Strawberry Love

Strawberry
fruit
is
beautiful
and
yummy
not
the
flavour

Ichigo

Love, Strawberry

(screams)

(jump)

(whine)

(hug)

sunday.

I'm sorry, i've been whiney and #@%)(*@_!&%_. moodless :\
Tell me it doesn't hurt, Tell me.

i hate staying at home at this point of time, i'm all alone(with the cat) and i'm really bored.
had main service for today because of baptism. that is why i'm home so early! i had no where to go, wanted to go down to the IT fair but i couldnt decide between home and fair. I didn't want to go there alone either(although i wouldn't mind at all) but thinking about the crowd it kind of sucks plus there's no one to help me decide on what i should buy. i would end up talking to myself(in my mind) and ya, just keep talking to myself. so annoying when nobody is around for me to talk to ! :(((( sad right. Grr. I want to get stuff, but i'm lazy. why must sundays be so crowded? what's more the last day of the fair, imagine the millions(exaggerated) of ants around.
nevermind, get it another day. fair isn't the only place i could get stuff right. what's more it's not as if they are selling cheaper or what. exhibition doesn't mean they are gonna sell things at a cheaper rate right unless they are clearing or something. New products will definitely be expensive. -.- So, i reluctantly came home with a black face. It was going to rain anyway. then the cat came home with this huge chameleon A-G-A-I-N ! and i scolded her. the lizard's still at the same spot i think it's half dead. i don't know why she gave up playing with it. gross gross gross. been long since she caught one home. EEEEKKKKKKKK :(
i shall be good and play cooking academy. managed to download it(unknown if there's virus) but i don't care cause i really want to play it! it's like cooking mama. so fun so fun. but your hand will get tired from all the cutting stiring kneading folding grating and what more. :)))))
shall go play now.

it hurts
it hurts
it hurts

to stay at home :@ :@ :@ :@

Love, Strawberry.
XOXO

Strawberry

Strawberry

i'm thinking of many many things. i'm bored to tears. i've nothing to do except stare at this screen. woke up from my sleep not long, cause i was too bored using the comp. only people like me will be so bored using cause i have nothing much to do ? :( hate stay at home saturdays. really hate! hate last minute plannings and decisions last minute cancellation last minute everything. Hate last minute! :@ i've been home for don't know how many saturdays already. It use to be outside saturdays(or maybe that's during school days) but now it's holidays so it's the opposite? because i've been out everyday except saturdays and church on sundays only. Hate crowds anyway. The plan was ruined today, i thought i could go to the IT fair and probably get some stuff. Booo :(

When you have an unhappy Strawberry, you have a very demanding Strawberry.
when Strawberry is unhappy, Strawberry demands alot because Strawberry is unhappy.
and when Strawberry is unhappy, Strawberry wants to splurge and spend on many many things. and then Strawberry wouldn't care how much she spends because Strawberry wants to be extreme happy to recover her unhappiness. Strawberry is Angry ! :@ Strawberry wants company/coffee/retail therapy/yummy food/and many many more. Strawberry doesn't want school to start. Strawberry is unhappy because she doesn't want school but more fun. Strawberry still have many many unfulfilled plans on her to-do-list. Holidays are never enough to fulfill them. poofffff :(

I need to switch back my biological alarm clock before school starts. I'll be extremely dead. i don't know how am i suppose to wake up so damn early. i'll be tearing my eyes open, dragging myself out of bed for school. Grrrr ! i've been turning quite nocturnal during the holidays, 9am seems quite hard for me to even get up. what more 7 plus am ? Seriously hate dragging myself out of bed with eyes half open/close. who likes that anyway ? :( Rawr.
I'm thinking if i'm excited for school ? but i guess if i say i am i'm contradicting the above words. but at the same time, new class/new classmates feels great/not great. I don't know. i just got the feeling i'll be the same, same like last term still the same old me. i'm neutral to everything.
and i really need to pull up grades sky high, although i'm quite happy with my gpa last term. I cannot think that i'll do the same and be too confident. I need to improve a lot and i will. I want to do well ! :)))) but with a new class, the start would be difficult like before. i hope it would be better after some time. there's bound to be #(%*@_)(@_ people in the class who doesn't do work and many more. Nevertheless, it's their loss and my gain. sometimes you have to stick to your own thinking your own goals and your own idea. why let others influence you so easily when at this point of time you have to stand on your own, for your own sake. (:

Enough of school, starting in 3 days time. Goshhhhhh. school hasn't started and i'm looking forward to the next holidays. :( soon, year 1 would have passed by. Fast ? Christmas, Brand New Year, etc. Can't wait for next 18th birthday. I hope it would be more of surprises? and by then, another wish list. hohoho :)))

I'm hungryyyyyyyyyy! i need foodddddd.

