HAPPY SEVENTEENTH IRVINONG!
(almost midnight soon)

I feel so lazy to blog, there's nothing much actually. I'm just thinking of skipping class tomorrow after seeing the problem statement. 21 slides?! and full of rubbish, i don't understand why do we have to learn such things. Totally rubbish okay. :( if i didn't see it then maybe i still would go, having second thoughts now. Hate the feeling of making decisions. Sigh ):

this two weeks won't be great at all, it leaves me stranded gasping for air.
i'll keep myself alive though, don't worry (:


and i watch quarantine last night online, it's kinda boring actually! I think the excitement starts after one hour when i'm about to fall asleep so i didn't watch the whole show. Story line not fantastic also, not worth catching it! unless you want to scare yourself somehow? only certain parts scary i think, other than that nothing much (:

big hugs!
Goodnight!
xoxo

Weekends Ecstasy (:

I'm very happy it's the weekends, which means a little more time snoozing on the bed! Awesomeness i love. Plans for tomorrow ? I don't want the coming week to arrive, because the following weekend would be mounted with depressing moments and more stoning. I can't keep my mind of it. Ahh, i don't know what to do! It's the end of the month already, time pass really very very fast. Soon it's christmas and the end of year, i just can't believe it. Why so fast ? when it's draggy you will be saying why so slow? -.- Hope 2009 would be good though, with more mountains of stress coming up, big sigh. And then again i wish for time to be back at 2008 :)

My internet connection is being very cranky nowadays! :@ irritate the shit out of me. I can surf the net halfway then suddenly can't get into the website because of the stupid cranky connection which decided to disconnect itself! pfftt. :( I feel broke although i've saved a lot the last 2 weeks. Spending very little on food because of loss of appetite. Currently, my appetite is back and i'm craving for a lot of food! i want steam boat! and many more. i feel so fat now because of the very sinful mac dinner which i haven't ate in months! I don't feel like eating anymore but my mum just bought satay, damn! i want to eattttt. FAT FAT FAT. :(
i can't believe i actually totally stopped online shopping, haven't spend a cent on anything so far (:
But time for shopping soon, christmassy season! yayyyyy (:
and and class was so boring today, i finish watching madagascar 2 in the morning and it's not that awesome after all. Good thing i didn't waste money to watch in the cinema.

Back! I'm happy today. I went to school but skipped class.
From 9 to 3 i was happily watching movies! so so cool.

these are the movies i watched today :

Beverly hills chihuahua
Last part of love my life
But i'm a cheerleader(only part of it because the website has stupid problems always!)
Pathology(i love! i don't know why it's R21 still. Pretty gruesome but cool!)

I'm so pissed with that website because it's screwed?! either the show can't load or i only can watch halfway and it would be spoilt? Grrr.
Crunchyroll also like that, i can't watch 10promises to my dog. :(
Soon, will watch madagascar 2, mama mia and many more. I'm very lag so i watch everything on the laptop. :D Awesome! I can't wait for Marley and Me. (:

Yesterday was really horrible. I can't stand how draggy the class is esp faci! omg, ending at 5pm is seriously insane. I actually did nothing in class, thank God for my rj that helped me alot. I'm really happy with the ut grades, i hope they don't change it ? It makes me realise that i study for my sake and not for others, so i don't see why i need to care about what others say ? it's really your choice, and you have to know that we live in a superficial very very fake world. I just don't get it. (:

Another two weeks of school till holidays, i'm sooo excited and happy! :D
Although the last week of school would be kind of ----- for me, only one day right ?
Yay for public holidays.
very awesome i like!

Goodnighttttttt
XOXO

Wednesdays make me wanna Puke -.-

If not for the fact that there's ut tomorrow, i would probably think twice about going to school. But i know i'll still go in the end whether or not there's ut. Sigh, i'm gonna fail my ut anyway because i didn't study much and i don't understand much. plus no calculator! All the best man.
I feel like dying. my waist/hip bone still hurts sometimes :( i'm so tired.
I hate wednesdays a whole lot, i know i'll be slacking my whole day in school doing nothing.
i'm sorry but wednesday's isnt my day. pffttt! hate cognitive right now a lot! the grades really suck. so tempted to partial tomorrow, will see how. i'd partialed last week leaving after presenting. I still get the same grade anyway, it's damn boring.

