Happy New Year Eve :)

The last day of the year, I spent the day with the boy shopping.
Woke up at 8am to head to town just to avoid the crowd :\ By the time it was 2, i was already half dead. I didn't know shopping can be so tiring. And i think the crowd has a part to play too. It got crowded at noon which sucks :( Shopping wasn't nice at all anymore. Anyway, I went home with two tops and a pair of shorts. Happy enough, and more happy because the boy accompanied me and my draggy shopping trip. Thank you bb! ^^ You must be damn tired, and actually very sian because you didn't get anything. Another day okay b. :)

I really hope 2011 would be good for us. This 2011 i will try to be better, for us. I hope things get better. I hope we get better. I will learn to be a better girlfriend, friend, daughter.

xcrossxfingersx things will be good.

Love you always,
Your baby.
xoxo

Hi, tomorrow is the last day of 2010. Time indeed flies~

It feels like it was just yesterday where we were holding hands and being all smiley spending the last minute of 2009 together, parting when the clock strike twelve. Lest did i know, a year has passed. I wouldn't want to say another year of sadness, I wouldn't say it's full of happiness either. I would say it's a year where i've learnt a lot, another year older i grow. No time for resolutions any more because they don't work obviously.(i don't even remember if i made any resolutions this year other than the fact to be happier?). & no, this year i'm not going to tell myself to be happier because i think i've been jinx-ing it. lol. Yeap, whatever come may. I don't think 2011 would be great, it'll be another milestone of my life, more changes and adaptions, but hopefully i'll get through it.

I (secretly) need to grow up and stop slacking my life away like that(although it's the best thing in the world). I should learn to work and support myself now instead :( Okay, maybe working isn't that great(like i thought) afterall. Meh :( But first, i have to overcome this last 2 months of school first. ^^ I can't believe 3 years of poly life just fly pass like that D: Why is time passing so freaking fast. Anyway, hope for a better 2011 for everyone!

Happy New Year. (although 2010 have not ended)


With love, xoxo
Twinklefarie

Merry Christmas!!
This time of the year feels good but it gets boring year after year.
What did you do this christmas?

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The usual, went to church in the morning, then went home after that(was super sleepy)
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Met b at amk for lunch at popeyes.

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the most awesome card game on earth!!

IKR.
sat there for almost 2 hours then later bus to srgn and sat at some random void deck to play somemore!! (oh, we attempted to play on the bus too. lol)
& unfortunately or not, i wont one out of six games. so pathetic!!
Okay, that's my christmas. I'm home now without any dinner because i refuse to tag along to whatever dinner my parents were going to. I'm so bored now i still want to play somemore monopoly deal!! I'm gonna bring the cards everywhere i go so that we can play when there's nothing else in the world to do! yay ^^
I think i'm already slow to know about this game, everybody should go get it. so fun and addictive :D

Yeap, that's about it. Today just feels like a sunday because i went to church. :\
I'm left with a week of holidays, FML.
:(

Hope it'll be a fun-filled week.
minus the studying part.

Kthxbye
xx

Things I ~dream~/would love to have/like/dislike in a guy;
(the following does not and cannot be applied to me, thx)

1. Must be very patient with me(even if i'm a bitch at times)
2. Make me laugh(if you're serious all the time, i got nothing to say)
3. Give in to me
4. Cannot be petty/jealous at every single thing, it annoys me ALOT.
   
5. Hold my hand/hug/kiss me at random times
6. Dote/pamper me once in awhile
7. Bring me to random places even if there's nothing to do(it's the company that matters)
8. One that is initiative
9. One that is faithful and true to me(not talking about other girls all the time)
10. Trust and support me in whatever I do
11. Love me more than ever, put me in top priority
12. Care for me when i'm sick
13. Still love me as much even though i piss him off
14. Willing to overlook my flaws
15. Someone that's wiling to do -almost- anything for me(although he hates it)
16. Someone who will not insult/abuse/take me for granted
17. Appreciates everything I do for him and not complain
18. Wipes away my tears and be there when I need him the most
19. Won't discourage me even though the things i want may seem impossible
20. Give me random surprises
    

Twenty~ for now, I can go on and on and on but overall, it still revolves around that few basic ones. It will be a plus point if i can get the rest as well. ^^

I've got so much i wish to say..

so much i wish for..

so many things i wish i could do

but some things..



are better left unsaid.

