30JUNE2008.

Accomplishment (:

alright, one day never blog is like so weird. its like a must to blog everyday.
but i seem to be so busy doing so many things? time permits blogging. :(
i also dont know what i'm busy with. i think its multi-tasking doing many things at once that make me feel like i've so many things to do and not type this shit. haha (:
basically its just chatting and chatting? and erm yesterday watching shows.
and now i have to get done with reading those stupid 6p for cognitive ut tomorrow.
i really hope to score better because thats the best module i have. but i doubt so. okay, i must think i can do it and I CAN ! (thats what today's rj is about). alot of impact huh -.-

i have nothing to say about yesterday. slept at 1 plus am and couldnt wake up this morning. ultra tired and i regret. but i aint sleeping early now too since its close to 12 and i've yet studied a shit. so so dead. [: today's problem was so damn challenging than i thought. omg, seriously nearly died. thanks to joey for helping me with all the codes and all. i see until really blur. plus memorizing that stupid thing a million times. my brain decreased by a size. its smaller and contains less memory space right now. everybody relied on me for the codes so my brain was going haywire. but i'm glad i still manage to finish the game somehow. (: but still, many thanks to js, i owe her. AND stupid nate found this blog. I think he should go and die. he's such an asshole idiot. i hope you see this! idiot idiot idiot. blame my stupid typing multi tasking skill for typing at the wrong conversation. idiot! HAHA :\

and i cannot think of anything else to post. my brain is dead.
goodnight.

second post. 28june2008. (:

so small, so cute! :) i can just put in my pocket.

I Promise.


i cant help but post this picture cause its ultra cute. and it reminds me of sunshine(orange one) boy and i'm still wondering where is he. i miss him so much although he's loud never ending meows are quite irritating. i miss him :( i hope whoever took him or what take good care of him. i hope he isnt dead or something :( that super greedy cat who eats nonstop. [:

the weather's killing me. its super duper hot. it should just rain now when i plan to stay at home and sleep. the pig's still 'napping' till now and i wonder how long more. i've already watched finish one show- what happen in vegas. and it isnt that bad. and maybe i should continue watching more shows. or maybe bathe cause its super duper humid! or maybe sleep but i think i cant cause its super hot. yeah, all lies with the idiotic weather! :@
woke up at 10 plus this morning by a phone call and i was happy. cause i get to talk (:
i love this kind of calls and blahblah, get what i mean? :) i dont really care if it woke me up unless its some call which i dont even want to answer ! :|
this is so so boring. i shall lie on the bed and watch some shows.
and maybe fall asleep unknowingly because i'm still waiting for the pig.

goodbye.
anyone want to sponser me to singfest. i dont mind going :D

seafood restaurant,slack.sleep.

its past midnight, and so its saturday.
my brain isnt functioning well at the moment, and my eyes are closing. but i just have to blog something although its nothing before i get to bed. today's module was draining because i did the whole ppt and there arent even much content. stayed in school and ate fish and chips at the seafood restaurant. how weird. slacked and did my rj (: went off at 8 plus. straight home. intending to bathe and then sleep. but somehow i saw this cockroach in the toilet and i so decided not to bathe already because i'm damn afraid of it ! :( and so, i drop into bed and went into dream land till 10 plus and i woke up, hurried to bathe. and i'm here using a teeny weeny bit of the comp before i go to bed again. i'm superrrrrr tireddddd. i'm so glad its the weekends, i get to sleep a little later although i wont wake up that late. :) doubt will be going anywhere later, i need my precious sleep. so maybe just stay at home to rest. and sleep more. [:

my dearest is prolly sleeping like a pig now, and i have no chance to wake her up or talk. :(
a nap isnt a nap. a nap shouldnt be at this time of the day, cause you'll just fall straight into deep dream land and maybe wake up at 2am to realise you have fallen asleep without switching off your laptop or brushing your teeth. alright, i'm off! goodnight (:
blog more later. (today)

baby i love you. :) sorry! new blogskin.

okay, my blog is alive and moving again. thanks to my itchy hand to remove that tagboard. i dont know what else i remove then the whole thing went haywire. the best thing is that i cant find the original blogskin and most prolly i never save. so GG :) everything gone.
my favourite blogskin gone. i went back to find. and after going through a few thousand blogskins, i still couldnt find so on the way get new ones. and i found this pretty one. (:

its purple, and its simple. i like! :D
but if you think its ugly then go away okay, dont need to read.
so now, no more tagboard already.

i shall blog something more happy.
and the happy thing is that i'm happy now. at least, the problem is gone. and will never come back!
and i'm so happy i skipped school today. i'm so proud of myself you know.
anyway, i'm glad i did cause enterprise was a killer i guess, and only 12 people went.
how cool is that. the rest skipped too (:
anyway, i didnt actually plan to skip. i really didnt plan to okay! believe me.

hahahaha. its because bb got this rash and i brought her to the doctor okay! you see, i'm so nice and sweet. although i already woke up and prepared. then i stoned a little later at home because we werent meeting early. then left at 8 plus met at civic then went to the clinic.
we had to queue even before it opened. number thirteen in the queue! :)
so we had to waited for like an hour or so. went to have a drink and chatted like we've never seen each other for a long time(kidding!). then i revealed surprise part 2 and she was hella happy and smiling + shocked. i hope you really like it. hahaha, so much for tricking you that time.

