i dont know how my money flew away like in one day. ):
but nevertheless, i enjoyed my day.
good lunch + hoodie + movie .(:
hehehe.
the pasta de waraku restaurant ; pasta and pizza at marina square is really nice.
ratatouille movie is so cute and nice . hehehe
i'm relaxing so much after prelims. but i just have to remember everything's not over.
sigh ): i have to continue studying next week. ugh -
i shall make myself happy and relaxed now but not touching my books.
hehehe.
i'm so excited for tomorrow. to the zoo !
hahahaha. i want to see all the animals and the shows. omg, i'm dying.
i'm crazy. its been so long since i last went to the zoo.
YAY. :D
hopefully the weather's good tomorrow. i pray it doesnt rain.
wheeeeeeeeeee.

okay thats enough excitement.
hmm. i've yet to pack my table and there's like stacks of books and papers everywhere.
i cant take the mess but i'm so lazy to pack. cause i dont know where to start from.
its like 7 subjects of stuff stacked together. another big problem.
why on earth do i have so many damn books just for o level.
i'm glad prelim's finally over. thats a big problem off me. but not forgetting i still have o lvls.
argh. and i think i'm gonna do badly for prelim. chemistry today was sort of okay.
but i doubt i will pass if ms devi marks it. hahah
social studies was shit too. lucky the chapter i studied came out. but i couldnt remember anything so i was talking shit. emath paper 2 was alright. i hope to at least pass of course.
thats all (:

i'm off to bed.
GOODNIGHT.

i'm gonna be stuck on the comp again. thanks to my brother who happily allowed me to use and went off to watch superstar. and i must have discipline to get off later.
cause i still have to mug for physics and geography on monday.
sigh ):
i dont know why but i dont feel that scared for prelims now. maybe amath is over.
haha. and i've studied alot. (: but i'm dead for social studies cause i've yet started a wee bit.
all the best to me. :D

anyway the past week was prelims, started on wednesday.
i dont know when will i ever have the time to blog . [:
english paper was alright. but i think i screwed up paper 2, i always do anyway.
cause i cant seem to do comprehensions or summary ):
chinese paper was shit. i didnt feel like doing. felt damn bored.
so i was like taking my time to write my letter and essay. and felt they gave me too much time.
i know thats stupid. i was writing shit for my compo. i have no ideas in mind. hehehe
amath paper 1 was quite easy to say. for the first time in my life i could do trigo. -claps (:
friday was amath paper 2. and i knew it was gonna be damn difficult cause paper 1 was easy.
my prediction was so true. i couldnt do so many things. i regretted not studying harder.
pfftttt. but i'm glad its all over. although i think i would fail. i hope not so badly this time.
heehehehe (:

feeling like crap. i cant wait for prelims to be over. and all the more o levels.
ugh ! i just feel like enjoying now when i cant. and it feels like i havent gone out for so long except home and school. so tomorrow will be going to church (: YAY.
i have to revise my physics and geog again and again. i dont want to fail. omg.
i hate to see all the shit results. its just so demoralising. plus everyone will look down on me.
i'm sucha failure. right ?
& i still dont know what i want in life. life's like shit.
after olevels, i dont feel like studying anymore. but what can i do.
so many dreams, yet so little hope.
confused >:

hmm. i cant wait for dinner. bbq food. i'm hungry (:
but i'm gonna gain more fats. although i want to gain weight, i dont want fats !
ahhh. nevermind, sit ups everyday. hehehe
i miss going swimming. the damn swimming pool is yet ready after so freaking long.
i feel like doing so many many things but now isnt the time.
i finally touched the piano after so long, i miss ):
time
time
time
is all i need ! rawr !

XOXOXO
goodbyeeeeeee.

i've stayed at home for the weekend. like 2 whole days at Home !
just plain staring at my books. omg i'm going crazy soon.
into depress mood. ):
felt really bad for not going to church.
go so pissed when parents keep asking. felt damn irritated.
but i know its my fault. i just want to study. UGH
i feel so scared for prelims. i have phobia of last minute studying thats why i'm studying today.
and the whole day. anyway i did amath today only. i've yet to finish.
sigh [: i'm so slowwwwww. i still have so many many subjects to study.
i feel like dying. soon, i will have lost my senses. and maybe sleep 5hours a day.
o levels seriously turns my life around.
one more thing; i must pass my amath. i want to pass at least !
yeap. i'm going to lock myself in the room and do more amath later.
plus practice my english oral. i'm so nervous for tomorrow.
but i want to make myself confident. but still i will be shivering tomorrow.
i hate the feeling. why cant i not be nervous or something. it just spoils everything.
blahblah.

