emotions, everything.

I have so much to say, so many things running through my mind, but I don't know how to put them in words. I've been thinking what i wanted to blog. (:
i'm not hiding behind this facade, i tell myself i'm not.
i'm just not putting too much of my emotions into this. its not worth it, totally.
face the fact, life is unfair. life is full of rubbish, complain but move on.
little setbacks don't pull me down, i've learnt more to that then just let problems drag you down.
indeed, i've been in a school of thoughts. no doubt i've learnt more than i could expect of.
you go to school to learn, put in effort in all you do and make the best out of everything.
if you go to school for other reasons, then probably you won't learn anything.
play and studies plays a part in school. you do things at the proper time.
sometimes, putting too much emotions into things that are not even worth it, waste your time.
why waste your time on feeling hurt, angered and brings your mood down.
emotions affect your life, people around you, everything.

i lost my train of thoughts, shall not blog this kind of stuff, i'm not being emo or what. (:
i just heard about a coffin being burnt at the void deck or open space. who on earth burn a coffin there, a real one, not those paper ones 0.0 i'm seriously amazed and shocked. i've never seen or heard of such things before. i'll be more than interested to have seen the scene. i'm not a saddist or sick in the head, but i like looking at funerals, especially processions :) i think they are so interesting where different people have different ways of doing it. And PLEASE! don't say i'm sick in the head or crazy. no saddist. hahahaha.

i hate the school internet, so slow. i could watch my show ytd, but not today :(
super sad. gives me the reason to pay more attention (:
its getting late, but i want to continue watching. its interesting to know what is gonna happen next. :D goodnight. tomorrow will be a tough day, yet the last day of the week (:
happy shit. holidays are soon coming true :)
i bet tomorrow will be slack day, since the problem's so difficult. :@

Another week of school.

Another Week of School (:

When i'm occupied with things, i feel lazy to blog. I think those who don't even update their blog shouldnt even have a blog. what's the point ? haha (:
one last ut tomorrow, and finally everything's over. i'm so glad although i've no more motivation of studying. i find studying useless. i still end up opening and closing the 6ps during the ut :| redundant studying. i just use my brains to answer. plus, tomorrow's maths. i'm dead. i don't know probability and neither do i know the last few VBs. {:

today's lesson sums up the quality facilitator we have, Mr Loh. we all love him. and i will not skip the last lesson of cognitive next week. I love cognitive, and the facilitator too and the current team. I think this is the best module i ever had. compared to the rest yeah. :) our team loves digressing a whole lot when preparing the ppt. and we always talk about the same thing every week - grades, uts, facilitators, food etc. funny (:

and yay, i'm done with rj. one less thing to do. i shall scan through the 6ps soon and then continue watching one litre of tears. i cant wait! :D I think the show is good, kind of touching though. i told you sad shows are just nice although they make you tear. at the same time make you realise many things, and you think about many things. anyway, school is enough to make me think a whole lot. the next few episodes of windstruck didn't work so i'm not gonna continue that show. :@

okay, goodnight.
tomorrow's enterprise :(
not looking forward to science too. but i need my grades!
urgh.
no pictures for the time being.
there are many things I would love to blog here, but no i wont of course.
i know you'll be glad if i would blog more personal things rightttt. nahhhhhhh.

Kdramas. alone(singfest)

For once, i'm too occupied to blog. i'm heading to bed soon.
shall sleep earlier today (: ut again tomorrow :(
and i just have one thing to say, horror in 4 days.
i'll be alone, alone, alone, alone, alone. for some time.
i guess i'll have to occupy my time like maybe go swimming again.
or. watch shows. not a fan of korean/jap dramas but i just started watching this show called windstruck. and i want to watch 1 litre of tears after that. i can't possibly watch two at one time.
i rather finish one whole show, if not i'll be neither here nor there and prolly never finish it.

i want to watch 10 promises to my dog again! :(

alright, time to go.
goodnight.

Loser.

I'm a L-O-S-E-R

Why do pretty pictures, pretty people exist. they just make me envy :| I wish i could afford all i see online, i know its all not worth it/waste of money/etc but they just make me happy for awhile, that little while. but nevertheless, looking at them make me a little happy as well (:
for now, its saving money and more money. i have so many needswants.
its beyond my list, beyond my affordability.

I think i'm a freaking loser/failure/etc.
i failed to study as much as i wanted to, just browsing and reading the 6ps. i spent half my night=half my life doing that chemistry quiz which someone showed me. i ended up cracking my brain and researching which took my night away. i rushed rj and now i've finished 'studying'.
i only read p9 to p13 (: i hate physics, i don't want to look at it again. i pray it would be easy. and i've a strong feeling its gonna be some maths again, like the previous one. i hope not! i hope it would be some easy chemistry (: i'm counting down till holidays. i'm tired of school.
one moment i have all the motivation to work hard and all, the next moment i'm thinking why am i studying so hard? imagine you have high hopes, dreams, goals something you dream for in the future, you study so hard, and the next day you're gone. gone forever. hopes are dashed.
its all in the mental mind, how you take things to heart, how you react to situations.

and now, you know who are the people you really can trust, can confide into. one who does not betray you/backstab/spread rumors/leave you. its sad, so sad that such people exist. i'm not saying that everyone's perfect, in life there's always people you dislike that exist. (you may be one of them). but nevertheless, you try your best to be the best you can, someone whom people can confide to, trust. the world is unfair.
i'm sorry, but i can't bring myself to trust anyone else. i'm happy with my personal life.
but on the surface, i'm not all that happy. (you won't get this)

it seems like i'm always so free to blog. i'm really that free.
i come back everyday and end up sleeping (:

i need to get my sleep. more sleep! i'll be tired tomorrow.
goodnight ♥

I need Pretty Pictures.

i need to see pretty pictures.
picturesofmesuck

i need to say alot, blog out all my feelings. but this is too open for me to blog out anything.
i'm still comtemplating whether to make it private. its private for some time, then open again, sorry for the hassle. i wanted to post things i wanted for my own view only.
really got so much to say, i don't know where to start.
sometimes it hurts so much, i don't know where to go, where to turn to.
i wish i could fly away, from this earth to somewhere desolate. only you and me.
really.

i know trust is a two way thing.
you've lost your trust in me time again and again.
i've also lost my trust.
why can't adults/parents all be open, whats with their freaking close narrow minded mind full of seriously i don't know what shitz. why can't they understand beyond that close minded mind.
think so damn straight, straighter than a straight line. one answer thinking. try all ways to answer you back with their own thinking which claims its always right which is so not true and obviously i cannot be bothered with their thinking cause they don't know what we go through and this century full of crap we learn in school which is too much for us to handle that we're going crazy with overloaded knowledge that whatever we say will make no sense to them cause with their own straight thinking there's no point speaking much. it all lies with their brain.

