Hi irvin, here's your revenge. ^^awesome pictures right.
you and your banana.







I can't believe we're so retarded and childish, hahaha but it'z so funny and makes me laugh like crazy. (: Love my carebear!! hehehe.

On a random note, taylor swift is soo gorgeous!! & has nice songs!! yay i'm back to listening to music and its so cool to have lyrics plugin i can finally look at lyrics without searching for it!! :D I'm gonna listen to my favourites since last time hehe. i have sooo many songs to hear. Last day of school for the week tomorrow YAY FOR THAT. I can't wait for school to end. I don't feel like going for PP briefing cause it's gonna make me mega stress out cause i don't know what to do about it! I feel like killing myself. ): Someone help me. I need to start studying I feel really lost and there's so many things I need to know. GRRR WHY SO TOUGH ):

Okay I need to bathe and hit the sack I don't feel like going to school tomorrow sigh. I don't really like the faci. Pfftt!! ): Hope it'll be alright and not so stress out. Today's presentation was quite screwed i didn't know what i was blabbering about. -.-

Byeeee!!

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I feel like a total idiot. I'm hating Recombinant DNA Technologies. It's so tough and so not my kind of thing!! I hate it i hate technologies and processes and whatsoever equipments used. GRRRR. Its getting on my nerves cause I don't get a single shit learnt today! What's denaturation and agrose gel electrophoresis! :( I feel so stupid today I didn't manage to get anything into my head. This is the worse module ever seriously. I really hope I understand everything soon. The quiz was so difficult ): I got a feeling i'm gonna fail this UT, shit.

I better stop procrastinating and start studying real soon. Probably a little tomorrow and Labour day. I want to study but I don't know where to start. I've got too many things and I have no idea what to research about. Sigh :( I have to do well in Ut if daily grades won't help.

Shall hit the sack and prepare for a boring tomorrow.
XOXO

I'm hating the weather very much now.(who's not?!) It's humid ttm and very annoying cause i'm perspiring every second! (other than in school) & now i'm having a throbbing headache which refuse to go away! I'm in a very bad mood since i came home adding on having to wait for the bus for 15 minutes or more with the heat?! Freak. :(

Other than that, school was great and we ended really early before 3.30! first time ever. Great facilitator and great lesson(anatomy) today cause it's pretty much easy plus there's lab and we played with plasticine! cut bananas and lime ^^

Shall go bathe and have an early night. But i doubt i can if my headache continues. I'm addicted to oreo cheesecake now i ate countless slices since last night. It was my maid's bday cake and its so yummy! (: hmm and i love sweet&sour fish many many i ate it twice last week hehe!
Alright, shall get going i've to endure 3 more days this week. I'm starting to like school a little more cause bio is so interesting hehe.

Toodles XOXO

The person you love the most.
gives you
the worse nightmare
&
the widest smile




Oh, this is so great. The other time my right third toe nail came off now my left third toe nail is half cracked waiting to be fully cracked and then drop off! I know this is freaking disgusting urgh i don't know why my nails are so fragile nowadays ): Hate it!!! I don't ever dare to keep that long nails anymore pfftt! ):

Church in the morning. I love dg but i don't like the combine dg thing. I feel damn bad that we didn't even listen throughout the service and ended up talking and playing itouch hahaha! Omg i think i also want iphone. i played just now and so fun got word search game. Can entertain me for quite long i think hahaha! ((: I feel like a total idiot i didn't know you can download such games. hehehe! I also say i feel bad but i'm always not listening cause its' like really boring. I don't get anything -.- Urgh! I see so many people just falling asleep i'm glad i didn't okay!! :)

hmm, i'm gonna start another week of disgusting school but i'm not gonna rant about how hateful it is gonna be. I'm gonna have lab tomorrow and proud to announce that i don't own a single pair of covered shoes(i did but it went missing and i only wore it twice?) I hate shoes ttm esp those totally covering your leg like err canvas or sports shoe kind. Ewww so not my type! The weather is hot enough why wear shoes?! So freaking hot you know. It'z like suffocating my poor little feet! :\ K i'm gonna have a new faci replacing tomorrow and i'm gonna have my first lab session so cool. I never gone to labs in poly to do stuff. I just hope it's interesting and that it's easy to understand! (: i hate to feel stress again sigh i just can't wait for school to be over tomorrow ^^

I think i'm gonna start my obsessive shopping again soon but wait. I'm trying to control and not spend for the time being and just save first. I can't wait for my pay at the end of the month wheee. I haven't studied today at all!! cause i'm so lazy and i don't feel like it grrr. Regrets! I'll start soon i promise. I need to catch up on alot of stuff. I hate to search things on the internet so irritating cause there's so many stuff. I rather read books like what you do in sec school. Mugging for olevels haha! (:

Okay, enough of random crap in no order at all. Toodles, goodnight! (:

A simple saturday in town & being the unprofessional makeup artist.