I want to watch pathology! was halfway watching today and only after 15 minutes the whole show can't work already. So annoying! then i watched 10 promises to my dog again! I can watch it a million times and it's still so good. Damn, the second part had to die on me too! So irritating. I can't watch finish the show :( i love how sad the ending is. Ahhh :( i want to watch so many shows now, and tomorrow is a very good day to watch shows during class :D i'm gonna die waking up tomorrow/today since it's past midnight.
Gonna hit the sack soon!
Goodnight, xoxo

Irvin, thanks for the really really yummy chocolatey with icing brownie. I want more! and i want to bake too! so yummy! :) finally got to meet the 2 of them for lunch again although it was quite short as we had to go back for class. there's so much to talk about and we found out how really fierce shandy is. (she always is but now fiercer) haha! we can't believe at the way how she talk to her classmates. hahaha, omg so shocking shandy! :D You go girl!

Science was very very boring, rainbow again! tomorrow another boring day. sometimes i really don't know what i'm presenting. i'm just blurting words and i realise sometimes i dont know what i'm talking or it doesnt make sense to me somehow but i still say it ? who cares. i'm bored of school. anyway, i came home after school and slept from 6 plus till almost 9. it's like the best thing ever! it felt so good i didnt feel like waking up. i can probably sleep till the next morning but sigh i can't do that! i have not eaten or bathe or do my work -.- Finally i get sleep! yay (: felt so drained the whole week and super lack of sleep. It's so tough getting out of bed every morning because i'm so damn tired! :( i hate school. i can't wait for holidays. (:

Goodnightyyy, xoxo
i know you love me and you know i love you

Everything's in a mess, chaotic.
Shermaine is about to collapse soon. I'm extremely tired, and still have to face another stupid week of school which totally sucks. I'm about to die. i'm totally drained and my mom's worse.
I wonder what's with the family with uncles who are totally brainless and totally no comments!
see them feel like slapping there, totally no heart of brains. -.-
(yeah, my mom is hoping her children don't become like that)

i'm not totally heartless please, i have a heart. only sometimes it does not know how to work.
okay, i'm talking rubbish. Ignore me, i need to sleep soon. i'm damn freaking tired and drained!
been up since 8am. what do you think ? and there's stupid school i feel like dying, please remind me to select my modules because i havent done so. I don't know which to choose.

MAJOR HEADACHE, SO MANY PROBLEMS.

ARGH :@

goodnight, till then.
xoxo

Time for blogging, MIA for quite awhile.

& i love carebear (: so cute right!
my daddy's carebear.



pretty flowers


fav sushi!

salmon (:




yums. been long since i ever ate, good food. :( i can count what i eat this week with my two hands.
i miss feeling hungry and craving for food ): so long never feel hungry, i feel full always but still eat. :@ Love, twentysecond (:

I can't believe it's the end of the week, so fast! i lost track of days. By the time i come home, it's like eat bathe use laptop, sleep. school hospital home.
roar!

i don't know what to blog, lalala
goodnight, xoxo

i didn't expect it to be so mentally draining
i don't remember the last time i enjoyed a meal
it felt as if i didn't eat the whole day yet don't feel a single bit hungry
(except for some snacks here and there)
i guess i just eat one meal a day only. i don't feel a single bit hungry unlike normally.
Don't worry, i'm not dead yet (:

I really don't feel like attending school tomorrow if there's no ut, and i cant go off after ut.
I hate the faci! screw her, i don't like the group too. I guess i'll be pretty much dying in school and sighing all the way, as well as sleeping or stoning. I'm very very very drained and tired.
Too tired and unable to get to sleep :(

goodnight, xoxo

i'm officially sick, down with flu! Annoying shitz.
The feeling sucks, and i'm practically dying.
i don't know if i should go to school tomorrow, i know i've skipped twice for this lesson but ugh!
i don't feel like seeing his face. Hopefully i'll be fine after a good night rest, if not i'll be stoning in his lesson. :@ hate him! okay, i should go sleep soon, i'm about to die.
goodnight,xoxo

hello i'm back.
i can't help but pictures would be reflashed in my mind, tubes blood patients sound nurses,etc.
i can never be a nurse a doctor or anything to do with the hospital cause most probably i'll faint after those blood needles and all. i'm actually not scared. Probably it's psychologically or something. Just that after you see them for a long time you start to feel faint :| eeeekkk. probably i can feel the pain maybe. :(
i've been breathing in more bacteria and air there, the whole week. I can't get enough sleep because i can't seem to sleep and it really sucks at night :( you see me strong on the outside, yet inside i'm breaking down or controlling my tears. and probably break down when i'm alone. it sets in when it's all over. I don't know how much i can thank God for, but He is our provider and our strength. we've been blessed tremendously and i'm touched to tears. i don't know what to say. I feel so comforted and probably really happy. tears of joy? i don't know how to express further. (: Thank you for all the prayers. Love.