(sorry this whole shit makes no sense)

i'm not including personal matters here, i'm penning down my thoughts.

anyway, church today.
went back woodlands after that, then down to admiralty and waited for quite some time.
got a lift to jp (: tickets for 10 promises to my dog. i was so happy there were seats available.
walked around for awhile, bought my lunch at subway then headed to the cinema.
subway feels so healthy, so nice! i want to have a healthy diet. i shall refrain from unhealthy food.
the show was so good. only shows that make you laugh or cry are awesome, other than that, no way its gonna be that good. i rate the show 50 stars! i know i will keep squealing in delight at how cute and adorable the dog is. the girl is pretty too (: seriously, must watch!
super cute. maybe for animal lovers, like me :D and some parts were extremely sad, can cry a bucket load of tears. i just cannot take it when animals die/when people and animals have to part. its damn damn heart breaking. I should treasure my cat, i don't know how long it will live.
the dog lived for ten years only :(

treasure the people around you too (:

hate sunday crowds, super crowded and flooded with people! urgh.
have to squeeze through the people really sucks. i'm so glad i do no need to squeeze with anymore people in the train. decided to cab back instead, and it was so much better although a higher cost. school again tomorrow, no more skipping! 3 uts up this week. i've not studied.
i need to occupy my mine with studies. i need to do well, as well as i want. :|

i should go back to the habit of sleeping early. where's that plan that suppose to work.
which only did for a few days. -.- eat healthy, drink more water, sleep early.
i really should prevent all those ulcers :( they are never ending.
it hurts, but i'm kind of used to it. i've been having ulcers all my life.
i'm not kidding, don't think i'm crazy. HAHA! maybe i'm really sick.

someone is complaining i blog really slow, cause i got so many things to say. Sorry !

shall end here.
goodnight.
xoxoxo

luv you many. swimming (:

I E.n.v.y

a purple beach? cool.

i slept till 11am today, my morning swim plan failed. i did wake up at 7 plus, but someone didnt.
i was dead tired too, i continue sleeping till 11. the plan after that failed too :( (10promisestomydog)
because of some issues. i was upset, i lie on my bed wanting to sleep. then the sudden thought of going swimming alone sounds great. so i got up, and went swimming (: i wanted to get everything off my mind. the aim was to only swim ten laps and i managed to (:
i cant remember the last time i dipped into water. it felt good, but was crowded though.
i'm prepared for all the aches since i also can't remember the last time i ever exercised regularly. i never did anyway :| i felt breathless after every lap, but still continue.

my hope was high, hoping i came out and saw y. but disappointedly no.
i went back after ten laps which took half an hour only? i didn't get tanner.
ten laps is enough to tire me out, this is just a start, improve next time! (:

i hope tomorrow's plan will work out. i can't believe its sunday already, so fast!
its always fast. i can't wait to watch 10 promises to my dog, gladly its still showing in GV.
its a much watch, no matter the cost. check out the trailer in youtube.
sweet, cute x infinity, touching. weakness for animals, they drive me crazy. :(

sometimes i have many thoughts to blog, then when i'm at this page its gone.
update tomorrow or something.

goodnight.
Luv you many.

Lazy day. Work out! :)

must see all the cats, i wish i could adopt them
(catwelfare)
(meow)
super cute!

Lazy Day

Today's really a lazy day, lazy to blog now too. and lazy to go to school.
and i told b to force me to go to school, but we end up not going. and i wanted to wake up early today, to meet early at 7.45am (: i set my alarm at 6.45 and 7am but to no avail. i off all of them unknowingly. and the next moment it was 7.40 when i woke up, which was late. text - . and tada, end up skipping again, and i went back to sleep soon enough. the weather's just so so nice. slept till around 11. never slept till so late for so long, not even weekends. sometimes saturday wake up early then go back sleep (: sunday will never be that case.

slacked, then left house @ 12 plus, second home of course :) slack again, slept awhile. went back to school with you, waited for you to finish ut. and then we slack in school again, eating and eating! then went back home (:
i stayed online all the while, i played cooking mama just now again. its just so fun. i want a psp.
i want many many things, but seems like singapore is just too boring for shopping! i'm not tempted with much to buy. but i just did online shopping for mylove. i didn't get anything myself, not yet (:
all i want now is a better complexion, i want to shop for some stuff. makeup shopping :)

i want to work out. i hope the plan for swimming tomorrow works.
i need to exercise a little to sastify myself maybe. seriously, i bet my stamina drop a hundred times. i've not exercise for like years. omg! :(
i'm very tired, i want to sleep now. i hope to wake up early for swimming tomorrow. I HOPE!
i should stop being a pig, but sleeping is the best thing to do!

goodnighttttttttttttttttt.

Cat welfare. org (: be strong!

I want to be S-T-R-O-N-G.

i'm weak, i want to be strong. weak physically, mentally, emotionally.
Feelings and emotions are great things, but when they overcome you so badly, you wish they didn't exist. I always wished i didn't have that kind of emotions, the feeling of sadness, anger, pain, tears, and any other negative things. don't you think so ? everybody wants to feel happy, the feeling of joy and smiles are so much better than tears. Still, obstacles have to occur in life, there's no escape to it. face it, overcome it, learn from it, and not repeat it ? but so many things come naturally, inevitably. some things you really cannot control. you can't stop it from happening. its life. (:

i hate feeling the pain inside, i hate feeling sad, i hate the feeling of wanting to break down but control so hard. (fear of embarrassment). i hate being so sensitive, so petty, and always wanting others to give in. the world is unfair, nobody's going to always give in to me.(i wish it was otherwise) sometimes i feel so like a kid, i want things to go my way, and i mean my way. i want everybody to give in to me. i complain when i do not want things to be my way. i know i'm selfish, very. i have to change this attitude of mine, so self centered. why can't i be a small kid, then everybody will probably give in to me. and things will always go my way. how great :D