Love, Strawberry
XOXO

我很 angry。
我很 sad。
你可以不要去吗？


我要哭
我要喝coffee
我要出去看见你
我要睡觉
我很bored

我要吃
华文不cool 的。 我是anti 华文。

byebye
我爱你
XOXO

Jump On You

i'm pretty upset, i'm sure i did lost my whole folder of animal pictures which mainly consist of my cat and sunshine, probably some dogs and others. I wanted to change my desktop wallpaper when i realise the folder is gone, it's nowhere in sight. i don't know how it disappeared! why of all folders must it be that. I guess the only way to retrieve them is through my blog if i'd ever posted them cause i've deleted majority of the pictures in my phone since it's taking up so much space i can't take more pictures! :(((((( Why things have to go haywire at this point of time, you know school's starting soon. i don't want more problems with my laptop :@

I realise school's starting very very very soon. I haven't got many thing i want. I havent got my mouse a hard disk or at least a thumb drive. i want to get my hoodie for school too :( everything last minute. i want to go to the IT fair to get stuff :( boooooo. give me the cash! broke broke broke.

toodles

Love, Shermaine ♥
XOXO

Yesterday :
A trip made to the Singapore Post Delivery Base to collect my long lost package for than a month ago ? It was at the woodlands industrial area which is so ulu, i've never been there my whole life. There were practically nobody around to ask for help, not a single soul in sight even at the bus stop -.- tried our luck and walk across the road, met this woman and asked for directions (: was in the right track. collected the package which contained my shorts, bus back to school, paid some fines then to cwp to have lunch-starving! Pasta mania, don't try the spiced fish baked pasta. it's practically curry with pasta and it taste so yucky. i hate curry. :|
went back after that, did the installation of all the stupid drivers but the downloading was taking so long :@
at night, i dug out all the fujitsu cd, so it's easier to install (: all done i guess so?

the place where they put all the letters accordingly.

disgusting curry pasta!

pizza (:


i didn't rotate this picture, my computer was like that last night after installing some drivers. and my neck was so pain from all the tilting and trying to solve the problem. grrr ! good thing it's back to normal now :)

Would you not go ?
i don't want to be left alone, bitterly.
:(

Love, Shermaine
XOXO

pictures.

Double Decker!

27Aug2008happybirthdaydaddy.

Happy Birthday Daddy, i love you.

I'm bad at expressing my love, except mere words 'i love you'.

i feel like a total moron, i did nothing.

But deep inside I love you.

i'm bad, bad at expressing anything.

i'm only good at doing nothing, i know i know.

i'm totally useless. you don't have to tell me that.

i feel bitter.

Glass Bangles (:

anyway, went out with I today with the aim of going to Little India. I've never been there my whole life, being a Singaporean : so we thought Mustafa was in Little India. we got out knowing that it doesnt exist there. asked the counter and the nice guy scan our card giving us a free ride because we alighted at the wrong station, it should be farrer park. Again, it was raining. rain spoils moods. We couldn't walk to Mustafa since it was raining and end up cabbing when it's so damn near. I didn't know Mustafa sells so many many many things. like everything you want it's there. feels like china departmental store/supermarket. Groceries to shoes to accesories jewelery medicine clothes sports wear electronics blahblah. we bought nothing actually because we only wanted bangles and thought they didnt have. good thing it was raining heavily, and we asked. and yay we spend one hour choosing because there were too many. anyway, not what i expected wasnt that nice. and we broke many too and pretended nothing happened (: and we realise it's actually glass. Fragile! i'm so afraid i break it :( (once in a lifetime) Haha! :D so after an hour of choosing, we are happy people. and the rain stopped, so we walk back to the mrt and train to town. She cut her bang fringe, and it's seriously nice okay! i'm not bluffing you. (you and your particular person particular look). and finally i trimmed my brows (: and she wax for me, pain! but my brows are still thick, she didn't want to do any thinner. so at least it's better now. home (:

seeing someone complain about insects, i also want to complain. i'm still wondering why cockroaches and lizards love my toilet. is there anything there to eat? or is it because it's a hiding place away from my cat.

cause they are pissing me off. i want my cat to sleep in the toilet at night so she can catch all of them! :@

so annoying you know. every night before i go to bed, i on the light in the toilet and there's bound to be a cockroach somewhere and then i'll just not go in anymore. freaks me out. lizards are still alright (: cockroaches are disgusting creatures! grr. last night was worse, i saw this small cockroach(not the usual big ones) on the top of the tube of toothpaste! and i wanted to brush my teeth. seriously damn gross you know. and it stayed there, i know i'm disgusting i didn't brush my teeth in the end. i didn't know how to get rid of it. i'm so afraid it crawls onto the toothbrush. and i'm still wondering if it did. i bet it did before since i never know where it goes every night. crawling around on everything. you know when you sleep at night, you don't know what goes on in the dark and thinking about it, feels gross. cockroaches crawling on toothbrush plates and everything. Gross! :( and this morning i didn't dare to touch the toothpaste so i went to open a new one -.- anyway finishing soon also.