I have the nicest faci on earth today, probably she knows i'm too busy and tired for rjs so she decided not to post an rj for us, how nice yeah. although she's damn naggy today :@ and always! all the best for ut tomorrow, i seriously have no mood for anything. xoxo



It's insanity to actually 'study' cognitive 6ps because i think they are full of rubbish which is of no use. Plus i just realise ut is tomorrow and not wednesday. and ut3 officially starts on thursday.
Never-ending stop to Uts. :( damn! i thought it would stop just then, but no.

and i'm drained to the point i'm numb and probably not feeling a bit tired at all. (:
all shall be fine.
xoxo

i know i've changed a lot, i may not be a perfect child/friend in your eyes.
i don't know what seem to take over me. i'm not that innocent obeying kid anymore.
i've become stubborn, ill mannered, anything you would like to name me as. But just not the same shermaine anymore. I want to be who i am and not who you want me to be. i am me.
no point going on nagging about how rude i am how shitty i am how you taught me manners and so on, because that's not going to change anything. I am what i am now and i believe in changes.
Do you believe that everything is changing rapidly, do you believe that religion is going to change.
i don't know. everything is just too fast paced that i don't know what i'm doing.
It is never easy to change oneself or another, try accepting it then.

It's the weekends, and it's gonna be boring and not very good :(
Still, another week of school has passed. It's already week 10! very fast you know :D
It will be the holidays very soon, three more weeks ? It'll be chrissymas! (:

i've been very slack in school, i don't know i just don't feel like doing a single thing in class. So, i just slack my way through cause it's so boring -.- heck.
Finally i can sleep in tomorrow, omg! although i just slept just now as usual. I'm too lazy to go out but i need to pass people their items. Ugh! :@ i don't know what to blog already.

toodles
xoxo

The truth revealed.

That gross piece of shit is HOTcakes. Yeah, totally HOT.

A long story behind it, you may just want to know that i'm clumsy and probably drop the hotcakes onto the floor. How stupid can that be. There was only one that was quite 'dirty' because we saw black stuff on it. i don't know if it's burnt stuff or what. but still we ate the other two. (i know you may think it's gross but who cares) it has been eaten up. so we decided to play with the 'dirty' one. First was actually hotcakes with syrup- smashed. then added the butter which was the cheesecake. then smash more! (so fun you know) and then added milo, thus the black stuff on the heart shape. then actually some fruit juice ? haha! very gross i know but had lots of fun smashing it for like half and hour ? hahaha! (: i know it's damn bad to play with food but so tempting what! :D

(see pictures below if you don't know what i'm talking about)

anyway, i don't know what to talk about school. The change of grouping for all days kind of suck.
I really have no comments, but it's making me really dread school. :( the team really makes alot of difference. i have no way i can change the team or what not. But totally sucks, today.
Ut screwed too, really don't know how to do binary and and they are so ridiculous, giving so little time to count so much shit ? Crazy. so much marks lost, sigh over already! :(((

Tomorrow, last school day of the week and i'm totally drained and sick of school. i'm so tired and i come back everyday after school sleeping till 8pm ? :( i wish i take one minute to get to sleep instead of like 15-30 minutes ? :( i wish i fall asleep immediately so i do not have to think of so many things and go crazy.(don't ask what)

I feel like dying, i wish i didn't have to live further. I totally suck. stop rubbing salt into the wound. i feel bad and )@(_@)$(_@()_$*!^$*!& enough. i'm a total sucker failure

Food for thought.

Guess what is this?






Familiar?






'cheesecake' in making? haha!



heartshape.

poison heart.





Then we ate this yucky organic maggiemee. :)
and steamed nugguts. (i know you must be thinking how gross and weird is that)

healthier choice, no deep fried oil. hahaha!

the outcome of STEAMED NUGGUTS.

yes, you should know it would be wet and soggy but still yummy! haha!



totally failed jump shots :(



I will tell you what's the first few pictures is next time or maybe you can try guessing. it's easy! hahahaha! you would probably kill me after knowing, very gross i know. but we had fun!
hehehe (: i cannot stay here for long, i need to study for my ut tomorrow. and and and it's so damn fated that i left my laptop charger behind and tada! i got half a battery left to use and so i cannot waste the precious time :(

toodles.
blog again tomorrow.
xoxo

xlb for you to drool on


and i'll be a totally nerd kid next year.



