For now, take a step at a time.



I don't know if I should have an open mind, or keep things as it is.
i wish i could stop learning, stop growing because accumulation of thoughts just pile up. so much contradictions, the world, the society and everything just mess you life.

where's the simplicity and solitude?
i need to find that.

stop talking about controversial issues to make life simpler perhaps?

xoxo

shandy, here's your super cute strawberry ring. and i really love it alot!
it's the cutest thing ever. ^^
Anyway, i hope you're doing fine. stay strong girl! i know you will. really hope to see you soon before your attachment starts. :((( i miss you.


Holidays are boring me out, totally.
I'm not working and not gonna work thanks to fyp which isn't keeping me busy at all cause we're only meeting once a week. although i have research to do, that's about it.
i really think i'm gonna die, i have nothing to do wtf.
i need to find something to do and entertain me instead of going out everyday.
it's energy draining to go out, plus there's no where to go either. and i don't want to spend.
pfffttt

:(

i have no idea why i'm complaining that holidays are boring -.- i've been dying for this long awaited holidays but now.. i dont know hahaha
okay bye.
-abrupt end-

hi, i'm bored and should post something here. It's Day 2 of chinese new year and i'm at home feeling oh so good. I don't need to do anymore visiting which is so very awesome. Cause i nearly died yesterday from all the shitty visiting which killed me. plus my heels killed me too thank God i brought slippers. I didn't even have to walk much yet it hurts :( i don't see how i can wear heels out or to shop. this is why i always have second thoughts wearing heels whenever i want to go out. :\ this sucks. why can't beauty have no pain -.-

Yesterday was church in the early morning, thereafter grandma's place for lunch then visit my maternal grandfather, then to my mum's uncle house at bayshore which is so freaking far. then to my bro's nanny(last time) house which is my ex neighbour. then back to my grandma house(wtf?) for dinner. thank God the food was a little better. every time the food is like the same plus if there's left over they'll just cook it again for the next meal. gross ttm!! D:

after dinner went to my dad's uncle place and just stone there for a little while because they were all having dinner -.- retarded ttm. sometimes i don't even know who i'm wishing happy new year to. then i can't believe we went back to my grandma house for the third time wtf?! cause they want to gamble with my aunty and cousins. and as usual i never gambled. i kept whining cause i want to go home so badly!! :(((

anyway manage to go home in a while and i was so elated :D hehehe. good to be home to bathe because i feel so gross being out the whole day. ^^ Alright, i'm being very very draggy cause i'm really bored waiting for the boy to come over. :\ cny sucks, valentine's sucks. how can life get any better. SIGH. and i cried on valentines'/chinese new year. how bad is that.
pffftttt.

no pictures this cny because i didn't even bring the camera out. so the pictures in my phone are like all my camwhoring hahahah! :D Okayzzz, shall stop here toodles xoxoxo

You need that extra oomph of goodness.

Anyway, i taste freedom right now. I can't believe Year 2 just ended like that.

Say with me: IT'S THE HOLIDAYSSSS!!!
Finally a well deserved break. Seriously, i can't believe an entire year just passed like that. Super duper fast. I'm in Year 3 already, and fyp starts now!! :(




want some soft yummy egg tarts. ooohhhh.


oh so good.
okay, not really that good because the pastry isn't well done.
but still, good for the first try (Y)

i know i haven't update in a long time, heheh.
Life's good. with the extra downs as well.
oh well, shit happens.

hmm.. i just hope for the best for my results. i'm crossing fingers that i can make it, and won't do so badly. Although i'm doubting this, but I believe God will make a way (:
stay positive! hehehe

Reunion dinner tomorrow, CNY on sunday. Did i mention each year how much i hate cny and how much i dread it although i get money? Yes, i really hate cny ttm because i hate visiting. the most tiring and boring thing to do like seriously. So time consuming hate it hate it. i have better things to do okay although i visit them like once a year but i don't care. hahaha i'm so selfish but seriously. i hate the visiting pfffttt.

Shall not rant about cny anymore cause it's not like i have a choice whether i want to go or not. nevermind collect more money only heheh! ^^
Anywayzzz, today was awesome because it was the last paper!! ((: headed home right after UT, changed and train to srgn to meet bf then train again to CT. objective phail ttm. i didn't get to eat my currychicken noodle cause it was closed :( both of us sad like what. Ended up eating 1 for 1 pasta at coffee bean which suck. BOO :( we had nothing in mind to do so we ended walking from CT to orchard which is madness i think. cause the sun was scorching hot!! but nvm, company that matters the most (L) LOVE.

slacked at heeren doing nothing and playing with my phone. -.- this how we always past time. so we sat there for an hour plus then left for taka, wisma, ion to walk around and mostly stand around to stone. how boring, but we have nothing in mind to do or shop. no shopping today at all! heheh. okay, sorry super draggy post. i don't know what to write already.

bf is super attached to his new toy now and doesn't want me. :((
blah. goodnightz :D

3Uts down, 2 more to go! I'm so very happy!!
Although genetics suck quite badly i really hope for the best. :(
a&p wasn't that bad. i predicted the correct things that will be tested for. and i really didn't want to study all the shit ass nerves of the lower and upper limbs.
omg and almost every single question was about nerves nerves nerves. i nearly died that moment. thank God i had resources and notes if not i really can't answer a single shit.
seriously, they expect us to research so much ourselves when they didn't even tell us that we need to know them? Screw it!
For now, i just hand the rest to God for i know things will go according to his plan.
I did my best, and i leave the rest to Him (:

For now, i have 2 days break. The next UT on thursday, and friday would be the last UT. ^^ happy ttm. I know i cannot slack, i must still study although MCB seems pretty easy, P&T isnt.
Thereafter will be CNY which i don't really look forward to. :\ although i want the $. hahaha (:
Packed schedule next week, and i need to squeeze in time to meet dear shandy before she marries her attachment :( and i marry my fyp :( SIGH.
Next week will be CNY, FYP, CHALET (at the moment).

i miss you, always no matter how much i see you.
xoxo

i'm gonna pwn immunology ut tomorrow. (Y)

i know i cannot give up, i know i must work hard and do my best.
i don't wanna regret, ut3 is gonna be my life.
i need to do well, if not i'm gonna cry :(

SIGH! I need to get into IPBMS for sure.

Weekends = study genetics + A&P

my life suckz now. but it'll rock in a week's time! :D

Tomorrow = 11am UT, home to study genetics, reunion dinner with maternal's side, mug somemore.

I miss W54C. Not all, but some of them. I miss going for breaks together, eating together and just talking rubbish + laughing. I can't believe today was the last day of school. Only 3 teams, quite sad. GAH. I really miss being in the same class. :(((((

Even uts we don't get to be in the same class how sucky is that. why would they randomize our classes for ut?! GRRRR. i'm gonna be in a class of strangers tomorrow, how nice.

okay, back to revising more. Toodles xoxo