"No man is worth your tears, and when you find the man who is, he'll never make you cry." I hope there's such a man who will never make a girl cry. & whether or not he's worth your tears, you still cry.

"Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional." I choose to suffer.

"Tears are words the heart can't say."

"If loving you would mean heartbreak and endless quarrels, it would be worth it."

"I love you not because of anything you have, but because of something that I feel when I'm near you."

"I love you simply because it's you."

I need to blog about this, the happiest, most touching event that happened this year (:
Thank you Irvin for planning this belated birthday surprise, Shandy and LYP for turning up ditching your family dinner plans.(i feel so bad haha!) I honestly didn't expect my bf to be there because someone told me that he was going for family dinner which got me very upset, plus leaving me to take the train all alone from cityhall :( plus making me cry before he left. hahaha don't worry it's totally not your fault okay? (:

Anyway, I was really happy when you surprised me from behind. No words can express how I felt that very moment. Very surprised and delighted ^^ (L) This was what I initially wanted for my birthday, to have my favourite people celebrating with me but didn't expect it to happen due to some reasons. :\ but I'm glad it did. Love you all ttm! (:
Each time i recall that particular moment, I feel bliss. That's probably the best present I could ever get. :D I guess nothing can ever replace that kind of bond we have.

On a random note, I don't like proteomics. plus I have a very weird construction worker faci.

+ my boyfriend is being an asshole now because he doesn't want to answer my question which shows that he will cheat on me and dump me next time. hmph! :(

okay, i'm just kidding. I love you very very much no words can express that happiness I feel whenever I see you (L) Though you hurt me a million times and will never be that perfect boyfriend, I still love you ^^
xoxo

I have Thursday Blues now. :(
I don't want school to start, I want my holidays :(



It's time I face reality.
My holidays were made perfect with the boyfriend. ^^
Be it going out, slacking around or spending most of the time in the lab, I enjoy being by your side. Thank you for making my birthday perfect just by being with me the entire day in the lab followed by dinner with my family (L) Thank you for spending my last eighteenth together with me too. Thank you for the lunch and dinner and being my paparazzi for the day (:

I wish happy days like this don't have to end. But it has to.. so i wish for everyday to be happy. The best thing that we're still in the same class! It's fated for us to be together! hahaha (: We need to work extra hard this year okay? Love you ttm!

I really want a better academic year although I don't know what I'm gonna do next time. :\ If only life was a little simpler. Shall sleep soon because there's school tomorrow and that sucks! The best thing about going to school is seeing you hehe (: Goodnight. xoxo

x. I'm drained out by FYP and travelling to the east.
x. I officially fear going to CGH. (school starts = no more CGH, although i equally don't like the idea of school :( )
x. I'm waking up early for the third consecutive day tomorrow. all because of disgusting FYP!
x. I'm very sick of FYP and all the scoldings we get @ CGH. too much to handle :\
x. My entire 2010 has been taken up by school and FYP. Probably go mad one day.
x. Stressful with all the things we need to prepare by tueday! (Presentation/workplan/timeline/2logbooks/online meeting record)
x. Information overload :(
x. I feel like dying.
x. i don't want to spend my 19th in that disgusting lab!
x. This is so depressing.
x. I hope I have a happy last 18th.
x. Btw, I have no plans for anything.
x. I forsee I'm not going to be happy, but nevermind.
x. I want some time for a break, but I don't have much time to waste.
x. Hate how school is starting in less than a week now!
x. FML X 999999


I still miss my babycat. I'm pretty sure there's a catnapper somewhere :\
I'm still trying to get over her. I go home in fear because I still find myself looking out for her. I still feel sad every night before I sleep. I just hope she's in a good home, although secretly, i still want her back! :(

Goodnight.
xoxoxo

It's been almost 4 days, I still miss you very badly. You have no idea how much I really miss her :( I really want you back, why won't you come back? I can spend day and night, rain or shine finding you but still know that I won't be able to find you back. Why must you do this to me!?

I think I'm seriously going mad, you have no idea how sad I am when I can't find her after searching everywhere. Demoralizing :( Sigh.
I don't want to see your picture anymore, it makes my heart sink and I just want to cry so badly. :(
I don't believe you chose to leave us, I hope you're not suffering out there or in the hands of another. I just can't let go of you, my precious little cat. :(

I don't want to talk about you anymore, cause i'm tearing typing this.


Thank you baby for helping me search for her yesterday. I know you miss her as much as I do :\
Love you, xoxo

Baby meowmeow can you please come back now? We all miss you very badly you know?
Do you miss us? Wherever you are out there or in someone's home, please come back alright? I'm worried you get bullied or abused or just simply lost and do not know how to come home :(
Sigh

I've always wondered that what if one day you decide to leave us for good. But now, I don't even have any idea if you left us for good or is simply somewhere out there :( i really miss you very much. I hope some kind souls who see the notice bring her back. This is probably the first time you gone missing for so long, it's been more than 24 hours. The last time i saw you was yesterday morning before I left for church. You even bit me when i disturb you. Now, i can't even allow you to bite/scratch me :\

I don't want to look at your pictures anymore, it only brings tears to my eyes.

Come back by easter alright?

xoxo

To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love; but then one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer, to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love; to be happy then is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy; therefore to be unhappy one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down.


i love how you love my cat too (L)

Happy 3rd monthsary, I love you dearest. (:
no matter how much you make me cry, how much i get upset over you, i still believe there's a reason for everything. One day i will come to understand your intentions and your reason for doing things, hopefully. I'm sorry for being a bitch at times, being unreasonable, and forever saying things that contradict and make no sense, plus being extra careless. I'm sorry. I know you still forgive me ^^
Sorry that sometimes I still can't seem to understand you, slowly i will alright? Don't dash my hopes by saying I won't and I can't and will never be able to. I won't guarantee I can, but I will try. (:

I love spending time with you always. whether just slacking around, watching a movie or just coming over to do nothing. We were suppose to run yesterday but fail sorry! i'm just too weak. :\ Nevertheless, I enjoyed every moment. We failed to do our logbooks again too! hahaha

Anyway, school's starting and I hope things don't change because we have lesser time.
okay, no more mood to blog already cause my bf is being a bitch by telling me how torturing it was to go to cgh lab the first time because i was selfish and didn't want to tell him anything. i hope you dare to write that in the logbook. (U)

oh, and fyp is being a bitch now too because it's all screwed up we don't have to go to the lab anymore(awesome or what?) -.- I really hope we don't fail this because I don't know what will happen when school starts, we don't have any time left. sighhhh :\
I.hate.fyp.ttm!
now i really know how much fyp sucks. plus people in the team isn't making it any better. (Y)
including the bf. (okay i'm kidding)

i think i can't blog normally anymore because my bf can read this page now.
i'm more like blogging solely for you. hahaha!

can't wait to see you later.
xoxo
Happy Good Friday.
it better be good.