It felt so good getting to sleep till 10ish this morning. All i can think now is to sleep although it's only 10plus! I just feel like getting all the sleep I need now. I hate to face another week of school. But i just comfort myself that it's only four days thanks to labour day! ITS FOUR FREAKING PATHETIC DAYS!! :(

I'm so tired/drained out the whole week. I need to recharge my energy. I was really really happy its the weekends like seriously I didnt feel any stress already! (: Tomorrow shall be study day maybe. I don't want to lose out in class and be some cast out idiot who knows nothing. Sooo, better start getting motivated to study and read up sciencey stuff. ): I need to stop being so stress and eat proper meals. Grrr!

K i shall go find something to do now. Im really boredz. Toodles! ^^
i hate cat-nappers. Screw you.

isn't this so true?
I've not listened to sad songs or even songs for a vvv long time.
I thought school would be the perfect place to get me back into music but sadly, it's not the case. I have no time to do my work what more listen to music. plus it distracts me alot so i dont think i can listen and do work at the same time! :(

Finally I uploaded this piccz. It was my surprise part 2. ^^ Bakerzin cupcakes piled with cream & a dress. (: Loveee youu!





You know, i'm feeling all free and happy right now because it's friday! and i've done all my work. I feel really really really (insert undescribable feeling) cause im all smiles. I couldn't wait for school to end today, & everything was such a breeze cause there weren't any hipcups and the problem was quite easy (: But i have a very very naggy faci who talks really slowly and explains every single little point in the 6p. We actually ended at 3.30 but she went on with 6p till 3.45 thank God not 4! :\ I wasn't exactly paying attention cause she's repeating most of the stuff we already know. -.- k but i still took down some notes.

kkk i should think about what i should do for the weekends. I know its just two pathetic days butttt. . .yeah i really want to relax a little. although at the same time i feel like using some time to study. Shit i feel like a mugger wth. I haven't thought of what to do for my PP and i'm quite screwed gosh! :(

okay i should shut my mind of all school related stuff although i got the urge to read my thick microbio book which smells very weird. :| I think i've been blogging all the very emotional kind of stuff but i still think my week has been great with you being with me almost all the time. Yesterday and today was Awesome enough. Even a simple meal and coffee/cake would do the job of making the inperfect, perfect. Really. I don't need fancy dinners or expensive plans. A simple one with the perfect one would just do all fine. Cause it makes me happy and relaxed even just being in the library enjoying the serenity and silence.

Tomorrow will be great, just tell yourself that! (:
Toodles.

The most difficult phase of your life is not when no one understands you,
it’s when you don’t understand yourself.

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When I'm around you, I feel peace, light, happy & loved.


I'm turning into a nerd soon. I'm so happy itz finally the last day of school for the week. I've survived a week of school and it is extremely stressful! I don't know why but all in my brain now is thinking how stressed I am and it'z making me even more stress! It's suffering. It's affecting me very much. I feel stress in school and at home too. I've been thinking a lot! ): I really need to relax and eat more! I hate losing my appetite, its affecting me in some way i guess.

I'm very afraid of what will happen next time if I cannot manage myself or my time well. I'm afraid I will go crazy and become very emotional. I don't know. I need to mug like I did for olevels. It's freaking competitive. I'm going insane. I really want to die. I think i'm just gonna use the weekends to really take my mind of everything and just chill out. I need to maybe sh op? although the urge isnt there anymore. Okayyy, just relax! itz just the first week, omg! ): I guess i'm really thinking too much and over reacting.

I need a life. This is becoming so routined and mundane. I wake up, go to school come back and sleep and wake up to find myself repeating everything all over again. Ugh! I really really miss the holidays. I need a freaking break. I need to get use to this kind of stupid stressful freaking life. Screw this!!!

bye.

I need you, I need you 24/7 to make me smile.

Maybe I should go read novels or my 5kg microbio book.
or just watch dramas.

I feel so panicky. Stressed out. & very very very afraid of what is yet to come.
I feel like i've got soooo soooo many things to do yet so little time and have no idea how am i gonna go about doing it. The things learnt in class is enough to kill me, what more having PP to do still? CE points not done. Itz crazy. How to go for CE talks during lunch break when the break is already freaking short. Are they trying to kill us or are they being extremely unresonable! Have they put themselves in our shoes? I hate Year 2, i don't mind being in Year 1 again cause i'm able to slack and be lazy at times ^^ (but i didn't do that last year okayyy!)