& i'm omgggggggggg stressssss overrrrrr whattttttt moduleesssss toooo chooooseeee neexxttt yearrrr. Saveeee meeeeee pleaseeeee! i hate to make decisions. that decide my future. Gosh!

IPBMS
Semester 1
Anatomy
Applied chem
Microbiology
Biochemistry
Recombinant DNA technologies

Semester 2
Molecular and cell biology
Immunology
Genetics
Pharmacology and toxicology
Medical technology or cell culture

IPMI (medical imaging)

Semester1
Anatomy
Chem.
Microbiology
Biochemistry
Radiation physics, Biology and Protection

Semester 2
Molecular and cell biology
Immunology
Genetics
Anatomy and physiology II
Patient Care

(red highlights are the extra ones)

OR IT'S JUST THE NORMAL TRACK of 4 general modules.

five or four modules. i'm so stress and it's gonna be so stressful next year i feel like dying. i'm pushing myself to the max till i burst. :( I don't want to study anymore. Why must it be like this?! :( -bangs the wall-

i have a week to think. i've enough worries, sigh.
xoxo

I currently have five blogs in total and you must be thinking that i'm nuts. Yeah, i am (:
so, i really don't know where i should blog. probably blog at where i feel like blogging. i'm not gonna close danceimagination down because it's my favourite since it's been with me since like 2006 ? 2 years ago ? :) too many memories for me to close it down, and plus the nuffnang thing so i won't close this. (:

i'm the slackest of all today, i practically did nothing. like really nothing other than the first part of the day which was understanding a teeny bit of the worksheet. other than that i was surfing the net when others are slogging their guts out with the beautiful excel sheet (: i'm sorry team mates(not like you'll see this) but i seriously didn't have the mood at all today. Be glad that i didn't ran off although it's kind of equivilant to that. but i did help somehow somewhat right. Self-proclaimed!

I really didn't pay attention the whole day, including 6p because i was happily exploring lj or something. (: okay i realise i have ut tomorrow and i have not studied a single shit. anyway, i know i'm just going to browse through and that's it for the day (: it's not gonna help much anyway. ahh i'm always like this! i don't study and i dont expect to fail. i hope it would be easy though. (:

Self-reminder : DBMS module selection briefing tomorrow 4.30pm (:
i can't believe this is so fast, i don't want next year to come and i don't want to select any modules because i still don't know what route to take and what modules i want! :@ hopefully the briefing would be of help (:

okay i should go study now.
Toodles.

Hiatus is over, after a week. A week of hectic school week has passed, i'm quite glad and i'm here to face another abcd week of school :@ i know you miss my posts. But i feel like flying away to another land, i don't feel like blogging here anymore. maybe i'll get all kinds of journals like wordpress lj xanga and whatever else there is. (let's see)

Alright, i don't know what else to blog, but this blog will stay here though.
I feel that it's not appropiate or rather uncomfortable to blog anything here, so many people reads this. :@ Toodles.

xoxo

This is damn cute (: hahaha!

Midnight, and there's school later. i don't feel excited at all, i have no feelings. I just don't feel like going! :( i want my sleep till noon time although it's like wasting my morning away :( i don't want to wake up so early! :( I can't seem to get to sleep now, prolly because i slept just now already. damn it! :( i really want to sleep, i feel hungry suddenly. pffttt! please let me fall asleep! :)

xoxo

HAWHAW. i just created a wordpress blog, and i guess it's easier than lj ? (: in terms of usage and all but i still prefer blogger, it's like just blog and publish. For wordpress i still must figure out here and there, template and all, etc. Especially (underthecut) my favourite! :D Although lj is more interesting :) i don't know how am i suppose to manage 2 blogs, actually more! But i'm not revealing it though. (: hehe! Anyway, Bubbles(the dog) came over yesterday and she's grown fatter, i miss taking care of her :( although she's partially blind now(verysad)
that dog doesnt like photos to be taken -.-



see her white eye :(




And random unglam photos i took today, probably they will kill me if they see this!









AND I'M DAMN ANNOYED BY SOME IRRITATING BLOGSHOP OWNERS WHO APPARENTLY ARE MORONS OR SOME FORM OF IDON'TKNOWWHATSHITNOT. LIKE BACKING OUT AFTER TELLING ME THEY HAVE SOME ORDERS. :@ SO DAMN ANNOYING, I FEEL LIKE KILLING HER! so if you want to get VS bag tell me okay! :@

I need my Daily Dosage,
i'm screaming
hurting
dying
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.
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Till,
i get my daily dosage ):