enough of ranting, i'm tired tonight cause i didn't get my evening nap. :(
i felt lazy in school today. ut was kind of easy, but i doubt i will get many correct.(no confidence)
i went for the catwelfare CE talk alone during lunch break. it was freaking crowded, every inch of the hall was filled up. kind of boring, but i gained facts. i learn how inhumane some people really are. just a complain from someone about stray cats around their estate they detest, the cats could be put to sleep. i think they are cruel inhumane (any other word you could describe here) and i think they should be the one being put to sleep. bunch of brainless no compassion people.
i know the rate of stray cats in singapore is forever high and increasing, thus the strong need for sterilisation. isn't there a better solution other than putting them to sleep. why so mean-o.
i wish i could keep all of them, but i can't :(
i hope sunshine weren't in that category(putting to sleep). i've not seen him for a few months. :(

anyway, kachang was a stray too or maybe an abandoned. I brought her home one year ago when she was an injured kitten. she's grown so big now. probably only less than 2 years but she seem so big for a so called 'kitten'. maybe cat now (: and when i found her, she was already sterilised. not that i didn't know but after the talk today, i can confirm that. the tipped ear(part of a ear 'cut' off) shows she's sterilised already. i think we seldom see tortoise shell cats as strays. at first, she looked quite ugly because of the colours, but as she grew older, the colours sort of change and i think its damn nice. i love the mix mix brown black and white. sometimes i feel she looks like a cow. cause brown and black spots. hahaha (: so cute!

didn't take new pictures.

i think i should stop, lengthy post. i know you love to read my blog. am i suppose to thank you for reading the whole chunk of words? in the first place, its meant for reading. even i myself enjoy reading my own blog over again. i feel dumb :| came back from grandma's house not long ago, went there straight after school for dinner. had dinner there because it was my grandfather's death anniversary. i counted and it was 3 years ago since he passed away, time really flies, so fast. i don't even believe its 3 years ago, it felt like it was just last year or something. i don't feel like going to school tomorrow, and its because of one reason. and i won't say. if i'm gonna rant about that it would take a few pages. i should stop here, goodnight (:

Happy eighteen months (:

S-T-O-N-E-R

for goodness sake, i'm not a stoner, i don't stone. i rock.

let me tell you how much you mean to me.

i feel sick, sick of dragging myself to school everyday. there's ut tomorrow, i can't skip. enterprise ut, enterprise module. urgh! :@ i really feel like skipping, i feel sick. i'm kind of tired of school. i really want a break, a long one (: i've not studied for tomorrow, dead again. I really want to do well, i always do. but am i even putting in the effort? :( i'm so disappointed with myself sometimes. Today was about attitude, and sometimes i don't even see myself changing my attitude and all. i feel bad, guilty at how i behave. shall not talk about this.

somehow i feel uneasy on the amount of people and who the people who actually view this blog. i hate people to judge at what is written or posted here. Humans always jump to conclusion as to what they see. Sometimes i do, but most of the time i don't. i don't do things i don't like people to do to me. i just don't know why people love to gossip so much, gossip on everything they see. i hate gossip, but i love stating the facts. and i mean real facts. not gossip! :\
say what you want, i don't really care.

my throat still hurts, and my stomach hurt the whole of today. thanks to (i guess) its the chicken rice i ate. after eating, my stomach was so damn pain the whole afternoon. :( now its better.
i would love to skip school this friday, but looking at my grades. and i don't want to miss out a lesson on biology. i'm afraid it will come out for ut next week but i bet not since ut's on tuesday and not everybody have finished that lesson. BOO! :(

i don't even think i'm able to skip school next week since there's ut on tues,wed,thurs. my grades are bad, skipping ut won't do any better. i really should read through 6p now and study. and then go sleep again! i woke up at 8 just now.

auto alarm to wake up at 7.50pm everytime i sleep.
goodnight.
going broke.
Eighteen is a good number. ♥

Throat Hurts.

why is life so cruel.
yes, my throat hurts now. it didnt get better. and the ulcer at my gum makes it no better :(
swallowing saliva hurts, hate this feeling! :@ urgh.
today felt really short. all the meetings start late and end early due to rush in time to end early.
m3 started at 2pm today due to mr president's visit [: ended before 4pm.
walked back, and at the traffic light we saw mr president in the car and those protecting the car were stopping traffic to let the car pass. big shot (:

nice walk to second home, bus stop. then home (: and the earliest ever, i reached home before 5pm. felt so great because i get to catch up on my sleep. cool shit
and so, i slept at 5pm and didnt expect myself to wake up till 7pm. i set my alarm at 7 and when it was 7, i didn't want to get up. it felt as if i just slept not long. maybe my dream just started?
felt so sleepy, then slept awhile more till 7.30 then so call got up (: felt so so good. HAHA!
feeling quite awake now, but still will have to sleep not so late. maybe soon :D
my throat really hurts, i wish i didnt have this pain. pissing me off. i want to eat sour sweets.
although i still can, but its gonna make it worse! :(

last ut4 all cramped up together next week from tues to thurs. so gonna be dead :(
today's one was alright. 9 typing questions, so little time. nutcase. but still manage to finish.
why dont they give more mcqs and short answers kind. :\
3 more weeks of school till holidays, endure!
and i kind of like sem2 schedule. it seems like there are shorter weeks or school and more holidays. like a few weeks of school then holiday, it seems much more appealing (:

and the 10 weeks of holiday? so can't wait next year. but not sure how to spend the whole holiday. year 2 will be another whole load of stress, worse than now. but i can't wait to study those coolio science shit. so so so fun although it may seem tough. but so fun to know so much facts. (: yay.

i should stop here, and leave you with this link that could prolly leave you in tears like what it did to me. the girl who lost her bf so suddenly. i cannot stop reading and feeling really sad. i may not feel the kind of pain she's going through, but i feel really really heart breaking for her.
(this could leave you in tears)

goodnight.