visited the doctor and the doctor was damn funny. or maybe you were damn funny.
the friend conversation thing is damn funny. HAHAHA. you are guilty right. GFF! :)
gave some medicine and cream. then left for civic library. just surfed the net awhile. then decided to catch 'you dont mess with the zohan' at 1pm. didnt catch it that day. and the show was overall lame and dirty. its not even that funny as everyone claimed! i'm not a movie freak so maybe i shouldnt even watch movies. hahaha, which make me waste time and money right. cause the movie always didnt meet my expectation. not what i expected. :) but nevermind.
i get to watch another movie with you again! yay (:

after that went to second house, ate our 'lunch' , read newspaper and i was damn sleepy, so i head for the bed and slept till 5 plus. good thing i managed to wake up cause it was damn hot!
went back after that.
i shall not blog anything about what happened just now.

its late, and i think i should get to bed soon although i slept just now when i came back.
i need to go to school, and i think i should not skip anymore. I SHOULD NOT ! :)

goodnight!
and i love love love youuuuuu :)
xoxoxo

surprise part 2. love.doctors.heartaches.

Only you Know



i cannot control my tears.
i feel like hiding under the covers and cry.
i cannot accept the fact. (maybe its just me) you cant understand the situation i'm in when i told you countless of times.
its alright if you want to spend time with whoever you want.
why am i sad?
its my fault that i got into this situation, this class, this state of mine.
why should i blame you right? i cannot stop you.

shermaine, you complain so much for what. the most just be alone la, complain and cry for what. slap yourself and accept the fact right. you cannot be so dependent always right. its not like you're gonna drown and die right.(maybe i will) *slap*

but the fact is . .






i cannot hide the fact. i cannot hide my feelings. i just cannot hide. i feel like a seven year old kid instead of seventeen. i cry at the slightest thing, even if you just shout or scold me. i'm so damnnnnnnnn sensitive i cannot stand it!
i'm clinging on so tightly. its like i'm at the edge of the cliff holding on to this rope so tightly.
i let go, i die. its this bad.

i wont complain for every single thing i did for you.
i wont mind my grades for you.
i would go out all ends to see that smile on your face.
and i shouldnt mind for how you want to treat me. i asked for it.
it all lies in l-o-v-e and the ♥

i'm lost.
i'm lost.

lost for words.

i wish i could suffer everything for you. take your pain.

Twelve Hours spent with you. <3

Twelve Hours.

Shermaine wants to be happier, i'm not satisfied with my happiness. i'm asking for more. will you make me as happy as before ? :(

we broke our promise of not skipping school yet we just did today.

i was so damn sleepy in the morning, but obviously i still went out of the house. and we ate mac for breakfast again. and then used laptop there for awhile. checked timing for 'dont mess with the zohan' and wanted to watch the 10.35am show which is so so early.

we went to the cinema and at 10 odd and it still wasnt open. waited at banquet and still did not open by 11am. like wth ?! they can put a movie at 1035am but not open the counter. what on earth. gave up waiting. went cold storage and bought the apple vodka. (:

got cupcorn and t 2nd home to slack. and i obviously fell asleep after lunch cause i was damn damn tired! slept almost the whole afternoon away. (: went down to play the remote control helicopter and its was hard to control due to both propeller and body turning together. ate chips. went back, ate dinner together. (((((: then slack and used laptop. and then i went back home at 8 plus :) havent really studied for culture ut2 tomorrow, i guess i'm dead. i really hope i wont do badly. i've read through all i can and understood. {: i'm glad its cognitive tomorrow. but yeah, i hope it would be good. cant wait for the week to end. i hate enterprise. and science. [:

shall turn in soon.

goodnighttttttttt :D

we cuddle and i love the warmth of your embrace.

sweet flick chick fun we had.

i need hugs. i need you.

all i ask for is that happiness.

17months. :) time flies.

Happy Seventeen. Time Flies (:



I see the truth in your eyes by actions too showing that you'll never leave me.
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me and hold me tight, never to let go, whenever i fall. I feel wonderful tonight because i see the love light in your eyes. If one day, i could reach for the stars, i would like to pull one down for you and shine it on my heart so you could see the truth of this true love i have inside for you.
(posted somewhere else) aww, i'm touched.