Top 10 countries/places I would like to visit

1. USA
2. Japan
3. Maldives
4. Paris
5. New Zealand
6. Australia
7. Taiwan
8. Hong Kong
9. Canada
10. Korea

Obviously there's a whole lot more of places i would love to tour, for now these are the top 10(as much as i can remember).

Qn: If you have a whole lot of money, would you rather spend it on yourself buying stuff, eat good food or travel?

I would definitely spend time on traveling+holidays, totally awesome. It would be a dream come true. I would love to tour the world one day, or maybe a halfquarter of the world. ^^

I can officially say tomorrow's the last day of school in 2010! :D
Although it's only 2 weeks of holiday, plus having UT on the first day of school isn't that appealing at all. -.- Oh well, hopefully i'll enjoy whatever time i have.
Life is so unpredictable. Today i can be smiley and happy, tomorrow i can be bawling my eyes out with a broken heart. That's life isn't it? Full of shits at random times, times where you don't expect it at all. Even at good times. Oh well. :\ I guess now isn't the time for expectations, but instead to be prepared for the worse. That way, there will be less disappointments for sure. At least you know what to expect, you won't be that disappointed or sad? Good or bad i don't know?

I don't know if i'm still what i am as before. Right now, i'm just living each day as it is. Treasuring the happiness while it last. Cause all good things come to an end right? I would totally die forlove everlasting happiness- does this even happen in marriage? I don't want to say i'm too young to think of all these. I'll be 20 in four months time(I FEEL SO OLD WITH THE NUMBER 2 IN FRONT). :( I wonder if i'm 25 will i still be this naive or stupid(in the crude way)? Anyway, whatever i may be, whether stupid or not, i'm sure i would still be happy with myself(ormaybe there will be someone out there to give me nothing but happiness) *think positive* ^^ Somehow, i'm quite excited for the future. I wonder what would happen, what would come by, etc. Interesting~ Willing to go through all the pain/mistakes/obstacles to achieve what i really want which equals to (life happiness). I don't know if this makes sense but yeah.

I always say time passes too fast, but i also don't know what i'm really doing with my life. (not to the fullest i guess) MEH. For now, don't give a damn about the little things and MOVE ON baby! The little things are not going to have any space in my brain or clot it up, kthx. Life's too short for shits/arguments.(one of my favourite 'quotes') Yet i know at times i don't really follow them. :)

-Days like this i feel inspired for a post-


Goodnight!! xx

I should make it a point to update at least once a week in detail for keepsake.
I'm having 'holidays' this semester which feels so good because i only use my brain once a week. The rest of the days i'm 'resting' and slacking, can't feel any better!! ^^ hehe
Everybody else will envy my ~life~ now and will ask me to shut up whenever i say i have one day of school. :D

This week has been alright, slacking too much. Accompanying Y for lunch on his school days(Monday/Thursday) and basically stay in school till he ends. Tues spent with parents~ Yesterday, went to town alone to -finally- do my brows and collect my altered pants. ^^ Train to bishan to get koi, meet Y to go school for NAPFA. :) okay, my life is so boring. I'm now in his class. #crashclass. LOL (first time doing this, normally i'll sit outside) Neurobiology is pretty boring, zzz. Listening to them present can make me fall asleep -.-

#ijustwanttobehappy

xx

Roll #2, 24/25 November 2010
More pictures here because i love Roll #2.
My skills are improving, yay ^^

































24 November, NSC > Marina Square for lunchie > CGH for meeting > Dhoby Ghaut
I love my rainbow glitter mini windmill thing (:

25 November, just a random day at school.
I think i have a fetish for flowers, like taking pictures of flowers. I think they are pretty.
Unfortunately or not, i've never received flowers in my life. Shall enjoy the natural flowers instead then. (:

Love how the pictures taken are exactly what you see through the viewfinder.
(L) point and shoot. but developing is expensive!! meh! :(
Roll #3 isn't done yet, i'll take lesser pictures now because i want every picture to be special. That's the reason for film right? There are only 36 shots, so each shot have to be special and nice. hehe :D Till then. xoxo

Finally scanned all the pictures from the film into a cd (:
These are from the very first film, Roll #1 5th November 2010
Didn't upload all 36 pictures cause i'm too lazy to do so.

