Till death do Us part :( I love You :)

Part Us Death Till

i could not control my tears after reading the blog, its really really heart breaking to lose your love ones. especially if its so sudden. too sudden for you to accept the fact that he/she is gone :(
your life will crumble down. so hard, so pain.
i know everyone have to go one day, a matter of time.
don't tell me that you wont be apart from me, cause it will hurt even more when you're gone and when i think back of what you said. :[
it hurts more thinking about the past rather than thinking that you're gone.
its a fact you can't change. rather, the memories are too hard to face.
i can't imagine the pain i would have to face. i guess i'll be breaking down every moment. memories everywhere. if i'm gonna post about the past, and the loveliest things that happened, it would be just too much to describe, as wide and deep as the oceans. i promise.
just too much, but all etched in my memories (:

i always say life's too short to quarrel, but i always end up doing otherwise.
stupid shermaine! hate you.
right now, appreciate whatever things you treasure at the moment. appreciate your life, don't take things for granted. cause life's really short, and i mean s.h.o.r.t i don't know when life will end.
i should just stop imagining the negatives. :(

its a cold cold day, a cold cold night.
last ut tomorrow for only ONE module :(
i'm so so tired, coming back home at 5/6 plus lie in bed and sleep till almost 8pm everyday.
i do that everyday i come home. am i really that tired?

goodnight.

(edit)

everyone should just go to this (link) and try out the impossible quiz. you can try part 1 as well (: drives you crazy, plus kind of addictive. i played a million times repeating and repeating everytime i game over. stucked at qn 54 (: i spammed the thing just now until i did not know how i close the whole window. thats the end, shall play no more!

HEADACHE :(

headache the whole of today, since the minute i woke up. hate the pain! :(
i thought it will be alright after sleeping. so i slept just now, and woke up with more extreme pain i felt like ripping my head off, digging my brain out(sounds gross). seriously the worse ever.
went to eat, online and now it feels better. but still kind of pain. if it gets worse tomorrow when i wake up, i'm not going to class. cause i'll seriously die. err, and not sure where i'll go either.
and first thing, i still need to go early to school. and for the first time, i'm going to it helpdesk that stupid moron place to get my laptop fixed.

Lesson learnt : CHANGE your password before it expires. regret regret regret.

windows didn't prompt me to change my password after awhile, so i didn't bother about it cause i was lazy and i didn't care. and now! i can't log into my leo using mozilla. and i tried changing using vpn but it doesnt work either. BOO! :@ maybe i need to use school's connection.
seriously sucks. if it doesnt work tomorrow, really no need go class cause i can't access leo.
that doesnt give a good reason, cause i don't really need leo to do work. i can just get the ps from anybody. hahaha (:

damn.

should i sleep early tonight? i don't want my headache to get worse. maybe too much sleep.
urgh! :@

bye.

i'm amazingly happy (:
its great to know how much i know you more than anybody else. inside out, outside in. you can't hide anything from me. even if you do, i know :) cause i know every single thing. telepathy!
i'm waiting, waiting, waiting !

just a few hours away drove me crazy, but i'm happy now.

its getting late, church later. and i should sleep soon. but i slept this afternoon!
booooooo :(

goodnight.

Cause you'll always be my baby. come back now!:(

Cause you'll always be my Baby



"Never let the one you love go, or they will be gone forever.
--Binkeybabe

18 july 2008. biology science.

POOFY.POOOFFFF.POOF.

i know this is a stupid random title, i just thought of it this moment.
i'm staring at this page still thinking where to start.
i think i'm quite being a bitch these days. i lose my temper so easily and get pissed over everything. kind of glad that there's around 3 weeks of school left. although uts will be all cramped together one after another, its the last! then holidays (:
i'm don't know if i'll miss this semester, but next semester will be a new beginning. start all over again, new class, new classmates, new problems. :( i hope i'll be excited when next sem starts, although i guess i'll be scared being in a new class. i hope it will be a good one, the people and all. (:

and today was quite bad. the start of biology {: nearly drived me nuts.
and also because of some ____, i was quite pissed. we had to do a skit to make biology alive, like wtabcdef. crack my brain till it died. we did a last minute one and one part with another group. had four teams, so ended before 4, the earliest ever! and because it was all like just skits, so less explanation ((: waited in class till 4.45 while doing rj too. and tried entertaining myself with the online games, but each game lasted for less than a minute. :\

waffles
sardine/potato puff
pocky
seaweed
and now frutips
are a must eat everyday (:

and this is all i survive for lunch everyday (:
i think i'm getting sick of all the food in school that nothing appeals to me anymore. its all the same everywhere. waffles are the best shit (:

been long since i last took a photo. right ?
i don't know what tomorrow will bring, but i'll do everything to make myself happy.
i feel like eating ice cream.
and part of today's rj was are you leading a meaningful life ?

am i ?

i took one hour to post this.

Coming to an end, real soon.

firstly, I would want to say how fortunate I am. seriously. i have breakfast given to me every morning. i get to slack at my second home everyday, and even have food given to me even though i have to eat 2 times, 2 portions(and that make me grow a little fatter) but i appreciate every single thing done. ♥ thank you my dear. and yes, i know you want me to gain more weight. i don't know how i'm suppose to do that, but i'll try my best (and not binge of course) Healthy! (:

and i have to mention this that i have awesome friends. especially shandyfoo (: thank you for all the help you've given me. trying to help me for tomorrow's science lesson and all you could do to help me tomorrow. really appreciate it alot. you're one of the bestest friend i could ever find.
although we don't even meet up everyday, i know you'll always be there to help me. THANK YOU SO SO MUCH GIRL ♥ and irvin, you're not left out. i know i've been a great help in helping find your dotty hoodie even though you didn't get it in the end and neither did i get anything. but still, i'll still help you whenever you need me. (: i'm self praising here. HAHA!

class was great today, we presented this skit in chinese and the translation on the ppt.
fyi, it was direct translation and it was hilarious. i kept laughing! i think i did badly today. was in total rush and i presented nothing much. :( i hope rj helps! and i'm so pissed with science faci who minus off 0.5 from my grade(i don't have a grade btw) when i didn't even attend last week's lesson! Ugh.

my attempt to sleep early every night fails, but at least i tried my best to sleep around 11?
alright, shall get some sleep. i want more sleep. i'm prepared to die tomorrow. i hope it won't be so difficult. (no worries, i still have shandy the bio genius)

goodnight.

LONGLONG HAIR>PICTURES.

