Back, feeling better now. sometimes i feel like deleting this blog because i'm too lazy to blog these days. Too busy with activities that sometimes feelings can't be put into words. I think i'm feeling better now, cross fingers it'll stay this way. and i can't believe there's only 2 weeks of holidays left. i'm so freaking sad.(sad for the right things, haha) Super h8 school i don't wish for it to start. I rather have fyp everyday than school, hands down. :( Although it's the last semester(prolly the only thing that will keep me going), i still don't feel like going to school. Sometimes i wish time would fast forward so that i can get whatever certs now and be working or even married. life sucks. i can't help but say this. boring~

& i still feel like going on a holiday. i have 2 weeks left, fml infinity.
life is so mundane, same routine every week. The week seems very busy thanks to fyp, other than that, i don't know what else there is. of course spending time with b almost everyday is awesome (Y). only people like me gets to spend time with the bf almost every single day. ^^ like who else gets this kind of privelege? I'm more than happy actually. Love you (L)

i don't know what to blog already. *back to boring week*
xoxo

Not strong enough. I want to die now. :(
I know i'm gonna go crazy again, but i really hope i won't.
I hope i'll be happier.
no more tears/sadness everyday, i hope.

bye.

Blog dead for 2 weeks. Been too lazy. Happy all the tests are over~ It's the holidays with the addition of fyp. Nevertheless, much happier without school. I don't know if you still read this anymore, i hope you still do even though i'd haven't posted for so long. :\ sorry.

Everything's been a crazy roller coaster ride minus the adrenaline because i don't feel it. I feel so down most of the time.. i can't express it in words anymore. Too sad and yeah.. i don't wish to have the feeling of wanting to kill myself but i think it's coming back. I really really don't know what to do sometimes, it's just too complicated? I wonder why my tear ducts don't run out of tears! i wish they do seriously. Crying is too painful and torturing. & crying everyday doesn't help at all! meh :( you make me very happy yet sad, i don't know if its just us or is it just me. I'm tired of quarreling/arguing/bickering/whatever. Things never go the way i want. Is it suppose to be like this or what? The tears just don't seem to stop flowing and i wish it would. Was love meant to be painful? idk. Seems like i'm really not good enough for anybody/anything i should die. I don't know what else can i do because nothing i do seems to be good. i'm just born bad or something. or maybe just not good enough for you. i'm sorry. sorry to put you in a bad position.

Sorry. i don't think i can continue this post anymore. Too hurt/broken/sad for anything. Goodnight.

Happy 8th. Another month passed, i didn't think that we would make it, but we did.
This time was really heartbreakingly sad, don't wish to talk about it anymore. Really hope things will work out this time, if not.. kill me.

Anyway, still managed to catch a movie(the expendables which was boring) and visit comex which i hate cause so crowded. before dinner was epic seriously. bf ended up 'sick' and there were ppl chasing us to come out of the handicapped. Seriously, worse experience ever that happened -.- Embarrassing ttm but that isn't gonna stop us right? ^^ Walked to bugis after that for dinner. Bakuteh and cereal prawn craving satisfied. me so happy (: wanted to take a walk to haji lane but got lost in the dark alleys because they all look the same, ended up walking to lavender mrt then home. Nearly died walking :\ I still crave for my honey prata! :( lets go soon bb.
Thank you for today, i'm treasuring the happy moments all the time. (L) ily.