i like reading the past, cause it really brings back alotalotalot of memories i wish to remember and will always remember. whether good or bad. like how i cried badly because of quarrels and many other things. yet love just makes everything p-e-r-f-e-c-t. i'm amazed. :))))
i bet it isnt just this simple four letter word called love. its something more than that? something only you yourself would know. something more magical. (:

okay, i'm talking no sense. shut up if you dont get the same feeling as i do. anyway, school is really boring. probability really sucks. my group screwed up today during presentation. not even prepared plus never start ppt early end up with total crap. and if you're in hee's group he'll say, if you cant convince, confuse the faci ! which only he can do that. by talking all sorts of crap and the faci really gets confused. its so damn funny i tell you. cause our answers are like wrong, and the faci asks more questions which our answers doesnt make sense and even contradicts ! so, the guys just add on more rubbish by talking stuff that makes no sense. they just go like
"you see right, you take this number then you add to the other one then you divide to get the average. thats what we did. and then you get the percentage of whales and blahblah." which is obviously incorrect and totally doesnt make sense. and then the faci gets so confused she doesnt want to hear anymore. HAHAHAHA :) and i'm known as the stoner. i stone most of the time. actually i dont okay! i'm just not listening to you or rather concentrating on my stuff. but sometimes, i really do stone ! :)

i'm doing real bad for probability cause its so complicated. i'm glad vb is coming back next week! although it will be much more difficult, i think its still better than probability ?
culture tomorrow and i realised its the last module for problem 9. time flies (:
before i know it, weekends are here. then school again then weekends then school. and soon, sem 1 ends! really really fast.

okay, shall not blog anymore.
shall turn in early, and not rush in the morning again. (:
goodnight!

time : 10:37pm

Still. deep post. thoughts.

Still

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

i stare at this page for very long, i dont know what to blog or where to start.
the thoughts in my mind jumbled up :)))) or maybe i'm not thinking.
Anyway, i woke up late today. thanks to the wonderful rain which make me feel like not getting out of bed. but still, went for dg sleepily. i thought maybe i would be early still since everyone always late, but this time really late although reach at 9.15am ? really had a great dg session with them, i really felt this huge burden lifted off me. shared everything honestly and it was good. i'm glad many people actually thinks the same way too and experience the same feeling. it comforts to know that i'm not alone, i'm not wierd. i'm not the only one thinking that way. :)
there are alot alot more things to talk about and 'argue'. so many doubts you cant count. i hate thoughts. i hate thinking so much. so actually now, i just live my life happy-go-lucky. i dont know if its a good thing to think so much and doubt even more. i'm just confused? i shall think no more and lead my happy life. i just use laptop, sleep, wake up, go school, be happy, go home, laugh my head off. simple life, happy kid :D

If you have a great family/parents, be thankful for that.
if you do not, then be glad you even have parents or someone to support you.
i think i received the best care, i get the love from my parents. and most of the time i get what i want. even though they have to sacrifice so much, they do it because they love me. in the past, i was really selfish, i cared for myself only like what they always said. and thinking back, i feel really damn bad. i was really really self-centered i admit. i realised my mistake and i try my best to change. now every single thing before i do i would think carefully. whether its worth it and whether i really need it ? i thank God for my family although i cant bring myself to share my problems or even open my golden mouth. i can talk to them about anything under the sun, asking the most lamest question which no one can answer and talking about random stuff and knowing more general knowledge from them and ask why this and that. anything except talking anything about my life. sad right? i hope one day i will be able to open my golden mouth and share ? i dont know. :) but i'm still happy with life. YAY !

you dont know when you're gonna die, so live life to the fullest yeah ?
enjoy every single moment you have now.
i'm not afraid anymore to open and say i love you.

i think i've been at this page for close to 2 hours.
shall go bathe now and turn in early. school starts again tomorrow! :(
i bet i wont turn in early anyway.
xoxoxo

its 10:12pm

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY BABY :) LOVE. <3

okay, let me blog before midnight.
so i can say this bigbig HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEW JIA JI CANDICE (:
you are eighteen already. YAY :D

and happy birthday nadiah too :))))))

havent blogged the past few days because i wasnt in any mood to do so, i'm waiting for today. plus i havent cried a river for quite a long time. and i did so, i need to let it out (:
will upload some pictures later in another post. finally a week of school has passed.
ended up not going for ge again yesterday because we decided to quit. its really boring i guess. okay, i dont guess. its boring ! :) and so, we slacked at the library cafe till 8plus then bus home.
slept at 1 plus last night cause i waited for midnight to wish the birthday girl plus surprise part one :) which someone ended up in -----. i'm touched :) HAHA.

so today, woke up ten plus. got ready, went out at noon. train to cityhall. couldnt decide what to eat. marina square. ate at cafe cartel. dory fish with sambal and pepper fish pan fried pasta. super yummy ! :) ate fast, then went walking around. shermainecorn is broke so no more shopping. went peninsula and did nothing there. then walk back cityhall, went rafflescity cause really no where to go. damn boring. walk awhile, look for seats and sat awhile at foodcourt. then craving for starbucks coffee! venti java chip, slack there. and i'm really really sorry for making you so hurt. i really need to slap my damn mouth and sew it up. i did mental scolding to myself and tear. i felt so bad i want to stab myself and die! took train to marina bay then back home. slept all the way. till khatib sister called and told me to go home, have to go for funeral. gu-po passed away, actually i dont really know who. some relative. went home, changed then went out already. didnt eat dinner cause i was damn full drinking the coffee. ate food at the funeral and was damn bored. adult talking in cantonese and whatever alien language i totally cant understand a word, thats a bad thing. cause i cant hear their conversation. and those aunties i dont even know who is who. no idea who is everybody. i played with this cat which is so pretty and looks like my cat but its white with colour patches. pictures later. i know cats arent supposed to be at funerals. butttt so cuteeee! :D

went back first with siblings while parents continue chatting there. super boring la. reach home 10 plus already. and finally i get to use the comp after being out the whole day. tomorrow church, and i'll be stoned again ! [:
wait for part 2 and 3 okie ! :)
i'm so sorry about today, instead of being happy you're sad.
but you know i love youuuuuuuuuuuuu :))))
♥

pictures soon!