M.A.N.E

I'm determined to grow my hair all long. Although i'm kinda sick of my hair, and its dying. but I really love long long hair and i can't bear to cut it short. so its either all long or all short. I love avril's hair! :)

been having tough rjs about past experience and reflection of the past for the past few days. i think it sucks alot. i always cook up a story from nowhere. I think its stupid. but thanks to - i got my ideas and help! thank you so so much (: ♥
its 10 plus already, i'm trying to get my habit back of sleeping early which is definitely before eleven. alright! GOODNIGHT (:

cramps. :(

CRAMPY SHITZ.

Bad day. in no mood to blog today.
but still will blog some words, blogging is life you know (:
i just had a bad rj, so felt like giving up on doing.
i see no link in what i learnt today. anyway thanks, i still got help ! :)

i think i need to eat more to lose weight, i didnt have appetite to eat today because of pain and i gained weight. okay, i shall not trust the weighing machine. and should stop weighing myself.

its 9 plus now, and i so cant wait to sleep.
oh ya, one more amazing thing. i didn't know that there was ut today. although i reached school damn early, i did not know there was ut until i was reading shandy's blog and she talked about studying for culture ut. and tada! i got the best shock in my life that ut was today and i've not studied a shit! i thought it was tomorrow. quickly opened all the 6p and read through.
good thing it wasnt exactly difficult, but still tough! and there wasnt much time.
rushed through everything, i hope i don't fail :(

i'm gonna take a break, goodybye.

and whatever those kids have said to shandy, but i'm sorry to say that shandy is way better than you all (although i've not seen you). but i'm 100% sure of what she said is true and that she is more than a million times better than you. i cant believe such kids still exist in poly. omg!

Durian Feast.

i gladly feasted on durian just now, i regret but its once in a year kind of thing.
*self comforts*
there's too much durian in the fridge i need to finish them up. hahaha (:
the whole place just smells of durian. i smell of durian too :|
durian craze.

anyway, school was oh so not great yet great. computing drives you nuts.
forever slack anyway, its either you do or you don't. and for the first time, i kind of gave up on the codes although i tried. but obviously failed. its too tough! and our presentation really screwed. i hate it when the faci ask so many damn questions, so tough to answer. i was laughing my head off, cause i totally don't know anything. neither do my team. (: so smart.

nothing more to say. pressing on till the week ends, and till holidays.
press on! (:

and and.
i hate the condition of my face right now.
i hate the aircon in school that caused it.
i'm tired of thinking what to dress for school (thus, the anyhow dressing)
i hate my hairloss. i want to do something about my hair!
seriously, i'm dying.
and, i have to quit online shopping, not that i'm shopping alot. but i window online shop alot.
cause i'm really bored and have nothing to do on the net. booooo! :@

and i'm going to sleep early.
i need sleep + plenty of water.

goodnighteyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :D
someone's teapot died.
i told you its too sad to survive with you. its holding on for too long.
its feeling the pain, everyday having to stand the heat, the smell of tea and rough hands on the pot. and being used so many many times everyday. i feel for the pot. i bet if its living, it will be complaining like shitz. i'm glad it died, dont have to suffer anymore. RIP :)
and on a slightly sad yet not sad note, no more chinese tea! :D

On Going Flue.

i'm still contemplating on what to get online, the hoodie or the watch.
i cannot make up my mind. i don't even know if i want to get it. i don't want to regret!
:@ and if i'm getting anything, this will be my last time ever online shopping.
cause for the rest of the months i'll be saving lots of money. *cross fingers*
go on with the plan (:
i'm feeling so @#(^%*#) now. i shan't shop anymore. i have no more mood to shop.
:@

church today, was a little late. stayed with andrea till she finish ushering, by the time we went in there werent any seats, so we sat by the door like bodyguards [: uh, i wasnt kind of paying attention throughout. went for food after that, then home since i've nothing on and nothing to do. i was so bored, home alone. online for awhile then went to sleep. woke up around 4 and had my lunch. i really rot my whole afternoon away, waited for c to be back. seriously bored.
school again tomorrow, and it'll be a tough week ahead. :(
5 more weeks to go. i need to watch my diet. i ate a piece of durian just now out of temptation = fats. i've been eating a lot. i don't even work out or what. :@
and my hair needs a cut. its dying.

i need to go, my battery's dying.
bye.

hamsterrr. :) bpp. wallet.

FLUEEEE BUG > :(

yes, the flue bug attack me and it sucks. alot ! i'm really dying.
i need more sleep. my mouth load of ulcers is killing me too. zmg.
i feel like dying now. i hate the feeling of not being able to stuff food in my mouth.
and when i do, it hurts so much. difficult to swallow. :( rawr! :@

i slept for almost 12 hours today. although i woke up at 9 plus in the morning, went back to sleep
till 11, bathed and all. online for awhile, then out of the house. since i was early, took bus to interchange and waited. then 187 to bpp. met the person at the bus stop and got my stuff!
:) smiley. walk to bpp, looking for a place to eat. no heaty food for me since i'm my throat is down and i'm falling sick. decided to eat ichiban, thats the healthiest :) jap food is Love! :D
ate sushi and more sushi. decided to head back after that. went to the petshop first. all time favourite! :))))))) the pictures of hamsters below. and look at the one trying to climb up the glass because b went to play with it. HAHAHA :) Super cute !
the fingers!

sleeping upside down :)


i felt sick and lazy, so we went back. second home. played guess the song and its so funny.
i knew all the songs but i just dont remember the titles. i've heard too many songs i just cant remember all of them. i know how to sing but dont know the title. HAHA (:
then fell asleep till 5 plus, the weather was super duper freaking humid.
nearly died. after that went back home :)
i'm really really bored. i have to go to school to occupy time if not i'm really going to die of boredom. church tomorrow and its youth day service i think? yup, i hope i can wake up.
and feel better, not worse. hate hate hate hate hate.

goodnightttttt.

skip school.

