! ugh. i'm gonna work in twelvecupcakes as a baker(hopefully). for now just part time since i have not officially quitted. just had a trial ytd and it was fun but tiring baking non stop from 9-5 and cupcakes sell like crazy. no matter how much we bake there won't be any left! no doubt the cupcakes are yummy but expensive though. :)


i hope things get better, although i don't get the most support for everything, i just hope xcrossfingersx we will be fine. it's gonna be tough, real tough and i don't know how we'll get through this, but i really hope we will.

goodnight, and have a great week ahead :D

Two is better than one

Batam Day 1
06.07.2011

On the ferry to batam centre~


went for the 1 day tour + massage.

basically nothing to buy, ended up with a&w rootbeer float because they ran out of curly fries which i want so badly :( anyway their float like shit, diluted one.



finally back at the resort after the whole day of stupid tour. damn tired already.
by that time it was 8 plus already? checked in, and went for dinner. dinner's included so we had some set dinner which sucked.




tomyum soup which was not bad. think they only can make soup.




this looks like a pile of black shit. it's some beef rendang which was hard.


and veggie which was the best out of the all the food.


some assam fish shit which sucked we left it untouched.


and chic wings.




and dessert which was quite weird but still alright.


their portion of food is like so much for 2 person we left alot behind. waste food tsk.

i think we went swimming later at night, soaking in the pool under the stars which was quite awesome and relaxing :D
bathed and finally slept :) i think it was 1 plus then already.
not to forget how comfy the bedsheets were, i slept so well :D plus the nice aircon ^^
i miss the bed so much i could sleep immediately. haha!

we didn't take pics during the tour cause we were lazy and there wasn't much.
went to some shopping malls and souvenir stores and that's about it. the seafood lunch was quite bad too. :\ i think i only like the resort in the whole trip. nice place, nice scenery and nice room!!
wouldn't mind going there again to stay although there's nothing to do except swim and camwhore. (:

Will post Day 2 another time when i get the piccys.

xoxo

I don't wanna miss a thing

a post before i leave for batam with the boy tomorrow morning :) although i have no pictures and nothing to post about i will still create a post here. i don't want my blog to be so dead.

i've packed my bag and all ready to go. stoked!! :D although there ain't much to do there but anything with my boy is good ^^ we could just laze around doing nothing and that itself can make me happy beyond words. i hope things will be good when we're there. can't wait to chill and relax and finally take a break again, although its just a short 3d2n. (L) a month till you disappear from my life temporarily 5 days a week. it's so depressing i might just die. you know how often we meet each other, and suddenly.. a stop from everything. i don't know how to handle this but i don't have a choice either. kills me inside :( what would i do without you. how will i survive not being able to text you, not able to talk to you online for most of the time, not being able to call you anytime i wish(although i hardly do so), not being able to see you because you're no longer a 40 minute train ride away, not even being able to see you through skype like we normally do. not being able to eat at many places with you. i feel like crying as i type this but i don't want to be sad cause we're suppose to be happy tomorrow. but really, it's starting to get to me that things will no longer be the same. i don't know how to go home to use my comp but not being able to talk to you online. it's like a normal thing for me already. using the comp will be pointless since i can't talk to you. i don't know what to do, i just hope time would fly. this two months of deferment i treasure and appreciate, if not you would be long gone and things wouldn't be the same now. thank you baby for all the time, although you may think that i don't appreciate you for deferring, but i really do. despite the quarrels and sad times, i still love you more than ever because without you, i wouldn't be who i am now. although i may not give you the best of times, i hope you still enjoy being with me. i love you, more than words could say. xoxo

I'll be lovin' you

Happy 18 Months Kittyboy! (L)

Time really flies. been so long together!!
^^

overdue piccies.

25 june failed kite flying day.
so i sat there and blow bubbles. like a kid :D



and 29th june where we had laksa then to dhoby ghaut for eskimo which was not that great afterall. tried their milk tea but koi is still much much nicer. their pearls suck btw. feels like i'm drinking cheap tea, like sweet talk. hahaha okay i think i exaggerate too much here.





and i look like crap. i don't know if i grew fatter. or i'm just scaring myself. :(

i feel like my thighs and arms are fatter now. hmph :(

today we made a trip to upper thomson for salted caramel. had 3 scoops of icecream cause we are pigs like that. horlicks timtam, earl gray and lychee which were all so yummz. :D
took a walk at thomsom plaza and craved for jap food so we ended up taking a bus to novena for sakae. hehe (: not much pictures but i enjoyed myself together with b hehe. love you max!

okay, time to sleep.
goodnight.
xoxo

exactly a month till you enlist. i don't wanna count down.
i don't want the day to come. i'm scared. and i'm not even prepared for it :(
i want to cry.
:((((
on a brighter note, batam in 3 days!! ^.^