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY AGAIN BB ! :)

Past pictures @ thai express. (:






Seoul garden today. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY. (:




been eating alot alot the past few days! i really need to stop eating so so much :(
spending so much money on good food. haha, plus this saturday food again.
but this time, wont eat so much :))) presentations this week pretty interesting. yesterday was just video, today was just pictures only. fun but aint that easy :\ still managed to scrape through. tomorrow computing ut2, i think i'm gonna do quite badly cause i hate probability. omg! :(
i hope i dont fail yeah. really tired going to school everyday, seriously very sleepy in class everyday. i'm looking forward to sleep every single night, sleeping is like heaven? i wont want to get out of bed anymoreeeeeeeee. i'm prepared to sleep in class tomorrow if its not at all interesting. i've no choice but to go to school because there's UT ! enterprise is seriously killing everyone with the new faci. he goes on and on forever. his words are like lullaby seriously.
i need to complain and do the damn survey but it loads damn slow, then error. pfftt! :@
shall try again tomorrow.

byeeeeeee

it must be a perfect day to blog a perfect post (:
and today isnt a perfect day. dont feel like blogging anything much.
first day of school for me since the holidays (:
and i really didnt want to wake up, no choice but to drag myself out :(
yawning the whole day.
no ppt.
video presentation with 2 other groups. super funny!
home.


i'm dreading school alotttttttttttttttttttttt :(
bye.

first day of sch again. skipped! :)

i want to cry, i dont want to fail science ut2 tomorrow. i really hope i dont although i really know nuts about anything. i hope it will be easy,really. :( so stressed up just because of this shit. did badly for first ut is enough for me. i dont want to skip school anymore for the next 8 weeks. i just skipped the first day of school because someone tempted me to. haha (: i just cant get used to going to school again, waking up so early. i know i stay damn near but yeah, still early to me. haha i want to sleep till 10am at least okay ! and waking up at 7am getting ready and all is such a chore :( changed and all and received msges not to go to school today. so i laze on the bed again and took my own sweet time. left house around 8.45 although i'm not going to school. had breakfast at mac! hotcakes :))) been long since i ate that. played with butter.hotcake syrups.icedmilo and it was damn gross. :\ talked for awhile. then went to the library with hf and her friend. as usual all the kiasu people rushing in for tables. slow people like us dont get tables so we sat on the floor with the powerpoints just beside us on the floor. tried to study some stuff but end up doing other stuff too. at least i read something. (: left around 12 plus to the mrt. wanted to go vivo today but was too far and lazy. ended at bishan and ate thai express! super duper yummy. and we spent a bomb today. :( j8 is still as boring, i thought they changed alot but still the same -.- walked awhile. then decided to cab back cause super boring and tired.
to my second home, slack and then slept again (: till 6 plus then i went back. rainy weathers are good for snoozing in bed :D i didnt eat my dinner, just drank soup cause i felt damn full and was damn tired i dont know why. tried to sleep for awhile but couldnt. i so feel like quitting school, i wish i could and do nothing all my life. i know thats wasting my life away. but school is super boring! sometimes. urgh :@ all the best for my ut tomorrow. shermaine better not fail. i do not want to retake this damn module okay! :( and i think i should just get some sleep now before i cant wake up tomorrow. goodnight.

time: 11:52pm

school starts tomorrow. :( 15june2008

School starts A-G-A-I-N :(

i suddenly lost the ability and chain of thoughts to blog. i'm wayyyyyyy tooooo depresssss to blog further because school officially starts tomorrow. :( everybody still has one more week of holiday except me and my school. why why why why why ! its more depressing that tomorrow's computing module and my brain is gonna die and there's science ut on tuesday which i have not even looked through the whole holiday. i bet no one ever studied also :) i think i should blog something more positive. like?

how much i enjoyed the holidays. 3 days was occupied by GE camp which is not very entertaining. then that week was mainly going out and more shopping? or rather just going out. i totally cant remember what i did. and the week that just passed, was also going shopping and just hanging outside spending quality time together which makes my holiday so perfect, it cant be more than that perfect. (: and i really enjoyed the week to the max. thanks for the wonderful time spent with me, plus the lunch/dinner we had together whether or not its just a simple one and the many things you bought for me. i want to thank you a million zillion times which is never enough to thank you for all you've done for me. the times just spent at home doing nothing or just taking a short nap was amazing. and times when we just disturb and play and laugh our heads off. super fun! (: smack your butt. -grins widely-
really alot more things i should blog but i think i should just stop right here before i go on and on and really the post will never end.