Toodles.

i forgot to see Mars last night, was there any at 0030 ?

Love, Shermaine

XOXO

Double Decker.

my day was exploring singapore (: woke up extra early today(first time!) went down to rp at 10 plus, my laptop decided to die on me last night after installing fake kaspersky. it didnt even want to load into windows and keep restarting a million times. so fed up, it went to the doctor today and got it all cleaned up(reformatted) for the first time. only C drive (: so clean now, but i've to install all the damn fujitsu stuff now which is making me so fed up! :@ waited for around 1 hour plus, of course not in school. went back to collect it, train down to PL which is so damn freaking far i want to die! :( bus to the place, i wanted to sit a double decker bus! hahaha(: but didnt :( so waited for - a fair bit and i was using my laptop there trying to download stuff with a slow wireless network which i gladly stole. went off at almost 4 to have super late lunch. then bus(DOUBLE DECKER) to amk.
you must be wondering why i'm so excited to sit a double decker, its because i've never sat on one before okay. (stop laughing!) i don't stay in the east where there's lots of double decker. of course excited, hahaha to sit at the top part! :D train home after that, and it was raining yet again! :( so sickening. it must rain everyday now!

and i'm very sad at the fact that i didn't save my bookmarks before reformatting. now it's all gone. extremely sad you know :( i've saved so so so so soooooooooooooooooo many you can't count. i've to find them all over again. double sigh! :( nevermind, i guess i remember some of the important ones i want. all my online shopping gone, except those i frequently go so i'll remember. hehe (: i've got a super clean computer now.
i just cannot believe school is starting next wednesday? can you? i cant! as for the rest of the polys, yeah you got a good 2 months break. sadly i don't. and i'm sad, aren't you so sad for me. :( i'm still dreaming, i thought i have another one more week, excluding this one more week. i'm not ready, not ready for school just yet. i haven't even enjoy my holidays enough. i still want to play/relax/ENJOY! why can't there be one more week at least ? :( i'm ranting and ranting non stop about school but i won't stop ranting because i'm sad i'm scared :(

the grades and new class are out. i'm back to W4 and i'm happy (: it's exciting to know your grades and new class and you will be beaming with joy. i really did. so excited to know other people's class too. chayzx in same blk as me, level 7 but not w47q. haha (: i'm so glad you're near me tooo. yay! except wednesdays :(
timetable still the same as sem1 for w4. haha (: lovelove! i'm freaking scared to go to school, i can't imagine entering a class of strangers. really :( i don't know how to describe the feeling but you know it. i don't want to go to school anymore, anymore. i think i should stop brooding over this but enjoy the rest of the holidays. the little few more days that are left. i want it to be the most enjoyable one. i haven't done all i wanted to do.
my heart's thumping hard, i'm paranoid over everything.

enough
enough
enough

i want to post pictures, but i've no bluetooth now :@
so annoying, my mouse cursor is being so damn sensitive now. everything's pissing me off! grrr
alright, off to bathe.
Goodnight (:

Olympics2008 RhythmicGymnast/Skating

i enbarras myself this afternoon.

i was using the comp when i hate this sound(like vibration).
so i thought its my maid's hp then i go tell her your hp vibrating.
m: *checks hp* where got anything
me: *still hearing vibration sound*
me: what's that sound
m: that one your daddy la.

and actually he was snoring so damn loudly. everyone was laughing la. so embarrassing. they keep talking about it. seriously sounds like vibration. -.-

i keep having weird dreams the whole week.
camps to komodo dragons to many many more.
and this morning i dreamt that i went somewhere with I and S we did something stupid at a shop, ran away to hide and laugh our heads off. then i woke up, i realise i was late!