goodbye (:
i heart you

finally changed blogskins without complications (:
i dont know why i'm here when i'm supposed to be studying.
heheh
i'm so scared for english oral on monday. i keep dreaming about oral last night
i better practice later. i dont want to fail :D
i must drill all the amath into my head.

hmm. woke up at 8 plus today. wanted to wake up 6am to study but couldnt
did physics just now. still in the midst of arranging my tys answers.
its all over the place. so messy [:
i've yet to start on amath. whats my timetable for today ?
hahahaha.

still, i'm gonna study the whole of today. and tomorrow.
i'm so scared of prelims. HORROR !
goodbye, gonna eat soon and study.

&hearts

I can't believe the way
Your love has got a hold on me
Each morning I wake to find You near
You lift me above my feet and set my feet on solid ground
All of my days belong to You

And I breathe in Your breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire
And I stand here before You in wide-opened wonder
Amazed, at the glory of You
The power of Heaven revealing your purpose in me
As I'm reaching for You

i'm traumatised. again and again. sigh
and i skipped school today. :D
i must do amath the whole night. i cant believe next week is amath prelim.
[:
i hope it wont be the same as last night when i slept with the light on after studying.
hehehe. and i woke up from a nightmare. ahhh
i was so scared + sad ): and i called someone at 4 am in the morning.
i'm sorry to have woke you up. then went back to sleep till 8 plus.
woke up and cook egg (:
and i end up slacking again. did some stupid amath. tonight i must continue.
i cannot sleep. i dont feel like going to school tomorrow. ugh
most of them are having oral tomorrow. all the best (:
and mine's on monday. i'm so dead. i cant fail english ):
heehee.

somehow i wish i wasnt born this way. why must i keep everything to myself.
and i cant let go. yet only through tears. making my parents so upset and all.
its all my fault, i hate it. i rather die so i do not need to take o levels right.
stupid shit. i know there's still a chance for me, but still i have to face up to reality.
i cant keep deceiving myself when i know the truth.
i know i mustn't give up at this time. i'm so sick and tired of everything.
yet still pushing myself over again. i dont want everything to repeat.
): maybe miracles will happen and i'll score well ? yet its still by my own effort.
sigh . i just wonder if dreams really come true. as in goals in life.
sometimes i think that there's no point. you will keep changing your goals, wants and whatevernot. as you grow older, you may not want what you want now.
thats kinda dumb but nevermind, dont want to say anymore.
just feel that i'm a bad kid. feel that i've made my parents disappointed in me.
i know i'm selfish and being really bad. i just feel so stress i dont want anyone to irritate or agitate me anymore. i know i'm being so self-centered, but please let me be for now.
sorry, but i feel so easily pissed off now.
argh i hate it.



GOODBYE.
XOXOXO

overdued pictures. baking session (:


Clinic ; the 2 nicest pic

sophie's cute rabbit.

shandy's chocolate chips. yum

butter with sugar?

looks gross

mixing

birthday girl having nothing to do.

chocolate mixture

mixing (:

after pouring.

applying butter.

shandy has dirty hands

the outcome. doesnt look nice but taste yummy (: ( actually the bottom of the cake. the top part was burnt )

shuyue making her wish.

cutting the cake :D

shandy's successful outcome of cookies.

omg. the damn comp keep hanging whenever i want to post my pictures.
what shit la. now i have to blog all over again. pffftt !
no mood already.
):

anyway woke up damn early for chemistry and physics lesson today.
was damn bored cause it was practical only.
i have prelim physics practical exam + chinese o level results on monday.
i'm so damn scared. i know i will do badly ): i dont know how to let my parents know.
i bet they dont even know i take o level exam. HAHA (:
i'm bored. someone isnt talking to me online, surely watching tv.
i shall sleep early cause i'm bored. my favourite hobby.
mhmm. didnt study today again. dont feel like. what excuse right. AHH
i better start. i cant believe i'm taking prelims in 2 weeks time ?
thats so great . heheheh.
time flies so fast. i just realised its August already. soon will be O levels,
and school will be over. how boring [:
yeah, english oral will be coming soon. sigh
i hate everything. i hope everything will be alright.
carmen, i hope to see you soon ):
AHHHH
i feel that what i blog always doesnt link at all. so random.
okay nevermind. i'm going off. GOODNIGHT :D
Love ,
XOXOXO

no matter how it may seem
i'll be there for you .