All over Again.

i'm so bored. i have to find entertainment on the net.
i cant seem to find a perfect wallpaper. and nicey pictures.
and i just played cooking mama. i want a ds to entertain me too :)

i love today, i skipped school again. it was science.
i cant believe i actually did, but still, i love it all :)
i get to have my time, and not time in school. i think it was easy lesson today.
bio starts next week :( i want more of chemistry !
and and and, i spend my day doing nothing but eat and sleep. i had a nap.
and went back to school to wait for b to finish ut. and back to my second home, rest.
the back of my ear was hurting so much, the kind of heaty feeling and the pain shocks you.
so pain :( the feeling of falling sick. had tomyam there for dinner. :D
and more food. seriously i've gained a kg, am i suppose to jump for joy? :}
no, i'm growing fatter. and gaining the extra kilos. plus a load of calories.
but i cant stop eating, and satisfying my cravings. i feel like eating waffles after playing cooking mama. :( finally weekends. and i can sleep like a little longer.
i promise i'll go school the whole of next week. i'm kinda happy with my grades. improve improve. actually, quite amazed by my grades, since i actually do not do well but thanks to moderation. tada! :) i couldnt even believe i could get those marks out of there even though i anyhow do. (: smiley. i hope i do not fall sick. the feeling of being sick sucks. and i've not fallen sick for a longlong time. tiredness overwhelms. :(

i want retail therapy- shopping!

but i want to save the money.

and i had a good laugh today.
yum ! (:
entertain me.

A big HUG. 10july2008

A Big Hug.

i have not post anything about yesterday.
i had a good good time and was extremely happy (:
firstly, i did went to the library to study, and i studied for computing (besides the fact that i know i wont do well for today's ut). i studied till like 1 plus, left and went to have our lunch at a coffee shop :) and we sat and chatted for quite long although we finished our lunch like in 5 minutes?
walk back to cwp, and then we sat again, and we talk and talk and talk cause we had nothing to do and so much time to waste. i had fun :) before we knew it, it was 4 plus. time to get tickets.
waited for shitong to come so went to mac and had fries! and see the picture below, see if you even spot the small dish you use to put ketchup on.(because i cant). and of course, it was the doing of someone. who used the maximum strength to press the dispenser. while the thing was already half full. and tada! resulted in that, and lots of blood on my hand :)

after eating, went back to cwp(was in civic macs) met shitong, bought chips and went up for the movie hancock. its a nice movie, telepathy is so cool. i have telepathy too. haha !
i want to be a super hero too and save the world. hahaha {:
and uh, ended at 7 plus and went home after that.

and today, enterprise wasnt all that bad. plus the new faci.
although she's new, so so so much better than lee. omg.
she doesnt behave like one either, sitting while talking? and she gives up choice to choose whether we want a change of group? plus, she keep looking at me for no reason! -.-
i don't know why but i felt good after presenting. i don't know why either.
maybe its the faci. she doesnt complain on how little slides we have, neither does she ask like alot alot of questions on our slides, but only one question from her paper?

was the first team, so the rest of the time was slacking and watching shows.
and i so wanted to listen to 6p, but hearing that there was 29 slides and knowing from the first few slides she was going through,i wanted to sleep. and not listen. cause she was just reading off everything from the slides. whats with other faci telling us to not read from the slides but she does that. and not explain much? for goodness sake, i can read it myself, i have a pair of eyes!
gave up listening cause it was damn damn boring. i cant believe she read 27 slides,every single one! i would damn tired and like skip everything -.-. i forgive her, since she's new.
but then she said she's going to do that always. its up to us to listen. she loves giving us choices.
thats a good thing, but . . nevermind.

random pictures. she just loves anything that moves. including laser lights. she will go all hyper just trying to chase that untouchable red light. freaking cute ! :)

i love her.

finally ut2 grades are out. and i have no comments to it, i cant say much cause i did improve.
but yeah, still there's alot of moderation and all. its still BAD! :@
but nevermind, try harder. science tomorrow, kind of dead.
i'm so so delighted, its the end of the week, finally! weekends! i get to enjoy every bit.
yay. learn to accept. compromise/collaborate/accommodate.

skip cognitive. 9july2008

okay, i need to blog a proper post now.
its almost 11am and i'm not in school, wonderful wonderful.
so wonderful. because i amazingly skipped school again today.
i managed to wake up early, but hearing the sound of rain makes me want to continue sleep again.

so, after those msges, decided not to go. actually never even decide, is just say dont want go school.
then obviously i continue sleeping in my comfy cooling bed under the covers.
speaking of this, i feel like falling into bed again and sleep.
but no, i shall not. will be heading out soon to maybe study, and watch hancock later. :)
arent you jealous. HAHAHA :D

i guess i'm really tired and really need a break since i've not skipped a day the past week.
it seems like its a rule that i must skip at least once. -.-
i never see myself doing that in sec school saying i'm tired, and i need a break that kind of thing.
i'm going to study for computing ut tomorrow, i dont want to do badly.
my grades are so important. but ya, i'm skipping cognitive today.
but i guess its alright, since cognitive is one of the best modules i have. this is the last time skipping for this module. :)

what have i to say about yesterday? culture module. it was simple yet difficult.
had to do like 2 rjs yesterday, and completed it fast. wanted to hibernate at 8 plus but failed.
hmm. and some people just annoys the shit out of me.
and uh, 5 more weeks to holidays :)

and, i'm glad everything's alright.
i'm sorry, maybe its not alright.

get going./
bye.

models. pictures. always.you. :)

TAF TAF THGIEW NIAG


i do not know if you can see this tiny picture, but the kittys are really cute :)


hi, the most amazing thing is i think i'm gaining weight. :) i feel happy for that, but on the other hand not. i just think that i'm gaining that weight, but the fact is that i did not i think. but i just feel fatter due to the amount of nonstop eating and eating and eating junk. :(
today was rather slack, because i had all the codes :) *smiley*
i've been listening to the same new songs i have. same playlist.
but the songs are slow, sad and nice :)

• sometimes when we touch
• stranger- secondhand serenade
• your life and mind- just surrender
• bye bye- mariah carey
• best of me- sum 41
• kiss me- new found glory
• always be my baby- david cook
• baby love- nicole scherzinger
• I Don't Want to Miss a Thing- Aerosmith

okay, i'm so bored that i have to list the playlist -.-
stayed back after school. class ended so late, like 5 plus! because it was just slow. and she wanted to go through the quiz to help us for ut. and it was so complicated my brain was slowly dying out and i couldnt understand the last part. its just too complicated to understand. then she wanted to show us ut2 answers, saw abit then went off.(fail already). class actually ended long ago but i choose to stay back and listen.
went to foodcourt to meet them. ate noodles cupcorn egg drink. chatted, then went to library to study. :) and yay, studied for science ut tomorrow already. actually not really.
i studied only like chemistry? cause thats the easiest. physics really sucks. i hope the questions arent those previous previous long ago things we learnt. esp physics! omg, i will die.
more chemistry would be better, but i bet it will be hard. :( i pray it will be easy or at least easier! i should sleep early tonight, i didnt felt that tired in class, just abit of headache and a heavy head. i was even thinking of skipping school tomorrow, but i guess not now. for goodness sake shermaine, there's UT! ya i know, ut is like so important in my life. {: i cannot afford to miss any, or do badly. its bad enough!

