It just came to my mind that June has ended and tomorrow is the first of July D: Time flies, seriously. I don't know if it's a good or bad thing :\ Half a year just gone by like that, I don't remember time passing so fast in the past. Or is it because I have more things to do now, so lesser time? :\ Sigh. :( It's 1111 now, but I guess it means nothing anymore. It still means a lot to me because I caught it. I have so much to say, but I guess I won't type it here. Urgh, I can't type any further because... I'm too lost for words. I can say so much, but it would still mean nothing to you. You won't believe me either, cause you'll just think that i'm lying. Even if I would say that it really hurts a million time, you would say i'm acting. You won't believe a thing, and I got no control of that. I don't know what's happening and all I can do is blame myself for everything. I'm the cause of everything, I brought myself into all these. Thank you Shermaine, you suck. (Y) You'll only know what's good when you've experienced the worse.

(U)

I want to meet you like the first day we met/went out. So much have change in just half a year. What's next?

Sometimes people have to cry out all the tears in order to make room for a heart full of smiles.

I want to have a heart full of smiles, I want to smile everyday because I have you, and because you make me smile. I want you to be the reason why I'm smiling. Even though there are many other things that could bring me down, I want to say that I'm smiling because of you. I want to say that nothing else affects me because I have you. (:

I want to say that you're the one who will be there when I needed a shoulder to lean on. I want to say that you gave me the will to live on. I want to say that you are the best I could ever have. I want to say that you make me a stronger person. I want to say that I've learnt so much from you. I want to say that you go all miles to make me happy. I want to say that you are unique and different from any other boy I know. I want to say that you know me inside out. I want to say that you accepted me for who I am. I want to say that you would sacrifice anything for me. I want to say that you put me first in your heart. I want to say that you quarrel with me because you cared and loved me too much. I want to say that you're the cutest boy I ever known. I want to say that you're the only boy who can cheer me up.

So much more I want to say..
Will you let me say all these?

Last of all, I want to say..

I love you
xoxoxo

It's friday, but it doesn't feel like friday anymore. I no longer look forward to weekends anymore, it's just another ordinary day. I have no life, tyvm.
I feel so bored and pathetic now. Siblings went to church for an overnight event and i'm alone at home because i'm antisocial like this and do not want to interact with people! Even though i'm bored, i'm still antisocial like this~

I'm not in a mood for mixing around because I don't see the need to. After talking to I last night, it just reminds me that there are all kinds of people out there whom you should BEWARE of. People whom you can't trust and aren't worthy to be friends with. They don't deserve your nice treatment, but are just making use of you. They don't deserve you as a friend so I guess you should probably get out of their life asap (:

Right now, 'friends' does not exist in my dictionary other than the close ones I already have. Besides that, I have and never did make real true friends ever since i came out of sec school. Everybody else is so superficial now I don't know who to trust anymore. I rather not have any friends than to be naive and fall into their trap of lies. It's reality that evil people exist!! how sad is that.

When all else fails, friends who stand by you are people whom you can rely on and trust. I'm thankful I don't have to deal with shitty people or 'friends' you call it. Alright, i'm so bored that I just typed a whole chunk of words. I'm really glad that I manage to pull myself from the 'pit-hole' of darkness i was in. I think all I need is to stand strong on my decisions and beliefs. When you're strong, nothing's gonna bring you down!~ (: I'm not gonna harp on things that don't go my way, I'm not gonna think about sadness. I will just do my best in everything, and hopefully things work out. If it doesn't, i'm not gonna blame myself or anybody. It's probably fate.

It's been a really bumpy half a year, i'm glad i'm still alive here. (L)

xoxo

I need to..


Teleport here right now.


I need to live here forever and pretend reality doesn't exist.
Someone please bring me here right now.
So that I can eat and swim with the fishes..
go dolphin and whale watching
and relax by the beach doing nothing.



Sigh. I need to stop dreaming now because it's the fact that school officially starts tomorrow.
And I'm officially starting to feel so depressed.
Save me. :(

Urgh!

Hi, taking a break from my report to blog something before I get lazy to do so. I want to say that I'm very glad to be happier this 2 weeks of holidays although FYP isn't fun at all. I'm glad to have my bf with me almost everyday. and although I see him everyday, I still miss him the moment we part :( haha and we even webcam every night. (L) I've never felt so happy in a long while, it certainly feels quite awesome I wish it would last forever. I hope it stays the same when school starts, if not i'm gonna crash and die and be very depress all over again :( I hope you would treat me the same when school starts although I know there are many things you're gonna say to make me unhappy. Thinking about school makes me want to die! Tests and grades I hate you.

:(
Anyway, the weekend was great. Thank you for coming over on saturday to spend the day with me (: Sunday was super impromptu plan to go out in the evening to watch Super Junior Galaxy Showcase! I know I made my bf the happiest boy alive then. Haha (Y) I'm not a fan of them, but still.. it was a nice short performance I wouldn't mind going for their concert hahaha! ^^
Had a great day, and finally walked across the helix bridge which isn't that nice apparently. haha.

My life revolves around school/fyp/bf.
Fyp sucks when you have brainless people around. I'm so glad the week is ending meaning no more CGH. but there's disgusting school :(( WHY 2 WEEKS PASS SO FAST?! Sigh.
I'm so glad I don't have to wake up at 7am tomorrow for fyp. I get to sleep in, watch movie and eat dimsum/tauhuay with my boyfriend. Happy or happy? hehe :D We need to make whatever time we have left of the vacation to do what we can. :( I don't want school to start please! :(

Okay, enough whining.
back to report
*grumbles*

xoxoxo

I'm holding on to every hope and tear.
You're the only one that can make me laugh and cry.
You're the reason why my life still goes on.
But you're also the reason for my tears and heartbreaks.
You're also the reason why I don't want to live anymore.

You make me happy, yet sad.
But I still want to believe there is hope for us.
You're my pillar of strength. You teach me to find the light in life.
If things won't work out, I hope that I can say that we tried, that you were really nice to me, that you were there for me, and that you were the one who gave me the will to live on. To say that you were the best, but weren't meant for each other.

Not saying that anything has happened, I just wish I could say only good things about you.
Crying doesn't mean you're weak, it's a form of letting it out so that hopefully you'll be stronger the next time round.

Thank you, for making me a happy pumpkin today. I hope you are all smiles too (:
I'm thankful when I get to smile, I won't take my smiles for granted.

xoxoxo

Certainly, love makes the world go round.

Happy 5th! (:

Time flies. I'm glad we still get to spend time together on this special day though it was for a short while to have dinner. (: Ate dinner buffet at Kuishin-bo and I have no comments for the food. I only cared about my sashimi and nothing else. and I liked the soup in the paper steamboat. ^^ The crabs were a pain in the ass because you have to cut them yourself to eat using a stupid scissors -.- but still, thank you for cutting and peeling them for me (L) I know you got fed up and didn't want to eat anymore. :\ haha. I enjoyed your company baby although I know you still not happy with me. :(

Dinner ended at 9.15, took pictures at sky garden (: and we saw a cat there! how can a cat exist at the rooftop of suntec city -.- Anyway, still very poor thing. and this makes me think how Twinkle is lucky to have found a good home! (Y) I love him very very much. :D

Thank you for the awesome day spent with me, I just wish nights like that would last. I wish I didn't have to go home :( Looking forward to be happier, hopefully.

Sigh, I feel sad now. I miss you, I'm so lonely at home. I need to do my report, but I don't have any mood to do so. Sigh :(

xoxo