It was deepavali, went down to cityhall, then to bugis/simlim and thereafter to church for 'Letters to God'. I'm writing all these for memory sake so i can look back at my blog archives to read in the future. (: Roll #2 will be in the next post. xoxo

My life is so boring.
I no longer write about the little details that happened.
I remember how i used to note every little thing that i did or places that i went.
I'm too lazy for such stuff now.
All i do everyday is wake up, eat, sleep. I'm the laziest person on earth (:
School doesn't even exist in the list now because i only have one day of school and it's quite insignificant. I don't even look forward to the holidays because i'm too relaxed and i just realise i have 2 more weeks till the holidays. ^^
There's nothing to look forward to, not even christmas.
I'm too broke to do any shopping which is quite sad.
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Oh well, i will just be contented with what i have now. I believe the future will be better.
Sometimes, i'm just so disappointed with everything. I can't get any happier. I don't want to be bothered with anything already. Sigh. Expectations just bring more disappointments. To be honest, as a girl i have a load of expectations of 'how a guy should treat a girl'. I guess that should be left unsaid because it's obviously a bias opinion(like a super selfish kind). Whatever it is, those won't come true(?) but of course i hope it does. *starts dreaming* I don't think it's just me only, all girls do dream.

I'm super bored now i have nothing to do and i'm stuck at home. I should just go sleep now(told you i'm damn lazy and a pig). I crave for koi now but nobody would be kind enough to buy for me. Me so sad :( I hate staying at home having nothing to do although i have nothing to do outside either plus i have no money. D:

Toodles
xoxo

Hi December,

It's the last month of the year and i forsee it won't be good like any other december.
Last december was a mix of tears and laughter. I don't know what the end of year will be like.
I'm afraid it won't be good, but still.. xcrossfingersx. Sometimes, i can't help but think about how 2010 started really well. Then the year slowly deteriorates. Right now, i have no comments on how things are. I'm lost for words. I don't wish to think about the past because the past is past. In life, there are no 'ifs' because what's past is past. You may say 'what if..' but so what? time isn't going to turn back anymore. I admit that before we even began, things were perfect. I still can vividly remember how happy i was to have dumped a relationship of 3 years to be with you. I thought i can finally knew how happiness really felt like. I guess i was naive. Initially, i told myself that i wouldn't want to risk letting someone into my heart to get it broken all over again. In the end, i told myself that without taking risk, i would not gain anything. Yeap, so now here i am facing everything all over again although it's barely a year. I decided to risk my already broken heart, because i trusted you so much, and i definitely saw something in you. I usually can't remember the past but this time i remember everything so clearly because it was you. This really shows how happy i really was at that point of time. I don't even remember how happy i was in my past relationships even if i was. This was just a different feeling altogether i don't know how to explain. I guess everyday is a new experience, something for me to learn. People change be it for the better or for the worse. If you ask me if i had regret even being with you, the answer would be no. If i could make the choice, i don't see why i should regret even though my heart's been sad. Nothing's perfect nor predictable. I guess it was just fated to be this way. I'm happy that i've learnt so much, i'm sure you did too definitely. I won't blame you or me that things don't work out. If it's meant to be, it will be. I don't wish to talk about this already, lest it worsens my flu and fever. I realise i only fall ill when i'm overwhelmed with too much sadness. I'm usually the last person who would ever get sick. :( Oh well.


Don't worry, nothing has happened, i'm fine at the moment, just spurs of thoughts i need to note down.

To the boy i once loved, and still love.
xoxo