i think more or less, everyone at least chose friends before. you surely have some part of your life where you don't like someone, or don't like mixing with this particular person or something. isn't that like choosing the kind of people you want to mix with. i wonder why some people are just so weird. maybe weird in MY dictionary.


i don't want to be the centre of attraction, i want to be Your centre of attraction.
get the picture?


i remember the video that fix the pieces.
the one that brings all memories together.
the one that just makes you think that,
the quarrels aren't worthwhile.
it.will.just.make.you.tear.
watch it again, baby.

sometimes when we touch lyrics. :) emo

Sometimes When We Touch - Dan Hill

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

sunday. 6july2008.breakfast for dgs.

Sunday.

I feel so moodless now. i don't know why. i feel sad? no, i don't think so :(
maybe its the music.

anyway, another normal day.
served breakfast during dg to another 2 dgs? hotdogbread+grapes+strawberries+chips+orangejuice+taboo+guessing number game.
and and and. then went for service. and it was boring that we took pictures.

childhoodfriend andreawong! :D
and i wonder who's that ghost behind. :\

i know i'm damn bad, never listen during service, really boring! >.<
waited for daddy. and chatted with A. i know you very interested to know alot of things.
HAHAHA (:

then went home with family. no,they went home. i went cwp. and waited for someone to reply me or call me back. cause i thought that someone having piano lesson so i waited till 2. and tada! someone didnt go and that someone was sleeping soundly at HOME! so i was walking aimlessly around cwp doing nothing ALONE! -.- and the moon sparkle perfume so damn nice smelling. i want! :D hahaha, so after that, bought some food and lunch to my second home.
yummyyyyyyyyyyy :)))))
and someone, broke her teapot lid. awww so sad right. and i help to clear the broken pieces of porcelain? see, i'm nice. someone was panicking. sad right? no teapot lid to cover your pot. the tea wont be as nice right? HAHAHA. next time would be a broken teapot. and GG, no more tea. :D

felt damn sleepy, went home at 5 plus. immediately drop on bed when i reach home.
i do that everyday i come home early now :) seriously very tired everyday. i wish i can sleep all i want everyday. how nice it would be. and tomorrow school again. i've not skipped school the past week. how great i am :) i know. gonna die tomorrow for computing. :( :@
i wish it would be holiday. why sec sch have youth holiday but we don't. :(
i think it should be us having holidays since we have so little holidays. and i think sec school people should have children's day instead of youth day okay. >.<
i want a break, but i dont want to skip school :(
a month or less till holidays, and change of class.

can't wait till holidays. and all over again, have to adapt to the change of class, but i don't mind anyway. i'm fine with anything. hate hate hate politics. anyway, i don't really care :)
its not the class i'll miss, its the people.

so, i have nothing more to say.
i've slept from 5 plus to almost 8pm. i'm not that tired now. i had a really good sleep.
but i guess i will sleep not so late tonight, school tomorrow. dread waking up again!
:( i don't have a choice. actually i do, but no more skipping school for me.
shitz. have not studied for science ut on tuesday! :( i hope i don't do badly.


i shall cry no more.
i wonder why i'm born this way.
sigh.

town. 5july2008. movie. its a girl boy thing. :) upset.

You are all worth my Tears :(


point form.

• KFC
• "its a boy girl thing" movie. (cine)
• heeren
• home.

okay, pretty much didnt do anything today except watch movie. was out rather late already.
got rather @*$U&@(*%&@ this morning. and it was so embarrassing to cry in the train from woodlands to somerset. zmg. i couldnt control :( and maybe you were immuned to my nonsensical (add any word). was fine when alighted. :) and ya, obviously i cannot be crying all the way in public right. i just felt like killing myself. i dont want to embarrass myself yet i always do. so pissed! :@ okay, enough of this. story goes on. :))))))
i'm so sad that i couldnt watch "10 promises to my dog" because it was so full and there were only 3 front seats left. :( didnt want to sit so front. i didnt know so many people would catch that show. i thought people would rather watch some block buster movie instead of a dog show. but it was otherwise. i was shock when i saw "filling fast". :( nevermind, shall watch online then. sadly, only cine has that movie screening. so ended up watching its a boy girl thing. rather funny. its always the first part of the show that is funny, after that will be normal. but that show still alright. :) ate kfc buddy meal before the movie and was quite full. after the movie hungry again!
cine is a place where you meet so many familiar people. after movie, walk around in heeren. then trained home (:

and the funniest thing that happened today. was the checking of id part when we wanted to watch the movie cause its NC16. and its so damn funny when the man wanted to check hers and not mine. HAHAHA. the person didnt believe you are 16 yeah, and when you're 18 already. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. I TOLD YOU SMALL KID. was laughing my head off.
small kid.
small kid.
small kid.

but, iloveyou.

10 promises to my dog. :) so cute!

omgz, sooo cute ! :) i want to watch. :))))))
although i didnt watch quill, but the picture melts your heart already.
why so cute one!! [: i hope the show would be as good.

i cant think of what i did today. i feel like sleeping. i lack of sleep. i feel like sleeping for countless of hours until i get enough energy :( i feel so tired, everyday wake up so early !
i know i did science module today, it wasnt easy or difficult. my brain just go blank everytime i want to present. panic attack ! :@ i will read so many stuff until confuse. dont know where to start. :\ piss me off ! but nevermind, do better next time. i'm so glad its chemistry! :)
next will be bio. physics please dont come back. i hate you. :)

stayed back after school again with 2 J 1 C :) ate at lobster restaurant again. seafood fried rice!
went to library after that cause too noisy. did rj and all in school :)
reached home at 9 plus. i have nothing to do now and i'm super bored. i guess i should go to sleep soon cause i'm tired. actually, not exactly tired, but i just think i need to sleep! lack of sleep.