Twirlsss

Rhythmic Gymnastic is damn awesome, i don't know how to describe how good they were. I want to watch the olympics again! sadly, today's the closure for Beijing Olympics 2008. I want to watch rhythmic gymnast/artistic gymnast/synchronise swimming/gymnast swimming?(don't know what's that called). so nice so pretty so graceful so flexible so (insert word). Russia's good for their movement flexibility and all. (rhythmic/gymnast swimming). I wish i was that flexible. Always wanting to learn gymnastics you knowwwww. :( although it's so damn tough and draining. but so pretty!














they turn/twirl/spin/run/jump/splits
totally Awesome!
they do everything as if they don't have spines. omg!
Love their flexibility♥
and this made me think of
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Figure skating (:





and make me feel like going skating again! But i'll never get to learn it :(
Wanted since primary school ? I'm too old already -.- my bones will break! haha :)
why don't they have iceskating olympics ?

Enough of Olympics.



I'm currently craving for jap food. I spend my time looking at nice places to dine at. i want to eat buffet. Sashimi♥ i want to eat. i want to eat. i want to eat. :( i want to eat icecream i want to eat waffles i want to eat everything :))))))


Love, Shermaine.
XOXO

[edit]
i couldn't download some of the games like cooking academy, i'm sure it would be fun. i only got to play firstclassflurry which is some aeroplane game. you are the stewardess and you serve food and drinks to the passengers. i know i sound like a kid playing this kind of game, but it's kind of fun and you know the kind of challenge. i like! :) click here and there. hahaha (: so i wasted part of my afternoon/evening viewing random blogs and i can view for hours(staring at their gorgeous pictures and be green with envy) 0.0 then i started on the game till 9 plus. addictive! but i stopped already. just watch one episode of the dogcat show, continue the rest tomorrow. see! the time pass super fast just by playing that lame game. hahaha :)
so bored yeah. and poof like that, one week of holidays just flew by when i actually did nothing! gosh. why so fast. into the second week of holidays already. soon it will be gone then the third then school starts.
argh! i don't want to think of it. i'm not prepared, i never want to go back to school again. :( sigh
shall get to bed, church tomorrow. (:

goodnight ♥
Nineteen.
XOXO





finally received the item, so i guess the invalid address wasnt that item.
hmm, so what is in that package? i've yet to call the headquarters. (:
i hope its the shorts that got lost some who knows how many weeks ago! hopefully it is! i'm excited. hehehe :D i've got the last two episodes of when a dog loves a cat and will watch it later since i'm so bored. but now, i'm gonna play shandy's introduced website of games. like the yahoo kind(diner dash and so on). omg i've always loved this kind of games. so lame but super like them! can entertain me for awhile and time will pass very fast. hahahah :)

toodles.

Love baby. (: hehe

(JUMPS)

(BIG HUG)

(LEAP IN ARMS)

(SMILES)



Lost Mail Invalid Address! :(
troublesome, need to call the post office blahblah and get my package send to me :@
got all so excited for nothing -.-

swensen's for late lunch, i didn't get to eat the icecream of my choice because there was icecream as dessert in the set (plan fail). another day i guess (: grilled fish and fries + soup + butterscotch icecream. breek's grilled fish is the best. its the best i've ever eaten! (: then, journey to the centre of the earth! that show is superrrrrr aweseome okay. its 3d and it makes it more exciting/thrilling/engaging/good effects/and makes your heart pound faster. one of the best 'fantasy' show ? although its very fantasy kind at least its still engaging and not some lame old show. fantasies are meant to be fake right? and magical? hehe (: i enjoyed it though. been watching alot of movies lately. ten promises to my dog, mummy 3, money no enough 2, journey to the centre of the earth. and the next one probably meet dave ? (: hehehe. been losing appetite lately, no idea. i feel hungry yet dont feel like eating. and i hate being forced to eat. i know i'm not as fat as you. but neither am i that skinny for goodness sake. i'm trying my best to be fat okay.(kidding) i'm not a food machine, a toy or whatsoever. i eat when i want to, and when i want to i eat a mountain of food for you. hahaha.
time to sleep soon, its saturday already (: almost finish watching when a dog loves a cat. the dog in the show freaking cuteeeeeeee! :D omggggg. i wonder if my cat actually talks too? i dont mind watching the show a million times. super cuteeeeeee. omgggggg (:

okay, goodnight
XOXO

I'm all Smiles

more pictures from shandy's phone (:



retarded i know. :\



'When a Dog loves a Cat'


super nice hk show (: okay, because its dogs and cats of course i like! :)
the dog extremely sweet and cute in the show. can make you smile and tear (:
can't wait to watch the rest ! :D