this shall be a reflection of what i did for the past two weeks of my holiday. (: hell for another 8 weeks and then holiday again. cant wait for the 10 weeks of hols next year but i'll be so not looking forward to becoming year 2. and and and i reaallyyyy wish i can have another week of holiday. just oneeeeeeeee moreeeee weekkkk and i'll be more than happy. i want to go to the thai runway show thingy at vivo because i heard there are niceeey stuff. but sadly its over tomorrow.
RAWR ! :@ its alright, shermaine shall save money you know, spending way too much already (:

today woke up late, but there's no dg. went for breakfast at kap with the dg. (:
ate hashbrown and sausage only. super nice with maple syrup ! :)))))))) i feel like eating it now.
anything with maple syrup is nice i guess. practically stoning and doing nothing while waiting for andrea. and stupid girl, you came and didnt eat. then we continued stoning and then bused back to church and continue slacking till service starts. sermon was rather erm mind thinking? cause i've always asked myself that question. like i'm born in a christian family and all and you just take everything for granted like going to church and everything. and its so tough for another person who is not from a christian family to go to church because you have to make a point to do so. and your parents/family doesnt go with you. and maybe one day you will find it a chore or something. but still i dont know why i rather not be in a christian family so maybe i can see the difference an experience a great change in my life. not like being a christian since you were born stops you from experiencing that change but then . . i dont know how to explain, its so different. like i'd said, you take God for granted sometimes you forget He's there. and yeah, you just dont bother/feel like taking a step closer to Him to know Him more? i've been a rather bad christian(i know) like i've not done quiet time in like i dont even remember when is the last time i did. but thats rather bad. i just so hooked on to everything else and sometimes i feel so so guilty but i still continue my ways. i feel so badddddd. urgh ! i need to find my way back to God which will take some time because i guess now i'm thinking and doubting so much. i feel quite lost. i just dont know why i'm feeling that way but i find everything so meaningless now.

i think i should stop here. the post for what i did today become this chunk of words.
i feel like staying up all night but i know i cant, or else i'll be super dead in school tomorrow. and i cant afford to be because i need to use alot of brain cells tomorrow or else i'll be slacking ?
i dont feel sleepy at all because i slept this afternoon (: finally get to see my class again tomorrow which i havent seen the whole holiday. because of lack of manpower in planning outings and lack of responses. sigh [: the lack of ability to blog became the maximum ability to blog.
shall stop here, bye ♥
xoxoxoxo

time: 10.57pm

whole lot of crap.million letters :)

A thousand words, A million letters.

i'm home alone. everyone's out. i'm supposed to be out but due to unfortunate events that have to happen, plans are cancelled :( i'm also kind of lazy to go out. and right now, i'm starving at home with no food to eat. i'll only eat till i see you and please reply my message now cause i'm ultra super bored ! :@ :( you know i have nothing to do online. i dont know how people can stay online with so many things to do. i have n-o-t-h-i-n-g. i just blog or bloghop and visit people's blog repeatedly(now you know why you have tons of visits) or maybe online shop and look at stuff. unless i have like something to research and look for online or maybe watch some video/show which i apparently find it boring too. so i guess nothing is able to please me. except talking to you? and what for i online window shop and stare at all those beautiful stuff which i'll never be able to get unless you donate some money to me right ? :) and right now i want to continue blogging for one whole long page so you will get sick of reading all these small tiny words which you are straining your eyes to see unless you are smart to copy it to somewhere else cause i'm really really bored and i dont know what to do except blog this nonsense for people to read which is what i enjoy doing by reading other people nonsensical stuff or maybe sometimes it arent nonsensical but make some sense. and i dont know why i love doing that cause i told you i'm super bored and i have nothing to do online with a damn laptop. and when school starts i have more than everything to do but on the other hand its so not true cause its the same in school. you just open the microsoft word or powerpoint and end up doing other stuff like what i'm doing now cause its really boring. ya, school gets boring sometimes cause you do the same thing everyday. you must be thinking how lucky i am with no projects and stuff but at least those keep you occupied or maybe a bit more busy. i still rather stick with my life of presentations and nonstop participation which is ----- no idea what to put in. its still much more relax but at times you get tensed up because you have no complete your work/ppt or whatsoever and you have people who dont help at all. how bad could that be. and you get so stressed up for nothing.omg. :) i'm left with one more day of relaxation except the weekends. with eight more weeks of school till the next holiday which is only 3 weeks then i guess it will be sem 2 soon? wow, time really pass really really fast before you know it, it'll be 2009 and year 2 horror starts. amazing ! :D so amazing yeah ? the years passes super fast. like one week passes fast enough and it adds up to one month then the month adds up to one who year. okay, i'm really talking nonsense here seriously. anyway, i cant wait till next saturday. surprise surprise.
okay, not only that day i will be happy but seriously everyday i'm happy. just that i hate school days seriously cause meeting you will be a rush, eating will be a rush and everything will be so rush and hectic. i hate it alot. i hate school, you monster! :( oh yeah, there's still something called GE(guitar essemble) which i almost forgot. yay, that means more time with you. :)))))

okay, i just realised i blogged this whole lot of crap.
and thank you for reading my whole lot of crap cause its just random thoughts i just thought of ?
thats all. bye.
i'm heart is hurting because you're in pain. :(

bugis day with cc (: LOVE.