my brain isnt functioning now. i'm not thinking of anything.
hee just told me about his condition and its so scary. omg :|

finally going out tomorrow, like finally. feels so long since i'd ever went out. :(
goodnight. (:
xoxoxo

in class. :( utututut. enterprise sucks.

blogger didnt allow me to post last night! :(
i must make this fast because ut is starting soon :(
very very scared.

i wanted to blog last night to rant on how stress i am for this damn ut.
because enterprise suck so much. it feels like i'm taking o levels the next day without anything in my brain. really really dont know anything. i think the faci is being an ass now. :@
hate him. why must he come. i wish he would just leave right now.
he must be thinking that we should pass this ut because he taught us. but i guess not.
i get no shit because he's our faci. superrrrr boringggggg :@

i feel like going home! :(
and i want to sleep!
going to sleep if he continues his 325125 hour long talk and rants.

bye.
totally forgotten what i want to blog last night.


okay, cancel the above post. i remembered what i wanted to blog.
shall talk about yesterday.
i love cognitive. its the best module among the rest. plus the best faci, computing faci is nice too :)
but my brain wasnt functioning as well. so ppt had little content. i think its always my group that will have a short ppt. i dont know why. is it just me doing the ppt or what. so i conclude that next time i shall not do the ppt already. let others do. ((((: our group went to an empty classroom to do our work and we start talking about everything. about school modules and facis. [: still managed to scrape through our presentation.

so during lunch break, met up with two lovely girls irvinong and shandyfoo :)
been a longlonglong time since i've met them. so like finally we met! will meet again soon right?
had a short lunch together and talked for awhile. then had to rush back to class to do work. and so, they sent me back to my class. haha :) i know they are the true friends i have although time and busyness limits us to meet up often. but still, the friendship is in our hearts. right? love ♥

went home after school and was super hungry. ate anything i saw. was waiting for dinner but i fell asleep again! so woke up earlier this time, 7 plus. wrote my long rj. and was stressing over the fact of enterprise ut. which i knew nothing. i felt like dying. i gave up in the end :) studying makes not difference. cause i really dont understand. :@ i'll start watching gossip girls soon but it load super slow online. i want to download but after taking a few hours to download the video is only 26 seconds. :@ so pissed. i also want to watch cycle ten antm finish. almost done :)

today/

ut was horror. horrible and any terrible you can think of to describe it. omg, nearly died.
super difficult. i know nothing. the tax lesson i skip then they ask so much about it. i know nothing. so like almost everything blank blank. calculation is anyhow. prepared to FAIL. [:
okay, its over. enough of that shit.
besides the W#(%$@)($I@ enterprise ut today, i have enterprise module today.
which totally sucks. i hate this module a whole alot now! really. the faci is really @($*@*$_@$@(
he goes on for hours. and hours. and ask so many damn questions which lead to a whole lot of talking. which makes me so damn pissed cause class will end so damn late. and now, its almost 4.30pm and its not even the last team. and imagine the amount of slides they have. plus the 6p which has 20 slides.
i can imagine he will stay at one slide for how long ?! today's worksheet already took so long.
he stayed at one question for like half and hour. omg!? seriously, gonna fall asleep.
but i didnt, i pretended to listen with my earpiece on but was actually watching shows. i mean who can take his words that comes out from his mouth. never ending words. just go in come out -.-

today, i'm super super tired. dont know why. so imagine all his rants. i was really falling asleep.
i think i should just sleep now. watching videos make me sleep as well. very tired!
booooooooo :(

bye.
i miss . .
a whole lot.

QUIZ.

Quiz!

01. What disappoints you the most?
when things dont meet my expectations.

02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
i want more than one. America!

03. What is the 1 thing you would like to share with everyone?
sorry, i'm selfish and i dont want to share any.

04. Do you think money can buy happiness?
no. but you can buy things to make yourself happy. am i contradicting?

05. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
err. make my every dream come true. (thats my one dream)

06. Favourite band(s)?
SIMPLE PLAN, LINKIN PARK :D (copy the person who tag me)

07. What are you afraid to lose the most?
my loved ones. (hate this question!)

08. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
i will be at a lost. think i will save for my future :)

09. What do you dream of doing in the future?
slack my life away(kidding) Vet!

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
cute.super cute.and she loves me. right? :D

11. What makes you happy?
sleeping. laughter. being happy makes me very happy.

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
annoying people. (cant think right now)

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
no idea. in the drain.

14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
read your mind.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
God. Love. You. (sounds like God love you)

16. Any childhood memories you’ll like to re-live?
No!

17. Who is your best buddy?
i wont list down.

18. Which cartoon character you like most?
PPG!(kidding) elmo. unicorns(its not any cartoon) :)

19. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like he/she?
why not? if the time is right. but, i dont have the need to do that right now (:

20.Are u In love?
more than in love. HAHA :)

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

Shandy
Irvin
Andrea
Zhuxin
and anybody else who is too free and have nothing to do.

smart shermaine. 1 july 2008

my neighbour's cute ass fluffy persian cat? which doesnt want to look at me! :(

S.M.A.R.T

the title says it all. shermaine is the smartest kid alive today. very very very smart.
so smart that she lose her jacket without even knowing. how smart.
i only realise it just a few minutes ago when i came home. sigh :(
its not at her house either. so obviously i dropped it even before i reach her house.
i regretted taking out my jacket and just hanging over my bag instead of keeping it.
i dont even know where i dropped it or when i even drop. i wonder how it drop without me realising. okay, i should stop ranting about my lost jacket.

nevertheless, i'm quite glad i lose it, now i can buy a new one. hoodie! :)
i'm happy. plus my watch died on me today too. so i shall get another one.
shopping starts again. actually i didnt even have any temptation to shop or what. but now, i guess i will. anyway, someone buying for me what. hahahaha (: just kidding.

i'm not rushing for time tonight because i've done my rj and all. and i dont have ut tomorrow. so tonight i will sleep early. really early like soon? just earlier than yesterday. and i will try to sleep half and hour earlier each night. i hate to drag myself of bed. so at least 8 hrs of sleep ?
i hope school wont be boring and dry tomorrow. i'm dreading thursday to come. enterprise ut and module. i hope the faci isnt coming. :( i cant skip anymore. boo!

& sorry for everything.



i think cannibalism is damn damn damn sick.