Love you, xoxo

I love animals so much, sometimes i wonder why in the first place i choose this course. It's not exactly the course i really wanted. but still since i couldnt get into veterinary i'd make do with this biomedical course which is somehow somewhat of interest to me. i'm going with the flow, like any other student's life. just get into some course in poly even though it's not what you really wanted, but just get in to study some shit and after graduating you realise it's not what you really wanted. hmm, so go with the flow or with your heart? i guess it's too late for regrets. just get done with this phrase of my life and move on to whichever comes next. i can't possibly quit school or what now right. all for parents sake. i just have to do my best now right? :| it's too late for regrets. what for regretting not studying hard in the past?! TOO LATEEEEEEE. too bad i can't turn back time. :)

Girlfriends. Jurong swimming :)

Girlfriends

away from blogger for 3 days, maybe because i got bored of blogging and having nothing much to blog. then i'll post 3 days worth of crap into one post to bore you out. kidding! :)
since 3 days have passed, i find myself doing practically nothing except being online. if i'm home the whole day, i'll be online the minute i wake up till the minute i go to bed. which is more or less 12 hours ? that's how much time i spend with the computer, more than anything else. bad bad bad. :}
saturday was at grandpa's place looking at the new plan for the new enbloc flats built in five years time. and i realise by then i'll be twenty two. huh, why so fast so oldddd :( i want to remain this age. above 20 feels so damn old -.- basically that's it. going home to sleep thereafter, my usual hobby (: sunday was church - Honour your Parents. i wanted to blog about that, but was too lazy, so i guess i forgotten what to blog. nevermind! :) monday was another day rotting at home. i feel so lazyyyyyyy. i cooked my own lunch- pasta! (with whatever ingredients i could find). and i would have my all time favourite hobby- napping in the afternoon! :D
gosh, i'm such a piggo. so afraid i cannot sleep at night since i wake up at 7 plus most of the time.
(3days in a paragraph). holidays is so boring don't you know ?

and today, nothing beats meeting with my two girlies. :) trained down to chinese garden for swimming at the jurong complex. we got lost walking there. :| sure had loads of fun although there may be nothing much to play. it wasnt crowded at all :) wave pool, slides which made me so dizzy, lazy pool. we played for an hour or more then went to bathe because it was so cold :\
camwhore quite a bit in the toilet which isn't a very nice place. left, cabbed to imm although its so near because we are lazy people. ate at 'spaghetti too'. shandy claims it isn't nice because her fish n chips so little. hahaha! walked around. and then Daiso which can make you go crazy because there's too many things to get you don't know which and which to buy. can just buy down the whole store. i want to go there again! it was raining, so we cabbed back again to marsiling :)
lazy lazy lazy. then home (: enjoyed my day pretty much. plan for the next outing next week?
really blessed to have you two. Love, shermaine.

And i present you pictures of my face which i know you don't enjoy. But for the benefit of my blog i'll post no matter what. (:

hate to see my hand in the picture.

see, irvin so addicted to her game!












Even though 'Cats are evil' i'll still show you. right irvin?
you don't know how cute they are.




and guess what is this black pile?


my homemade crabmeat ham chicken pasta.

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And the black pile is a PILE OF BLACK ANTS. damn gross right? i don't know why they are all sticking together carrying food?

good thing there's something called draft, i nearly lost my whole chunk of words.
my heart stopped at that moment.
tomorrow will be a great day.
xoxo

The Story of the Cat and the Hare

trying to hide under, but failed.

Once upon a time, there lived a cat and a hare, they became friends, and lived happily ever after (:
THE END.

okay, just kidding with the story. i stole the pictures from my brother's blog(oops), thus the high quality photos you know. i wish i could take such nice pictures too. all lies with the camera -.-
my cat and my neighbour's rabbit. the 'kissing' picture looks extremely sweet and cute. awww.
so lovable. :)))) my cat lost her collar for the second time! :@ high possibility that someone stole it or maybe it just came out or something. she's temporary using her friend's(rabbit) red collar without a bell. i found this random hp chain with a bell and hook it on her. so the bell doesnt ring as much as before when she walks or run. its weird not having a bell, because you wont know where she is and when she's running home.

holidays are indeed so boring. everybody's just rotting at home doing nothing -.- and i did nothing today.
lazing around at 'home' watch abit of hk show, diving olympics. and someone keep emphasizing how muscular they are, and something else -.- plus the way they land in the water. and i still think table tennis is a stupid game. worse among all the other ball games. hitting that ball across the table? i have never played before so i don't know. hahaha :) ended up sleeping for a little awhile and that's about it. how boring my life is.
goshhhhh, tomorrow will be repeating the same old process. :} and just like that, a week has past!
can't wait to meet up with shandy and irvin next week. i hope we really meet up. been long since i last saw them. missesssssss :|

okay, enough ranting.
xoxo

and a picture for you. hahahaha