Bugis day.

bugis is boring, but its the company that makes it all worthwhile :)
and plus i got my sandals and lots of accessories (: thank you cc.
went to bras brasah to browse at books and to popular to see more books.
hahaha, so interesting right. i love the cat cubic small mini book i saw.
cause its so tiny and thick and it has alot of cat pictures + information. which is so cute cause the words are ultra small also. i'm not really a cat freak(just because i have a cat). i love dogs too (:
got pretty tired and we took a sit at some bench. and this 2 people from sp asked to do a survey on western seafood restaurant and there are so many questions -.-
walked back to bugis junction looking for a toilet, then trained to marina bay then home :)
and i slept soundly the whole journey. i know nothing about the surroundings and who is even standing infront of me. i hope i dint do any stupid stuff like open my mouth widely. 0.0
my back was aching when i woke up cause i was leaning on one side, obviously. (hehe)

holidays are coming to an end.
thanks for making the holiday so worthwhile, i get to spend time with you every single day.
-big smile- i love my life right now, even though school starts, i still get to see you. (:

and people, just because i have a tagboard, please do not spam unneccessary stuff please. and ask nonsensical questions. or i'll smack your head, take away the tagboard and i promise i'll lock this blog. you can read, but not comment. so if you want to comment, please comment to yourself. and not tell everyone or me. get this into your head.

nothing's gonna change my love for you. <3 love.

Cause i'd never had a dream come true, till the day that i'd found you.

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

perfect time, perfect place, perfect food, perfect talks, perfect love, perfect smiles, perfect pictures.
you make my heart beat faster. and faster, i'll never lose this feeling.

♥
9 days.

i'm becoming a glutton.
i can only think of kakiage and sushi. and i keep eating nonstop.
i feel like eating dumplings now and tomyam noodles. :)

i stayed at home for once the whole day today.
used the comp and napped in the afternoon and end up not going out for that short while to see you. didnt go for the gathering too because of some reason (: and. i cant believe holidays are gonna end, i really cant. i dont see myself stepping into school once again and the whole system repeats again. :@ i still really want to enjoy. enjoy. enjoy. :D good thing i received the ibanking thing or else i wouldnt know what to do. haha, i know you may laugh at me for being a dumb ass who doesnt know anything. boo! and cant wait for sakae dinner tomorrow with you and i hope it wont be false hope :)

its driving me crazy out of your sight.
.uoyssim

kungfu panda. savemyhair. :(

Save the Earth, Save my Hair !

i'm suffering from major hairloss. i drop 10 strands per second. or more than that.
i cant help it, i dont know why my hair drops alot. i'm sad. i cant stand strands of hair everywhere. just brushing my fingers through, i lost 10 strands. :(

i think my blog's really boring. really nothing to blog about. but people still come here to read my nonsensical crap which is somehow interesting right, cause i love to do that too (:
finally watched a movie today after a zillion months. kungfu panda !
cartoon's not my type of movie but i still watch it. and it wasnt that bad, quite funny. (if the show can make me laugh its considered good,cause i have little reaction).
got so irritated by those boys behind cause they laugh so loud even though its like so not funny at all ? >.<>
yeap. walk around. went foodcourt to get chinese tea and in the end ate yong tau foo there.
then went home (: i'm sorry for ignoring and being stubborn all the time. [:
i went out with sore eyes(i know i'm bad) but its alright now. (:

i cant believe holiday's gonna end. you know how sad is that. i want to play and slack more. i dont want to go back to school. i have not studied anything which i dont really care. :\ i've been eating like alot. i've gaining weight which i'm supposed too. :( tomorrow 4/4 gathering at seoul garden so its eating againnnnnnn. i'm kind of lazy to go. roar! still thinking what i should do in the morning/afternoon. i've been out every single day.

boo.
i love you.
bye (:

bugis bugis.

i'm pretty bored.
i dont know how, but so many people know my blog already.
and just after i opened it ? haha (:

went bugis today. and i shopped alone.
cause c and her friends went national library to study. but in the end they didnt cause there werent any space. they went bras basah to get books.
shopped at bugis street and super crowded. hate crowds. plus i was walking round and round like the whole thing doesnt end. or maybe i couldnt find my way out. i'm just surrounded with shops from all sides. [: got pretty bored. bought a watch and earrings only.
and i saw a sandal which is nice and i want to get it (: but not yet.
another day. met them at bras basah and looked at music stuff. i want to get the guitar tuner but the clip ones are like 100 plus. so ex. someone buy for me okay. haha (: my guitar is untuned.
:(

went back bugis junction got food again. super pork. (: then trained to raffles place then to marina bay then trained home (: super tired, and slept almost all the way.
went to get bubbletea, sushi and home :D

saw this real leather bagpack at bugis and its super nice. but it cost 142.
someone just buy for me. i wish money drops infront of me everyday.
i wish i have all the money i want which is never ending. :D
rawr, i really wish i have all the money now to buy whatever i want now. so i do not have to think and think whether i should get it or not and to save money. urgh ! :@
so irritating. i dont know what i will be doing tomorrow. i'm kinda lazy and tired to go anywhere far. but i want to catch a movie tomorrow plus eat ! :) i think food takes up alot of cash.
i'm spending a bomb. decided not to buy that bag online and give it to prislala. (:

i havent finish shopping, walk so little today. thats why i dont like bugis. so difficult to get stuff.
and i miss shandy, i wonder if she's back or what. if you see this text me or something okay. your present still with me, hope you can go for the gathering this wed. i hope its still on ?