I believe i'm gonna fall sick soon due to stress. Lack of appetite due to tons of ulcers even though i'm really hungry! :( I don't know where to find time to study. I'm so tired every day after school. I come home to find myself sleeping till 9pm. I wish i didn't have to study in Singapore to face the utmost stress in the whole wide world. I have no idea how i'm gonna pursue my degree and even get into university next time. I seriously don't know. If this is stress, then what's university? -.-

I'd got a very serious indian man faci for microbio today. He's soo serious and keeps talking all the time. He' isnt fierce but just quite serious that he wont even laugh when he tells jokes. :\ He likes to tell lots of moral stories and other random stuff but its kind of interesting though. I really hope i'm choosing the correct path. the path i really want to lead. :(

Itz finally thursday tomorrow! I can't wait for the weekends. Yet at the same time i don't want it to pass so quickly ): I should stop complaining cause i'm quite adapted to school already. (: & i think my class is alright. I shouldn't judge first, itz only the 3rd day and i've not seen their true colours? I just hope everything would be good though! (:

Toodles. i'm sorry its so wordy :\

Quote of the day :

I don’t believe in failure, because simply by saying you’ve failed, you’ve admitted you attempted. And anyone who attempts is not a failure. Those who truly fail in my eyes are the ones who never try at all. The ones who sit on the couch and whine and moan and wait for the world to change for them.

(i kind of believe this, but on the other hand i still think that i've failed when i don't get my desired outcome)



Hi ong, nice coolzx alibaba head wear you're gonna wear to school! (:

First day of school in Year 2. If i have one word to describe school, it'll be NIGHTMARE. Seriously, the morning was bad enough coz i woke up late at 8am when i'd wanted to wake up at 7 or by 7.30am! I got the biggest shock in my life and quickly rush like a mad dog! -.-Thank God i'm staying nearby and not like in the east if not i'll be late and not go to school already! HAHA (:

I was about 15 minutes early for school despite waking up late. Okay.. actually the waking early part is just so i could take my time to get ready and all. ^^ Class was hmm a total stranger to me when i first stepped in. Many people arrived so the inner seats were all taken up! boohoo :( I ended up sitting at the middle table. Yeap, I used to hate the middle table in year 1. and i was always the earliest in class last year, now i can't anymore haha! (: I don't know everybody yet coz i'm only mixing with my team today. Same class with erin so i guess it's not that bad cause i know someone! :D But anatomy was crazyyyy!!!!! I was lost and didn't know a single thing plus not knowing what to research and all. Madness!! + shortened break periods that left me starving and rushing like an ass. Stressing myself like crazy and it felt soooo brain wrecking and really back-to-school kind of feeling that i haven't felt the past few months ): I guess it's time i face reality that this year's gonna be extremely tough and a very competitive environment i guess?

I feel like i'm gonna take olevels this year with all the science information in my head i so feel like mugging hard for them. Pffttt!! :( It'z really hard to understand everything!

K i'm gonna stop my rants here. The days seem to pass really slow when there's school but extremely fast when its the holidays ): Grrrr. I guess it's because i'm looking forward to the weekends. I can forsee how my week will be like. I'm all stressed out when it's only the first day. Tomorrow will exactly the same and so on, i need to adapt to this fast!!(before i breakdown) :(
I'm sooo drained out my cells all died and I'm gonna watch my drama soon cause i've done my rj but not the quiz yet. Toodles! (:

*** Schools' the best for losing weight thanks to stress + lack of time to eat! Screw it. My meal times are all messed up. I end up eating twice the amount for dinner! :@

**** School starts means I'm back to isolating myself in music and yay i'm gonna hear all my favourite songs which i have not heard in months! I realise i have so many nice songs but i dont put them to good use (: & im gonna sleep soonnnnn better go prepare. & i leave you with some quotes ^^

Once in a lifetime, you meet a person who takes your breath away.
Not because you want them to, but because they're meant to.
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The person you love most has the best capacity to make you the happiest in the world and may give you everything, including the worst heartache you can never imagine.