HAPPYHAPPY
HAPPYHAPPY.

(:

heeheehee.

kachang love (:

baking process :D

Clinic (:

SCREW blogger friendster and the whole internet.
today's not my day. everything doesnt want to work.
UGH.
and i have to post another time. damn
[:

anyway. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUYUE (:
its past 12am. and i'm not sleeping. hope i can wake up tomorrow.
sorry Clinic, will get the photos loaded asap.
heehee :D

i'm so glad next week is relaxed.
and time for me to mug harded for prelims and o level.
i cant believe prelims are in 2 weeks time ? OMG.
and practical is next next week. i'm so dead.
i dont want to know my chinese o level results too.
the longer the better. i dont feel like retaking but i have to .
that sucks. UGH!
ahh i'm so tired of studying. i wish everything will stop.
pfffttt.

hmm.
somethings you said are too much,
-rolls eyes.
was damn pissed before i went out. thanks to Clinic for FUN. (:
i rather not remember those words.

alright. i'm off.
GOODBYE.
XOXO

blogging again.
went to school in the morning for physics mock exam.
i thought it started at 8.30 so i rushed. and realised it only starts at 9.
nevermind, still got time to study.
and i think all my studying gone to waste.
the paper was like so difficult. esp paper 2. couldnt do at first.
i felt like giving up. all the things i studied didnt come out. SCREW !
so nevermind.

went to canteen for paper 1. did in less than a hour. cause i was rushing to go off.
heehee. :D paper was alright. then went home.
changed and went out at 1 plus.
waited for part of clinic at the mrt station for like half an hour.
now i know they are late comers, i wont go so early next time. (:
only sheena,shuyue,wanshin and me went. sophie was sick ):
so went to orchard, fareast to look for wanda's present.
walk for damn long. finally got it (:
then they went to eat. and we walked to heeren. walked around.
i left at 5 plus to grandma house, they stayed.
had dinner at grandma's house. and i was so damn bored, just stoned there.
drank some blue french vodka with cocktail. nice (: but i dont feel sleepy now.
cause computer is FOOD. hehe :D
i'm gonna load Clinic pictures anyway.
they are dying for them, right ?

okay. GOODBYE.
XOXOXO

alright, this week has been boring.
and tiring, i have lack of sleep ): but life still have to go on
sigh.

today was baking day.
seems like i was going to baking school bringing all the stuff.
good thing chemistry and amath didnt spoil our baking plan for shuyue's birthday cake (:
maybe they wanted us to bake so they cancelled everything.
i was all prepared to run away when the bell rang, with shandy.
and ms devi came in to say that lesson was postponed.
i thought she wanted to teach, and i was dying to run so badly.
HAHA. evil [:

anyway, went to get the ingredients. 9 of us- illegal gathering.
went to sophie's house to eat then bake.
shandy baked her mum's cookies and the first batch was burnt.
the whole house stinked. hehe :D
our chocolate cake was no better . no one checked on it for the whole time it was in the oven. i just said put in for 45 minutes and we literally left it inside for 45 minutes.
till we open, and the top was nicely burnt.
really nice. haha.
but still, the cake was really nice. only the top was burnt so the rest could be eaten.
took pictures and ate the cake immediately which was supposedly for tomorrow.
it was just too tempting. heehee :D
played and joked around. sophie's rabbit is so cute ! so sad it cant be carried.
what a tiring day.
and i have physics mock tomorrow, full paper.
guess how dead i am. i only start studying at 9 plus. i cant finish everything in one day.
i hate last minute studying . always piss me off when i cant finish.
i end up giving up and going to sleep. damn.
and i'm all so tempted to sleep now. thinking that i can wake up tomorrow to continue.
but that doesnt work for me apparently. (:
so, i'm all ready to fail, unless the paper's really easy then maybe i'll pass.
hahahaha.
thinking what to do tomorrow.
UGH.

i'm so tired,stress out and dying.
i cant wait for everything to be over.
sucks.

i'll miss Clinic. hehe :D
more successful baking next time.
photos next time. i'm so lazy to load them i dont have time.
sorry. i'll send you girls.

goodbye.
XOXO