okay, bye.

second post. candle light dinner downstairs. mao!

i forgot to blog the smartest thing shermine corn did today.
while signing up for ibanking online, which i finally knew how to.
and then, after like filling up everything. they gave me my id thingy to log in. suddenly i click something else without saving the id shit.
and poof. there goes my log in id thing. and bye, i do not need to log in already.
so smart right. the smartest kid on earth. i just hope they send me the id.
or else i will go through a whole lot of trouble to get it changed.
dang.

second post.

had dinner just now downstairs with brother and sister.
accompanied with candles/wine/two cats.
parents came down and family talk (:
from 7 plus to 9 plus. mosquitos were feeding on me too.
and watching 2 cats play and run around, so cute.
they had candle light dinner downstairs too (:
super cute. <3

i want to eat ! :D



my dinner (:

yummm.



you see prislala smsing during service.

i bet she wont see this.


and and and.
i want to see you now ! :(
misses like crazy. i want to go shopping not online shopping.
and do all i want in this last week of holiday i have. so sad :(
and please please please i need to watch a movie.

4/4 gathering this wednesday. super long never see them.
hopefully most can go (: (: (:

everything does not involve only yourself, its the community and the people.
ya i know, i should not be so self-centered. i know i'm a fish monger.
i think i got more than this to blog, but i cant think now.

so fun bickering with you. hahahahahaha :D
-big smile-

i hate death. :@ rarr

I think this picture's damn cute (:
super loving. ♥



whole of GEnRe.



Started out the morning with breakfast at ahmei @ railmall.
the traditional ice milktea really sucks cause it taste so damn wierd, not like normal ones.
then we talk and talk. headed back to church for service. i'm finding everything so meaningless now. i dont know why. why on earth must my brain think this way. UGH.
:@ it will be so much better if everyone's brain function in the same formulae (:

went cwp with daddy after church and ate the disgusting sick ljs.
really make me sick of it cause everything taste the same ! [: waited for the damn bus for so damn freaking long. :@ then finally home, talked on the phone and went to sleep for awhile.
wanted to sleep longer but then, i just woke up thinking of alot of things. i wonder if i really did sleep or all the while i was actually thinking ? or was i dreaming ? no idea, cause i just slept for like 1 hour. i wanted to go back to sleep but i really cant.
dont talk to me about death.funerals.coffins.or anything related to that. cause i really think about it the whole day. i cannot stand my brain. i need to keep myself occupied.
last time, i used to think about death every night before i sleep. and i cry till i sleep.
i hate it. i'm very scared. i'm scared anything happens. sigh :(
its inevitable. gone like that.
treasure the times spent with your parents/family/friends.
your parents may not be there for you forever.
i know i sound so ---- in all these post.

i hope i wont think about it tonight before i sleep.
my stomach is hurting like f now. i want to cry.
bye.

Life is too short. sunbeam home(:

Life is too short to create anger, treasure your love ones.

the whole time today before going to sunbeam, i was thinking about death.
how life is so short after hearing that my neighbour passed away.
like any second, any minute you may be gone from the world?
yet you do not know where you will go after you die. its really sad.
i wish i do not have to die, or any of my love ones will die.
the blow is so hard to take, to be gone suddenly. too hard.

then again at sunbeam home, i began to think why such innocent kids must be brought to this world yet have a unpleasant childhood. i wish i could have their innocent minds, not needing to think or worry about anything. do they even think or miss their mummy and daddy. i feel sad that they dont even get to experience any love from their family. :(
yet each kid is being put there because of a unpleasant family/background they had. they are so contented, so hyper + happy. it because of their innocent minds, they do not know anything.
i think, if i'm being put there at this moment, i wouldnt be able to swallow it, how i miss my home, the love from the family, and everything i have now. its so much like camp, just that you stay there everyday of your life. i think i will cry everyday if i'm there.
but yeah, they are just.kids. kids aged below 12?

anyway, i really enjoyed myself there playing games with the kids although they are so hyper active running all around and not listening. but they are so adorable. how they hug you wanting you to be with them, and saying i look like a boy(wtf?). their smiles on their faces really bring joy. their faces dont even spell the word 'i'm abused' ? they are extremely cute and funny (:
i bet they miss us :) i wouldnt mind going back there again ! :D
everything ended at 6pm and they brought us back to church, and i took a bus home (:

i want to watch narnia! yet someone is watching it now :(
i'm so sad. -hmph emoticon-

badminton day with j and c. (:

Love you like you Love me.