(save the rest for some other post)





Posting these for keepsake though not all, thank you vin! (:









Someone plz just tell me or give me a surprise by telling me that school doesn't start tomorrow! (i know it would be fake and i have to accept reality grr!) Tell me that school isn't the last place i want to be in! I know i sound like some really really depress kid. I don't know why but i don't like school now. It's not fun like it used to be. I don't have my closed ones with me. Although i get to see you in school, but still i dont know why i'm feeling all so depress! :( I felt so weird going home just now, i just didnt feel like going home but just walking aimlessly shopping or just eating! I don't want to be waking up early for school. Grrrrrr! :( I'm so not prepared. I think i'm just happy that i bought cute notebooks just now. I'd still haven't got my organizer/planner! :@

I need to get to bed early tonight, i dont know if i can sleep but i'll just try? It feels really weird to sleep so early. My body just can't adjust too soon? I've been sleeping so late everyday! How to sleep early?! -.- I hope i won't be late tomorrow morning if not i'll panic like a mad cow! ):
Oh and i better go pack my stuff now like laptop case etc before i forget. Imagine not bringing the charger to school?! Gosh i hope it wont be a bad bad day and that my day will start out all good. Pray for good classmates though! :) I want to be early for class tomorrow!

K i'm gonna drown myself with coke and fruityloops! ^^ Toodles.

(i read this and think that i've done more than 50 of them at least? hehe)



Me is so bored Me stayed at home the whole freaking day. Me want to go crazy because Me is so not used to staying at home like this!! I chose not to attend the cousins gathering at my cousin's house cause i bet hundred percent i would just rot there. My siblings went and i'm the odd one out but i don't care. I don't feel like talking to them and neither do we have anything to talk about -.- Call me anti-social i don't give a damn! (: I rather lie in bed all day watching my exciting drama hehe. (which is what i really did) I'm more than half way through the drama so yay. Episode 20 soon! (: I hope to finish it by tomorrow ^^

Anyway, yesterday met the girlies out for icecream yet again! Oh, i threaded my brows too with vin and it hurts k!! :( Pain for the sake of beauty -.-! Had lunch at holland v then bused to Island Creamery which was so packed! I didn't know it would be so crowded. Anyway, we managed to get a seat and had our all time favourte- Icecream!! :D Had teh tarik flavour cause i didn't know what else to eat. I had enough of nutella! (: Hmm, wanted to head somewhere to take picys but there's no where to go and time constrain as well! Took a long bus ride back and 3 of us squeezed into two seats! Laugh and laugh all the way back. (: Had tons of fun i'll definitely miss! Hopefully we'll still meet up when school starts! (:

I finally started reading again after soooo sooo long. I went to the library lounged on a sofa and buried my head into a good book for a good whole hour at least. I'm so gonna finish up that book and read sputnik sweetheart for the * number of times. Murakami Ftw.

I'm extremely broke right now. But i'm still tempted to shop for the one and only last time before school starts. I seriously can't believe school's starting in a day's time. It feels like tomorrow! :( I'm sooo afraid. I can't cope or i'll be so lost on the first day of class. Sigh :( I guess i'm being too paranoid and all. I got to plan what to wear to school everyday again, how annoying! If not it'll be my usual tee and jeans/shorts + flipflops. hehehe. i love flipflops. I hate being in a rush esp mornings where i have not even plan my outfit, so i'll just grab anything i see (the easiest to wear) like tee and shorts and rush out. Pfftt! I think i have to wake up earlier grr i dont wanna be late for school.

the weather's so hot and humid today i dont know why. When i'm home it's so humid!! :( I feel hungry i want to eat fruityloops and goldflakes. I need to make my own breakfast for school every day. Save $$ :D Toodles.

Strong wind blowing past our faces, bright sun reflecting the shades
clad in pretty sundresses running down the beach with sand in between our toes
Smiling like the happiest kid ever. No stress or worries to ponder about.
I miss the never-ending smiles and laughters.
I miss the holidays very very much, i was light and happy.
If you were to ask me to mention any down moment of the last two months, i can't.
I don't remember any point where i was really really down (or i choose not to rmb?)
Maybe one or two really really breaking down moments but was back to normal very quickly (:

I really really hope I can smile the same when i'm back to school. I don't want to be the faker trying to be all happy when i'm not and all stress out. I really hope i won't be so stress out and really really pray that my class would be all good. (enough of bad shit ass class the past one year) I had enough and enough is enough! I tolerated for one whole year although it was two freaking different classes. (you must be thinking how i did that) totally hate politics plz. -.- I should stop talking about this because its really really something i don't want to talk or think about anymore. It's because of all these i lose my trust in people very easily, i rather not make anymore friends seriously. I'm happy with my extremely small circle of friends who i rather have because i know they will stay by me, thank you irvin&shandy + thedg (:

