i dont want school to start.
i hate it ):
sigh.
going to school means more mugging starts. argh !
i know i've not been doing much during the holidays. but at least i studied a little.
(: most of the time actually slacking, practically doing nothing or going out.
and i still have school this week, which sucks.
@#)($##%*^&()*!@

when school reopens i have no time to do anything else.
i'm so afraid i just neglect everyone, my friends ; everybody.
and i woke up at 5am this morning tearing.
i dont know why. i'm so scared. scared of everything ):
anyway enjoyed myself yesterday at the bbq although i didnt know anyone.
went home at almost 11. damn tired.
woke up late for church. lucky i didnt have class. so walked around till 11 plus and went for service. and now, i'm at someone's house (:
i hate o levels.
its a sucker. ):

XOXOXO.
lots of love ;
GOODBYE [:

i want to change my blogskin, but i'm so lazy.
and i seem to have lost all my photos in friendster and everywhere.
pffffttt. that sucks.
i post all my photos up hoping that one day i can retrieve them somehow.
i dont know when will i ever do that. when i get my own laptop ?
i have to wait for months.
and by then, i'll be super lazy to go dig them all out.
damn.



life's a bugger.
if only dreams are reality
if only i wasnt like this
if only parents werent such a nag
if only i can do whatever i want
if only i can shop all day
if only i can not study
if only i can turn back time or maybe fast forward time
if only i can have my own house, my own pet
if only i can fulfil my dream right now.

but that is .
IF ONLY
>:

been like so long since i last post again.
and everything's over.
chinese Os are over. lessons are over.
holiday time.
and i feel extremely lazy to do any of my work.
i cant fulfill my plan. ): i only did like less than half of my homework.
not including studying. shit . i feel so lost , so dead.
i'm scared. sigh [:
practically slacking and enjoying myself the whole week.
with a little work done. (: and i only have 2 more weeks of holiday.
damn. i hate it. i feel like dying. i dont feel like studying anymore.
it feels like this is not what i want in life. i dont know what i want.
UGH ! :\ there's something pulling me down.
okay nevermind.

i did nothing today.
oh i packed my room and i found money.
yay . the time when i need it most. i found it. (:
i can go shopping soon. and next week i must finish up all my work.
i hope this week will be more productive and exciting . :D

XOXOXO
GOODBYE.