why online so many gorgeous things but you dont see them in reality.
singapore should just have more nice stuff so people do not need to online shop.
idiots. :@


good thing my arm isnt aching that much now. played badminton this morning with c and j (:
book the court last minute. we played for less than an hour and all super tired already.
my arm aching then. :( went for a jog one round the stadium. then came my house to change then go eat at the coffee shop (: wanted to watch movie at cwp but was super crowded. and the show already started -.- no movie again ! when will we ever watch ! :@ :(

went to mac and ate onion rings, spicy nugget (super spicy!) and greentea mcflurry.
Porks. eat so much. :))) then to J house to play guitar/drums/violin (:
left at 4 plus and went home (: okay, my day is so boring but fun with them :D
tomorrow going to the home for deliquent children in the afternoon.
and be there till evening :( i'm feeling lazy. sigh :(

just watched 2 episodes of ANTM. super bored !
i feel like eating now, but my ulcer hurts so much :(

okay. got nothing to blog.
good. night. :)

grocery shopping for sunbeam :)

Grocery Shopping.

mozilla sucks. i uploaded the pictures first and now i cant even move them to where i want. stupid ! :@ nevermind. the above pictures are from the ge camp (group photo is guitar 1) and grocery shopping today at imm. look at the amount of groceries we bought, 7 trolleys ! :)
only prislala me and aunty laiwah went. but still, we manage to shop for everything ! :)
yay. it was super fun shoving like the whole shelf of food into the trolleys. bought super alot of stuff for the sunbeam home this saturday. like one year supply. crazy ! total bill was 1100 plus. and obviously there's delivery or we will die carrying those stuff, its impossible anyway. 100kg of rice ? crazy ! :\

settled everything and went off to eat at some pasta place. not bad, so much cheaper than pasta mania ! :) ate baked rice and i couldnt finish, super full :( walk a little, then walk back to je station and took train back to woodlands :D

i slept the afternoon away again, and the weather super nice to sleep. :))))
finally did my rj for ge, super crappy nonsense rj complaining all the way on how bad the camp was. muti-tasking > chatting, rj, dling ANTM cycle 10 so it would be easier to watch, and blogging. i want to watch movie. movie. movie tomorrow. and i want to eat mcflurry. didnt get to eat today cause super full after lunch :) and my ulcer hurts alot at my gums and tongue :(
sigh. one week of holiday almost gone just like that. :( thinking what to do next week.
havent studied for science ut yet, gonna fail ! :@
i dont feel like going back to school again. roar ! :(

shall stop here.
goodnight.
xoxoxo

back from ge camp. 4june2008.

Home Sweet Home (:


bed time :D

BBQ.







finally back from camp, you know how much i love being home but i so dont love coming home now cause its pissing me off. i wish i had stayed in camp forever. and i somehow hate holidays. so actually was and was not looking forward towards holiday. almost one week of holiday gone just like that, all thanks to GE camp.





i shall not ever say anything about camp, cause its super boring.
but with JS, obviously crap like crap. and laugh till you cry.
our group forever late for everything. the practice super boring playing same thing.
i'm in guitar 1-melody. the main out of everything, quite fun but still. . .
no comments. games super lame. food still edible.
first night, went CC house to bathe, instead of school. so funny :D
then we were late in returning back, everybody always waiting for us. so embarrasing. -.-
2nd night, had bbq and the food much better. :) this time bathed in sports complex cause late already. hahaha ((((:
chat the night away and slept at 1am plus? both nights manage to sleep thru despite the super hard wooden floor. -.- back ache ! :(

today, went to second house and slept immediately, super tired although i manage to sleep for 2 nights. camp always like that. >.<



tomorrow going imm grocery shopping for the sunbeam home on sunday.
:) have to wake up early. super tired ! :(
i feel like eating onion rings and greentea mcflurry ! :D



i feel sad, everything i bought online either dont have or OOS.
:( but i received one package :) happy ! :)
there's nothing else i like frm the website. refund money ?
i think that's better. no urge to online shop anymore. ((((:



thats all.
goodbye.
xxxxxxx

before ge camp. 1june2008.

Hello June (:

i'm packing for camp last minute. i cant even think what i should bring and what i should not.
:( hate last minute but i'm packing in the last minute. stupid ! :@
just dont feel like going for camp now :( urgh. really @U$@($I@!_)Q i just hope they dont seperate us, or i'll leave immediately.
why is blogger being like microsoft word now underlining your errors -.-

okay, i shall stop complaining.

couldnt wake up this morning for church! slept late what. (((:
had combined service and always super sleepy. half way, blackout.
-silence-
-laughs-

okay, i find it so funny to have a blackout. everyone just kept quiet at that moment.
after awhile, the lights came back :D after that went for refreshments and ate :)
roamed around aimlessly with nothing to do. then decided to go back woodlands.
then over to my second home. then i slept the afternoon away not wanting to wake up cause super super tired. i had a stupid dream. and part of it was falling into the swimming pool with my hp in my pocket twice but my hp was perfectly alright. how stupid.

you know how much i wish i do not need to go for camp :(
you know how much i do not want to go because its wasting 3 days of my holidays away.
hate them ! :@ :(
. . . . .

i hope it will be fun seriously, if not sure die.
i'm going to bring lots of food there to eat and enjoy. grow fat ! :)))
i feel like eating icecream and food now. :)

shall sleep soon. cant wait to eat breakfast tomorrow. HAHA :D
goodnightttt. this will be my last post till i come back from camp.
i will miss my laptop. i wish i can bring along, but i think its best i dont.
afraid get stolen :( sad sad.

bye.
addicted to downloading youtube mv.