The best of all is still the beloved* one, whom i love the most. Thank you for staying by me when all else fails. When school wasn't the best place for me to be happy about, you were my pillar of strength, my source of comfort. You gave me tears & smiles all the time and that's what i'm always looking for. All i know, without you, my life would seriously crumble down. I wouldn't know where to go or what I should do. It'll be very very empty without you. I hope things would stay the same when school starts. I don't want history to repeat like 2008 in school. I hope things would turn for the better x99999 Thank you for the many times you sacrifice just to spend time with me. I would miss the times we hang out together shopping walking around having awesome food, the movies, just slacking around at home sleeping etc. You make my world go round! (: Luvv youuuu. Even though how little the time we get to spent when school starts, we'll still make it all worthwhile. Every second counts! (:

Sorry, i'm making this post sound so emotional. School starting seems like the end of the world, wow! :( I promise I would really do my best this year, quit thinking of skipping school shermaine!
Toodlessssss. XOXO

Live Life To The Fullest






Purple Nano pretty! (: (you'll be mine soon!)

i'm so proud of myself, i bought my first item today for the entire week(dont talk about online buys). Yay, it means i'm saving! (: I couldn't resist what i saw today, so just bought it. Me is sooo happy. Happy that i spend a bomb, no? :D No more time to shop when school starts ): I guess that's gonna stop me from being a shopaholic and save more for the holidays, hope that works out well. (:

i've been watching this hk drama- Emergency Unit. and i'm so slow i'm at episode 12 only when there's 30 episodes -.- i'd better finish watching before school starts, time constrain plus school's internet sucks cause it's too slow to load my show. Ugh! I'm left with THREE MORE DAYS! How awesome can that be that 2 months plus of holidays just went by. Glad that it's fruitful though. ^^ I enjoyed myself ttm even though i spend half my time working but happee that i got the money. Can't wait till the end of the month when i'll get my next pay (: When school's gonna start, i'm becoming more like a pig by waking up at almost noon!! Normally it's 10 plus now 11 plus later and later grrr. I need to switch back my body clock -sleep early wake up early. I don't know how i'm supposed to do that(only when school starts i think?) Sigh!

K i don't know how to continue, Time to bathe and continue watching my show. Then hit the sack meeting the girlys tomorrow (: Goodnight!

I likelove cheap online deals ^^
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even though my bank's screaming right now. it's dried up once again. :(

















meow! Counting down to the number of days till school starts and the number of holidays left. The last week of holidays seem rather depressing with nothing much left to do. Rather, i want to save some money but it's impossible because i'm going out everyday. When school starts I will try to save alot alot more. (: I need to switch my mode back to 'school' starting all over again with a brand new year. Brand new modules and thinking about doing well really makes me all depress and scared. Argh! I'm so annoyed now, @$@)$(!&)($!0 don't feel like blogging anymore bye.

I feel like I've got the least time in the world now ):

Baking @ irvin's last saturday (:


Ulcers acting up again! I don't wish to fall sick :( I feel like a fat pig today, eating loads of junk food! Need to save $$. I don't feel like eating anymore tomorrow, Grrr but i feel like eating now hahaha! Few more days left to enjoy, i dont know what i'm supposed to do. Feel like i've too little time to plan anything. Anyway, i should be glad that i've got lots of things done during the two months holiday. Stop complaining shermaine! Time to be back to school, i got to prepare my heart mind and soul. :( Back to square ONE making friends all over again -.-

this my second post of the day. k bye its eleven and i've not bathed.
Toodles.

I held you for the longest time, this special day.


IMAGE HEAVY!!
(pictures speak a thousand words don't they?)

I'm sorry if the pictures are small and lousy, it's because i resize them. didn't edit them at all because i'm too lazy. I just want the size to be smaller. (:









Favourite dessert in the whole wide world! ^^


Headed to orchard first, then later on to clarkequay. Very tired the whole day and felt like cabbing everywhere! Pfft! :( Save money so just train to CQ and spent alot alot of time finding out where's the restaurant and all. Went to liang court first to walk around. Gonna try the food there next time. Then walk back to Spore river and finally found the place!





the gmax thing is super high super scary but i want to try next time hehe.


Italian food! (: Unique and yummy.


seriously we didnt know the pizza would be that big. i got a shock of my life.


chicken tenders oh so yummy! :D


and basil pesto pasta which is nice.(if you don't mind basils)


Still, we managed to finish up almost everything.




















I just couldn't believe i took so many photos, over a hundred. I just snapsnapsnap randomly. Camwhored like mad cause there's nothing to do. Sat by the river and just talk the night away (: I wish everyday could be just like that. Wanted to drink but didn't in the end. Train back at 8plus(early i know) cause we were so freaking tired.

Woke up not long ago, i just slept my morning away cause i'm really very tired! K i'm so hungry now i want to go get food. I'm so not gonna stay at home itz so boringzx. :( Byee.